Oh my goodness – whew! I was kinda exhausted all day long 😮😮 not by anything in particular ?? I dunno I was just exhausted? Even my body is!! Omg – I need a massage badly ~sigh~

I have this most adorable woman … she is heartbroken 💔 … lost the love of her life whom she did everything with – not really have too many friends – she is bit older than my mom… she reminds me how heartbroken my mom was when my dad passed. They were different generation – one of the greats – classic American housewives… they don’t make ‘em like that anymore!!! Not like their generation… just the woman was very much so to take care of her man… so she is lost. She devoted her entire self to him – my mom did too

She cries 💔 and she feels bad for crying on me lol … I tell her … oh you in safe zone – if there is anywhere where crying is “ok” – it’s definitely a funeral home ✌️ it’s not abnormal – so cry away –

I tell her go ahead and cry because it is a release – is good to get your cries out. And also… you are not under anyone else’s timeline… you take as long as you need to heal from things or to be sad and heartbroken – is ok

She will just need to learn herself now… she is very lost… it be ok. Hearts do break – but you do learn you have to move forward – it’s hard because you don’t know how at first – it’s terrifying

I also warned her – it will hit once everything quiets down and then it’s quiet and just you. I just want her to be prepared

New chapters – and then also… I believe something …

I believe that no one really truly dies – “technically” … BECAUSE … every life touches another… and that impact carries on in those they touch or make impact on… and it just continues because that person touched your life – they just carry on in you because maybe shaped who you are 😘✌️

That made her feel better – but she’s so lost and such a sweet woman … she calls me sweetheart ❤️ my grandfather used called me sweetheart ❤️ ☘️

Ya know people come into your life for reason when they are meant to. So.

https://youtu.be/zDo0H8Fm7d0

So I just helping her through grief … kills me to understand her heart bleeds from the inside – because I know that pain and I know how much it hurts …and then you scared …and then angry … ya know “stages” – there really is that

And you just want them back no matter how irrational. ✌️ you want to believe if you wish hard enough, with all your might …they will come back

https://youtu.be/NKMtZm2YuBE

She is still in her cry stage… because it hurts so bad – her heart bleeds and breaks – she will probably always cry to miss him. I tell her – no no … all those photos … you just sit and go through them – remember all the funny stories or vacations or whatever happiness or funny things they brought to your life. Laugh and remember

Sometimes you can get lost in photos and also memories – is nice to see the photos

I still miss too.

She will cry until she can not cry anymore and then you just have to take a breath – and make your new life – what do you want?

Awww ☹️💔 … I had her smiling and leaving calm and at ease 😊 … because however you wanna grieve… but I can help ease the soul so she can grieve then I think it helps – because is always how you make someone feel… impact.

She smiles with me – her little face just brightens up to see me ❤️ I can make her smile and feel at ease – so that’s how I know she’s gonna be ok.

Will be ok because she can smile through grief – everyone is different – that’s why I always tell you / know your people… different people need different things – some don’t want emotions and that’s fine too – quick and easy

But she smiles so she be ok ❤️🙏

Ohh I have something HILARIOUS!! Omg – I can NOT wait to show my children 😄😄😄😄😄

Ok you wanna see ?

Thank you for showing me this Leendadll ❤️❤️❤️ omg I just love love love this scene 😄❤️ this is the best!!! ❤️😄😄

https://leendadll.wordpress.com

https://youtu.be/hFKmuoCR-rQ

It makes me laugh sooooo much – I did look up that movie – it does look little stupid lol … but this totally makes me laugh ❤️😄😄😄

I also have this really weird unique thing lol… I just always know where boss is and what time get there? I do not know why or HOW that happens – it just does … my boss swears I am tracking – I am NOT- totally promise!!! – I seriously just call a place and I usually get it right lol 😮😮😮 on the first or second try always lol

I say it is because we share the same birthday lol 😄😄✌️ 7/7 🎰 so ya know – ride the same wave lol 😘

