I worked too many hours … so I only have one day left … they want me Friday. This was a weird week. I worked all those hours.

So I get tomorrow off again!! Woo hoo!! Check me out with time off!! Although not a lot to do. I didn’t plan on time off… so I hurried and got everything done on Monday. Where am I gonna go? Lol

I work on Friday and through next week. Friday through Monday and then one day at will, when needed.

I grocery shopped tonight… I pick it up tomorrow. I really love not having to go in…

One thing I notice more shopping online – is the packaging of items… there is a lot of waste!! Carton things for fruits or boxes of dry goods … drinks come in boxes. Lots and lots of packaging waste!!

I am trying to make my trash little – but that doesn’t help me any!! It’s a annoying. I have been trying to challenge self with how have little trash… then the way companies package things completely ruins my challenge 🤨

The coyotes are out tonight 😮 they sound close 😳 they always freak me out – cause it’s like a bunch of screaming and howling! Sounds creepy

That app on my phone that asks me questions … asked me today what the last movie I saw in theaters was 🤨 it asks a lot of questions sometimes that were pre-Covid lol … that makes me feel like it’s a smart ass lol

Anyway… the last movie I saw in theaters – I think was “Sonic” with the kids. Right before Covid happened – 2 weeks later we were shut down. That was a memory – thanks phone lol

Sometimes my phone does things on its own … without any app… lately it has been saying things like … oh look you have memories 🤨 …

So I look and then it’s memories of all my cancer stuff and pics in the hospital 🤨 I would like to keep the pics but not be reminded – I don’t even know why it’s doing that all of the sudden 🤨

I have the medical photos of my journey – those I don’t mind too much… some of them make me cringe but only because I remember those moments. Some of the photos are very severe.

I use those to help others. Like a walk through. It helped me when others did that, so I do it too. You can see what you up against and what’s going to happen.

The photos my phone is reminding me of are those AND other ones 🤨 the ones I don’t want to see. I keep them because was a moment in time. Part of my story. Part of my life. – but don’t show me them like that!!

How do you even turn that feature off? When I used Facebook it used to remind me of all of it… when I had appointments – all the things I wrote, what was happening, what I felt- I can’t do those memories. I don’t go on Facebook so I don’t worry about those – but now my phone is doing it with the photos

I’ll be all happy and bubbly and it says oh you have memories 🤨 and shows me those… can I mark the ones that are ok for memories? lol not all of them are.

It will also put together slide shows with music for me when I didn’t ask for that or want that! Weird… very very weird!

Anyway. So day off again. Lol ok – I feel like I did with the shut down lol … not sure what to do. I did everything already!

Alright well good night 😘✌️

My little grumpy old man is out of surgery!!

Lol… I asked him how everything went … at first he grumbles “awful” 😄😄

He says… they did it way different than last time and had grips holding his eye open.

He just went on and on. Kinda grumbling about the whole thing lol

I said “well last time was years ago, maybe just the technology is better now… different but better? Time will tell”

I asked if he can see?

He said …well I’m supposed to keep the eye covering on, but no I can’t see. 🤨

I asked “did you take the eye covering off? Are you supposed to be wearing that?”

He says yeah 🤨

Ugh lol… I told him “put that back on!!! You don’t want to damage what they just did! You do not want to go through this again! Put that back on” lol

He said he already did 🤨 but I don’t know… he is a strong willed little old man lol – thinks he’s all tough… he really doesn’t listen lol … I hope he did though

I told him to go take a nap, he has to go back to doctors tmrw for them to check it. Early early in the morning.

I think he will nap 😴… that is something I think he will listen to.

I’m not sure if they gave him a sedative or not… or pain meds? But he was funny … after things like that people get sentimental even if they usually aren’t

He was just saying some very sweet kind things – like sentimental type… thank you for being there, are a good friend etc etc – he went on for a little bit

That was really sweet though ❤️

He is always very sweet to me… but he’s also a tough grumpy little old man lol – highly opinionated lol … he is always very sweet and kind to “ME”… but is usually not sentimental like that lol

Anyway, I be fixing a fence shortly – or at least attempting lol 💪

I asked her … how come you don’t ask a man neighbor who has muscles lol… cause I don’t know how much help I can be – but I can certainly try… I’m just really limited.

