I need things yesterday but everyone keeps having holidays 🤨😬😬

Yesterday was Presidents’ Day

Then today I desperately need something from another state (Louisiana) and evidentially it is Fat Tuesday Marti Gras… seriously is that really a holiday??? Evidentially it is 🤨

Tmrw is Ash Wednesday

Omg enough!! No more!! Please no more – can people please work tmrw? I need tons of things done and I am at stand still with holidays!!! have we not had enough? Seems like holiday holiday holiday Omg

Yeah and all I want is ONE week in March! That’s it … well actually add on the 4th of July and birthday celebrations and I’m good 🙌✌️

The rest meh, too many holidays Omg

I get none

But if is company recognized holiday – I get holiday pay and then I work so I also get paid again. Woo hoo!

But I also need things done – and I can not to that when everyone is on holiday all the time

https://youtu.be/5Rswx2Z7SDw

Whatever 🙄

Today on way home I stop for bread … I put my phone 📱 down on the counter while I got out my card 💳 to pay…

The clerk says OMG that’s a giant phone lol … it’s because is 13 plus … and then I am hard on my things – they better be tough and made well – but it’s an iPhone so I have a huge otter box type case … even my daughter calls it a 🧱 brick

Was just funny how he exclaim and that was not even close to being on my mind lol – but yea it looks big if you point it out lol

Listen – I am older so I like the larger screen so I don’t go blind trying to read on tiny – plus I like the grip on the otter box case – I like my big brick phone lol ❤️

https://youtu.be/-5EmnQp3V48

Also… many people died today … it was back to back to back

In my community … everyone knows you – they totally know you… so a disgruntled employee from prior staff is trying to tarnish location posting something bad about us – … is lies … trying to make people think we are bad but we are not

We provide caring compassionate and attentive service ❤️

Legal was informed and it was all gone and taken down by the afternoon

I have been through being judged before – sure come judge me

Our customer service level is expert – come see me – you will see

Cases are pouring in – so is having opposite effect than what they wanted 👏 is good and bad … good for numbers – bad because are 2 sometimes 3 of us 😮😮

Yeah cause I did word of mouth advertising – for free … we adopted a family for Christmas, I helped someone with something for free (it wasn’t anything big, but they had really tragic event so I help) they wanted to pay me… but I said – well you can pay me through word of mouth – tell people you know about our staff and our service … and he said he would

One time I had someone who needed a permit change from a funeral home which was now gone… absorbed into the funeral homes around it

Well they didn’t know who to turn to – so I said I would help .. I had them pay for the permit and I got it for them – not a big deal but was to him

So got him the permit and he asked … what can I pay you for your time and work… I say spread word 🙏 tell people about us – how we are there for our community – we are helpful and caring – tell people!! He say absolutely ❤️👏

I can’t do all the time but if is simple, the word of mouth / personal experience advertising is like no other

So here we go 😳

Ok life – have a little mercy – go slow

But yeah – go ahead … am respected so … sorry I already be there for the community and they learning … that’s how you bring business

Go ahead come judge me

When my city people come to my area lol … they all say wtf … is very different

I describe it like this… in Sacramento you are a tiny fish in a large pond … you get lost in crowd and everyone different and crazy

And out here … you are a giant fish in a tiny pond lol 🤷‍♀️ everyone is

Plus since is tiny – everyone knows you – if you been here for awhile you are known

But people are seeming to love us ❤️

So yeah I already got to the community with our service excellence 😘✌️ I am skilled there – actually know how to be there for people and build a businesses reputation in todays world –

Yeah that’s right 💋

👏👏👏

https://youtu.be/otCpCn0l4Wo

Mic drop 🎤

Anyway – I’m good at what I do

https://youtu.be/BxuY9FET9Y4

💋 I am highly confident at work lol

But please keep in mind we have low staff and we work very hard to help as fast as possible – but this world has many people … so please we try our hardest and keep communication open – but please be patient

But yeah – I got skills 😘 I know my community – is different than city

Anyway … in regards to something else… I feel kinda proud for recognizing certain behavior before anything got bad. I learned from life 😮😮 look at that … I learned something life actually taught – probably would have been better to learn when younger – but ya know … better late than never … 👏👏 I saw the signs!! ❤️

https://youtu.be/iqu132vTl5Y

When I go silent sometimes is because something too heavy … and sometimes I want to think for self and see what is ok for me… I want clear mind to think and then also heavy things do make me go silent

