Well she still trying to figure out if she can go see mom, but she is not in a condition or financial standing to do so, and I don’t have that kind of money.
I just told her the distances and the cost. Lady… you come to me first, have respite and then work.
She will have roof over head and food, and clothes. Ahhh and then my family back together and mom can have all 3 children!! Omg she would just go nuts – I’m sure of it ❤️❤️ she would know us all together 🙏 maybe?? But would be quite awesome!!
I could help her get strong and stand up.
I know won’t be easy. I know gonna have parts that suck because “life” … I don’t expect perfect… mostly lol (I’m kidding I don’t )
But I want to see her be strong.
If she wanna see mom, then she has to get stronger – she would flip the f out to see mom the way she is… is not what she remember – has been long time. She would not function … hello – this is MY sister lol
So… alright flights then.
Ok – and it begins 😳
Ok so… I will have my sister back ❤️🙏🙏🙏 please let go well 🙏🙏🙏❤️ dear lord please 🙏🙏🙏
Also… if THAT change actually does happen… then an emotional support animal would probably surely be needed 🙌 … but we see slowly … just building my case lol ✌️
Ok and then… the builder tell me we do a picnic lol … so ok lol 🤷♀️ that’s not this week but maybe next week.
He is sweet in texts.
I say …cool – be fun, am excited
And he say… I am excited to see your smiling face again.. lol
So… picnic 🧺. Alright. Picnics are cool lol … nice and chill and quiet you can talk …
Must look around for ants before picking a spot.
I can bring some stuff too. Be fun. We see if still click… could have just been a moment ?? We see ?
I don’t really want to talk too much about it.. but I am just disappointed by some people.
I am trying not to take personally… but I am. And also… now I do not believe or trust what say…
So. Now I be different … now there gonna be distance and mistrust
It’s going to be handled … but it doesn’t make me feel any better.
So anyway, little bummed – kinda just took wind out of sails after everything. Like I said … it will be handled … but I’m just sad it went there cause now I can’t trust or believe. Good luck with that. I will never trust or believe now. I just see who some people are…
See doesn’t take long time before you see someone’s true colors – see how evil someone can be when they think they have power or control… or can gain it.
Most of that song – yes! BUT I do not ever ever ever ever wish anyone dead ever – that is bad … so just ignore that one part ✌️
So whatever – next subject…
My oldest came over this afternoon… we just talking about stuff and I feed him dinner ❤️
I telling him about everything and then…
I know something … a change that is coming… I’m not supposed to know… I only know because I talk and help everyone… so just as I am loyal to my boss… many are also loyal to me, because I have also had their backs.
Since I talk to everyone – people just tell me stuff so I know things ✌️
So I said “IF this change actually happens, then maybe I get pet” ❤️
And he say… oh mum why you wanna do that to yourself?
What?? Have a loving awesome companion ? Lol
He say “ no you pay a lot of money to be devastated and cry when they die – you got about 10 years depending on the breed”
Ugh!! What a horrible way to see it!
He listed off vet bills and food and medical issues… and then they die and you cry
Well yes… but then what about that saying? Is it better to have loved and lost? Or to have never loved at all?
So when I am ready … I’m ok for love even if I will lose… I am little hesitant with it, because I want to make sure I am ready …
But as far as loss goes, yes I will lose them in roughly decade. But anything you love – you will lose one way or another. You don’t know how fast or slow you could lose someone.
Do you just not touch love again?
Cause me of all people… if something causes pain or makes hurt? Then I want nothing to do with…
Death causes pain and hurt – but I don’t totally run away from it. I do not like when it stops and looks my way lol… but I know it hurts
But then that love to animal who maybe needs someone? ❤️
I would make it be a big decision – because I can’t just up and leave places, if I am caring for something . And I wanna make sure I would be able to care for really well
I do think about love and loss.
For those I currently love… I can not imagine life without having them in it… and because of some – I stand so – without I be nothing…
It would be greater loss to have never known.
But it does make me hesitate little. I don’t like the broken heart from a loss… is very hard.
But then I do think of those who are in my life … and I would not want to know life without knowing them… they are worth it. So yes I can love them … and yes I will be devastated to lose person or animal…
Love keeps life balanced even with loss.
If and when I feel ready for a animal, I be ok with it. I would give them happy life while I could. I know is temporary. I just get to have for moment.