She said because she doesn’t know them (I don’t either) lol … we are a good team… kinda like a comedy team but whatever lol – should be interesting

We planted trees back in spring – that went well … so far they are still standing lol

Ok I’ll be back at some point

You may have heard many of these stories before but whatever ✌️ they lead to something …

When I was little … I was a REALLY quiet shy child. Kind of clung to my mother ❤️ I was very quiet and mostly only wanted her (unless my grandparents were around, cause I got anything I wanted with them ❤️ I was their golden child) They were very awesome and very good to me!! I had the best time with them… they spent so much time with me… I was not shy or quiet with them. ❤️ I was like their little puppy dog lol… I wanted to be by their side all the time.

But generally we lived far away always, and we were always moving… new places constantly… my dad was a electrical engineer big wig for a major company and every time a plant was opened we moved to that city where ever it was.

I always have to explain – no I am not military lol – that’s the first thing people say when I mention how often I moved

In elementary, I was quiet and sensitive… I didn’t like being without my family – I wasn’t comfortable in school really… we moved so much and I was always the new girl… so I was shy…

In kindergarten – there was one girl who terrorized me… she kept trying to pinch me and would pin me outside – I still remember her name

The school called my parents cause I would hide in the parking lot… my parents came in for a meeting with the principal … the girl terrorizing me had issues at home… she was taking them out on me… so the school kept us separate and my mother would walk me in.

That was really my only bullying experience…

The rest of the time in elementary – I was shy. Quiet. Well behaved … I am catholic and my dad was an important person so I was always poised. Seen not heard and always looked nice.

The kids were good to me, sometimes if my grandparents were visiting and I had to go to school – I would cry at school… the kids would kinda take me under their wings and they were really nice kids.

By junior high – I thought I was hot shit lol… I was still shy… but at age 11 boys started coming around. My dad did not like that one bit. I was not allowed to talk to them and they were not allowed to call me… although before their voices changed he couldn’t tell lol

Teachers loved me, and the kids did too – I was not a teachers pet – just friendly to everyone- we moved a lot… I was still shy and kinda quiet but opening up. I was goofy silly funny.

Also very clumsy… I broke my arm in PE in middle school playing soccer lol… the grass was wet, I went to kick the ball and both feet came out from under me lol… I landed weird on my arm… I had 2 casts… the first one everyone signed… then I wasn’t healed yet so they put another on… everyone signed it again… I still have them ❤️

Not sure what made me think gymnastics would be a good idea lol… but I did that too… I had a accident there too lol… I ran jumped on the vault to do some flips in the air – which went fine… I had a spotter … I landed on the mat… the spotter stepped away right away and the mat flew out and I landed on the concrete… broke my leg that time lol… everyone helped me, again very kind… they would carry my books and stuff… I got special treatment ❤️ lol

By high school … I was no longer shy… I was also pretty, and my parents were rich … so even with moving … the boys wanted to know who the new girl was … and the girls wanted to know who I was too. Soon I knew everyone in every school… I had 3 high schools. Each very different … one in Florida – one in California and another in Massachusetts

I got in the most trouble in California lol… the weather was amazing … I knew everyone – I was a social butterfly 🦋 people would listen to anything I said.

My dad hated it because older boys started calling to ask me to the movies or whatever – I still was not allowed

Once I slyly dated an older boy who had a motorcycle… lol… my mother said to me… you are not allowed on that bike, do you hear me? Yeah yeah 😄

He would wait down the block and I would hop on lol… but one day I accidentally put my foot on the exhaust and it unknowingly burnt the bottom of my shoe lol … busted lol

My mother said … did you get on that bike?

What? Why would you ask that? Lol

And all she had to do was hold up that shoe lol then I heard my FULL name lol … she was good with me always though… lol we talked and I did promise not to do again and I didn’t.

I was popular … at all schools… new girl thing and plus I was not shy anymore and I’ve always been bubbly and friendly with everyone… protective of those who were picked on. Kinda took them under my wing, like the little kids did for me years before.

I didn’t really have a particular click… but the crowd I hung with were exciting! We used to do crazy things …

Like jump off roofs into pools, sneak into hotel pools, just stupid stuff where you could feel alive. I loved the thrill.