I would like to be all bad ass and say “I am totally in tune and know everything” but I am not – I just get lucky with my guesses and when I need things lol ☘️ luck of the Irish 💋 🎲 🎲

It’s just funny though – it’s like every single time lol – I do not do on purpose – it just works out

https://youtu.be/4kg9LasvLFE

Lol – is kinda funny – I always think of that song lol

Well anyway… ugh I made it through a Tuesday

Wednesdays up …

Is it a full moon? Let me look

It just was – that explains the crazy ok – I got it

The moon was huge tonight ❤️ I love when it’s huge and lights everything up ❤️ but I also like when is dark and you can see every ★ star 💫

Ok one thing I will not miss is watching out for animals lol… omg … they jump out in front of you when you drive – I call the squirrels 🐿 Kamikaze Squirrels because they do not care they go spastic!! Oh look a car – let me run in front

https://youtu.be/4aXfG93pyFI

I do believe they do that 😄😄😘✌️

And then the deer 🦌… them too… they dart all over the place in fear 😮 omg

So yeah I might not miss that aspect. Or ugly buzzards and things – definitely will not miss the snakes 🐍 nope – I hope there are none at my house lol 😳🙏

It’s California so I will have the stupid spiders 🕷 on steroids 🤨 huge – nasty – nope – is that why I don’t look like the type? Lol 😄✌️

And with bees 🐝… nope 👎 … I will run away and flail until I am inside or safe because no

But ok… I can maybe possibly grow up there ?? We will see … not really sure this will go well lol

But we gonna see – I’m pretty sure I can do anything … I always think that lol … sometimes I am wrong 😄😄✌️ but I think I can lol… ahhh so we will see

I think I am about to lose my voice? 😳 I dunno it just feels that way? And it sounds just a little off – so I think I will lose my voice soon ??

I used to be in the hospital for a week all the time for strep throat – it would just totally be bad – up until age 25… and then I had my tonsils removed… and I was less sick ❤️ and I didn’t have to always be at the hospital ❤️

So I don’t get sore throats anymore, but I do lose my voice in winter 🥶 so it feels and sounds like it’s at the start of that. 😳😝

I hate that! But whatever

Sometimes – I work alone.

And there was this:

https://youtu.be/ybzJsrxfdGE

So ya know – alert and careful – we keep our door locked though. You must have appt. Covid and safety.

Scary though … that company should be in trouble for letting her work alone like that. That should never be allowed where people can freely come in.

Look how beautiful she was, and a UCLA Grad

Heartbreaking! But also strong lesson!! Listen!!!!

Ok well… that was a scary and very sad thing – sorry to end on that – but you have to also be careful. Carry mace or whatever – but pay attention!! Trust your own instincts!!!

Alright well… I am exhausted – I do not know how long I gonna last – we see

https://youtu.be/MKnZ174_kWk

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Awwww ❤️ so listen how amazing my team is lol …

He came in and right away apologized for yesterday – very nicely and very humble. Awww ok … but fricken watch it buddy!! Lol ✌️

He said he was off yesterday because someone’s dog keep him up – well ok fine. I can accept that excuse – but I’m gonna tell you right now – do not light the fire 🔥 and the way he was yesterday, was not right – so ya know – watch your shit

It was very nice he apologized – and he seemed very sincere so … alright fine

Don’t let it happen again – do not light the fire lol 😘✌️

https://youtu.be/WkyDce0AQ6s

I’m very impressed with his apology – that was really nice. Appreciate that. 😊🥰

Ok so … Tuesday – and it begins 😮

So… today was not easy – today was like FU – let me throw everything at you. 🤨

And then on top of that… I get attitude from someone on something – listen asshole – check your attitude!!! … otherwise we gonna have a problem – you wanna go toe to toe- bring it

You can either have an awesome working environment or we can have some issues – so you decide – I don’t do bullshit and you wanna think I gonna do your shit for you – think again. Who you think you are?

