I am getting compassion and resumes … even though they take me down ❤️

So, that’s cool. I’ve talked to few people and many seem awesome so we will see

I will meet them next week in interviews. I’m excited 😊 but we see

But yeah even with nothing out there – they coming in ❤️ and people always comment that they hope I am ok and they are sorry I had to have others say such angry things.

But it’s ok, they can say whatever words they want… I don’t care what someone thinks of me, I care how we serve the families.

So whatever – you can judge – whatever

People will always always always judge. Always!

So whatever

Do as you wish. You never going to make some people happy so why try. What you care what anyone else thinks? Life too short

Believe in self and do what think is right. So whatever, they can say whatever they want.

Plus it helps I have my own village ❤️😘 … my peeps are just amazing always – so the angry people do not really effect me because I have my village ❤️

Having a village helps!!! Build a village!

Anyway so hopefully goes well 🙏🙏 the interested ones I talk to – seem excited lol

One said – she felt was a calling – so we gonna see

Let’s see what I get

Also… my big city that I wanted to run from because doesn’t have the peace that the country scene has… but the city has other things, that the country doesn’t

In the city – you a small fish in big ocean… you blend … you are accepted because everyone in the city slightly crazy lol ❤️ is mix of everything in big city – we can all freely be who are ❤️

They are kind and helpful and caring people generally and mostly.

In the country … you are bigger fish in smaller pond … and they are more mean and suspicious in country… there is not hospitality or kindness – only some

In country – they want to tear people down

In city – they care and build you up

Country is so brutal. 😔

I’m not sad because effects me, but because that’s what people do to others and then you wonder why world this way??

I wonder if they go to church or claim to be such a good person?

I would be curious how they portray themselves to be.

It definitely shows you who someone is.

This is why social media is awful thing – what you think that would do to someone without a village? or if they not strong?

And then you wonder why suicide rates high

What awful thing to do to another human being

How much do you portray something different than are ?

Other than that… just another crazy day.

Oh and for the ones who interested and have no funeral experience – is hard to explain to them the job … you have to meet us and we have to teach and show you ??

I can say things but unless you in the thick of it – I don’t know you would understand my words fully??

Also I am from Big city so is crazier in city

I forget this town is sleepy little town. I have big city energy 😮

Not pertaining to funerals but – pertaining to energy … I have big big energy with things ✌️

https://youtu.be/T8GpG8C0YzA

Not when I come home though lol – then I am exhausted, because I spent all my big big energy lol

Country energy is not same – they seem more like this:

https://youtu.be/kyFnLqJx-uU

I fit in city – but I want the country… just not for the mean people – I want the peace ❤️

Anyway… learning lessons we see 🙏

Sometimes I kinda think back to the times when I almost lost my life? Was few times even from when was child to adult … but then I didn’t die

It was not my time.

Why didn’t I die? So 🤷‍♀️ I dunno – I just think of that sometimes – why keep me to make me go through so much? So I dunno? Either I am not learning lessons or I am meant for something… or I am just lucky ? I do not know

You just think of it sometimes

Well I do

Well alright – have a good night 🌙😴💤

I need to recharge that big big energy lol

https://youtu.be/NG2zyeVRcbs

People should be more kind and supportive to each other!

No wonder people hate Americans – ok we are not all that way… not all of us are mean and attack. Is it just us? Or other countries too??

I totally totally totally remember now, I remember after all the trauma and cancer – I remember just going to middle of nowhere and turning off the world 😮😮🙌

I remember now.

The city is much friendlier believe it or not… very much … much more accepting and kind… no wonder I love and miss so much ❤️

Funny because country people supposed to be very kind and hospitable ? I don’t see that?

There is some who very kind.

And the ones who aren’t – just bring me attention ❤️👏👏👏 I didn’t think I wanted it – but yeah I’ll take it ❤️❤️❤️

I am actually kinda liking it … well not to be crucified – but yes – I like the attention to get me resumes…

So go ahead … that’s right … bring me attention 😮😮 … omg what is happening???

lol … but yeah ok – I’ll take that – thank you very much ❤️

** silver linings **

https://youtu.be/u0n4eMGXAyk

I am very good at what I do.