Then we got into drag racing… I crashed and it was a big deal… I was totally fine… but the car was not and neither were my parents lol- I got brought home in a police car lol omg … I was 15 and not licensed lol 😮

I think back and I can’t believe I pulled shit like that!! Who was I? I was not thinking

Well boy were my parents mad!! I was in so much trouble. My dad was very disappointed – he was mortified the neighbors saw that… we lived in a affluential neighborhood

Then he got cancer… non-Hodgkin lymphoma … age 39.

So I stopped being a social butterfly, did whatever they needed or asked… kinda went quiet again… and focused on school.

I was a senior in high school when I met my ex. I was 17

We had moved to Massachusetts and I didn’t want to meet anyone … cause my dad was still going through cancer … and we had family close by… I just wanted to focus on school and get that done.

I was quiet in Massachusetts – I was afraid if I met people, I would feel that excitement again… I didn’t want that temptation – I had a focus = school and my dad.

I made 2 girlfriends … one of them helped me get a job at a deli…

I sliced my finger first day on the job… my boss swept me into his arms… was my finger – NOT my legs … but he carried me to the car and brought me to the ER… while there he asked me out to dinner while I am holding my finger together!!

I said no… he was 35!!

I had stitches and they reattached the tip of my finger omg… you can still “slightly” see where it was, was my left ring finger lol

That same girlfriend wanted me to come to a cookout with her one weekend … and that’s where I met my ex…

This might sound odd, but when I met him ?? There was a really quick wave of emotion or something? I can’t really describe it ?? It was really fast and I didn’t know if was good or bad – obviously bad. I should have paid more attention to that… but I didn’t

I had a stalker at the time I met him… so I was already nervous… this man… about 35… would hide in my bushes with gifts and flowers and jump out when I would come home from work or places at night

My ex put a stop to that, so I felt safe.

Then the marriage happened and ya know that sucked. That was hard. He drank a lot so it was rough. Always – never peaceful

I was quiet even with family – how could I tell them that?

I couldn’t have friends cause he would make it weird so I was just quiet and handled. Focused on raising the kids.

It was hard for them too… but I used comedy to make their lives awesome… I would distract them from bad stuff by making them laugh and have fun with me. I was a very engaged mother. Loved being a mom ❤️ they have always been my world. I love them unconditionally. Always ❤️

I got a volunteer position with my police to build myself… cause I had not worked. Then I got the golf course ❤️❤️❤️ I loved the golf course ❤️❤️

If you know the show “Cheers” from the 80’s … when I walked in at work… that’s how they said my name… just like norm ❤️❤️❤️

I was like a rockstar there lol… it was awesome!! I loved it there!! I felt myself come back to life… I was social and bubbly… loved being at work!!

My ex hated it… I had a life outside him now… and it was a job where I was hit on constantly… thats how that job is… nature of the beast… anyway those 2 things cause massive issues and my ex got more and more rage full. It was getting worse!! Really bad

It just got to the point I could not handle the abuse and his rage or drinking anymore … and then that woman showed up at my door… they had been seeing each other since I was pregnant with my daughter – he had other women too… so I was done. It got really bad – so I left.

I was catholic… I didn’t believe in divorce … I was taught you go through anything with your husband – you stand by your man… that was the bed I made… the life I took… the only way out without sin was adultery… so I stayed for over 20 years thinking that way and believing would be better someday. It only got worse and worse … until he freed me with his affairs – it was a punch to the gut… but it also freed me

That was November of 2016… then my dad died in 2017… also my grandfather … then my mother with Alzheimer’s … he was brutal through all of that!! Every single thing!!! Not once has he ever shown ANY compassion

Then I got diagnosed with breast cancer, right before that last surgery, my grandmother died … all the while he was brutally burying me in motions and making me do back flips in court. I did everything they wanted or asked

And he was brutal through cancer … when the courts told him to stop and case was on hold… he did until right before my last surgery… when he cancelled the insurance and signed up for another… didn’t tell me … I found out 4 days before surgery on 4th of July weekend …

One company had been handling my care through the cancer … and was about to do my last surgery… he canceled that one…

I had to beg and plead with the new company to pay for a surgery the old one was going to perform… and I had to get the old one handling my care from the beginning to allow this other company to pay for it… I worked my ass off for that… I won… they allowed it ❤️ I fought hard for that – in 4 days!!

And right up until the minute – I didn’t know I would have that surgery… I collapsed on that OR bed! With everything I was just exhausted

The minute I came out of surgery he started back up. You have heard all that part.