Check yourself before you wreck yourself 💋✌️

https://youtu.be/IjrfcW_2txU

Go ahead – come up against me… dude you don’t know what you dealing with. Check yo self! So go ahead – come start a problem with me. You gonna find out real quick.

We can have problems here if he wants that… careful buddy. If you gonna take it there – I’m ready for battle – bring it.

I know he’s stressed … hello… so are the rest of us… handle your shit. Fuckin man for god sakes – handle your shit!!! If you can’t handle, maybe not the business for you.

Go ahead – mess with me… see how that goes.

I don’t have time for some man to act like a fricken child- handle your shit!!

When I am mad – I swear lol … so you will always know when I am mad lol – I think is a New England thing?? Lol cause we always up against New Yorkers lol 😘✌️but yes – I swear when I am mad … at least you know when I am mad lol

It’s not often cause I don’t have jackasses usually but we see.

This chump can check his shit… cause he’s about to have a problem with me!!!

One day is fine – I’ll let it slide – but you come at me tmrw with same shit we gonna have issues. Boy… I will put you in your place!!! You really wanna try that? Buckle up

So we gonna see how tmrw goes.

We are all stressed – the cases pour in … when I say pour… I mean in fricken buckets!! 🪣

And my location is the worst – it just continuously pours in 😮😮😮 we have not had a break in long time – I do not remember when it was not so crazy!!

Everyday at 8am we say how much came in overnight and for what location … is always mine!!! Always always always!!! So I always make that face to their texts “😩” that is the face I make in real life too!! Lol

But I know all of us are stressed and it’s crazy!! We have all the baby boomers hitting now, and then of course we in a pandemic where some people don’t listen or think they know everything so ya know – it’s alot

So whatever – I’m over it. Now that they have reopened schools and crap, it’s done. People wanna fight and stuff …whatever – it’s over.

Just live life… do your thing – don’t be an asshole lol ✌️ cherish the life you have. Soon enough you will come see me. 💋✌️

https://youtu.be/s09LuDYX12g

But yeah we all stressed

Someone left a review on Google … was good one… they mention my name, so supposably I get bonus – but we see because I am only Office manager not director… so I am not sure if I get that bonus?

It was really amazing review!! Which I saw at end of day!! The said my name many times ❤️ it was because we helped them with one death and I made sure they take care of…

And then 5 months later they call me with a family death in another state and asked me for help… of course I gonna help… so I did and I refer them to someone else amazing in another state ❤️… I made sure I found someone who would care for them the way I did… and then they went on and on about me. ❤️ very much appreciated ❤️ I am humbled by their words ❤️ that’s bonus enough ❤️❤️❤️ was very touching because I know what this family went through! I didn’t do anything special other than being there for them

I was not their director … all I was – was office manager … I had to help them on couple things but I have a human aspect- so I will relate and teach you how to go through your grief ✌️😘 for them it was everything – you don’t know what others go through – and what might be nothing to you… is everything to someone else – remember that!! Seriously!!

Anyway they were awesome ❤️ thank you for that review ❤️ if anything else made me feel special ♥️

If you do a Google review and say our name supposably we get bonuses if is good review… I just don’t know if “I” also get that / because I am office manager – usually we don’t deal too much with things directors do – is directors who plan everything and handle the families – it just so happened this family needed me and took to me (kind of attached to me) and said what they said. ❤️ I just saw that today ❤️

I will have to message that family and say thank you – that was very sweet of them ❤️ even just the words they said ❤️

Anyway… was rough day – the review I saw at end of day so that kinda eased it out a little ❤️ I’m glad I could help them feel peace during their grief, they had a lot of grief (a couple deaths)… I’m sooo sorry for their losses 💔 , but glad I could help them through ❤️ I am touched that they remembered me and then made a review and said my name ❤️

Oh boy – fricken tmrw – Omg – god help me!! It’s only Monday 😮😵😵😵

https://youtu.be/kYtGl1dX5qI

First off… Moment to remember Martin Luther King ❤️ sadly in 2022 we still have racial issues – you would think it would be done and no longer issue – but it still remains and more needs to change. His work opened the door for others to also stand up ❤️ “bravery” – he gave his life for that – strong man! Let’s not let his work be in vein

We all bleed the same so… your skin color or wrapping 😉… does not matter – we are all born the same and we all die the same … that should not effect rights as human beings!! So ridiculous to let color be an issue – again how many times do I have to say it? We all bleed the same!! We all have families that mourn our losses … so cut the crap with the color thing already!! For god sakes is 2022!! Can we grow up? Your blood is same color as mine 😘✌️

We don’t always remember holidays the way we are supposed to.

