So yes, I am tense. I can not find my calm.

It all makes me feel sick- I will explain later. I need to lay down.

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Btw – it’s not depression?? Because I am not sad?? I am overwhelmed. Not sad ??

I will try to be back later – I lay down for little while ? Maybe? 🙏 we see

I have urge to go silent and withdraw but I won’t. I’m just saying that the urge is there to do that.

Ok I need to lay down

I am overwhelmed.

Just having a moment.

It will be fine.

It’s totally fine.

I don’t know? I am just overwhelmed – it will be fine.

It is fine – just keep saying that.

I am just having little panic over every single thing!! Too many things!!

I can not date – I just can’t, I can’t do it – I need to – I want to… but I can’t … I can not be at ease with that. Not yet.

I want to – but I just can’t

And then court stuff

And then just pressure and stuff – which I don’t mind – but there are a lot of things causing massive pressure (work)

It will be fine and I will handle one at a time whew it will be totally fine – I am just tense – it’s just many things all at same time so I just need to breathe through them.

I just feel like my stomach is in knots and I can’t really breathe well… it is labored because I am trying to relax shhh

It is totally fine – nothing I can’t handle – and I will.

I am just overwhelmed by too many things

Ok well … I have to get back… I might have to go home – I need a minute

Just having panic that’s all – it’s fine. I am breathing through it.

It will be fine. I can not add anything else omg – ok how to avoid everything else

Ok I have to go – breathe remember to breathe

The mask is not helping me breathe whew

Ok I will be back, I promise, just give me time

Ok so Wednesday …

First at work, YESTERDAY I said something to someone about that… I was just looking at the notary information. Just reading so I had mentioned that YESTERDAY – just in conversation 😮

I didn’t think anything else of it.

And then today, my boss said “are you interested in becoming a notary?” 😮😮

Instantly I remembered yesterday lol – and the conversation! Did she mention to the boss? 😮

But yes!! I am interested ❤️❤️❤️ teach me more ❤️❤️❤️❤️

So they are going to pay for all of it – for me to become a notary ❤️ … so my value just went up lol ❤️❤️ yay! 🙌

What else can I do? Lol ❤️

I asked my coworker if she had said something and she swore she did not 😮😮😮

I put that out there – and then it happened 😮🙌

See … magical powers 😘✌️ .. “believe” in yourself 😘❤️✌️

And then… I am still not very sure with country boy because I just don’t know? I like him, and he’s hot and everything – but I don’t know??

I appreciate him, he has been an incredible friend, he does actually he treat me very delicately lol. Very gentle.

He is gentle and slow and kinda lets me just be me? He doesn’t pressure although he is persistent – he is persistent but… one problem I have – is that he sucks with communication and I am huge with communication lol … yeah so ?? That could bother me?

I am thinking through

Ok wait – he offers what I want. 🤔 hmm… I need to have a list of more items that scare men – there is no way someone getting past a ton of them lol ✌️ then maybe??

But um… I still need time – I know he offers what I want – but he isn’t in my life a lot. At all. Extremely rarely. He does not live near me. He lives maybe hour or so away.

So I need to know him more – I like him, I am attracted to him, and he offers what I want…

BUT… I don’t know him well. So ya know. I’m still cautious.

You can talk a good game but let’s see your follow through.

I don’t know. That right there makes me nervous. I don’t think he can – but I also didn’t think he would agree to what I want 😮😮

And just because you pass that, I still need to feel at ease. I don’t trust country boy in that way??

I trust him in the way that, he is not and has never been any kind of drama – he is peaceful and chill, sweet gentlemanly – nice guy 😊

But I don’t know if I trust him to have my soul at ease? There is something?? I am not at ease. 😮

Ok so I want the thing that I want… and I need to be at ease and I need to breathe?

He might be too different than me?? He is very country… I am not very country lol (I only live there because I love the peace)

I don’t want to just be blinded, I want to see the whole picture.

He is going to be a hard core man… I very girly and very womanly lol – that could also be a conflict – we are not gonna understand each other 😮

But I don’t know, because he does surprise me sometimes? Like he “half” gets it or somethin? But not a 100% lol

He can be amazing – but there is just something that ?? I don’t know … doesn’t sit right?

But he does offer me what I want 😮 and that is rare. So I dunno?

And anyway?? With him I don’t even know what that means??

