Ok… I have myself a new lawyer!! 😮❤️

He listened to me… I am still nervous – just because … and we both be at court tmrw.

We are setting trial date for into next year… that gives us time to request other things and see what happens.

I did like him – he spent time with me, did not bully me, and seems to want to help me. We will see.

This is a little different… I am not sure exactly what I really think yet… they are definitely a Christian law firm.

After he took over and explained everything… he said a prayer with me 😳😮 I was not expecting that.

I didn’t mind, cause it doesn’t bother me… but was different.

He seems very honest, and trustworthy so… I’m going to go with it.

Alright religion, it’s on… let’s see – you gonna bring me closer? Or throw me further?

We are requesting all tax returns and 1099’s, as well as, all 401K info… if he has withdrawn anything he will be responsible for that.

His buying things can hurt him a couple ways… either it will be income or assets or fraud. We will see. If there is fraud the courts will punish him. Even if is under his mothers name, can still hurt him!!

Now he has to prove things. I think I have protection now?? Finally maybe?

And his lawyer mentioned something about my daughter being in question due to safety and corona… he is going to try to go after custody.

The lawyer said he can not. And corona is not issue for courts at this point.

Also… he is not parenting either – my daughter is already missing 2 assignments in history.

I told the lawyer he does not coparent and lets the kids do anything they want or doesn’t make them do anything. Not a parent!

So he told me … ok write him emails every week what has to be kept up with every single week. We will have record of that – and if he doesn’t – I will get custody during the week and he will only get some weekends. If you can’t handle being a parent, ya know

So I will email only facts to him, and direct that. End of story. Let’s see what happens.

Also… my medical… because I am not full time… and no benefits – I need to look up how much the cost of insurance will be FOR ME… after breast cancer – that will be figured in as well.

There are many things to go over and get set…

I feel a little better… I am still nervous cause this has been horrific… but I felt at ease with him. So we will see.

He said that prayer with me after everything – that was really different to me

I kinda feel like – this is going to be a defining thing… is it going to completely push me away?

Or give me hope? So let’s see.

So yeah… we gonna see the power of prayer 🙏… let’s see how that works out. I am kinda curious… so alright. We gonna see if I believe or if I don’t. ✌️

I am not home yet, but I’ll be back. ✌️ I am so tired! I did not sleep well! 😝

Court tmrw with lawyer (not alone ❤️) AND my lawyer isn’t bullying me!!

Oh my god! Look at this story… it is from Sunday – in Detroit Michigan 😮😮😮

www.youtube.com/watch

Oh my god! 😮😮😮

I am getting ready to meet new lawyer – I’m so nervous I feel sick. This will be my last chance. 🙏

We meet at 10am. It is 7:45am

I am as prepared as I can be. I am nervous. I will be back later. Hopefully not upset 🙏🙏🙏

I have this thing on my phone that asks me a question, usually a simple quick one…

I’ve had it for years and it’s recorded my answers every year… I get the same questions every year asked on the same day as the year before … so I can see how my answers change over time!

Even though they are simple questions, it’s interesting to always see what my prior answers were – it will only show me once I answer.

The question I had today was …

If you had to move to a new place, where would that be?

Today I replied “I’m not sure?”

My prior answers were either always “somewhere peaceful” or one answer was “the beach” and one year I answered “the mountains”

But where would I want to go? I really don’t know? How would you answer that? Do you know how you would answer that?

My question will change in an hour… it changes everyday at midnight – but I am off to bed, so that next question can wait til Wednesday ✌️

So today I had the day off, slept in maybe an extra hour… and then have been working on my case to present to new lawyer.

I am also making copies of orders and files.

Here is something a little humorous lol… I have his lawyer listed in my phone under some really bad words 😄😄😄✌️

He called me today – and emailed and both pop up with the really bad words 😄😄😄❤️ I really enjoy that cause that’s exactly what he is!!

I did not answer or respond. Screw that.

They seem to be running scared now? Cause all of the sudden he is sending me his pay slips… he was supposed to give all of it… he just not at 5pm turned over a few general pay slips .. that’s not good enough – that is not all the information – I want tax returns – they forced me… now your turn.

Just his general ones – nope not good enough … I want income tax returns and 1099’s! I want all 401k information also.

Sneaky little snake- they know I have a good lawyer now… slime ball!! The bad words fit them both.

I hate when he infects my phone with his phone calls!! But seeing the bad words come up – it makes me laugh 🤭 cause immediately I know it’s that loser.

That’s not good enough – you going down now. I hope they are scared cause I’m about to come hard!