My job is heavy job so no heavy allowed when not working lol nope 👎

https://youtu.be/7CV_dLvZmRY

Ok well – it was Tuesday – Wednesday shall kill me

There is so much tmrw 😮🙏 Wonder Woman capabilities activate 🙌😘 🙏🙏🙏

Lol we shall see

I ordered Girl Scout cookies online … I love that I can do that – once again delivered – since I don’t grocery shop either lol

I always support them – because I was one of them ❤️

When I was a Girl Scout ….cookies were WAY cheaper lol

$6 now 😮😮 for tiny box of cookies

https://youtu.be/FxAEXO1lxpA

Crazy

Well that seems like a very awesome song to end a Tuesday with – so I’m gonna go with that ❤️ 🍪

Wednesday is coming 😮😳 pray for me 🙏😘😉

🙏🙏🙏😳 just incase I need extra boost for all the things ✌️😘

Btw… here’s a story I almost forgot… there is this movie from the 80’s called Better Off Dead

Sometimes when the moment works and is appropriate – I will make reference to this movie lol – no one EVER knows my references except me lol – until yesterday when I made the comment $2 dollars lol

And suddenly someone said Omg I love that movie 😮😮😮 after all this time someone actually got my reference lol – how funny

https://youtu.be/WmUW0thvYdw

❤️

Ps I’m not silent anymore ❤️

https://youtu.be/uB1D9wWxd2w

https://youtu.be/hjPLkPsLxc4

Ok so did it… the deed is done 😮

https://youtu.be/9dowS2k2TS4

This is why you need to take your time and quit the bullshit.

I was probably harsh cause this is my fire area … careful …

Don’t make me feel love bombed

Don’t go massively fast … that heightens my caution ⚠️

Don’t try to impress me – quit that bullshit… don’t hide behind money and power – show me who you really are … takes time to see that …

Don’t try to make me anything I am not and never ever ever attempt to change who I am!! 🔥

And do NOT assume shit you do not know 🔥 cause I will correct your ass on that

Not some meek woman who has no one and doesn’t know who the world is

https://youtu.be/KWo-02Hsab4

You should probably do your homework first – learn who someone is before you go trying to imprint yourself ✌️

Was not born yesterday

So I was just honest about my mental well being as well as my caution – sorry if that hurts but I have to be honest and not going through a satan again. And can only handle what I am able to.

I have no issues with self esteem – absolutely know my worth… and I work VERY VERY hard to have what I have – think again if you gonna try and play me

I am not some meek and sad woman who you wanna swoop in, try to change and try to control

You will never control who I am – so let me lay that down – I don’t care who are – could be president of United States and still… been there don’t that – never again… just don’t even try – I won’t listen … “American Woman” …

https://youtu.be/UzWHE32IxUc

All you have to do is step slowly, and be easy like Sunday morning

https://youtu.be/XUpTIvPYKOk

Fucking enjoy life without stupid ass heavy bullshit

Yeah you never controlling me so if that’s your motive – I’m not your girl – wrong woman

We can do easy like Sunday morning … or I can show you fire 🔥

https://youtu.be/HgknAaKNaMM

https://youtu.be/bxV-OOIamyk

https://youtu.be/mk48xRzuNvA

I do not have self esteem issues

Choose wisely how you approach me

https://youtu.be/5B1QTEGL3t0

Know what you deal with ✌️

I didn’t rebuild all by myself in little amount of time without being a force of nature … so make sure you aware of that 😘

Also… don’t for one second think I have no one – I have my village so you ain’t my end all save all

I will give my devotion to someone who can be a human being and again – easy like Sunday morning please

Otherwise – welcome to the force ✌️😘

https://youtu.be/9dowS2k2TS4

So yeah I have a little fire 🔥

https://youtu.be/HMqgVXSvwGo

⚠️ Just warning if you gonna attempt to come close

Sorry I have been away. I am currently silent but I am coming out of it … sorta

Just collecting my own thoughts. I have to make sure I can handle things. Which I can not lol … ✌️

https://youtu.be/W_yRODJ6kfc

✌️❤️

I’ll tell you all about everything shortly

I have a lot of suitors evidentially cause Valentine’s Day went crazy 😳😮 what just happened? Holy moly

