Alright so… let’s just take inventory for one moment…

I have handled the car… I have gotten myself a tiny little car that works well and is working out nicely…. I don’t speak of it everyday… but that is awesome little car – it is kinda golf cart-ish but whatever – I was a cart girl… I know how to drive those things creatively lol 😄❤️✌️

I’m kidding – I am a very good driver.

Alright so I have a car… I do still have to get rid of the other car… I know – I haven’t done that yet… I will … that took a backseat with everything happening!!

Anyway so …

That is 1 down, 1 to go

Then today… I got a promotion… they gave me everything … they gave me the job I wanted … they brought me full time and did benefits … 401k, vacation all of it… and I have my very own location. I still help with the 3 … but one of them is mine.

I will need a system. I will learn … it’s gonna be a lot more… cause now I am in charge of entire location – everything… all paperwork, bills, office supplies, van & hearse Maintenence, just everything, approving checks doing bank runs, post office, etc – I will have to have that place spot on. I have a chance to shine – woo hoo!!

So I will be playing catch up for a minute.

I could have stopped at the other place if I didn’t work all day… but I just got handed a really good thing (I worked for it) and it’s good. I am building myself. One little step at a time

If I start somewhere new – I start all over … and this one I do love the job and I do love my staff… and if the corporation can actually work with us on things like needing staff which they also say they doing currently!!

They gonna have 2 arrangers, one office manager and one part timer at each location eventually ❤️ finally

Mine just needs the part timer ⏲

So my boss needed to go away so all that crap got to fall on corporate lol … cause now they doing shit!! Now we can do it.

That went fast.

So car, job… (still have to handle 1 car)

I may update my residence? But I don’t know? Not yet. Just wait until all my pieces fall so I know where I stand. Plus how would I leave all these amazing people around me? ❤️ they step in and just made my life better every moment they are in it ❤️

It was fate for me to find them

Oh yeah… and tonight on my ride home… so I was really happy and everything is going really good ❤️

When I was in middle school… I happened to like Boy George lol

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Well my parents bought me Culture Clubs cassette

But what ended up happening is that – they STOLE lol my cassette and it became theirs

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We had a 1985 Electric Blue Pontiac Firebird… was my dads toy car? It was bad ass lol

But they made us go for Sunday Drives in that… so allow me to give you a vision…

You have a 1985 Pontiac Firebird…

It looked very similar to that but no white trim and the blue was electric and shiny 💙

So that was my dads special car lol …

So you had my mom and dad up front in the spacious bucket seats ….

Meanwhile I am in one back seat, my brother in the other … and my sister on the hump 😄

This was way back when that was still ok to do lol 😮✌️😄

My father would put in the Culture Club cassette … and BLARE that!! While I sank down in the seat and hoped not to ever see anyone I knew lol 😄✌️

Anyway… Culture Club played my whole way home on the radio – I am a channel flipper

But I dunno… I was happy and then that just reminded me of my dad and ya know, that sorta thing. He just loved Culture Club 😄😄 … it was the music… my dad was very particular with kinds of music… there was something about Culture Club for him ❤️❤️❤️

Culture Club did have really awesome music – I also blare them when they on “now”, makes me remember ❤️ felt like he there for a minute … just for a split second he was in my mind because of that.

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I also have to lovingly add this one …

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Today was a good day …

I am getting a grip ❤️ I fricken work for it… but is working ❤️ woo hoo!

What else do I want? What shall I aim at now? Lol ❤️✌️

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It literally POURED all night long!!! The power of the rain pounded down all night! Lol

It says it will rain again this afternoon – but it has somewhat-ish …paused for now.

Now I do not have to worry with power shut offs – they didn’t shut my power off once this year 🤨😄 I am both happy, but I was also totally prepared and ready to try out my survival skills lol – that didn’t happen lol … but that is a good thing

That was our first good rain!! It is still raining lol

Anyway…

So I am doing things and I have some hesitations?? I should not have any hesitation, but I do.

With looking for jobs… ok well… I’m going to have to stop hiding away. I dunno. I kinda like that alot lol 😘✌️ (peaceful) I will have to peel myself away from that. I like it way too much

I can look as hot as I want to … and not really have to worry. Unless I get out of the car somewhere – no one usually sees me lol ❤️ just coworkers and the occasional person … but I don’t have to have guards up there

But I guess I understand… cause I’m trying to think … if there is a good looking man all dapper dressed up and looking good … yeah ok fine … yes you would turn my head

But that’s only the attraction level area. That has nothing to do with who a person is.

And also… I do not throw myself at men… the way men do at women 🤨🙄

But whatever

That is a hesitation though – cause ok there is going to be that again …ok I can do it …maybe… let’s see (I prefer to avoid that as much as possible)

Oh god.. yeah makes me a little tense when I think about, but it will be fine!! It will all be fine. 🙌

So that’s the first hesitation … I just worry… I have become comfortable 😮

My second one is that… this job is essential – so I get to work still if there is a shut down.