What if I am meant to help an animal who has no one… I’m not gonna say no.
I won’t go look til I am ready and know I am ready
Same I guess for love in general
He’s just reeling from all the losses recently… we lost a dog and then things with my mom (his Nana)… and he worries with my medical things …
All the major events for him to see death. Never before so much death around for him to experience – so he did not like the heartbreak of death either
But this is the way life works … my heart will be broken hearted to actually lose my mom and I probably won’t function well at first. But it is because I will miss her love and never have her again… so that just chokes me up to say…
But does that mean no more love ? No.
It’s ok. It hurts badly but life continues.
And love can heal hurt
He still just reminds me they will die soon
He’s still mourning the loss of Chico. He lost his dog Chelsea in 2018… thanksgiving… and then Chico died right before all the stuff with my mom…
There is one more dog… she is 12. 😮
So his heart is little hurt with death
I wish was easy way to make it not hurt so bad.
Death lessons are good – you have to be able to handle.
When I go through things with my mom and I cry or sob… is good… it lets out the emotions so they not insane crazy .. it lets me come to terms with it
I think about all the people I have lost also. My family… so … it doesn’t matter if is person or animal – is still gonna hurt … he say useless self causing pain…
But is it though? Because is just as important to know love, even if it comes with loss
He has to find his own way through it… he has sensitive heart (he’s my son lol) he’s manly and he is the one who always wins the games – we can never beat him lol … he does not like you to see him upset or sad … (I am similar)
But he does not process his emotions the same – I’m pretty open with emotions always – very in touch mostly … he’s more private and have to be strong type.
But I’m also his mom, so I make sure he ok. He thinks he hides pressure from me but he doesn’t – I can see on his face
Loss will definitely effect you.
I just don’t want him afraid of love, because of experiencing loss.
Meh… even I hesitate for a minute thinking of that- is powerful heartbreak with loss, it can make love seem like bad thing
So I dunno. I gonna watch him with that
And it’s good for me to see how he sees … because it makes me also look at way I see it.
Death is a part of life that no one wants to see or speak of – then when experience – it’s hard to digest. The heartbreak is severe – it can mold the way you see death… and life
But you have to come to that yourself. Life will teach you, even if you don’t wanna speak about. ✌️
Because I can’t imagine life without my people, and I have so much love because of them…
So while it’s heartbreaking and devastating … yes it’s 100% worth it. Absolutely!!! I do hesitate to think about … but it is completely worth it to still open heart to love
He will learn that one day, in his own time.
I joked and said “mine will be an emotional support animal” … that way they can come with me everywhere lol ❤️🙌 and I have emotional support love for 10 years lol ✌️
He is just sensitive heart … I also have sensitive heart – but I am comfortable showing and sharing emotions … lol … He is more private with emotions… he has same heart but always thinks he has to be strong
He had to take care of me after surgeries … he didn’t have to… and I told him no… but he said “mum you take care of me, my whole life… let me take care of you” … so how I say no to that? And I needed someone so… I let him.
He had to feed me and change bandages, help me get up or anything… he kept strict track of my meds …
He was the one I had to go over health care directive and funeral plans just incase … so ya know is my child so ../ he just always thinks he has to be so strong
He is a strong man ❤️ look what I raised ❤️
I feel for him. His emotions and heart
You have to just live life and let it be.
… trying to talk me out of an animal using death. Yeah I think about the loss – but then I also think of a cute little face to love and always happy to be with, maybe saving animal who need that emotional support also?… and then I remember nothing about death lol – once I think of all the amazing things … then yes I get lost in wanting that – I don’t care if later I feel loss – that is life. I am blessed to have the moments ❤️
So… yeah … I’ll go ahead and take those 10 years thank you very much lol ❤️✌️
… when I’m ready
Now he just has to come to what it is for him.
… yes they do love having a mother who watches their emotions 😄😄 – they won’t admit that though lol 😉
I know how to guide MOST emotions. And NOW … I am an elder …”officially” this year lol …
So… I am mom who read emotions AND an elder with all the life answers lol 😄 … I’m kidding – I may be elder this year but… I do still learn 😑… sometimes I don’t always have the answer – but in those cases, I am comforting 😘🙏
When they were little … I used to tell them all these magical stories about me lol … like about how the Fourth of July is to kick off my birthday (aka my independence from the womb) lol 😄😄
And then I also told them I had these magical powers that could instantly make you feel better… believe it or not – it worked lol … I told them that and when they would fall or get hurt – they would start to cry and I would go over and take gently and kiss the scrape or bruise … blow on it… if it was bad and bloody I just wave my hand over and doctor them up lol …
And then suddenly like magic – it was all better ❤️ every time – so yes I have magical healing powers lol ❤️😄 I can heal hurts pains and heartbreak lol … or I used to be able too when their life was simple.