Ok so anyone can tell me you gonna give me that… we see … I am making a larger list lol 😘✌️

I don’t live near him, I never see him – I have a busy life – so what exactly does he want? He really confuses me. Is that so he doesn’t have to do much? Cause I am busy? We each have our own busy lives so ?? What is the point of that?? So ya know whatever …I am not sure

I have never made it to this point before. Ugh 🤦‍♀️ and him of all people I just didn’t expect.

I don’t know.

And then a friend kinda lectured me because I keep to self, and he is offering what I want … yeah but I know it’s never going to be perfect – I get that.

But there is something about him that makes me feel heartbreak ?? It’s weird?? I don’t know??

So yeah??? I do not know “what happens now” 😮

Cause I still have a busy life and so does he… so when he supposed to know me? We busy… so wait … 😮 I have to think because hold on!!!

Omg I think I understand why the thing I asked for did NOT scare him 😮😮😮

Ok wait – wait just a minute…

Oh no …ok well how he is taking it – i will need to clarify

I will have to fix this 🤨

I am sure he enjoys the busy life and minimal socializing lol

I don’t know. I’m not really independent like that. That’s why I am careful for anyone to come in close – my heart is way too sensitive – so just easier and peaceful being protective

But someone told me, my ex just wants it like that.. because he still kinda has a slight power there – it is because of him

So now I just am too terrified… and I can’t have someone come in so closely like that… and what I ask for and want, needs supportive measures lol 😘✌️

What I want – I want to umm 🤔 well it’s just kinda personal and so I don’t know if I actually trust him? And then there is this heartbreak feeling when I talk to or text him?? I have no idea why?? That has never happened ever ever before? There is just a sense of …I don’t know ?? Heartbreak?

So I don’t know.

I need time.

~ sigh ~

I really like him, and he would be amazing… but there is something ?? Just something I can’t really figure it out ?? But I feel a heartbreak ?? …so I don’t know, I have no idea where that feeling is coming from – maybe he trying to come too close??

Maybe it’s me? I don’t know?

I am the one who wants to run 😮 sorta … with heavy feet because he offers what I want lol

But when I say what I want / I really mean it.

So I don’t know. I don’t know what any of it means? I do not know what happens now?

But I do know – he is gentle and kind – very sweet.. always makes sure I am comfortable and happy – so I need anything he always asks lol …

But I don’t know?? I feel a heartbreak somehow?? Something?

It’s really weird?? I never felt that with him before?? Is it because he’s trying to come close?? Cause now – I do not know??

But that feeling halts me completely 😮 so I am still unsure with him?

He’s amazing, all of it… he says what I want is fine with him (although I am going to clarify my meaning of what I want because I am not sure which terms he took that in 🤨) I want to make sure is the correct meaning and thing I want 😘✌️

Just to be clear ✌️

So anyway – I do not really know … Ok so it is me – yup – I am pretty sure it is me.

I just need time – and I don’t really feel at ease enough to really let my guard down with him.

I don’t want to remain guarded with someone close. So hmm – check that too

Yeah it’s me 😮

I need time.

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So… not really sure of anything actually

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I just got asked if I want to be a notary!!

Work said they will pay for my classes, pay for my test, pay for my license and insurance – as well as for the equipment 😮

I will work my normal job and then have that notary thing when we need 🙌❤️

Also… adding notary to me increases my worth 😊 yay!!

I am excited but someone told me pay careful attention and make sure am ok with it – cause one small mistake can be jail time or heavy fines

I will have to read up on

But I am excited ❤️ and I can use that personally too if want

😮 – I am at work – I have tons going on.. I’m headed out door at moment – they just mention to me ❤️✌️

Be back after work

Why didn’t he run?? 😮😮😮

So country boy… didn’t care what I asked for 😮😮😮 it didn’t scare him off 😮😮😮

What do I do now? 😮😮

Usually I do not have to deal after that. Works quite nicely actually… until today!! 😮

I am a little shocked… because what I asked for is kinda HUGE TALL ORDER… not for the faint hearted – which is why it usually works really well… I do not believe most can handle it?? 😮

Especially men… but he didn’t run…

I have not responded because I did not expect him to be ok with it …

Now what do I do??? 😮😮 I don’t know what to do or what to say.