Oh and yesterday I called a person who does something work related that I need… well when he answered 😮😮 he’s British 😮😮

Well I just love the accent – it’s so adorable!! Kinda hot … so I whatever – I have a British girl friend who’s way older and I love love love to hear her speak lol ❤️ I don’t care what she says lol … I just love the sound of the words

Ok well whatever … and then he came down to see what I need him to do … omg he’s hot …. With an accent 😮😮 well hello lol … just kidding … but he is hot with accent 😮😮 I just loved all his words and then he’s hot so … I will stay over here

I am looking for something to do with URNs ⚱️ … so I called him… he engraves… so I say “hi do you do urns?”

He say “what?” … I say urns ⚱️… but maybe he think I mean earns ?? Lol … cause then he ask me “how are you spelling that? Lol

I say “ U R N S” lol 😄😄😄 and he didn’t even think of this profession … so we may have a partnership if he can show me how he do on an URN lol 👏

He is all excited cause if he does well… I have 10 funeral homes total plus 2 cemeteries …

Yeah learn the urn lol ✌️

But yeah… I am just in a little bubble currently – I am realigning own self

Fricken spring

Ugh

I just need summer!!!!! I miss summer!!!!!!! I just need to find a place that does summer all year long lol ❤️

https://youtu.be/fJWmbLS2_ec

Other than that – I’m am readjusting self like I said …

I just need time… but I am coming out of silence somewhat? I try to force it, but sometimes I just need it for the peace

Some things were WAY over my head … and with Valentine’s Day which went all crazy and I didn’t see that coming at all … 3 new 😮😮 not just one!!! Omg … so then I get overwhelmed

So yeah the crab 🦀 is in shell 🐚 … slowly coming out but people need to chill for one second

Omg and cases are pouring in 😮😮

Old and young 😮

Ok I have to go – bye 👋

So … I talked to him about my job – explained the high stress and also being aware of my own mental health and what is or isn’t ok for me… but I mostly explained how insane work is and how important is to me… how I am also “buried”

He told me his roommate was going to go on trip, but cancelled last minute due to Covid – I said oh? All the friends got Covid? …and he said yeah so none went

So today he texts and asks if he can take me to lunch – ok fine cause be good to talk.

So he comes to funeral home, says hello to everyone and we go out to lunch. Quick lunch, and we talk he tells me sorry he come on too strong and he understands and will not do that and let me have my space

So he is back peddling

I’m getting weird vibes ?? Red flags 🚩

And he keeps wanting to do things for me…

First he talking about my fence because parts are blown down – so he wanna fix that for me… I do not want that because he wants to pay for it

No because I am not going to be able to afford to have fence replaced and I’m not comfortable with him paying for it.

If need be – I have a man I can call and ask if he can secure it up for me with a hold up patch job until I am able to do. The man will charge me – but I trust him and he is not expensive and has helped me many times. He will make it ok until I can have him back to really do for me. And again, I trust him and his work and he never charges me much 😊 and is nice decent person

I just don’t want military thinking if he does things for me that secures me – no – we are not doing that!

He rushes and goes overboard … then back peddles when I go quiet… realizes he coming on WAY strong … he did apologize for that

So fine – at lunch I accept apology, but yes I am going to need space and I do have to pay attention to my own mental health… and he has no idea about my job … he knows what I do and has been to funeral home … but I don’t think he knows how it is?

It is not all about him – which kinda seems that way??

So whatever

Then he text me after work and tells me he misunderstood roommate and roommate has Covid 😮😮😮😮😮😮😮😮😮

So he just exposed me and the entire staff! Omg if we fall – just kill me now!! Omg I work so fuckin hard 😭 and means so much to me… and I deal with elderly and compromised people – now I be in a mask for awhile and staff … and pray to god I do not get 😭🙏🙏🙏 please 2023 – please no

I’m a little pissed to be honest and I can’t do this – it’s too much

He went on talking about when could see me next

Instead of I’m so sorry I exposed you guys, I misunderstood … just a simple I’m sorry would have been nice

He wanted to know if I can see him soon and was telling me when his flights were and went I could match my schedule

Ok wait – you just told me that you exposed me and the entire staff to Covid and not say oops sorry? And then don’t skip a beat and ask when can see me ??