So go ahead – you can make your judgement

I do funerals – what you see is calm and chill and respectful … but when you not around … that shit can be crazy! We just make appear all nice and chill … but everything has to be perfect – and we protectionists with details … whew – so yeah you have to bring a fire. I need a team with a fire so we can pull it all off! I want to be know for being amazing so… can just let me find amazing people please

Anyway. They should be lucky I care to offer – I didn’t have to do it that way at all. I should have known better …

But… again… now you know me 😘✌️

Whew ok so attention … alright bring it please and thank you – I do nothing wrong ever. I stay away from everything

So whatever – but taking care of their loved one is my life … and yet they crucify 😮 because I offer a job and tell to “contact” me if interested. If ask, I give details. If want job, send me resume…

And they just attack for that???

So we see. I have few resumes

Otherwise we just have ad sit there – now I have attention … I get resumes … you know who am now lol … that’s right know me 💋 lol

Just kidding (little bit) but sometimes it’s a little fun to be little cocky like that – I just getting a lot of attention – dang lol …. Balance. – I can find areas to enjoy – maybe – we see

Who would have thought it be this lol – well alright then.

Some will know I am passionate and trying to do for community.

Others can just crucify and give me attention then

Is for good cause anyway.

It’s rough being the soul target though 🎯 😮 I did nothing wrong

So whatever – don’t like me, don’t read me. You don’t have to pay any mind to what I say… who am I? … but they make it all big …

So here I am ✌️

https://youtu.be/ouEezpuPc3A

I will probably get beaten down eventually – but ok

I do believe in self and what do, and I also care.

But ok – you do you ✌️😘

https://youtu.be/VMYAEHE2GrM

… some kinda seriously have a heart ❤️

They private message me to thank me for job I do, apologize for others behavior and thank me for info.

Not all so bad ❤️ some of humanity still ok

I don’t know if I ok with so much attention

There is mostly good, but there are ones who crucify me for my “mysteriousness”

I am respecting the business and families we currently serving.

But whatever – go ahead – judge me

My focus is our families – if you want to judge me for offering a job then whatever – pass anyway

I don’t make any negative comments. I keep level headed and chill – I work very hard and even on my days off I answering their questions

Humanity is awful in some 😮 they absolutely crucify

I’m sorry if you find me offensive because I say to message me if need job – what is wrong with that?

But whatever – I have attention – so we see

I’m not really very comfortable on public trial but whatever

Some are respectful and kind

I find a couple I really like!! ❤️🙏 I might find a diamond!! I want to try and see – I tired of not finding someone regular ways

Did not expect to be crucified by some – damn – watch your manners!! Attack much?

Not what I need or want so whatever

If was their loved one – they would appreciate me trying to find amazing – but whatever people like to bitch a lot 😮 just to make problems or something?

Are they that miserable? I say it’s this social media… look at the behavior

So whatever

I work hard – this not a normal business – wanna crucify me whatever

All because they not like my mystery

Ok well hello – cause people attack!!

I say I have job / if want message me…. Very simple

You ask, I send info, I reply – on my days off mind you.

So whatever – humanity very sad

I also see wonderful people though 😊❤️ some are kind and stick up for… they brave and very kind – appreciate

Some are funny ❤️ good sense of humor – I want that … that is quality that be good here … be mature but also be able to keep balance.

Anyway / there are some really great people – and some really awful people too.

The ones who crucify me never ask me for info, only judge me… they never interested … they just felt need to be really mean

So whatever – could be your family I help – so would you like that to be just a job to me? Or would you prefer I care?

When you walk in my shoes – you may judge who I am. When you ask me questions you can make up own mind

I am no stranger to being judged – whatever

People are rude – why they so rude?? Just about done with this – I ain’t got time for this shit!