Whew! Breathe! 😳😮

Ok so that did not scare him 😮 I’m just really shocked that didn’t scare him 😮

It’s never failed 😮 it is a lot to ask of someone 😮 ALOT

And he’s still not bothered by it 😮 I just totally expected him TO BE bothered. And he’s not 😮

Ok so what do I do now? 😮😮 I didn’t think that far because I never have to 😮

What I want is so big… and he’s ok with it 😮

Ok let me think. I did not see that coming. I laid it out so that if he gonna be scared – he be scared now. I don’t want him coming close and then getting scared – so I scare right away lol 😘✌️

But he wasn’t scared 😮 what??

Ok now I am scared 😮😮 little bit – cause that is pretty huge to not be scared of what I want 😮😮

I am somewhat stunned, and then I think about that – I asked him for this thing I want… I just laid it out and said “this is what I want – I don’t know that you can give that to me… you can run if you want, it’s important to me… and you need to know “that” before you step to me. It’s fine if not for you, I have no issue if is not for you. I need you to be honest! And if are trying to come into my life – I can’t do that without that, I’m sorry”

And I just left it like that. It took him 2 days 😮😮

Uh oh 😧 ok this is that lesson “be careful what you wish for” 😮😮

Do I really have to have that lesson RIGHT NOW?? I have had that lesson before

Obviously I did not learn it correctly 🤨

It’s not bad… I am just still processing, because I did not see it going this way. I didn’t expect 😮

😳😳😳

He is the first that is not scared by what I ask for 😮😮😮 I am very stunned by that 😮😮😮

I am so used to laying it out and then it clears them out. So I don’t have to deal with any of it. I focus on work and I don’t have to be distracted by people who are not sincere

I don’t want anyone coming close to me who isn’t sincere …. and then also this…

I don’t want anyone in my life who doesn’t want to be there, and I don’t want someone who can’t realize what they have either. Never again.

So… ok he steps up to the plate… but can he hit the ball? Lol omg 😮😮😮

Omg ok so breathe 😳😳😳

I be back to read shortly 😘✌️ omg

I do have something funny from today …

So I took a call from a woman named “Trisha” and then I am “Trisha”

And then on that same call I had to speak to the hospitals nursing supervisor – guess what her name was 😮😮😮 omg yes!!! It was Trisha

How did all these people get my name???!!! I have never ever dealt with so many Trisha’s ever in my life and on one call!!

What?? That is not a widely used name!!! That I know of – or I didn’t get that memo 😮

Why so many Trisha’s today?? 😮 in one swoop 😮😮😮

I didn’t know so many existed 😮😮 …it is not a very popular name… I do not hear often

So weird so many Trisha’s today 😮😮😮

I just don’t hear my name very often, and then today …I met so many Trisha’s 😮

The deaths are starting up again. Be careful!! Please be careful!! We are not out of the woods yet… just because we opening means nothing – there is still a danger so be aware and be careful.

Still follow the protocols… wash your hands, wear a mask, don’t touch your face, keep a distance.

Just wait… They are vaccinating as fast as possible…

Be patient – which I know is not a strong suit… but be patient – we so close to being safe… please be careful!!

And then today… 🤨 … I have one arranger who is new… last week we had a first call and he only give it to one arranger

No! It must go to all of us – because IF something happens to the director for whatever reason or she can not come in … I need to know there is a call out there to be handled

So he was spoken to about that – already … he will now email all 3 of us

Then today my part times comes and tells me he called HIM ON HIS CELL – not even the office number – to say he needs my part timer to go over there for something – instead of asking me

I had no idea what was going on and it caused a huge issue. So I went to my boss

He seems to ONLY turn to the young staff directly – ok THAT is gonna be his downfall – I don’t complain about anything ever but I will complain about that!

I am the office manager – you want my part timer – you ask me!

And what is this crap? Age discrimination?

He just does not want to deal with anyone over 30. So we gonna have some issues if that continues – he will be blocked from their phones, if he can’t figure it out – then he will have to go through me

Cause that is ridiculous and now caused problems as of today! If you want me staff – you go through me!

So boss will handle that for me.

I would handle myself – but I am supposed to go through boss… so I do that.

And then country boy… he text me… so I don’t know how sincere he is or what he wants? What do want? To get in pants?… what?

So I am hard on guys. Because no.

If you want to come at me, then you be honest and tell me what you want.

I give country boy little extra leeway because he has been amazing and sweet through everything – I am still hard on him … but not as hard as I am with the others

And today my one of my directors said something about someone else asking about me… 🤨

Ok the answer is no. Especially if pertains to work. Any of the families – no… any of the workers – no… so the answer is no.

