Ok so I get a text… someone knows my name – whatever – many people do.

But they were not already in my phone and they say they want to buy my house and would I consider selling.

They tell me nothing about them self or even a name … so I can’t be bothered to respond

If you that interested tell more info. Who you are – why you want… why you contact me for THIS house

And … I’m sorry I just bought this house and have you seen the world now? You want my house? It gonna be double … cause I’ll have to buy new place and interest rates insane – hello I live in Cali!!

So you want this? It will seriously be over $1 mil so they would not agree to that I am sure. But that’s the price.

Have I considered selling ? I will consider if your price high enough – what you got? Not entertaining dumb offers ✌️

Still not responding though – when they provide more info… maybe.

Otherwise screw that.

Double or nothin ✌️😘

https://youtu.be/7hx4gdlfamo

https://youtu.be/bESGLojNYSo

Ugh so… I have to clean my car… eventually but I been seriously slacking.

https://youtu.be/5GJ6Q8EaSWI

Although the inside needs cleaning too – just all of it … meh… before I was in car all the time… now I am never in car, so I just don’t make time for it lol 😮

But that’s on my “to do / adulting” list

🙏 I don’t want to do it so I massively avoid lol … but I have to eventually ugh. I hate dealing with cars – that is not my area. Ugh

But I am checking oil and keep eye on fluids – I learned a little bit 😊 even though I hate it lol

But ok – rather not have it die.

https://youtu.be/IJNR2EpS0jw

❤️ I LOVE you for this Australia 🇦🇺 Metro ❤️… awesome 👏 Brilliant message advertising – someone was a genius ❤️

Anyway… ok so… here come holidays cause omg I can’t stop with the candy!! We not even in October or September for that matter …

I will for sure be too candied out by the real holidays.

I got some Halloween decorations – also fall. Just a few nice classy ones … I got 2 glowing ghosts for my window area … and a bottle of magic potion probably from Merlin’s former collection lol … it’s just an antique looking potion bottle .. nothing actually in it. And then I got a ceramic pumpkin with a design on it… when you turn it on… it lights the room up with the fancy fall design.

Also … once upon a time I loved decorating and holidays … not so much now… I prefer the holidays calm and chill. I don’t like the holidays so commercial… I do like the holiday, just not the push to buy buy buy .

I do not like the capitalist ways. Also if you don’t get something early – you get nothing at all

I just do few little things 😊 … I wanted to do graveyard out front lol – would kinda be awesome for MY house lol ❤️👏 … I still might ❤️

Also I was self professed master pumpkin carver once upon a time – I have not done in… umm almost 10 years?

So I found my tools today … maybe I do that ? But we see – I dunno 🤷‍♀️

Here is what is going to happen… i will get all holiday’ed out before the holiday even happens – will be longest holiday season ever

And then switch over to Christmas 🎄 😮😮😮 my first Christmas here ❤️ almost one year!! Look how that fly by -but not really lol – damn!

Look at all that happen in one whole year 😮 whew omg 😳

Let’s hope 23 not as crazy insane with things.

I do like life adventures – just not life lessons lol … but obviously – I will learn ✌️😘 life totally forces me!!!

https://youtu.be/oyu1WO0hRB0

So… We are doing really good 😊… so far 🙏

So far so good.

I met higher management today – I think they liked us ❤️🙏 they were delightful and spent some time with us …

I thought just be corporate shirts but they were cool 😎 we liked them too ❤️ I work for great company

Good people ❤️

Death – who knew you would find amazing people in that industry – but it makes sense because they are thoughtful and kind and caring – seriously about the families…

So many attributes of these people are rare. They care for others. Make sure taken care of and family is ok… so of course they be pretty amazing people ❤️

Some are buttheads sometimes but whatever – we all quirky ✌️ is like family

You know the story about “Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer”? Who doesn’t right?

We are kind of the island of misfit toys lol

Just because we have these gifts or talents with this industry… we each have story to how came to be there. Is always a deep story, yeah even mine.