You want or not? If not – why comment ?

Whatever – rude!

Can not handle themselves omg – I definitely do not want that!!

Why they be so rude? And then some literally judge me on every single thing – how I speak, how I post, how I do… ok well whatever

Go ahead – judge me

https://youtu.be/bxV-OOIamyk

Believe in me or not – whatever

Humanity makes me sad – I remember why I leave Society & social media

I forgot – my bad 😢

I remember now

Ok so… that little post looking for people to fill 2 jobs avail …

I just thought I offer a job – if you interested you contact me…

I get many many kinds of responses lol – omg I draw so much attention lol

I always stay level headed and people can say or judge however wish… whatever

I not looking for the faint of heart – bring me your A game. Is death – I gonna tell like is

If I not your kind of people – ok 👍 not a problemo

I want serious with drive and dedication – it is not for weak hearted so I be honest – I also don’t do negativity or judgements so – go ahead, does not pertain to me unless you serious and want a job.

I gonna be with this person daily so… I like balances – not crazy – I will not do crazy and dramatic nope – I’m sorry no

And many ask for details ❤️ and stick up for me or give me compliments for handling

Many impressed with how I handle negativity

And you may think I hard in some areas – yes I am…

Is peoples funerals – so I don’t play … if was for someone you love you would appreciate what I looking for.

I give info – if can’t handle not a problem

Need strength and maturity in this job

And the way people act totally weeds out the ones who not right and unprofessional

So… I have applicants – tons 😮 locals 😮

And I have attention – I have the attention of the people … but I also get attention for funeral home – now they really know me omg

I did not mean to make such huge waves 🌊

I just simply want to offer job and see who interested

Instead is this huge attention thing

But ok whatever

Did not know my own power lol 😮 whoa 😳

So huh… 🤔

We see … I not sure about attention

I do want it – I need workers – and also draw attention to my funeral home – I’m a little excited and proud about that ❤️✌️ know they know I’m here 😳😮

It’s just I like to be private but in small little town I do stick out and I trained in crazy Sacramento … this is how big city runs the shit

I need empathy and compassion – if make people feel bad or put down – not what I looking for – remember what I do.

So whatever – I speak honestly and say my mind – few just very grumpy and mean – but whatever – I won’t be hiring them. ✌️

Alright … so… attention … I try to avoid

But I draw attention always … always always always

Sometimes I do to self? Depends

I teased my daughter and say I gonna pick her up with hearse one day lol ❤️ – can you imagine that attention ? I have not done that – but it is a twinkle so 🤷‍♀️ – I can make you know me

Is good for business yes – know I am here 👋

I can hide away more in city – not so much in country lol … forgot about that

I way more noticed in tiny little town 😮

So there is that … I have attention now

What I do!?? 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/_m0bI82Rz_k

Huh 🤔

Is good, but a lot of attention Omg 😳

So – we see

I am iffy with attention lol – I do not like too much … I am used to but … I just like quiet 🤫

But I speak … so 🤷‍♀️

Alright – we gonna see how I handle this 😮😳

I was not totally ready for attention!!

https://youtu.be/nxRIjRSzxGo

Yeah I was not quite ready for attention yet – I wanted to command later once I handle things

So ok. Attention

Ok 😳 let’s see how I do.

Oh boy 🙏

I make waves 😮 I draw attention – ALOT of attention!! Omg

Now they know me 😮😮😮

If I ever have doubt before – now I don’t 😮

I be back 😮😮 whoa – soooooo much attention

But I suppose is good … I handling stably well

Ok so attention test – we see

Alright – ready?? 💋

So… let me walk you through humanity and give you mirror in case this is you …

I posted something on a community website offering job – I give general details but I did not say what company, industry or location out of safety and respect…

If anyone was interested – they could simply reach out to me and I provide necessary info and contact info.