Funny how he waits until just now for that. I am sure they looked up my new lawyer and now he’s scared – though he could hide everything and still thinks he can… otherwise would have turned over everything else – he knew he had to turn over SOME financials but that is not good enough – can’t wait to see the new lawyer

He wants me or my lawyer to call him before Friday – unless it’s necessary for lawyer to call- I will tell him not to… let them sweat

No deal.

Anyway so dealt with that stuff today… I’m probably not going to be on much – other than quickly here and there …

I work all day tmrw – and I want all files ready to go… perfectly… very ocd with it!! And I have my presentation which is without emotion and written down so that be quick and easy also – but I am just making sure I have everything situated.

I hate this court stuff and I have always been the one panicking – let him panic a little 🙏

I still feel panic, but let me meet the new lawyer. Then I will know how it will go better.

Anyway if I am not working at the funeral homes – I be working on that … so I might take a few days cause this is big to me. I will be back though when I can. Once I am through Friday at least!!

I have a lot of other stuff kind of going on also…

Remember my corona friend? She came to me a little while ago and said she went to doctor… they wanted to do a body scan for cancer cause they had a concern – she was scared

She came to me maybe 2 weeks ago with this news – they want to make sure she does not have lung cancer…

I asked if she told her family and she said no… I told her to, but she said not yet – she doesn’t want the extra attention from her family just because possible cancer and she didn’t have the scan yet.

She texted me this morning and I met her outside. She told me to bring my reading glasses 🤓

We took a walk… she handed me her phone because she got the results from the scan

She has tiny abnormalities on her lungs – very small and they can’t tell what it is. Is 4 mm dots

I told her to tell her family again!!! I am not a doctor and these were actual lab results

They MAY want a biopsy, which should be easy, I’ve gone through many… done with a needle, not sure if is same for lungs or not?

It said neck lymph nodes seem normal, but she had Mediastinal lymph nodes (that kind of worries me)

So we talked … I did tell her when I got diagnosed with cancer and they initially got the lab results back – they called immediately before sending to me… like IMMEDIATELY!!! They don’t mess around with cancer – mine came back blatant – no question – they moved FAST!!

Her spots on her lungs are so very tiny they are unsure. And if is anything – she is catching really early… hopefully and according to the lab tests… it doesn’t look like any spread. So I don’t know if they will do a biopsy… I told her to call the doctor and hear what he has to say before panicking… I also told her “go tell your family” if anyone be by your side, you NEED them!! Tell them!!!!

I walked her over to her families house and told her good luck … I wanted her to have privacy while telling them. She listened and went in… I’m not sure what happened – wanted them to have that space as a family. That was this morning.

I also have another friend who texted me just today… he does not take care of himself at all, and I don’t think this will scare him to do so either…

But he had lab tests done, and he has really high cholesterol, high blood pressure, diabetes, all the tests came back really bad and the doctor told him he is one heartbeat away from a heart attack 😮

He has to completely change his life… he is not that type. He’s very high strung… And he said… he might just do whatever he wants and let it happen 🤨 it will be a lot of work and very hard for him to change and he just wants to do whatever he wants. He is stubborn

I offered to help with a meal plan, exercise plan or anything else he needs, but I don’t know if he even wants help. He is just overwhelmed right now… so he’s taking it in… I told him if he needs anything at all, let me know. He’s really upset – I told him that is not going to help matters. Stay calm and can figure out better … you know that’s there now, so can take steps to fix. To be upset with already high blood pressure and bad test results is NOT a good thing!! I’m not really sure what he is going to do?

I am not really a close friend of his… but he knows I had my own medical issues and I am very compassionate with that.

So, kinda good news for my girl friend? But not so great for this guy friend… I hope they are both ok

And then in September … I will have to bring another friend – completely different than those 2… I have to bring another friend to the hospital on the 9th… I making him check the dates cause he initially told me the 8th but then said the 9th today when I spoke to him.

Either way – I will bring him to the hospital (he is my little grumpy old man that doesn’t like anyone – only me lol) I have to have him at the hospital at 7:45am… surgery is at 9am

So I will work Monday and Tuesday that week… and then after work on whatever day it is… I will go to his house and stay the night because he lives very close to my work and would be too far if I went home

That way I can have him at hospital quick and easy that following morning.

Because of corona – I won’t be allowed in the hospital… I can only drop him off and pick him up… so he’s going to give me keys to his house while he’s in surgery… if it’s not too bad (he is my hoarder) I will try to organize some of it, while he is in surgery.

He probably be done around 1pm, I’ll pick him up, make sure he is ok and then I can go home.