Only recently have I allowed them to possibly suspect I might be Santa lol … but technically Santa is the spirit of Christmas … and a spirit can shine through anyone or anything – so who is really Santa? Lol
Ok so… let me show you couple things … then I tell you why… none of these are my videos – I am just showing you places near me … I will explain shortly … I want to show you the beauty first…
These are all within my area… and do you see?? So beautiful and stunning it just blinds you because you wanna be there and you breathe so deeply with how incredible it is
These are 1 hour away from me going south up the Sierra Nevada Mountains… it mesmerizes you!! Just imagine how peaceful and beautiful to be there!!
So yes … ok … peace tempts me and I am sometimes blinded by what seems to be sooooo amazing … just look at those videos – to actually be there in these places … it’s stunning… spiritual? So just takes your breath away.
All your countries have histories, that my country, is too young for …or could never even compare to… but MY country has this incredible stunning natural beauty – I can’t even describe in words – it’s stunning! Definitely a national treasure!!! ❤️
I am blinded by these types of things lol… because is peace … I chase peace … I know the peace I get from the planet 🌎 … so I am probably blinded??
So… I recently met this person… he happens to be a man (🤨 lol ) … you know how sometimes you meet people and it clicks? Well it clicked? We didn’t stop laughing and talking whole time. Enjoyed the convo very much… some total stranger thought we were together because we click so well 🙄 no no, stop saying stuff lol … we just meet
He ask for my number… ok … so I give to him.
He want to take me to one of those places 🙌 – to kayak he say… I told him I have no strength for oars and he say is peddle paddle
But wait…
Because my people say… Trisha!! You just meet – he could kill you lol … ok yes … I do see point lol… I just get blinded by the country ✌️ …that they have a point.
Dang it.
He’s probably NOT gonna kill me lol… but ya know… how much we really trust people?
Aren’t these the areas all the horror movies take place at?? Lol 🤨 … it’s always at some lake in the woods lol
Also… another thing … since they put the seed of doubt in my head… I also look at that and understand we are in July … so that would mean that there is fire potential.
Fire moves real fast – you don’t wanna be caught in area like that …during forest fire 🔥
He is builder from the Bay Area … he is older than me though… by a generation – we just enjoy convo and hit it off – nothing more at this point.
Pretty sure he is “not” out to kill me … but never underestimate anyone!!!
So… hmm 🤔…
He wanna show me peace and get away? We have this incredible beauty here in California! These places are national treasures so… I’m pretty sure we both just appreciate that? It won’t be for little while anyway.
I get excited to show people these amazing, beautiful, peaceful places also… my friends are not typically the mountain type? A few yes… but most love the coast
I could show you so much here in California – there is so much!!! 🙌 you don’t always find people who appreciate same like you do…
Every state has something or things that are stunning and incredible.
My summer vacations were cross country trips like National Lampoons lol
A lot of earthy/crunchy American Folk music lol … music that told stories ❤️ or said lessons ✌️… kinda make you see life? John Denver, Neal Diamond, Elvis, Peter, Paul and Mary, Jim Croce etc. yeah that was my music until I was like 12 …
So yes … I love those things … I love to be in awe of history, peace & nature…
Blinds me kinda because I want that so…
I know … you gonna say “just do something normal” lol …with people around then…
Eh … yeah what? Movies meh 🫤 I don’t really watch stuff normally – nothing really great – Hollywood and society kinda sucks now -so I would prefer to be with the earth which is always stunning anyway
And then you have to be around people to do things … so eh 🤷♀️ – I don’t like crowds for reasons of disease and also guns lol ✌️ I would rather have peace out in middle of no where …
And what is there anyway? Golf, mall, casino, amusement park, regular parks – it’s just not same as what nature created.
