Big big energy

I am getting compassion and resumes … even though they take me down ❤️

So, that’s cool. I’ve talked to few people and many seem awesome so we will see

I will meet them next week in interviews. I’m excited 😊 but we see

But yeah even with nothing out there – they coming in ❤️ and people always comment that they hope I am ok and they are sorry I had to have others say such angry things.

But it’s ok, they can say whatever words they want… I don’t care what someone thinks of me, I care how we serve the families.

So whatever – you can judge – whatever

People will always always always judge. Always!

So whatever

Do as you wish. You never going to make some people happy so why try. What you care what anyone else thinks? Life too short

Believe in self and do what think is right. So whatever, they can say whatever they want.

Plus it helps I have my own village ❤️😘 … my peeps are just amazing always – so the angry people do not really effect me because I have my village ❤️

Having a village helps!!! Build a village!

Anyway so hopefully goes well 🙏🙏 the interested ones I talk to – seem excited lol

One said – she felt was a calling – so we gonna see

Let’s see what I get

Also… my big city that I wanted to run from because doesn’t have the peace that the country scene has… but the city has other things, that the country doesn’t

In the city – you a small fish in big ocean… you blend … you are accepted because everyone in the city slightly crazy lol ❤️ is mix of everything in big city – we can all freely be who are ❤️

They are kind and helpful and caring people generally and mostly.

In the country … you are bigger fish in smaller pond … and they are more mean and suspicious in country… there is not hospitality or kindness – only some

In country – they want to tear people down

In city – they care and build you up

Country is so brutal. 😔

I’m not sad because effects me, but because that’s what people do to others and then you wonder why world this way??

I wonder if they go to church or claim to be such a good person?

I would be curious how they portray themselves to be.

It definitely shows you who someone is.

This is why social media is awful thing – what you think that would do to someone without a village? or if they not strong?

And then you wonder why suicide rates high

What awful thing to do to another human being

How much do you portray something different than are ?

Other than that… just another crazy day.

Oh and for the ones who interested and have no funeral experience – is hard to explain to them the job … you have to meet us and we have to teach and show you ??

I can say things but unless you in the thick of it – I don’t know you would understand my words fully??

Also I am from Big city so is crazier in city

I forget this town is sleepy little town. I have big city energy 😮

Not pertaining to funerals but – pertaining to energy … I have big big energy with things ✌️

https://youtu.be/T8GpG8C0YzA

Not when I come home though lol – then I am exhausted, because I spent all my big big energy lol

Country energy is not same – they seem more like this:

https://youtu.be/kyFnLqJx-uU

I fit in city – but I want the country… just not for the mean people – I want the peace ❤️

Anyway… learning lessons we see 🙏

Sometimes I kinda think back to the times when I almost lost my life? Was few times even from when was child to adult … but then I didn’t die

It was not my time.

Why didn’t I die? So 🤷‍♀️ I dunno – I just think of that sometimes – why keep me to make me go through so much? So I dunno? Either I am not learning lessons or I am meant for something… or I am just lucky ? I do not know

You just think of it sometimes

Well I do

Well alright – have a good night 🌙😴💤

I need to recharge that big big energy lol

https://youtu.be/NG2zyeVRcbs

People should be more kind and supportive to each other!