So I am quiet… I went silent… I still kinda fear him because he has always been so brutal with everything – I just lay low and don’t want to draw attention.

I am not shy… I am observant though… I will observe the situation before I dive in. I will watch people and how they are. I am cautious.

My personality is friendly and bubbly… I am always smiling, love laughing – always enjoy life… never take it for granted

With crowds … I can do them, and before Covid I even did public speaking… I am fearless in front on people or in certain situations like that… I am not self conscience – I am very confident.

I am not fond of crowds … and I like small groups or one on one best…

With large crowds … I always worry someone will go crazy or do something hurtful. I am just more mellow.

I have one girlfriend who is always trying to get me to date or to come out with her, but that’s just not my thing. I’ve never been a partier… and I was handling so much other stuff – I just didn’t date after the separation.

I’m not a drinker and that’s just going to get me hit on which happens all the time anyway – so why would I want to go out to a place that is sure to happen? Lol

I’m slower with the injury to the nerves on my right side from the surgery… and I have to be careful with that side.

Plus I’m tired from all the crazy happenings so I’m just quieter – still bubbly and friendly… laugh alot… just more mellow and maybe alot more cautious.

I always expect him to do something so I just lay low. I don’t want any problems

And even with crowds – before Covid… if I was the public speaker, it’s fine and I loved it!! I love commanding a crowd!! I can grab the attention of both kids and adults ❤️ I attribute that to moving so often?

But being IN the crowd not really my thing… I like space, peace that sort. Can be overwhelming

When I fly… obviously there are crowds … or were… I never had a problem with it but I would give myself little treats lol

I always map out where Dunkin’ Donuts is to where my gate is lol… then that was my focus (I am a New England’er… it’s always Dunkin! ❤️)

Theme parks … also always were crowded – those I would do no problem… kinda in the same way that if you are lactose intolerant – but really love something – you will go for it anyway lol

But even there – when getting food and stuff we always found a places away from everyone to eat.

I tend to avoid crowds… I have never been to a concert.

I can handle crowds… but I just don’t particularly like them

I just like it mellow. I have always liked it mellow… the only times of my life where it was not… was those moments when I was 15, and then the marriage with him was never mellow. Mainly why I want peace so much.

Anyway I can be quiet – but if I am comfortable … I am not. If I can let down my guard – then I’m good… but I am cautious and observant first.

I am extremely careful with who comes in my life. Or who I keep around me… I do have amazing people around me though… I definitely know what to look for now ✌️ I know when I am safe and when I am not.

Years of practice though lol

I always been more of a lone wolf… we always moved, and then in marriage he was not my teammate – he worked against not with…

He still does that… so I would say generally I am happy bubbly… but kinda still nervous with his shit. It’s not over yet – I have until March 2021 – then I be free ❤️ I think and hope 🙏 I stay kinda quiet because of him. So anyway that’s how I am. And why 😘✌️

When it’s over – I think I will still be careful? I’ll be more at ease… but still careful

I think I will feel free’er? Just more at ease – he makes me tense.

And once I am where I want to be… I don’t think I will fear him anymore? I am working on it. ✌️😘

I am fearless in certain things… but nervous in other areas…. when young I had my family… I don’t have them now. So just harder.

I’ve also had stalkers from time to time… so that has made me cautious too.

Before breast cancer… everyday after work there would be one red rose 🌹 on my car… no note nothing

For weeks – every day… one red rose 🌹 … I would have the guys I worked with walk me out to my car and I would park under where the security camera could see …

Then it stepped up… to a bouquet of red roses 💐… a dozen each day!! For weeks! Always a dozen roses- no note

That’s when I mentioned to my police… they had me change my routes everyday… and watch if I was followed… it was scary little bit… I had been through that so many times!!!

Then I stopped working because of the breast cancer and it stopped cause I didn’t go to work anymore …

I am cautious because of that too. Just careful. It’s a thing.

Right after I had the mastectomy done… I still had my tubes and everything – completely flat… ugh bleh… I just hate remembering that…

But I locked my keys in my car by accident lol (this is why I now have extra sets lol) I called triple A…

The tow truck driver came and shimmied my door open and got my keys for me… and then asked me out to dinner – tubes and all!!!

I said no, I told him I was a cancer patient and handling that right now. He was young

So anyway… I just am not and have never really been fond of crowds – I’m just careful with people in general.