Many inquired and many still …

But mixed in with that …was people who belittled me and told everyone I was a scammer.. whatever – if not interested then don’t read or answer me… if you can’t handle compassion asking for just info – there is NO WAY you can help a family through grief – so next…

Those negative people call me hard – but they were ones who come at ME hard.. I work for a hard business – is serious business … if you gonna be combative right off top, and not show any respect – then yeah you are not what I want. I be point blank and honest

I looking for mature, hard working, dedicated people who want to earn a living and make a difference …

Also I do not deal with bullshit – once again – do not bring bullshit to my table 😘✌️

Our job is to serve humanity one last time – if you can’t handle being kind and respectful – then I don’t need to deal with you – I not kidding… I want best for families who come to us

So… I’m gonna pass on all the negative people – holy shit some are really bad!! I hold my own…

One woman who interested – she stick up for me ❤️😊 one voice out of humanity – would you look at that… see you can find humanity still ❤️ there are still some ❤️

She watched me interact with the negative – because bitch… meet me … I not scamming – grow up and catch a clue … I definitely will stand my ground politely. 😘

She stuck up for me and told me she was impressed with my composure and handling, saying I was level headed and she impressed… she went on to say people should be ashamed of themselves for their bad behavior before hearing what I have to say… she said people need to seriously see themselves

Omg do you!! Holy moly – crucified … see you judge quick – you ready to pounce – and you don’t understand … I’m sad for them… what sad life to be so mean. No respect just brutal meanness

So I don’t do that, but I gonna tell you how is. If can’t handle me – don’t come work for me.

https://youtu.be/UzWHE32IxUc

Do not worry – I will stay away … I need people with heart and compassion – not jackasses ✌️

That woman caught my attention – I think I found someone with her… I liked that she have back – I looking for that!! See how you find a diamond 💎 ❤️

I need compassion empathy and teamwork… I am impressed ❤️

Thank you kind woman – appreciate the humanity ❤️💋✌️ thank you for your kindness and also words ❤️

I am sorry the world so negative – omg – chill – wtf!

So whatever – that between you and your maker – god bless your soul – good luck ✌️

And if can not handle strong woman – then just don’t – if you wanna be there “great” – if not…

My grandfather used to say… don’t let the door hit ya – where the good lord split ya lol ❤️😘✌️ I fricken love my grandfather ❤️

So yeah whatever – you either want or you don’t – maybe not be rude?? Omg so rude!

I don’t want rude people – not the business for rude – sorry 😘✌️ but really shows you who humanity is … wow brutal – very sad for their soul – their loss

Just sad for humanity to see that… I’m sorry for you if that is way are …

Thank you to the kind hearted amazing human beings – I appreciate you 😘❤️✌️

https://youtu.be/EjmHBCNRInw

– world is not different that medieval times… people brutal in new ways – yeah sorry for their souls. May peace be with you ✌️

Byeee 😘❤️✌️

Ok so… I do not think I am dating type at all?

I do not do well with it… I am not there.

Mostly because I can’t breathe and also my job and being a mom is crazy…

My job is different than what think – it’s not just a job. You have to have deep compassion for HUMAN BEINGS.

You do not know the world until you live it… so takes a strong person to be ok with and chill with and not be jackass or smother – one extreme or the other omg

So… I dunno. I’m not the type. I do not know why I try… I know how it goes already… but then I’ll start to think ok maybe I am ready – it would be nice to find – let me see

Lol … eh wrong!!! Still same – what make me think be normal ? Ugh ok whatever – I’m out, it’s too much – I can not take anymore!!!

First of all… do not be like you wait for me… please give me space and don’t make me immediately jump in – omg I do not do that!!

Ok… let’s go over few things …

I am quiet… Yes I will text and things but please let me have moments that I think of you… do not overwhelm with texts and please do not use the person emoji in text – I just can’t

I can do the normal ones – but not those and they are weird like being on a moon blowing kiss – those are things he sends me – constantly!