Also… today is free national Parks Day if you are in the United States – entrance to National Parks are free today if you love that stuff ❤️ is holiday (for most people) and free National Parks 🏞

Get out there and see the amazing we have 🙌❤️ for free ✌️❤️ what better way to celebrate the life of Martin Luther King, than a day at one of our National Treasures – free so that ALL may enjoy ❤️

https://www.nps.gov/planyourvisit/fee-free-parks.htm

You have to be in the United States – sorry

And then also…I have an opportunity … but that would mean leaving my team…

Is close to home… will be alot of money… and I just bought that house – which was NOT cheap lol – it’s in fricken California

I will learn new things – and climb higher 😮 but I leave death if I entertain it.. I will see – but I don’t know – they will have to turn my head

So I dunno – the money would have to be really good to make me consider – I do love my team and my job – but it can be alot and I work all the time sooo … cutting the commute alone would be huge … save on gas and wear and tear on car

Oh why do you give me temptations???!!!

https://youtu.be/wXhTHyIgQ_U

I love my job and helping people very much so if they want me – gonna have to be worth it

But just interesting way to start the week 😮 ok ready?? 😳

Death doesn’t take holidays or special days off – death doesn’t care what day it is, or what time.

Ok so here we go 😳🙏 please don’t kill me!!

https://youtu.be/rYEDA3JcQqw

I met my neighbor… 😮😮

He was on his front porch, on a little chair – there was a ledge and a pillow on that ledge with a cute little old chihuahua, who protectedly barked at me a few times … but I let him smell me and then he was fine lol

The man is old – he looks like a little old west miner – he grew up in this town but had moved away to Paradise in his 20’s? He in his 70’s now

He came back here because his house burned down and he narrowly escaped the Paradise Fire (caused by PG&E 😠)

So he returned to where he was raised

When I first walk over he say to me …

You the new owner?

Yup I said with huge smile 😃 I said my name is Trisha

He tell me his name lol… is same name as Satan of course lol – so that name kinda makes me on guard but he’s cute little old man lol we see

He looked me up and down and then says…

You don’t look like the type for doing yard work lol

So I laughed and said well I’m gonna try

He just looked at me and then said … you gonna be able to fix the fences ?

Me: well I’m gonna try – I might need some learning curve but I will try lol

He chuckled and then just slightly smiled, like he was thinking “ok let’s see what this little thing thinks she can do, should be entertaining” lol … that is what the smile he gave me looked like lol

And what do you mean I don’t look like the type? Lol … I just am very girly so … no I do not like bugs … but I’m gonna give it a shot 😮 I’m sure will be fine

And my boys can help me with the fences

I will be the type lol

And if not then I do have a few back ups lol … I have men that I made – they can come help me (although they are not the type either)

I do have one other option or 2 … but one good one – one iffy… the good one would be if I hire someone I know to do for me. Be done fast – maybe first time I do that?? We see

He’s a cutie though …very ancient – little old west miner type … I think everyone around me is kinda old – well they won’t hear me lol

I think he kept smiling because I had that huge smile across my face with everything he said … and everything he said … I would say – well we gonna see how goes 🙏🙏 I’m gonna try!!

So like looking at an eager puppy? Lol

I don’t look like the type for yard work 😄😄 now what would make him say that?