So not just my stuff going on… a lot of other things around me. With people I care about.

For a long time my life was doctors and hospitals 🏥… and court …

This time it’s not me with the medical issues… but once again is becoming doctors, hospitals and court 😶

It’s like a circle!! ⭕️

The more I want to stay away from something the more it wants me!! Lol … same thing with death!!

When I was looking at that other job and wanting to leave… I kept having really weird things happening!

At first I didn’t think much of it… it would be a song on the radio or something someone said… easy to explain away…

But then it started getting more and more… kinda like signs – I wasn’t supposed to leave death yet? Or death just likes having me there? I’m supposed to be there currently for some reason??

Words or pictures kept coming up, a certain number I associate with death was everywhere… just really weird things that don’t usually happen – could totally be a coincidence but it was weird and constant! Totally constant!

When I stopped trying to leave that all stopped! Completely!

When I went through my own deaths in my family – it was really hard – I couldn’t process at those moments… cause it was one right after the other and I was also taking control over my mother and being diagnosed with breast cancer, all at the same time.

I am able to process death better (I think?) now… I know it’s life… and I know you can’t always escape it … death has let me personally live 4 times already!! It did not take me in those times I almost died, it spared me!

So I don’t know if it’s that I need to be with death for myself? And death is trying to hold my hand? (Cause I will lose my mom eventually too – that will be a hard one)

Or is death trying to help me walk through life? Death could have easily taken me any one of those times, but didn’t

How would I be if I lose some of my people?

My last close death was my grandmother and that was right before my final surgery. I took all of it really hard.

This job helped me process through all those things!! Still does, and I do get comfort from helping the other families. I can relate and I know that pain.

It’s just weird.

I’m still not sure how a close death will effect me now though… with the job I am on the other side… And I get to go home and my day is done, I didn’t personally suffer a loss…

I go home and my life is normal… but when it’s personal? It’s actually in my life … That hits my own heart so I’m not really sure how losses will effect me now? Will I process better? 🙏

Anyway… doctors hospitals and courts again. 😐

I hate all 3 of those things and they keep haunting my life lol …

I kinda feel like death holds my hand a little? I know – totally weird – but whatever

I am just afraid of losing people I love or care about. So we see.

I will be busy for a little while, I will be back though 😘❤️

I seriously need another lock down!!! For one minute!!

Once I get through court on Friday… I be more at ease with my own stuff and then will help the others. Whew

So what a day it was today! Oh my goodness!!!

Yesterday (Sunday) at like 4:55pm the phone at work rang with a death call… at a residence – was the family calling…

When someone dies, sometimes the families will call US “the funeral home … FIRST… cause many just don’t know what to do.

We can not just go around grabbing bodies lol… so before I can send out our people to go pick up the body… the family NEEDS to notify paramedics… someone has to come and pronounce the person dead – aka… give time of death… make sure there is no heartbeat (cause it could be very faint) … then we can go pick them up…

It also has to be done that way just incase the coroner needs to be involved – but coroner was not needed in that case. (Coroner is involved when a cause of death is needed)

So I stayed late last night – I had that approved through my district manager cause would be extra time…

So I didn’t leave until I had the family taken care of … the family was very calm, a little in shock, cause death does that… but they kept their calm and gave me all the information I needed. Then I took care of them and left. I was only a half hour late getting out – not a big deal. I like working, and I couldn’t just leave them.

Then this morning I got to work… remember I had issues with my car windows … so I’ve been looking just awesome all weekend and today lol 😄😄 … that would be sarcasm ✌️

By the time I would get to work, I looked like bush woman lol… I started putting my hair up cause is like a fricken wind tunnel! And it’s ALL smoky!! Today was gagging all the way to work – and my eyes were watering – there went my make up … so yeah really …beautiful 🤨 definitely NOT spot on!!! And remember it’s fricken HOT and VERY smoky… if you can see the smoke from space – imagine what it is right here!! We are smoked out completely!! Constantly… you get sore throats and your eyes burn… everyday!! 😝 its so gross – and then I smell like that by the time I get to work!!!

And I keep having to park behind the gates so no one steals my car (not that my car anything special – but people do that!) I also didn’t want it stripped, or anyone doing anything in it 😮

It was very stressful…

And then that stupid car guy yesterday did not help me at all… done with him

And so one of my connections told me… here call this guy… he’s really good and he’s honest… he will help you.

So… I called him this morning, as soon as I got to work… I thought he would have me schedule when to come in… but instead he like “bring it right in, you need your windows especially right now, I will take a look”

So my district manager said my office manager could take me and bring me back… she followed me in my car… and we went to drop it… she brought the company vehicle and took me back.