Well anyway I love the country of my country ❤️ 🇺🇸 ❤️
My friends be very protective and sometimes little devil in my ear lol
I’m pretty sure I’m not going to be murdered…
But then I think of the world … and think hmm… well I dunno … anything is possible , don’t know him
Sucks you have to think like that
This is why best to not let people come close
And also … I don’t have time for stuff so?? I just wanna enjoy nature/life things
I do prefer Lake Tahoe… but those I show you are what he suggest and are actually closer to me. I could even stop by and say hello to a location I talk to! But I don’t wanna seem like total workaholic or have anyone totally come into my world
I’m still not ready for anything… I just wanna enjoy the peace of the earth. It soothes the soul always
It’s south of me – not north
I don’t usually venture south – I always aim at Lake Tahoe … so be new territory …
Is the area of the California gold rush boom… I have been there many times – I just don’t venture that way usually – I know Northern California best… I have panned for gold before – it’s pretty cool
I love living in California … sometimes it frustrates me with cost of living and things … but it’s absolutely beautiful weather wise and I can have any weather or terrain I want, whenever I want it… it surrounds me… mountains, beach, valley, what you want?
I am spoiled and blinded by the amazing beauty California has – yeah I have like a spell on me or something? Cause I do love California – so beautiful ❤️❤️
And I appreciate having my rights here ❤️
I don’t always agree with the liberal side – but thank you for making sure my rights are intact ❤️
I could NOT live in Texas … I can visit. I can’t not handle the politics there – nope
And no… I do not want to go back to Massachusetts – it’s too cold and I just fit better here. The era of my Massachusetts was my childhood – was my one constant ❤️ always had my family there. Always …
My grandmother was born in her house, so was my dad… I was born in a hospital… but the house been in family forever. So… where ever we moved – we always came back to Massachusetts ❤️
I was the queen when we went back ❤️ I loved visiting my grandparents lol aww
But no one there now.
My sister is in Maine – and ugh this not gonna go well. I say I help her and I pay for something and was big crazy thing, and then also… instead of coming to get help …she want me to fly her all over the place … I get she wanna see mom, but I can not afford that. She gonna have to come to me and get strong first. Earn it… I don’t have the money for tons of things – I help her stand but if this gonna go badly then I will stand back. I have to save for things and if I be providing for her while she get strong and she does not work hard and appreciate then you know – what’s the point? I can’t do it.
I can help her because I wish her to be strong and she would love life ❤️ I could help her stand so strong… come to me… but also “listen”… wax on/wax off – ya know?
I help & teach her how to stand strong if she come to me… but I can NOT be her knight in shining armor 🤨
You give a man a fish, he eats for a day… you teach a man to fish and he never starves
So sweetheart – whatcha want? Cut the shit – you want something then come to me and listen. I’m not playing and I don’t deal with lies – if you want something come work for it. Grow your ass up. Time to adult.
Yes understand I have conditions … we have been through this before so there is caution. I don’t want to be left with nothing.
I am going to NEED her to be serious. Otherwise no.
And then in other subjects …
I have video on my phone of vacations or visits with my parents … I’ve been watching them over and over… and I just watch my mom and her words and things … she had just always been forgetful but the most recent videos from say… maybe 2010? Or 2012? She had lost her mom around that time.
I never noticed before … but to rewatch the videos – I think I can see it creeping on, but at the time I had no idea! I didn’t know. But I feel like I was blind. How I not see? I should not keep watching those videos.
But is interesting… sorta hindsight 20/20… would I recognize it again? Would I see it in myself? 😮
Yeah I probably need to stop watching those videos lol ✌️
Oh it is soooooo go to be home and in my own bed – omg yes! 🙌❤️❤️ totally locked away from all drama – ahhhhhh for moment … ahhhhh
I missed the Fourth of July … and my birthday was meh, because other things … but I did have amazing friends around me, both in spirit and in person ❤️ thank you ❤️ you make me smile and be thankful ❤️… Tonight kids coming to be with and we celebrate 🎊
Also… the day I left Texas – they were gonna be 103 degrees PLUS humidity 😵🥵 … but Sacramento was only a breezy 85 👏🙌❤️ … see you just fall in love!
But the heat follow me back cause we heating up … omg I brought the heat 😮 lol 💋
Alright well… reality will be coming back soon so… ya know I suppose I should do some adulting 🤨🙄 lol ✌️ … I didn’t say you have to like it, but ya gotta do it ✌️😘
I have this video I wish I could show you. But is of my mother. For her privacy I don’t want to share …
But I dunno what’s wrong??