I have had breast cancer and it hits me really hard

Ughhh please 🙏 please 🙏 have mercy please

I will really cry on many levels – I can not fall at this moment – oh dear lord I have so much work and still month end

So next level stress

https://youtu.be/o3bSpZeH434

I can’t

Is does nothing but add stress and nope – I can not … nope not willing and nope will kill me so no!

I can not.

https://youtu.be/cMTAUr3Nm6I

Why so interested in doing things for me? If I want you to do anything for me – I will ask you. I appreciate the offer – but feel like is more to secure favor or obligation than actually sincere.

I do not trust his sincerity

I am not into drama – this is drama … I can’t

https://youtu.be/Dkk9gvTmCXY

Also just one more quick thing – I take care of myself just fine. I have made it myself all this time … don’t think I don’t have people who would jump for me in a second – I do.

And he call me tonight … after him asking me several times to allow him to fix my fence … I say no – that I can not afford right now… but he wants to pay for it – he wants to at least get estimate – ugh

Keeps trying to go to that convo…

So say I will think over night and let him know

I’m not comfortable with it…

And then he texts me again and says – don’t fret about it, let me know when I can get that estimate

So see???

Why push so hard to do something for me like that? Move fast then when that doesn’t work want to buy me? 🤔 I don’t like it

I am not comfortable

I don’t trust

https://youtu.be/vZvkyfwD8mI

Ahhhhh so I remember why I do not date – it is all coming back to me now!! Ahhh yes I remember now.

☹️ meh

I wrote that last night – I wanted to sleep on it before I sent it … I’m uneasy

I might call the other man I know who can at least get my fence to hold up and be ok for little longer 🙏 or see what he would charge me to fix just the sections that fell? As they fall I will fix lol

But if I call the other man I know maybe he can help me so this is not issue. He would do that for me. So maybe I will call him and ask him to look for me and see how much I have to come up with?

Also – I’m stubborn if I do or don’t want something – you can not make me do things I am not comfortable with – you are NOT gonna be able to have any control over how I am or what I do

That is not the way to handle a woman! If you want a woman to want you – let her be herself and let he be comfortable

Anyway – I have to get ready for work… with masks 😷 ugh – awesome … and I’m probably just run down and it’s in my head, but I feel weird – but we see let’s just hope

Omg I have so much work – please don’t let me fall – please don’t let my whole staff fall 🙏🙏🙏

I can’t right now Omg

I do not like the 2020’s – I really don’t like them

Worst decade ever!!! Too much stuff… Get ready for 2029… cause I’m sure it’s gonna do one hell of a goodbye 😮😮

https://youtu.be/LBr7kECsjcQ

Well – hello … it’s Monday 😑

https://youtu.be/h81Ojd3d2rY

Why would I ever think I could come in on a Monday and have it be chill? Nope cause just wanna make sure I am awake

Last night the alarm system tripped that there was a medical emergency at the home 🤨 there was not and there was no one there… but I am 2 seconds away so I went down and checked it out and locked up and set alarm 🚨

This morning when I came in – my screen was black and no way to enter my code and then the loud ass alarm goes off with burglary alarm and tells ALL bosses and then I have alarm company calling me asking do I want dispatch

Omg I am awake 😳😳

And then it wouldn’t shut off so … I’m pressing some button on side and nothing… finally shuts off after 5 minutes of that… but I had to prop open the front door and put a sign DO NOT CLOSE cause would make alarm go off again and again

Anyway – have it mostly ok… someone coming tmrw

So that was my Monday morning wake up and cardio lol ✌️

https://youtu.be/J8oM-fq07Ik

Yes!! 🤨 Monday!!

Other than that – I doing millions of things – but it’s like you work work work and work all day but end of day – you feel like “what just happened to the day? And what did I get done?” Today fly by too fast!!

Anyway…

I did not like that Monday morning wake me up…

It reminds me of when I was a teen and my mom bought me one of those stupid alarm clocks with the two bells on top ⏰

https://youtu.be/smOywWXIxC8

I tried it ONE time at 15 years old and told her nope

I swear I almost had a heart attack at 15 one morning!!