Right away he call me and tell me is only the buttons ❤️ that’s it!! They were broken and not connected … he gave me the number of a place to call for the part. I called them they had it, I gave them my credit card 💳… bought it over the phone – was $45 plus another $25 for delivery to shop TODAY!! I had to… I needed that fixed today and I had to work to be able to pay for anything else.

Well that place didn’t get the part to the shop until 4:55!!!! But that mechanic guy… installed it immediately and by 5pm said I could come get it ❤️❤️

I told him just put the key in glove box – I have extra key in my purse (I am famous for locking my keys in my car lol – so I have learned – I keep extras both at home and in my purse lol 😘✌️) shhh 🤫 (AAA “American Automobile Association” was getting to know me WAY too well lol)

So anyway, one of my girls took me down after work and I have my car back – WITH windows up and it works ❤️❤️❤️❤️

He didn’t charge me anything at all… I totally forgot to ask – I was so busy at work today – and I was worried about the car – I didn’t think to ask – so I will call him tmrw ❤️❤️❤️ I’m using him from now on ❤️❤️❤️

Just got ALL my business❣️ lol ❤️❤️❤️

Anyway… so that was the car drama today…

At work… when my office manager brought me to the car this morning … on our way back we talking and it started with me just letting her know when I am available this week…

Cause Thursday I have new lawyer appt and Friday is court hearing again which lawyer will handle by phone.

So then it kinda opened up what I am dealing with. So she learned my story. That was this morning … then we got back to the office

She went to haunted house … and I went to ugly walls because I had to relieve a lunch.

While the woman at ugly walls goes on lunch – the phone goes crazy!! And I had another death… also at a residence… but this time was the hospice nurse. I prefer dealing with the family… hospice nurses don’t have a lot of the information I NEED! They have the basics that’s it.

But anyway handled that… that was situated quickly because since the hospice nurse is there – she can declare time of death.

That was quick and easy and handled very fast.

There were many many calls on many many things!! All by myself lol …we have so many cases!! All 3 do!!!

Anyway… then my district manager calls and asks when is she done with lunch come back here ok? So I did that…

And district manager left to go to the other 2 … they have a big service outside tmrw – in the smoke 😮😮

The family is NOT NOT NOT taking the death well AT ALL!! Not in slightest!!

Today the fiancé called and was just “over the top” upset … completely sobbing… she wanted to come right down and see the deceased that minute … but we can’t do that – deceased is not even here yet! Delivered tmrw morning before service

She was just beyond herself in tears and emotions!!! So I spoke slow and calm… slow because she is upset… that way she hears and understands all my words… and calm so that I can catch her emotions and get her more at ease. More calm. If I can get her to vibe me, I knew I could calm her.

So that worked and I told her … we are going to give you private time before the service so you can see the deceased and you can have your moments to say goodbye ok? It will be private just for you. So I told her a time… and she calmed down. She was ok with that, but that was really the only option I was able to give her.

The entire family is extremely upset – tomorrow will be a very hard day for both the family and my people… they have 2 attendants and 2 or 3 staff.

And then I had a death from over a year ago… the husband lost his copy of a dvd we did for them (that was even before I was there!! 😮)

But I pulled up the name, and there is the video – I will burn a new one for him… when I told him that he was so thankful and excited ❤️ he was so worried he lost that dvd 📀… not a problem, we will get him a new one. I know how much that means. ❤️ has all the families photos on it – her memories ❤️ you should have just heard the relief in his voice… when he first called he was little panicked – little bit …

I took his name and number – said let me pull the file and see if is still there and maybe we can get you a new one… when I called him back and told him is still there – he was sooo excited!! I told him give me some time to get that burnt… and I will call you back when is ready for you to either pick it up or I can send it to you. He wants to pick it up lol ❤️

Anyway… was stressful with the car and then I’m all over the place!! And you try to do something and a million other things happen, you have to handle – and then I go back to what I was doing and forget where I left off lol … it was a crazy Monday!!

But it was awesome because … my car got done ❤️… and then I handled everything today – “like a boss” lol ❤️ I didn’t skip a beat… was nuts but everything ended up handling really smoothly!!

I left work today at same time as district manager and the girl who is a funeral arranger (she was bringing me to my car) … as we walked out I asked when they needed me next? And they said probably Wednesday cause tomorrow they should have everything handled with that service – so ok

And then one of my girls dropped me off at the shop to get my car … while we were driving there…

My office manager is texting me… and she says…

Can you come in Wednesday at 9am and work til 5?