I could still survive- what will happen anywhere else? … I don’t want to be around too many people – I am a wuss 😘✌️ I just want to stay away and have peace ✌️

I’m just nervous – little bit

So on one hand – I have that jump feeling … like when you close your eyes, hold your breath and jump? Just believe you gonna come out fine on the other side, hope for the best.

Sometimes that just works.

But then the other side is like – and you want to leave this isolation?? Get to work by myself sometimes – am hidden away… have awesome coworkers – why do I want to leave? Oh yeah – not enough money, too far, too much stress… ok

So… Ok I am little scared – shhhh 🤫 if not now… then when? Just do it, right ?

I do think so yes… but then I kinda feel panic with that too. It’s fine… it will be totally fine.

I have always loved all my jobs very much… this is first one that I am not loving like should be. It did have a purpose though, and I have loved it… it has been a godsend through everything… but it’s just the corporation – it’s not going to change – I have to. 😝 and something is sketchy but I can’t really figure out what is specifically?

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I just worry but whatever –

It will be fine. Everything will be fine

Reminds me of swimming…

I am a strong swimmer been swimming all my life ❤️

If the water is cold and you let me feel it – I will take forever 😄✌️ I have to brace myself for it – prepare – come to terms that ice cold is gonna be engulfing my body lol

If I just jump right in, I will have the initial instant cold shock 😳🥶 … but I still swim and then it becomes accustomed to me and body gets used to it ❤️ I just have to jump 🤨 lol – I am just on the cautious side that’s all

So it will be fine… I’m just saying my hesitations and concerns … doesn’t stop me – just makes me nervous, so you get to hear about it ✌️❤️

(And yes I and trying to convince myself it will all be fine lol 😘✌️.. which it will be – whatever is given will have to be fine) bleh

One moment while I jump lol kidding – checkin the water first lol

How do you do it? Do you just jump?? That is both thrilling and also terrifying

And then what’s that saying ?? Someone said it recently… I can’t remember who posted about it sorry… but it’s that saying about “what if I fail? Oh but what if you fly?”

So I have to risk the fail? Right? Ok / yes let me line my jump up and I will do that lol 😄😘✌️

See life has to push me along because I am that duckling that lags behind lol …

Life will sometimes push me to go faster 🤨🤨 also… will push me to face things I do not like 🤨 lol

Ok fine whatever

It will all be fine 😘✌️

I will make it amazing ✌️ but ughh getting it there is just little unnerving with stuff

And what do I want??? What do I want?? I am not sure? Ennie Meanie Miney Mo? I don’t even know what I want?? 😮

I sort of do? But not really. ??

All my jobs have been unique and versatile … none are like the others ✌️

I don’t know – whatever – what do I want now? 🤔

See I feel both excitement and fear!!! Ok whatever bring it on

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(I still feel nervous)

Work is asking me to work tmrw and Friday – hours have to be prerecorded this week 🤨

Ok I have to run ✌️

This is what tonight is… all day was like this too…

Just constant pouring rain… so much rain ☔️

Omg right now is just pounding down! 😮😮 like the skies haven’t cried in so long and is letting it all out now lol

It’s really really crazy raining!! Please don’t flood my roads!!! It’s been crazy raining all day… pouring … I am sure there are now rivers in areas 🤨

Whoa lots of rain!

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I did not stay in bed all day … I did for a minute but I really wanted few things handled

According to my app lol.. it says it will also rain tomorrow (Wednesday)

My neighbors and people keep checking on me like something might be wrong? Lol

Is heavy heavy rains and they text and want to make sure I’m ok … umm yes lol… is raining but I’m ok. Is sweet lol ❤️ they keep checking on me.

Should I be worried? Because I wasn’t until they all keep checking on me?? Now I am alerted to possible dangers lol

Hang on trying to be back

Alright today is a day off… going to handle jobs, and then also I worked so much… that I feel like my house is dirty lol – totally neglected … I cleaned up after us, but I usually do a once a week full clean – I stay on top of that usually, it goes pretty quick because I do regularly…

But with work so much… I was too tired. I just did the small daily things and that’s it. It’s been maybe 2 weeks since full clean but is driving me bananas so that will be dealt with.

It’s not a BIG deal … but it drives me nuts because I am unorganized! Which makes me hard to focus – when is organized I just feel more put together? … plus I love the fresh clean look and smell and I light candles 🕯 and it’s just so nice. ❤️

But first I am going to handle jobs… work on that… because I do want out… I do love my girls – and I do love the job and the atmosphere ❤️ I love the calm… yes it gets crazy… but when there is calm – it is total calm ❤️

But ya know it’s a far drive and it’s been kinda draining me, a little bit. It’s too far to drive to go have so much stress 🤨😄 so yeah be working on jobs today.

Alright so working for myself today . I am slow and sleepy because is cloudy and cold.