I was complaining to a male worker about this today… and he tells me “well you are an attractive woman” 🤨

Ok so that makes it ok… I see

And then you judge me based on what I look like …so the answer is no. You think no, but that is the way – so nope 👎

So that’s gonna be an issue for me.

So I dunno. It’s an issue this week.

And then people be flirting and stuff and I stay very professional, because no!! I want none of that!

Sorta – country boy text me and ya know I have a lot on my plate… he is very sweet, he is kind… but he is also a man… no offense – but I don’t trust his motive – he is not overly communicative

So I have this thing I do… if you try to come too close – I tell you exactly what I want

And what I want is really deep… and is not really something you can ask for and know for sure – but I want that

You give that to me and I will stop in my tracks – but so far works well as a deterrent

It will scare you off… it doesn’t scare him off though but he doesn’t say yes either? So I am not sure how to handle him.

So I don’t know.

If you give me what I want… then you shall have the world – but until then – I have to deal with all this 🤨🙄

Yes it’s flattering … but at the same time is overwhelming and I want nothing to do with it.

And no one understands why. I have several reasons.

So whatever

I have to run but I be back shortly ✌️

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I have no idea how to find the comments or anything actually!!? I have no idea where anything is, for WordPress on the computer!

I know I have things to respond to and read, but I can’t find them here. ??? I do not ever EVER use the computer for WordPress

I will see there is a reply on my phone, it still does notifications… but I can not get into them on the phone – and I have no idea where to find them on the computer. – There are way too many things on the computer – is very junked up to me. I do not like it.

I did find my profile and changed my about me lol… so I was excited about that, cause I can not find that on the phone. I don’t sit there and play around on these things. ALL I do is post and sorta socialize lol … that’s it! Nothing fancy. Simple – I want simple – I do not like hunting things.

So hopefully the app comes back – I hate the computer… I have to use a computer for work. I don’t want to be at a computer! I like WordPress App for the simplicity and ease… plus mobility. The computer has none of those things to me lol

But it is new… so I am not familiar with computer for WordPress

Hopefully my app comes back… I can’t do music because that will be long and involved figuring out – and I don’t feel like sitting here trying to figure that out – so I am lacking music…. and emoji’s – I have no idea where those are. I never use the computer for anything except work.

I haven’t touched a computer for fun stuff in a few years. I don’t like the computer. I am never on the computer. I feel chained with a computer. bleh

Also my computer is a windows computer… I do not like the OS of Microsoft/Windows things. I find it very difficult, clunky and hard to use for anything. I do however LOVE all Apple products lol… again for the simplicity and ease… I am just used to Apple. Plus I feel safe and secure with Apple… I do not feel safe and secure with Windows OS

Whatever = just saying

I have to go. I will be back when able… hopefully on my phone.

Also when I make a mistake – my phone will fix it and let me go fast… the computer just shows me the error but makes me go back and fix it. Annoying!!!! I don’t make many mistakes but my fingers do fly, so it happens.

ok enough complaining – I just want my app! What is wrong with it? Maybe I will try WordPress on my phone but within Safari and see if that might work? I really hate it on the computer!

WordPress on my phone is NOT working!! It just crashes – Since Friday!! I can’t get it to open at all.

I do not like using on computer which is what I am doing now. I do not like the way it feels/ looks/handles on the computer. I prefer the phone app – is easier and mobile. This on the computer WordPress – I do not like it and can not find anything!!!!!

Guess what!!! I am Divorced!!!! I am free!!!! I will tell you more when my app is back, but I am free!!!

He was still awful, and I have alot to tell… I just hate doing this on the computer – it is throwing me off very much.

When my app comes back – I will tell you all the details. I just like the simpleness and ease of the app better, online on a computer sucks!

Ok I have to go – I will be back when I can – even if on computer – but I do not understand where anything is on the computer, I feel weird using it on computer. It looks weird, feels weird… very weird. I have no idea where anything is! I just see post button so I hit that… even writing here is weird. I am much better on the phone.

I do not know what is wrong with the app… it stopped working on Friday. Then I had an update so thought maybe was that? So I updated. and restarted the phone and still it won’t load. ?? So I have no idea what is wrong with it??

The blue load screen comes up like its loading and then it crashes. bleh

Ok well – Not liking computer at all! Forcing me to use computer … I don’t even know where the emoji’s are!!!! Yeah I do not like the computer.