I have on sweats – red ones … a black T-shirt, black fuzzy boots… my hair is not curled or anything – I washed and go’ed today lol … it lays straight

My nails are not done they are normal… I do have on little make up because yes!! But not much … how do I not look like type? I lookin rugged today lol

I’m not exactly the strongest looking person lol

But how you know I’m not an HGTV Wizard? Lol

Ok so little old miner man. I like him, he seems sweet – little harsh miner type way lol … be he seems really cool – he kept smiling

So when you look at me, in one minute …you can see what type I am?? Lol

I’m not actually the type for yard work – he is correct lol

But don’t underestimate me lol

Just let me try 😘✌️

How you judge me by looks and not know me? Sir you just laid down a challenge lol

Maybe – let’s see how I do first!! 😉✌️😘

Ok still doing

Guess where I am ❤️❤️❤️ 😮

I have been doing the moving thing – it has begun 😮 I’m actually moving 😮

I am leaving what has been my respite for over 2 yrs 😮😮😮 oh wow!! Check me out 😮 being all brave and stuff 😮

I am here at the house now 😮😮❤️

I kinda wanna order food and have delivered – they do not deliver way far out in country lol

I won’t – lol not yet.

So wow – omg

Ok well I suppose I should keep going and not lose momentum but I don’t wanna leave the house lol

It’s such a beautiful sunny day too ☀️❤️ omg

Do not be overly happy – just chill 😮 kinda having hard time with that ✌️❤️

https://youtu.be/ZbZSe6N_BXs

The smile already hurts my cheeks 😮❤️

I just unpacked few boxes 📦 … put away. Already organizing ❤️ I have a garage ❤️

I look around and it’s empty and silent – it’s weird – it mine and I don’t have to be at anyones mercy or need anything ❤️

I can’t believe it

Well anyway – worked my ass off through everything – it kinda just I dunno ?? Because where I was few years ago – and what I’ve done ❤️ I was at mercy – now I am not

So yeah – whatever – just kinda little incredible lol 😮❤️❤️

Ok well life is gonna see me being really happy and I don’t want that to happen …because it will throw a balance – I do not want a balance from happiness – soooo shhh 🤫 don’t tell life I’m soo happy ❤️❤️❤️

https://youtu.be/lDK9QqIzhwk

Also… probably next month?? There gonna be a party in the USA 🇺🇸 ❤️✌️❤️ omg

https://youtu.be/M11SvDtPBhA

😮❤️ ok I better get back to work because I just wanna stay here in house lol …

I wish I could be like “Bewitched” where she would crinkle her nose and things be done 🙌

Ugh moving lol ..but at least I can kinda take my time. Go slowish lol – so bonus there ❤️ I do not like crunch time lol – so I better get working – I am doing myself at moment – but we see later

Omg – this is mine 😮 ok I have to go

I can really actually move 😮 I can start bringing over things 😮

So why am I frozen this morning? 😮 As in still that laid back whatever attitude omg … my body is like nope… you stay in these covers lol … and my mind is screaming get up… move it!! Lol

https://youtu.be/hdcTmpvDO0I

I’m just?? Maybe because doesn’t seem totally true or I worry? Lol – is gonna be ok? Lol

So I can not get my body to listen lol … and then another part of brain says – ok 5 more minutes then you get up lol

Which is not 5 more minutes because I have been awake since 5am lol … but then work called at 7… I slept with laptop last night incase of death … so I didn’t have to get out of bed … I just worked from my bed lol … I had to make some calls and things

Yeah – I do not want to move lol … I am slugging lol…

Meh whatever – see there is that attitude again

But yeah… I have all these things to do this weekend omg 😳 it HAS to slow down after all this!!

Someone just asked me this morning … you gonna take some time off … someone else mentioned same thing few days ago

😄 I can not… possibly maybe one day ??

But even then I will have laptop and they will call lol

Unless the world decides they wanna do this one week in March thing 🙏🙏🙏🙏 please!!!!! One week!!!!!!! Technically 7 days, but I will settle for 5 lol whatever – but yes!