I do miss my family though. Sucks without them.

Ok so back to work tomorrow. It’s a weekday so will probably be busy… would be nice if it weren’t – I do work for a funeral home – no one wants to hear that it is busy!!

Squared everything away incase of power loss… I am ready!!!

Tomorrow our temps drop to 96 I believe 🙏 (35c) but our wind speed is showing 20mph..

We have had the heat, little humidity, we still have fires, it is very dry… and here come the winds

Currently we are under red flag warnings (meaning high fire weather) and now we also have wind advisory

So good possibility … I checked the PG&E map and my area is NOT currently listed for shut off … next town over is…

But if winds are bad they will shut down

The schedule is shut offs starting tmrw Tuesday at 1pm 09/08/2020

And power will come back for the people who lose it, scheduled at 5pm Wednesday 09/09/2020 bleh at least is quick

And scheduled … now I have to start watching the weather and this map again. 🙄

The shutoffs would affect about 172,000 customers across 22 counties in the Sierra foothills, North Bay and East Bay areas, according to PG&E. 😮🤨

I hope I don’t come home from a busy day of work and have no power 🤨 bleh – in this heat?!

But ok … fire prevention 🤨 sorry I still make that face – it just because I am very annoyed with PG&E – I’m sorry they were just greedy – didn’t care about their customers … at all… very bad business

PG&E was ALSO the subject of this movie. Erin Brockovich Based on a true story…

www.youtube.com/watch

It’s based on a case against the Pacific Gas and Electric Company (PG&E) of California in 1993.

From Wikipedia:

There were extremely high rates of cancer because of alleged contamination of drinking water with hexavalent chromium (also written as “chromium VI”, “Cr-VI” or “Cr-6”) in the southern California town of Hinkley. At the center of the case was a facility, the Hinkley compressor station, built in 1952 as a part of a natural-gas pipeline connecting to the San Francisco Bay Area. Between 1952 and 1966, PG&E used hexavalent chromium in a cooling tower system to fight corrosion. The waste water was discharged to unlined ponds at the site, and some percolated into the groundwater, affecting an area near the plant approximately 2 by 1 mile (3.2 by 1.6 km). The Regional Water Quality Control Board (RWQCB) put the PG&E site under its regulations in 1968.

The case was settled in 1996 for US$333 million, the largest settlement ever paid in a direct-action lawsuit in U.S. history. Masry & Vititoe, the law firm for which Brockovich was a legal clerk, received $133.6 million of that settlement, and Brockovich herself was given a bonus of $2 million.

So I am not the biggest fan of PG&E … at all … in the slightest

Anyway. Bad business

Last year was the first year of these power outages after the Paradise fire … named the “Camp Fire” … that was horrific… the deadliest and most destructive fire in California history.

The Camp Fire was the deadliest and most destructive wildfire in California history, and the most expensive natural disaster in the world in 2018 in terms of insured losses, as well as the single-most destructive wildfire recorded in modern times. (Wikipedia)

Following the fire, multiple fire victims sued PG&E and its parent company in San Francisco County Superior Court before a definite cause had been determined, accusing PG&E of failure to properly maintain its infrastructure and equipment. In mid-May 2019, California state investigators announced that PG&E was responsible for the fire.

And here we are 🤨 their infrastructure is still lacking… will take years to correct it.

So for years – this will happen 🤨 that is why I don’t like them – is hard not to complain about them. They make it difficult

My neighbor guy – with that big truck… works for PG&E …he is aware of my dislike … pretty much everyone dislikes them.

The sad part is their workers take a huge brunt of the anger from people…

Last year they were threatened and attacked – it was bad

That was last October and first week of November 2019

How they are still allowed to operate I don’t know? They are a monopoly power company – I don’t have another choice but to have them.

Unless I leave ? Maybe

Alright I have to go to bed… goodnight 😘✌️

I totally thought I did something really bad… I thought was going to be really bad!!

I tripped all my fuses … I was running a lot of things lol… I flipped them all off and all back on and nothing happened 😮

I had to call an electrician lol

Omg

So let me tell you… there is a fire near by somewhere – my sky has been smoky and orange all day long… no smell really – unless I am used to it now 🤨😄

And it was 108 today… and I am trying to be prepared for actual power outage lol… not the one caused by me lol

My house got so hot… luckily I have that battery and that little ac – had one room – good to know works well… test run lol

So the electrician comes – I thought he would have to come inside? But he didn’t… I didn’t even know he was here…

He just comes to my door, and says ok you have power now 😮😄 what how in the world did you do that???