Yes mam, I can

And then she says…

Basically until we’re able to put you full time I want to use you as much as possible and get you 29 hours as often as possible ❤️

They are working to get me on full time with benefits ❤️ maybe I stay with death – I do love my girls!! And I am good at it!! I haven’t heard anything from other job anyway

And something felt wrong with it too.

Anyway… then she starts telling me how much of a HUGE help it is having me around ❤️

I don’t know if my story hit her? They are always really sweet to me ❤️ but that was really sweet to say!! ❤️

I had a good day – for a Monday! I am exhausted though!!

I texted the person who referred me to that car guy… and just sent many many hearts lol ❤️❤️❤️❤️ said thank you about a million times

And they wrote me back and said Trisha you have good karma, stop wasting your time worrying, good things are coming to you ❤️❤️❤️

❤️🙏❤️ I really love the people in my life ❤️❤️❤️❤️ (if you can’t tell by the hearts lol) ❤️❤️❤️

I do have THE most amazing people surrounding me – always ❤️❤️❤️❤️

www.youtube.com/watch

❤️❣️❤️

So car guy does not show up, does not contact me… nothing – until JUST now. And even now says… “I’ll text you in little bit, k?”

Seriously ???

What that tells me, is he doesn’t care about his customers, or his business. I can not depend on him and I don’t trust his word now. And done.

He said he would be here at 9.. it is almost noon… not one word until right now.

So I pulled other connections that I think I will use instead. I will have to wait a little longer but I trust the connections. I believe their word.

If you give me your word – I believe you… unless you tell me otherwise. Or prove otherwise

All he had to do was text me and say he be running behind and that would have been fine, but he did not… nothing until right now and it’s almost NOON!!!

So now I don’t even trust his work. Flaky! Not good business practice –

First rule of business – do not waste time and communicate!!

He just lost my business. I’m out.

My other connection much more trust worthy.

As if!!!

Fuckin text me in a little bit k? What the hell is that?? No explanation or apology nothin… nope!! Text me? Really? His ass should be HERE!! Be here when you say, or at the very least notify.

I might be in need – but screw that! Handle your business.

I don’t play games – next!

I will use my other connection.

Guy just lost money! ✌️ I’m not going to play around with my money, sorry bad business!!

My car guy comes this morning … he should be here soon. We gonna see how bad this is 😮😳🙏 please don’t be really bad 🙏🙏🙏 bleh!

We under red flag warning ⚠️… meaning high winds, dry conditions, still hot! and we expecting more lightening 😳

www.youtube.com/watch

Now I’m nervous… if we lose power and have lightening, that be bad!! I’m on well water at home, so that’s run by electricity… I will lose power and water. I have stocked up already so I do have water should that happen.

But it is very dry here and very hot.

I also would like to say… to all those on the gulf coast… brace and keep safe!!

www.youtube.com/watch

Won’t be anything like Katrina’s category 5, these are weak storms … but 2 hits – boom boom… be careful!

Ok so my car guy is not punctual 🤨 interesting…

Strike one dude! Lol 😘✌️

Ok have to get to work… I am at ugly walls today. Back later

That broken heart is not from me…

I just had a very polite young man come to the door… very young… like 21/22 maybe?

Very polite, very sweet… was not really sure what to say…

I didn’t know who he was… handsome young kid… on one side of his face was a tattoo of a broken heart – just like that “💔”

He wanted to speak to his funeral arranger and order something. I asked for the deceased’s name… I said I would let her know to get in touch with him and order that.

It was for his fiancé… she died maybe 2 months ago.

On her obit – they have photos – he does not have that broken heart yet…

Awww 😔 that made me feel for him… awww 😔💔 poor kid

They so young.

He was very kind and very respectful. Poor kid 😔 he looked very sad and heartbroken 💔 he was very sweet

He must have really truly loved her. To memorialize his pain like that, in his own way.

Awww 😔💔 very sad

It breaks my heart to see someone else’s heart breaking like that 😔💔

That is the hard part with this job… I have laughter with my coworkers when I work with them…

But I hate seeing or knowing someone in that kind of pain. That is very hard… I know that pain – and my heart breaks for people. So that is the hard part

I do not have the skill of “not” connecting. I connect constantly lol Oh my god!

That can be hard sometimes, cause you know that same heartache, and you know their heart is bleeding inside… so that hurts a little bit

You just want to make it better – but really you can’t … I find that very hard sometimes.

My heart goes out to that young man.

Ok I still have a ton to do – back tonight ✌️