I have to do a life history evidentially … because he wrote one to the court claiming I was the abusive one 😮😮 he says he is the victim of “ME”

Ok so let me write my account of the marriage

If he had any ounce of empathy and compassion like he claims… he would never let another human being experience what I experienced while he attacked, so you tell me. THE COURT had to step in and TELL him to allow me to battle cancer!!!

So I have to do that … that means I have to remember moments – so I can recount them 😔 I hate him

So now I have to face those moments and recount them… that makes me feel sick. To remember those moments – of what, when he almost killed me? you want those details – alright let’s lay it all out.

Ready Satan… here we go …

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I definitely DO NOT love him!! I just hate everything about the loser. He’s the victim – ha! What a joke … 250lbs vs 120 🤨 Asshole

Everything that comes out of his mouth is a lie – this is why he terrifies me… he lies so well… and I have never had protection before now… so that is different this time. But I do not trust the courts because they have allowed him to continuously LIE!!

I have several letters of recommendation … tons… so hopefully my character references help.

I want to write down my account so in court I do not get upset cry or forget

I hate him. I want to say something… but I don’t want that karma. So I don’t say.

So I have to do that.

Also all my jobs required a calmness, empathy and compassion… my school position, my police things, and the funeral home… all of them required understanding and compassion…

I hope the courts see through who he is 🙏🙏 please 🙏🙏

Also guess who called me today?? 😮😮😮😮 MY SCHOOL!!!! For next year!!! 😮😮😮 they want me back 😮😮

But my answer will be “no”… I miss my kids but that was only part time… I need Full Time…

I currently have full time and currently fit in where I am… I love my position, I love my staff, I love my job…

They could not match my current hours OR pay. So I will have to pass. I do have to survive.

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I was stunned they call me 😮😮 ❤️❤️ I do miss those kids!!

But I fit with death at moment and has lifted me up further … I can’t step back down. So … that made my heart pump today… I didn’t answer because I didn’t know who was ?? Thought telemarketer… but nope … when I listened to the message and they said…

We want you back and want to know your availability.

Well they let me go… I had to survive last year. I have no availability now.

I love those kids – but at the same time … I just fit well where I am – I don’t question it anymore ❤️❤️❤️

I love the independence and the support and the trust… I love my coworkers and the job. It’s not ever easy… but it is easy for me to pull from my own emotions with those things… I can connect very easy with loss and devastation.

So it did make my heart pound. I hope those kids are doing good!! I miss them sooo much!! I never had a chance to say goodbye to them, they wouldn’t let me because when things were shutting down in March of 2020, they had not told parents yet… so I could not tell the kids or say anything… I had to look at their faces and know but not say a word 😮 that was hard

I wanted to tell all those kids how much they effected my life… I wanted to tell them how I had just had cancer and they made me light and have life again …

Their brightness with what was in front of them… their energy… their kindness… how much they made me feel welcome and loved ❤️❤️ when I didn’t have my own kids – I borrowed yours ❤️ I never got a chance to tell them just how much they all meant to me ❤️

But I am mushy on those types of things, so I would have cried anyway. But those kids were amazing ❤️

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It is pouring again… downpouring!!! My commute was sooooo awful!! Omg these California people and driving in bad weather 🤨🙄

Holy moly!!! When bad weather starts they are cautious… but by winters end… I guess they don’t care anymore cause they fly and swerve in and out … and since everything reopening fricken traffic is back full on!!

And is bad weather – complete downpour!! 😮 so huge puddles all over the place!! On side streets/on highway/ everywhere!!! So hydroplaning 🤨 slow your roll – I would like to live thank you 😘✌️

They so used to driving in sunny and beautiful that you give bad weather and it’s a fricken free for all… only at the very start of winter and bad weather are they cautious. 🙄🤨

Also … I have one more thing… this will be me bitching about something because it makes me very mad!!

So… let’s go ahead and lay out our dirty laundry…

I am so fricken ass tired of this racist shit!!! So here let me give my 2cents …

Racism is based out of fear – fear or not understanding, fear of the unknown, fear of different… it is also very small minded.

Do you label me on my nationality? I am Irish and Lithuanian by blood… by I am an American born and raised 🇺🇸❤️ … I had no control over that either. I was given the cards I was dealt

Do you label me on my religion? I am Catholic – but I will never shove that down your throat… I am very private there and handle my own way… but I do claim Catholic, I was just raised that way.

Do label me on my eye color or hair color – I also had no control over that either

And … let me ask you this… if some random Irish person or maybe some random American does something bad – are you going to judge me because I am Irish or American?