One week of do nothing and isolate to remember 🙏 just do nothing

My phone oddly lately been throwing old photos at me and one of them was last year, when I got the new blue car 🚙 lol ❤️…

Now I have a blue house 😄😄😄✌️ it just happens to be blue lol – it’s like a blueish gray… but one year later after the blue car comes a blue house 😄💙 just happened that way lol

https://youtu.be/68ugkg9RePc

Ok well… so that’s my song lol

Ok… so get out of the covers and do this? See my body is still saying no lol – my mind is not happy with that – I need motivation totally – I am spent

I keep thinking – ok fine I will – but then I don’t lol

https://youtu.be/fLexgOxsZu0

Remember … 1 WEEK in March!! 🙏🙏🙏

https://youtu.be/5B1QTEGL3t0

Please!! Do it for the world 🙌 and just one whole week of peace because everything stopped for a moment 2 years ago lol … isn’t that funny that’s it’s been 2 years 😮 damn we strong lol ❤️ – people don’t always listen … but we all strong little fighters 🙌❤️ all around the world ❤️

https://youtu.be/CmFDyZ3ytg8

Ok so just remember 1 week in March – just shut down everything – one week!! 🙏🙏🙏

We have done longer lol – one week is nothing … just world peace for one week to remember Covid 🙌 and how many time people want world peace? I’m asking for one week – we didn’t have anything to fight over or anything else – we all had a common fear lol … it brought the world together for a moment

So just one week to remember – that’s nothing – we can all do that? Right? Or do we need diseases and things for that to happen?

One week, every year… we should do that lol – to commemorate and do nothing lol – but we should 🙏

You all suddenly understood how much you miss people and worry about them… many things went through your head and many changes occurred

So maybe we all just need one week every year for adjustments ?

It has to be a week because that will help to distress and breathe

You are lucky I am not asking for more lol … but I also have to work and also survive so … one week is fine … it should be March because that’s when everything halted 😮

That was kinda cool for a minute

But yeah can we just do that one week!! 🙏🙏

It is also in remembrance of all those lives lost across the world due to this… a week of silence

Remember all the confusion and all these world leaders who just have no clue ?!

And remember us? Just like dumbfounded because what the hell was going on? Unprecedented to degree and magnitude

Well anyway… we should do one week. But ya know can’t be just me lol

https://youtu.be/r9XMZKvjK7o

But stay a whole week – not just one day 🙏🙏🙏

1 week ☝️ keep it in your mind lol 💋

Ok fine – I guess I have to get out of bed. Otherwise I’ll just fall back to sleep – is so warm and cuddly – I have heated blanket so … why I wanna leave?? Lol

It’s a battle lol ✌️😘 trying to peel myself up and out!! Will happen at some point – it’s just very hard – I just need a day (or a week in March lol)

But you also know that saying “work hard first – then play” so bleh

I just have very low motivation this morning 😮😮 I just wanna be in bed for no reason lol … other than comfy and warm and also safe from whatever else

Once I am in house then I can MAYBE have lazy days ?? But I don’t know because that yard is huge 😮 I am not a yard person – nor do I have lots of time 😳 and hiring someone will be a no until I stabilize after this purchase lol

So… I will be learning many things all by myself 😮 ahhh!!

Yeah see – bed sounds way better right now

The week treated me like rag doll – little burn out from that … and then all these other huge massive things 😮😮

Why would I want to leave this warmth and security ? Just for the moment I want it ❤️

I will pay for that later somehow – because I have time NOW!!! So I should do that NOW…

But I’m not really concerned with later right now – whatever I’ll deal … I just want couple moments

I need recharge – so it’s fine – I’ll get up soon 🙏

If I just get up I will move – but I just don’t want to 😮 I know once I do – that’s it – I be moving lol

I also have a huge smile – but then at same time – I leave my respite place I’ve had so ?? I dunno – bittersweet

Soaking in my last moments 😮😮

https://youtu.be/5jlI4uzZGjU

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So… pray for me one more time… for now lol – probably more later

Pray for no deaths tonight – I am on call… oh yeah and has been crazy for many reasons… we acquired a new location …so we have 4 now 😮 so pray for no deaths anywhere!!!