It’s just a tight knit industry – is not for everyone – we do things people could not always be able to do – we keep composure with it – except when is your mother – then no!!

We just have many many wonderful characters ❤️

We are characters – funeral people are FULL of character!! Omg you don’t even know!!

Yeah – love the job! For many aspects!

https://youtu.be/7zok9co_8E4

My vacations are very different than work lol – Omg …because I do love vacations – but I do also love my job everyday – and my people make that ❤️

So anyway…

Not to mention – I have plan to earn trust of community ❤️ so… is already happening ❤️

We have really been working hard.

I have a kick ass little firey team…

https://youtu.be/5B1QTEGL3t0

https://youtu.be/82vpIsQ3lX8

You just have to meet us – but no one wants to … not really a good thing when you “have” to come to us, and no one wants to talk to us unless they have to 🤷‍♀️… so the world doesn’t know how incredible they are…

… unless you need us – then you know we comforting and empathetic – but you do not see the everyday amazing character and usually you are grieving when you come to us – you are not noticing us, and we are there to help you.

But yeah we all have character lol 🙌 … I sorta have character 🤷‍♀️ 🤫

Just sometimes it comes out, I do try to just keep it on down low but then I also have little tiny fire going always … I am careful with it. I like to be quiet with it. I tone it down because you can’t touch this… see character lol 😘

https://youtu.be/otCpCn0l4Wo

I am playful but also serious. Have a funny sense of humor to myself lol 😘✌️ so whatever – works for me 👏

So … one thing … remember I went silent? Ok… it was here so… and I’ve been very very silent all this time… so is little weird

I keep to self because they were I dunno? Was different in Sacramento – I was able to stand up because of Sacramento ❤️

So we see how I stand here 😳

This place is clicky…. So ya know – I don’t really fit into clicks or clubs or things ?? I am not that type

Is like I am on a distant unfriendly planet … I have to join alliances lol … ok so I figure that out then

I have every confidence 😊❤️

But … I dunno .. I did have some fear today – you know that fear that sends you to panic? I dunno

It’s probably nothing, just because ?? But I think ex might be watching me or checking on me – so with this attention that is not good and that give me fear – because he is satan. I still fear him because he is that bad – so shhhh – we do not talk about that.

But let me just keep that noted. I just hate him but whatever … ugh 😑.. and then I question – how did I ever pick someone so purely evil? let’s just not – I am not ready to speak of, nor do I want to. It makes my heart pound and feels very bad. So bleh

So anyway – yup I am slight bit of character lol

But I see many who are too – I’m just saying no one sees ours ✌️😘

Usually – but I tend to draw attention if I do not keep lid on it – I forgot about things – I forgot satan sorta

I just drew attention so I just worry. Just saying – not big deal- only for me to worry. It be fine I’m sure – but we will just still make a mention to have there – if is nothing – then great! No worries…

If anything then – I just make mention

I just forgot about being on the radar.

So I am gonna worry with the balance too. And then also my silence – I have to step very carefully with that. Pretty sure I have good footing – but it’s a panic or stress trigger so ya know – the sound of silence …

So here is my life test – we see

We see how strong my character is 😮😳 oh boy

We see 💋

Ok so I see how to know if ready or not… would I introduce this person to my children?

I am protective with ownself so… imagine with kids… I do not shelter them, but I am mother bear, and just no one ever meets them, except my inner circle

So would I introduce this person to my children?

No. I wouldn’t – I do not know him well enough

I am not comfortable with who he is yet – I don’t know him and he doesn’t know me or my life. He pulled the really fast card – and I am way slower – I can’t do fast at all … makes me think you are trying to hurry so I don’t notice something

I think of country boy … and I know him and who he is as a person …

Would I introduce him to my kids? Ha hmm 🤔

Well yes for the person he is, because I like who he is… but I know him for years – and no … he has never met my kids

I won’t do that until I am comfortably sure and at ease.