It is a day where I think ok, let’s adult some more – but then the Devil that sits on my other shoulder (lol) is like “no go ahead spend all day in bed” 😄 I can take one day right? Just not come out of the covers – and I still have the soup I made ❤️

I will sort of aim for that? It will last a little while …and then I’m just going to be thinking about what I have to do. But let’s not go there until later lol 😄✌️ I just don’t want to get out of the covers ❤️ it is a day of staying in bed!! Meh … things to do/stay in bed lol … decisions decisions lol

I should probably do things – but I just need a minute.

I can do both… I can do things from bed lol … so I don’t have to get up technically – except for the cleaning which I can do when I get up lol – which I don’t want to do right now ✌️ everything else I can probably do from bed!! Lol

I just don’t want to move right now!

I be back shortly ish 😘✌️❤️

Ok so… work went well. My girls are really stressed.

What else is new – people need to stop dying for one minute!! Let us catch up!!

One of my girls said something today that kinda struck me? She said how come when doctors help someone into the world they get paid the big money? And we help people out of the world, but we don’t make big money?

Well no one wants to talk funerals or think about or deal with it… is after thought. Life has been completed. Everything has ended.

Just like the star performer makes the big money , but the cleaning crew after the concert does not make as much at all lol – shows over

Anyway was just something that struck me when she said it.

I got to see my funny guy today!!! 😄❤️

One of my girls had a graveside today… so there was new cemetery guy… first time she meeting him!!!

And the family wanted to watch casket lowered which I guess they don’t normally … but this cemetery said they could… so my arranger went to ask what is the procedure?

And he goes over it with her… blah blah blah

Then after everything he asks her for her business card. She gives it to him and he says… is that your cell phone number?

She said no

He said well here put your cell phone number on there…

And she said “no if you need to reach me the office number is the best way to get ahold of me“

He continued asking for her cell phone number until she was highly uncomfortable and flat out told him no!!

Do you see how it is??? Yeah like that.

Well she felt very uncomfortable. Attendant was also there.

That is a work environment… we funeral people, they cemetery. Anyway so that was a thing

But for her was in a working environment with the family right there and she was highly uncomfortable. So I think she saying something.

What is with guys? Why are like that???

Anyway.. ooooohhhh I have news!!! Guess what?!

I have The Weekend off!!! Yes did you hear me??? I have the weekend off!!!! Omg Saturday AND Sunday!!! 😮❤️❤️❤️

A whole weekend off!!! I have not had a weekend off since January!! 😮😮😮

And I was all excited – this was on our morning meeting … I got all excited and then said… not that I can go anywhere, or do anything – but yay!! 😄❤️

So I have a weekend ❤️ I might get all my weekends – I think they want me during week instead.

But this is my first weekend… what do I do with a weekend … my first instinct was oooohhh what can I do, who can I call? What are my options? Lol … But then I remembered – oh yeah… nothing/no one 🤨

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I just wish to do “something”… I don’t care if is boring… but just something – I won’t cause don’t want to deal with the virus. So that just stinks 🤨 and it’s winter

But yay I have a weekend… I’m still really excited about having a weekend ❤️😄✌️… for no reason other than just to have it lol … Friday gonna be even more amazing kicking off 2 whole days of the weekend like that!!

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So … yeah. ❤️

Recently I was on a kick with that SNL “Leave me Alurn” thing… I could not stop laughing about it lol – I literally showed it to everyone 😄❤️✌️… you “have to” see this!! Lol

Well that took off 😄✌️ they are showing to people , and they showing other people …etc etc etc

Too funny ❤️

I wish I could just freely “be”… like we used to be- before someone unleashed hell upon us 🤨😠

Bleh

Almost there I guess – another year or so. 🤨 better than nothing – right? Almost there.

I do like the peace… from the isolation and time to heal and all that… I like the less crowded areas.

I kinda like the mask a lot ❤️ I forget that I have it on sometimes at night.

But I do just miss simply doing ANYTHING!!! 🤨

There are pluses and minuses – so whatever.

It’s funny – just such a difference in way we live now.

~ sigh ~

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I miss having my friends and kinda being alive ??

Oh yeah… someone was saying things about people 🤨😄 so I then asked – if you say that about them, what do you say about me? Lol 😄✌️

To which this person replied 🤨🤨… “oh you are wild” 😮🤨

What?? No!! I am not wild lol … I am not. I am furthest from wild

I am very boring. I like documentaries and comedies being safe and secure and peace and nature … summer lol ✌️😘… boring. Nothing overly exciting.

I do have a wild streak… but no – I am not wild. Don’t be saying things like that …no no!!

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Ok off to relax and read 😘✌️

Good night 💤😴😘❤️✌️

I open the door to the flower room because I have an outside light I need to turn off in there.

I open the door to a flower wonderland 😮❤️❤️❤️ omg it smells so good!!

I have never seen flowers so HUGE!!! 😄 omg – it may not look huge in the photo but in person omg huge!! … it is bigger than ME! Lol

Is for today’s viewing

Anyway – they beautiful ❤️

I wonder if we get attendants 😮👏🙏

Ok have to run 😘✌️