They do CT scan and every blood test – everything coming through normal… is not normal!!!! I promise you something is not normal!!!
She having these episodes where she has these shocks?? It reminds me of when you are asleep, and you dreaming – and whatever dream you have – maybe falling – you jerk?? Do you understand??
She make this weird face and for quick second jerks oddly, but tells me she doesn’t know or realize she do that. She keep doing it?? It makes me worry and cry
They say go to Neurologist… but we have been and they tell us she fine.
She not fine!!!
All tests come back normal – she is not normal… her brain or something is misfiring ?? Causing her to jerk?? Why …and what’s this blood in urine??
Ugh 😩
I don’t know 🤷♀️ I have no idea what to think
I wish you could see this video …
She’s fine and talking to me… I was gonna put her pajama pants on because she was only wearing the hospital gown… so I was explaining what I gonna do and asking her if she have any pain or anything?
She say no. And would jerk… I would say “what was that?” and she say “what?” And would jerk again… I would say “Mum, why you doing that?”
And she say “what honey? What’s the matter?” Because I would start to cry.
So I don’t know.
Anyone with an Alzheimer’s/dementia person who experience this or know of this?? What is this???
I rush to be with her – follow ambulance to hosp and they running tests she doing ok
She in and out, they running all kind of tests – I literally not even dressed correctly – I ran to be with her immediately (I’m a little freezing because ER so cold!) but I don’t wanna leave her side until I know what happening – make sure she has someone
My brother is 10 hours away so just me to be with her.
I am too scared to lose her
I walking tight rope at moment
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Ugh I might pull up bed next to her cause my heart struggles to be ok – I worry and have emotions so much
That’s her real name – but she hates it…. Lol – it was her mothers name… she has never used it – and she will correct you if you try to call her that lol
She uses her middle name always… and then when she name me, she name me after her with that middle name… I hate it lol… I never use it, and I will correct you if you call me anything other than Trisha lol … sometimes older people or if anything to do with government and needs legal name… I have to use the one I don’t like 😝 … it makes me cringe lol – it sounds old world … I just like Trisha better
But funny how that cycle goes lol 😄✌️❤️
I did not give my daughter my name… she has original first name that I pick… only her middle name is after me lol 😄✌️… I made it be her middle so she not hate like we do lol
Anyway – such old songs – I had not heard some of those songs in years and years – since my grandparents
My mom is young ☹️… she turns 75 on the 15th. She knows those songs but her songs are more …
There’s a whole playlist so… this could keep going lol …
When I sit there listening to their music, I was imagining what would be like for my generation lol
That will be fun … lol … if we remember ✌️
So was good… little odd, but they all adorable. It was little like cross between One Flew Over the Coocoo’s nest and 50 First Dates 🤷♀️ 😳😳
They would have convos with me?? And sometimes it’s jibberish 🤷♀️ or they say the same things 🤷♀️ … or I just don’t understand ?? I just smile.
And I laughing with my mom and being with her… but I ended up with a collection of little elderly ladies lol … they all just take to me ❤️
One say you have beautiful smile, one want to hold my hand, lol awww they are soo adorable
I do not have the heart for that job… that would kill my soul… I get attached… I would love them and then they die – omg – yeah I could not do that job!!
I am after the fact – so I did not have connection – I connect with family with grief.
But to get attached and lose – ohhh yup that would just totally kill my soul! Omg – that job would kill me right off!! I could not handle that.
Her friends are cool… not really sure I like a man so much around her that is not my dad – but since she not remember and I guess he make her happy…it’s just weird for me.
All of them are memory care, and they are all on the level of my mom or worse. 💔💔
They are adorable – and you see life just come full circle …
You are born needing complete care… and then you hopefully learn to care for self – and others … and then as life winds down, you slowly need complete care again…
They just big adults – they messy eaters, they wear diapers, they need much assistance and compassion
So life just went in a circle ⭕️
I just wonder what they looked like once, what was their life?
At work, we get photos from families and when you see them so young and so beautiful… it’s just crazy to see how age does- they still cute – but I just wonder – who were they?