And he takes me to outside around the house and shows me a big giant breaker box on the side of the house

I don’t understand why there is one inside and outside – but whatever now I know

Totally thought was going to be this huge deal – bonus it was not!! ❤️

Ugh that was me! I did that… ok well lesson learned lol – I won’t do that again

And on the off chance I do… now I know 😘✌️ I will try not to do again.

If it’s not work… it’s me 😮😮😮😄 OMG

Ok well finishing up now that I have power back

I will be back

Today I get to rest ❤️ for the most part … I am doing laundry and just little things around the house.

Tuesday we will have wind… so that is a potential possible power loss. 🤨 I want everything done and ready lol

If everything is done, and I have all the preparations (which I do) – it will be smoother than last year was.

It’s a little annoying to have to plan for power outages lol (in heat) … but I would rather be at ease knowing I am ready whenever, and won’t be bad.

Last year was so bad – they gave us no warning… last year was horrible – plus I had just had surgery!! Lol omg. Yeah I’m not doing that again! So I am ready this year.

Now we are coming up on the winds again. So I have to keep on my toes cause they can shut off if the winds get bad – ugh pain in the butt!

They need to hurry and fix their equipment…

I have seen them since last year and they have actually been out there trimming the trees off the power lines and doing Maintenence – I know will take them years to fix their crap

Ahh I could live somewhere else… but the peace and safety I got here after everything was good. I want that.

I love the beauty of the country, I like the peace, I like the people, I like being away from the crazy city… I like not much traffic and I love the country roads …

www.youtube.com/watch

You can breathe in the country ❤️ there is peace – so its a trade off with the crap stuff lol ✌️

I want that peace I find – SO MUCH that I will deal with the things that come with it, even if I have to accommodate bad stuff

Like coyotes and rattlesnakes… fires, floods lol… power loss lol… yeah I love the peace that much 😮

Oh yes – they will be doing power outages … starting today or tomorrow! Ok then

I am no longer doing nothing lol 😄✌️ I will be preparing 😘✌️

Ok so here comes the loss of power again – alright it will be better than last year anyway – we will see how well I have prepared 😳🙏🙏🙏

I will be back, after I square away my preparations lol ✌️

Sunday… I walked into work at ugly walls…

Besides the walls, that feel like a 3 year olds bedroom colors… I’ve actually started liking it there…

The girls there are communicators also… they impress me so – I’m liking it there with that communication… they tell me exactly what possibilities, from there current cases, might pop up. They lay it out for me.

Today I knew I was by myself… I walked in and it was just nice … peaceful, quiet … no one there – just ME!! Omg I might actually get work done!!

And I did!!! Until 11am when it popped off 😮😮

I had a family that we have handled for years and years … I pulled some back flips on that one to get the body in our custody from the hospital… usually that is not done on a Sunday and tomorrow is a holiday here… Labor Day

So… I called the hospital to see if morgue would be open during Monday ? I was told if I have a signed release he would release it for me TODAY… so I had it docusigned over the internet … faxed over… had my guys go get the deceased … and boom …family is happy. I got that shit done on a Sunday ❤️❤️❤️❤️ they never do it on a Sunday!! They did it for me ❤️ I worked my butt off on that one! All of them actually – but that one I did back flips

I made the family really happy with that. They can be at ease now… we have custody and we take over. They don’t have to worry about anything and are at ease now.

I had several death calls today … and then a sad one at the end of the day… I worked a LONG time today – almost 12 hours 😮😮😮

Happens – sometimes we have lulls – just not lately … currently it is following me everywhere I go!! I swear it is!! But I did get a lot of my ACTUAL work done before 11am … I still have a ton more, and it keeps piling up, whatever – is work, work is good

Just a lot of crazy things lately.

I am really excited that I pulled that Sunday pick up off – that was my crowning moment of the day!! 👑 ❤️❤️❤️ I didn’t think was going to be possible and I was going to have to tell family no… but I didn’t … I pulled it off ❤️ TODAY and done

The rest of it was good but crazy. Happens

I have tmrw off – I kinda wanna spend all day in bed!! Lol – that sounds amazing!!! Right??