The one good thing I do I make sure there is distance and they far from me – ahhh … you can come close when I am at ease, but no one does that usually so whatever – I keep distance

This is too much – texts and calls omg – ok I don’t do that- you need to come in easy – holy shit do not come barreling in!!! That is worst way to do!! Ugh please do not do that!!

You can’t just think you got the shit so no – not that girl – I watching so fricken move slow!

Have some thought about my work maybe? And then also I am a mother – he knows Friday for my kids only and he call anyway / that is your kiss of death right there buddy.

I did not answer / nope is Friday

Ugh – not the one

This ok … this:

https://youtu.be/zDo0H8Fm7d0

If you can not handle that then ok. Omg I just like chill

Why it gotta be you speak or enjoy time with someone and then boom you together

Ok so – I can not handle that – I do not want that … and I will not do that … so correct yourself

Check yo self before you wreck yo self lol ❤️ I so always wanted to say that ❤️🙌

Yeah I don’t go well like that – I need time. So you will have to accept my job and understand – you will have to just be chill – let me know you … and I have children. You are NOT allowed in their world “at all” until I at ease – that is non negotiable – absolutely not – watch your step in that area – careful

Also – if not really respect boundaries ? Is not careful – is only thinking of his own companionship and taking anything else into consideration

Ok well – I have other considerations… look my life is busy and I tired so … I’m sorry – I not ready

I can’t

It too much – not my world so whatever

Work / massive always

Let’s just not discuss that

So the week has ended … I will be house and pet sitting this next week starting tmrw … I be in Sacramento – so I be working out of Sacramento next week – with my peeps ❤️

And where no one knows my name ❤️ not really … only if I have helped them they know me

I will be pet sitting

There are 2 cats – a black one who doesn’t normally like people but always comes to me ❤️

And this massively elderly cat – I think he is blind ? The black one cares for him – she will stay with him… she been with him since kitten – he loves her too ❤️ they peaceful ❤️

I gonna be ping ponging all over Sacramento next week 😮 but I excited to be with my peeps!!

** ok I wrote this and fell asleep lol – sorry – I turned old this year lol … half a century now – you gotta cut me some slack sometimes lol ✌️😘

https://youtu.be/qQkBeOisNM0

Another post coming but be in little while – now I really have stuff to say lol 😘✌️

I gonna do a couple posts today lol – I got stuff to say lol 💋

The first post after this one – is one I was writing last night but I fall asleep 😴…

And the second post be MUCH MUCH more lol – you will have to give me time for that one 😘 I try to be fast but ya know – I not a fast one lol ✌️

But just wait for it!!

https://youtu.be/wIft-t-MQuE

Do I have your curiosity ? Lol … ok give me time 😘✌️

Alright well tmrw school starts 😮

They do not have to be at school until 8fricken30! Wtf is that??

8fricken30?! Hello working parent!! Also – real world does not generally start at 8:30… ahhh and this is what enters the work force omg – killing me!!

She will be at school at 730… maybe 745… but I gotta be at work Omg

8fricken30 – wtf ever 🤨 slackers

I had to be at school by 730 – wake your ass up, the real world does not cut you slack – oh sure go ahead sleeeeeeeppp 🤨

Omg waking up a fricken teenager tmrw 😮

Ahhh omg tmrw is going to suck hard

I have to be at city hall tmrw morning… for work…

ugh ok making generation of BIGGER slackers omg please stop doing that!!!! There are enough already please stop!!!

Please teach children the reality of the world they gonna walk into … please stop making them slackers!! Omg

8:30 start times and early releases – tons of days off omg …all kinds of perks – in what world or region is this how life is? Omg and then we expect them to be ok and look

Ugh and they don’t even revamp the education system to teach them how to survive in world 🌎

Is still same education as always – never ever advancements … only worsening

Only once in awhile I see young people who have strong work ethic and maturity!!

Omg I am old

Well whatever – they creating bad again. They gonna have rude awakening in real world. Good luck

8fricken30

https://youtu.be/3zUUtf7gOe8

Oh boy – please don’t let tmrw kill me 🙏🙏🙏