We had to take over because they had massive problems… so here we are.

When I tell you insane – it is!! You would totally think “funeral home” so peaceful and chill – nope not behind the scenes lol – lots of things going on

Just a lot of things – I am both sides … I help directors when they need assistance – and then I am also finances and staffing… and bosses support core

Well anyway – been an insane week 😮😳 yeah lol like that!!

Mic drop 🎤 – I’m telling you – we the team ❤️

But it’s about to get really real – come next week. Oh boy lol … currently many explosions of things going on … it’s gonna get worse. So bracing – I know what’s coming

It will be fine and we will handle – I’m just saying Crunch time 😮 damn 😳😮

https://youtu.be/7fdpMyJ-ftU

In other news – I can start moving in 😮 I will be signing papers next week and is mine ❤️ yay!!

I had to send a lot of information – I have been talking to my loan guy for a very long time 😄😄 … but he has never met me and only knows me over phone … I had to give him many things including just recently my drivers license lol

I just photo copied it at work and scanned it in for him…

So… he is talking to another guy from city who DOES know me lol … but he knows me more like a friend or little sister type?

And my loan guy says to my city guy… you didn’t tell me she was hot lol … my city guy did not know what to say to that 😄😄

I just recently sent that to him lol … all this time he has never seen me or a photo lol .. until that

So. Now he knows what I look like.

He has always worked really hard for me – even before knowing what I look like – so whatever – not a big deal

… it was my driver license photo lol … how do you be hot in that?? I found that kinda funny – I promise you is not hot lol – is drivers license photo lol

So whatever …

I did like being invisible lol… weird now he knows – I do not know what he looks like … I will have to sign papers with him next week. 😮

I think we have been phone talking for maybe a year or year and half? Can’t remember … it’s been long time lol … I know him but not lol

Funny what men speak of… lol … I love when one tells me … no bro code dude lol – it’s just funny

I kinda like being invisible cause then I can take time 😊 I liked that all this time he just help me normal – not think of appearance – or anything

I like only knowing my voice lol

That was fun while lasted

I still don’t know what he looks like but he is married with kids lol … but was fun to be invisible from stuff

https://youtu.be/ajVoeX4eqIQ

I actually like invisible ❤️ because then you kinda see true first.

Usually I am not seen – unless I greet a family or seat them… but normally they know me over phone – they always ask to meet me though so I will eventually lol

But … whatever … I like invisible a lot ❤️ is weird to now NOT be invisible 😮

https://youtu.be/F57P9C4SAW4

Whatever

So – moving 😮😮 oh wow 😯 I gonna leave

Ok so it’s all a whirlwind 😮 I have a house ❤️

I have to sleep because I am oncall for 4 locations tonight – do NOT die tonight!! It’s a Friday

I did not get to have Friday night tonight, because she still sick and isolating so I will get her for 2 weeks coming up ❤️ I get to surprise her by being in house 😮😮❤️

Ok so again – please no one die this evening – that would be wonderful 🙏🙌❤️

😮 omg so much things

https://youtu.be/b8I-7Wk_Vbc

So wow 😮 … my life 😮

Absorbing 😮

😮❤️ yeah it’s all just hitting 😮😮

I just go along like ok whatever – whenever lol … I am busy… so just let me know lol

And it’s always something – so whatever I wait until the kinks are out lol … but I sit back because life makes huge changes anyway. You just never know…

But now all that is really happening 😮😮 so makes my heart pound little bit 😮

So… just wow 😮

I have crazy life right now 😳😮 work – crazy… home – going crazy but in good way… just crazy

https://youtu.be/S0vGsyprO54

https://youtu.be/6FEDrU85FLE

Good crazy and bad crazy 😮 … is ok for right now but better be ok

Alright Gnite before I get any calls – don’t die!!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏 no dying!!!