If I let you in my life like that – then you special to me… but those are my heart pieces, so you can’t come close to those until I am ready for you to.

That’s if anyone gets that far

I know country boy and I are NOT on same page – I know that.

But I want something and I don’t think we understand each other so… I love that he stays in my life because I do care about him, and I feel at ease with him -since know so long. And I’m comfortable with the distance he never complains about – I know he likes me because he still messages but not for any reason – maybe to remind me of him? I think he does that

Just usually if someone doesn’t want to be in my life, or I am not on same page with- I don’t keep them

He has always been kind, so I’ve been allowing that since he isn’t an asshole. Appreciate the friendship a lot

And I’m aware of his past too, so I am understanding. He is kind so I am ok with him – he is gentleman

I’m gonna need understanding also.

Would I let him meet my kids ?

We are not on same page so is just a no… I do not have to think about right now

I’m kinda guarded with that on both sides – with kids to meet someone who comes in my life 😮… and then with the person because if I like them enough to introduce – I hope would go well

So… I would have to be absolutely solid for that to ever happen

So I found my way to know… would I introduce to kids ?

Now it be easy for me lol … nope nope nope lol … I’m kidding – I will TRY not to be that way 😳

I just can’t make promises – that will be really difficult to get to!!!

No one has ever met them – only my inner circle people ❤️

Remember – I have a village … they lift me up when I am down, they make me laugh if I am sad, they help even when I don’t ask

I have most amazing people ❤️

So I can be protective and protected ❤️

But with that question I might be even harder?? But eventually, if in my life.. that will be a thing

So… I am ok taking time – I want peaceful for rest of my life so we see 🙏🙏

And then the question – how would I tell my kids I seeing someone 😳😮 Omg

I did not think of that.

Ok well – I don’t have to think of it at this moment

But now that I mention – now I think of that 😮😳

So this is difficult 😞

It does not really balance my life at all – it throws it into crazy even more than I have normally 🤨

When it can feel like balance to my life and ?? Fits? Then we see

I dunno – I just can’t go through what I went through ever again… so if attempting to come in my life – I don’t know

I definitely can not go mega fast – if you make it go too fast I will bail… nope 👎 can not handle fast

Also I have a village… so person would have to meet them too … so that’s also a thing …

Can you survive it?

No one ever gets that far to see because they go way too fast!!

So you have to make it TO the village, AND through the village lol ❤️👏🙌✌️

Anyway … ahh …

https://youtu.be/4fndeDfaWCg

So maybe someday

https://youtu.be/S69w0zMW-A0

Yeah see – how you gonna get through that? 🤷‍♀️

So… remember money bags lol

Basically I laid it out … I told him that I have a job that is very demanding – I work a lot… is a job like you have never known! Is crazy sometimes

Also I have children and they are number 1 … period – so let’s just make that clear.

And then also – my mother… so ya know I am highly sensitive with that… and any time I save – is for her

So I tell him that… and I tell him that he didn’t even give me moment to respond while dealing with all that, before thinking was some kinda problem

I just can’t deal and I don’t date so I’m not used to someone in my life – is pressure

… I say all of it

And he say – he not want to ever be burden to me, and was sorry for being impatient, but he says he was impatient only because we have fantastic time when together. He loves spending time with me and taking me places and seeing me enjoy things.

He also wrote a novel telling me how much he loved my laugh and being with me 😮

And then said … he just want whatever time I can give him, he can be patient

😮😮

What I do? 😮😮 whoa 😳

Omg – this is why I stay away from all people

So ok … now you see why I just dive into work – not only do I love the job … but also … this stuff lol

If I just stay away and work all the time – I have no problems / or very few and I can handle that

But then I be out in public and speak to people and these things happen

Hmm 🤔 I’m a little speechless how well he handled my barrage of shit lol

I don’t know

What do you think? Omg

Ok with kids now – bye 👋