My mom had blood in her urine today. That may be a thing – but I have to go home! I have to, I have to get back in office. They gonna stop the blood thinners and see if that helps?? 🙏
I am blessed being able to be here for her. Was so worried so far away. Am blessed with couple extra moments with my mom- I wish I could freeze time to keep in a bottle 🙏 for whenever I want it!
We looked through old pictures from the 70’s and 80’s and laughed ❤️ – her clothes in the 70’s 😮😮and then mine & the hair in the 80’s 😄😄✌️
We laughed at old memories and vacations and those things.
The ladies who work there kept saying omg you just like your mom, you both even have same movements and mannerisms – they could not get over how we the same
See I told you – we identical … so is sister. We all the same… just more modern younger/older versions
God must have had a special using the same mold lol… we move the same, same faces, same smile, same hand gestures or way we cross our legs … we laugh the same and speak stories same way… we have same demeanor – same look to us… she is also always thin
So since I look just like her – then you add same mannerisms and things … and it’s like a clone – I know… I am my mothers daughter ❤️
Ok under no circumstances are people to die in July!! Just like Fridays… same thing goes for July!!
July has the 4th… my favorite because I love the fireworks 💥… it has already started – people lighting them off last night.
Then my birthday – and my moms birthday 🎂 I just own July ❤️- so keep it awesome, can we try to do that?
Today I gonna spend entire day with her and I gonna bring cupcakes 🧁 for her birthday 🥳… is not til the 15th, but I won’t be here – so I do now… she won’t remember what day anyway ✌️
She pulled through. It was nuts – highly emotional – one minute she on deaths door, and then next she ok. She has declined. Is weaker too. But I do see her leaving. ☹️
My sister better hurry up and get her act together
I’m still working on things there – but today is for my mother ❤️
Thank you all again for your warm wishes, messages and thoughts & prayers ❤️
I thought we gonna lose her – they tell me get here immediately … 🤷♀️ soo ??? Thankfully miracles happen 😘❤️ I’m am so lucky – I do believe there are times that if you pray hard enough and focused enough – god has mercy so ❤️ thank you
There was some sort of Devine intervention because I did not lose my mom – I get to have her ❤️ I know I am little selfish for wanting her, but I just love her and it hurts so badly to lose her.
I can not imagine a life without my mom. Even though she not there like used to be.
I don’t think she want to leave either.
Anyway- thank you ❤️ … I get to have my mom for little longer … borrowed time
All is ok ❤️🙏❤️ thank you for your thoughts and prayers … they have helped ❤️
I tell you more later – I still have my mom, and today a wheelchair be delivered here to the house and I will take to my mom later ❤️
She has declined, but she stable and ok ❤️
Is only me here – my family had to go out of town for something this weekend. They be back Monday… So is just me handling things.
So my sister just call me today – actually a police officer and my sister call me… big long story… so she agree to accept my help and come to cali…
But we see how serious she is with words. Words are meaningless without the actions … so we see – I know I could make her life better … but she’s gonna have to walk away from her entire life to come to me… that will be like a death for her
Not gonna be easy
So I kinda have many things flying at my face 😮 a plus I still working every day full hours just remotely
If I offer to help – she better be serious. I’m not joking.
I be speaking to some resource connections I have and see what can line up and set up for her
Let’s see if she burn bridge? I can not do for her – she HAS to do for herself – seriously – she has to be the one to want the change. It can NOT be for me!
She has to be at point where she done and ready – or I gonna have a shit show on hands.
But if she ready … get ready …
I can not believe I gonna take this on… but ok … come to me. But must be serious! 100%
Whew… it’s been emotional between my mom and my sister … and I am alone. Meh
I did do 2 relax things while here …
We went to a water park last Saturday ❤️ or whatever day it was … it was fun – I am very old now for severe water slides 🛝 lol
And I got my nails 💅 done with my sister-in-law – was early bday present to me, she say ❤️
In the light … they are pink…
Don’t totally inspect – I have a scar on that finger and I am a mom, so just pay attention to the color only – in light …that is the pink color they are
But look what happens in darkness… they glow in the dark 😮😮😮😮😮 I so love my fingers right now ❤️
Ok… so I do need something. But only from particular people… I need information in some stuff in the State of Maine – do I have any Mainer’s?? 🙏🙏🙏 I will give my email if you in Maine – I have questions and I try to search for info online but can not find anything I need… so ANY Mainer’s??
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