I forget what lockdown was like!! That is like a distant memory!! Was I dreaming?? Lol

I am kinda beat… or a lot beat… and my body just wants bed … I am exhausted… I will read tomorrow on my day off 🙏

So happy is a holiday tomorrow – maybe if my internal alarm doesn’t go off – I can sleep in 🙏🙏 maybe all day!! Lol we see.

I will be back tmrw.

I heard this song on my drive home…

www.youtube.com/watch

Yeah ok life, very funny. 🤨😄

This will be me tomorrow…

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Alright I will be around tomorrow. At some point

Gnite 😘✌️

Omg!!! I had no idea what I was walking into today!!!

I “thought” was just going to be a regular normal Saturday – I am forgetting what those are like lately!! Oh my goodness!!

My district manager showed up right after I got there – and then it was on 😳😮

Funeral first thing – boom

Then another one started at 1pm and that lasted until 5!!! 😮 omg

I expected a normal Saturday and to get some stuff done… but no – I didn’t get anything done!! Omg that was insane – like whirlwind all day long!!

I feel beat up!! And I look like that too lol …

This morning when getting dressed … I thought to myself – oh it will be 110 today, no ones gonna see me… I will dress down a little – I had no idea there were services!! Omg

I wore a tank top – but it was pretty – but still – not funeral attire!!! Usually I am completely dolled up!! It was gonna be hot!!! So I thought NOT!! Omg – this is why I always have to doll up – hot or not!! Oh boy

I also wore a skort!! Also NOT funeral attire!! Luckily I handled the back end of things… I stayed hidden and I did have my black jacket. But still…

Communication people!!! Do that!! I would have completely dolled up if they told me – and I do 3 locations!! Can they just tell me! I was blindsided! Completely! It was supposed to be Saturday!!

Tonight I feel like a rag doll!! I need a massage! Totally! My whole body does not like me tonight!!

So I am going to say the same thing I said Friday – tomorrow I should be all by myself 🤨😄 and it should be peaceful 🤨😄

It will be the hottest day… omg – luckily I should be inside with air conditioning and getting work done!!! 🙏 … but I did think today I would get things done and that didn’t happen!

It has been crazier than it’s ever been at work!! Every week gets crazier and crazier 😳😮 we have more and more and more!

Anyway I don’t wanna talk about that anymore … next subject…

I heard 2 songs today played over and over – and I have never heard either of them but they stuck out 😮…

The first one stuck out because I was hot!!! And I wanted what they were singing about lol…

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Yeah – I really wanted ice cream today!!! And I kept hearing that song, like a tease lol… it was so hot today!

And then there was this song that played several times … and every time it played – I just liked it … neither song I heard before … this one kinda hit me though …

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I do believe that’s alright and that’s ok… sometimes things turn out differently than you expect or wanted or planned… but I am actually better now, and I way happier out of that … and I think that everything I walked through, just is bringing me to where I’m supposed to be? I like where that’s going so far.

If work could actually chill out a little bit not be all insane crazy. But keeps me busy I guess.

I am definitely better off – so that’s definitely alright and ok. ❤️✌️

On a funny note… I don’t like drawing attention unless I want it … which I usually don’t unless there is a reason behind it.

I took my neighbors truck to work today… not the man one – that one is too big for me, lol – I will turn it on so doesn’t die on them… but his is way too big lol … I can’t handle that big!! It’s too much!

So I took HER truck which she left me keys for and said I could…

Hers is BRIGHT cherry 🍒 red!! Omg … red draws attention like no other!!! Omg like being sign

She had these window covering shades for the front – when I first got in this morning – I just took them off and didn’t pay attention …

It wasn’t until I got to work and put them up in the window that I noticed they are big giant kisses 💋💋

Omg – could I possibly draw any more attention with that omg

I want my little Toyota tmrw – that one is just right. Has my Pokémon in the window… and is tan so is mellow… and not gigantically HUGE!! I know how to whip it in my little car lol

These big ass attention drawing trucks I can not whip it – and they are way slower!

Anyway- the kisses 💋 just topped it off … omg – what kind of neighbors do I have lol (I’m totally kidding but was really funny cause all I thought was … really??? 😄✌️

Gnite 💋✌️ lol