People are human beings not a race!!! Not a nationality, none of that!!

So now racists are using covid to target Asians!!

Exactly what race are these racists?? Because ?? How you gonna be racist when everyone is some race?? Including them!!

I hate that we label by race and things – I wish we could stop that!! Why do we have to label literally everything 🤨

My part timer is asian – if any one goes after him or targets him- you will have me after you! I will absolutely stand by him and protect him!!

He is an amazing person and we cherish him!! He’s the one who followed me around taking notes … whatever we need done … he is on it!! He is brilliant and solves my technical issues … he helps all of us with whatever we need help with ❤️

He is funny and loyal and fits in with us ❤️

One of my other funeral homes wants to steal him from me lol… because he is THAT good! No!! He is ours, we want him.

I have allowed them to borrow him 2days this week because they were in a bind.

They made a comment about wanting to take him… ughhh no! Lol … I told him that and he laughed…

He said when he was there he felt awkward and “in the way”? He said was just a different atmosphere than when he is with us.

When he is with us, he is comfortable and enjoys us – he feels like he fits in with us ❤️ he is PART of us!!! He melted in with us immediately!! ❤️ it took him maybe a few days to get used to us lol … and now he is one of us ❤️ he has just melted in perfectly ❤️

The words he said to me was “I am never going to any other funeral home… I love it here… I want to be here with you guys. I belong to ugly walls” (he didn’t say ugly walls – but I do not want to share the name of my funeral home – I still love privacy 😘✌️)

But he said that. So he is loyal ❤️

He is funny… our humors are all very similar … because we are funeral people – so we are hilarious lol… we balance the sad with the most amazing personalities ❤️ we are team ❤️

Or maybe that’s just MY people ?? ❤️❤️ (I have literally THE most incredible amazing people!!)

His demeanor … is amazing… he is calm … he has a very calming way to him … his speech is calm… he speaks perfectly!! I believe he is American raised – just like me 😘✌️

His family comes from Taiwan 🇹🇼

He is young, but VERY mature… his mannerisms are mature and calm … he is very comforting and also strong 🙌❤️

He is eager to learn, we give him freedom to do that and we also help teach him!! He is like a sponge 🧽… you give him information and he sucks it up!! He’s really amazing!! I am impressed by him.

I can not think of ANY bad thing about him at ALL!! I could keep going on and on about how amazing he is!! He is poised and good posture. Got himself a suit, he polishes his shoes – dude has got it!!

We had funeral people appreciation day and corporate let us get something we wanted – we made our chairs better with supports… but do you know what he asked for??

He asked for a shoe shine kit… and a tea 🍵 that comes from Taiwan 🇹🇼 … this kid! He’s pretty amazing and impressive!

His shoe shine kit is adorable and he was all excited ❤️ he understands presentation ❤️ and he loves his tea 🍵

Now HE would be what I consider a man … he has good morals, he’s a good kid, he is responsible, he kind, thoughtful, he is calm – he’s just amazing – how else do you say?

I suppose I could say it’s nice having a man around lol … even though he is a kid lol (late 20’s) … to me he is young. Quite the most delightful young man!

So how you gonna miss out on that?? See what you miss when you be a racist for any reason?

You could completely miss out on an incredible person or culture!! A racist doesn’t realize that!!

And can we not hurt each other? How does one not think of people as human beings? With families and people who love them?

Where is the empathy, love or compassion??? Some people are void of that 😮😮😮 – I know this is truth -because I was married to Satan so I can say that ✌️😘 it is truth…

However … then you see shining lights like my part timer – who for his age is well beyond his years and that kid will go far! He has a very bright future, he is a strong young man, very impressive.

So let me say this… quit the shit.

I am so tired of all this awful stuff… stop!!! That is why I do not turn on the news!! See it made me all mad and then I take longer than I wanted to 🤨

But I will protect him any way I have to. I stand behind him, all of us do! He does the same for us ❤️

He is one of mine now, so I got his back.

These are the stupidest issues ever!! I can’t believe I am even venting on this!

This should not be issues in 2021!! How much longer are we gonna have these issues that have zero pertinence to life???

I am just mad that some people think they are god 😡

I have to go. I have homework. And then court tmrw … I feel a little sick… my tummy is turning. I am nervous. And scared.

Ok so I have to go. I procrastinated 😘✌️

Good Night 🌙😴💤😘

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