So nope 👎 never again have ever allowed that alarm clock in my vicinity lol

I don’t know that this following ringtone would wake me either but I do like it … I know is some horror thing because I read the comments lol .. but I don’t know from what… don’t follow horror or anything … so I just like the mellow of the music 🎶

Sounds super natural- ish lol … I didn’t think horror until I read the comments lol 🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/-0RzexarVKY

Actually I use the lol … nuclear ☢️ alarm to wake me up lol … set several times lol because I snooze 💤

https://youtu.be/ktvTqknDobU

It is very hard to remove myself from bed because it is freezing cold and no one wants to come out from covers, on a Monday especially, for that.

Omg the more I want spring the more I don’t have it … but I don’t know how to NOT want it so badly 😮

I just do way better and am way more alive in warmer weather – cold weather makes me slower – my blood freezes I’m sure of it lol

https://youtu.be/rog8ou-ZepE

But I do have sun ☀️ ❤️❤️❤️

The nights are cold 🥶 daytime I can somewhat handle

Also if you let me gripe for a minute … I have PG&E and omg my electricity rates 😮😮 you know why?? Because they have monopoly here and we the customer get to pay for all the lawsuits they have

Where is government protection on that shit??

Griping all done ✔️ just wanted to mention ✌️🤨… cause I don’t like them – they suck!

Every time you turn around they suck even more – every turn!! I really don’t like them ✌️ is poster child of greed – so many lawsuits against them

State should take over – ok I’m done – no more …

https://youtu.be/mWRsgZuwf_8

They are awful. ☹️ evil

https://youtu.be/4V90AmXnguw

But ya know – at mercy so 🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/2WN0T-Ee3q4

Anyway… moving on to other things …

When I talk to military … there are things I can not speak of at all … I can not physically speak certain things at all because the wave of emotion is way way way too much so no…

He is ok with giving me time

But it’s just weird – I will think I can speak it and try but then no… I can’t so 🤷‍♀️ doesn’t need to be spoken anyway. I just don’t like that is like that.

It’s not that I’m not at ease … I am … is the emotional wave that is too much with certain things and I can not even – but I really don’t see need to revisit or awaken any devil – I can not 😮

Interesting huh? Physically impossible to speak of 😮

Well anyway just sharing because we talk and then sometimes I will try, but is always that I can not speak certain things or moments …

It is slightly frustrating to me? Cause I can never speak something … but that is good right? Is peace anyway.

https://youtu.be/6ZktNItwexo

So I dunno – also just mentioning that cause is little odd

I also have things that I avoid because of same thing… I also can’t speak that either

https://youtu.be/FsfrsLxt0l8

But I can’t do anything about it I just can’t … so – we can deal with that later

So… yeah I have many thoughts on that. But not for now. I’m too tired 🥱 😩 … this is why I have to use the nuclear alarm lol

Ok… now Tuesday 👏 please be good 🙏🙏🙏

So this is my life :

https://youtu.be/1IiRfZxScOk

Ugh it’s so fuckin rainy!!! Have I said how much I hate winter??? Omg

Ugh … I am in the foothills – we being pummeled 😮 so much flooding and problems!!

Let me just repeat …

https://youtu.be/TzFnYcIqj6I

After this weekend there should be sun ☀️ omg glorious sun ☀️

https://youtu.be/KQetemT1sWc

After Tuesday 🙏🙏🙏

I just have to get through Saturday Sunday and stupid Monday ugh 😑… it’s just a little longer

We soooooo flooded … it traps you!! You can’t go places you need to because roads are shut down

Omg and cemeteries 😮😮 trees are uprooting 😮… and when they dig a grave even with a tent – the water pours in – they have to pump constantly 😮😮😮

You don’t think of that do you??

We had some locations without power and having services by candlelight 🕯️… it was quite beautiful and had a element of old school 😮 I kinda liked it … but you know… am old soul so 🤷‍♀️

We have service on Sunday 😮 and Monday 😮

We so water logged and damaged – a lot of damage and flooding everywhere already!! Winds are insane!! And then add that rain we have had SINCE NEW YEARS EVE!!! Omg – killing me!!!

Doby does not like the rain either lol

https://youtu.be/SuVJUBGxNTQ

Please just go away!! This is why you need to spread it out across the year!!! Not ALL at once!!!

I’m just really tired of rain and flooding everywhere – every day you just soaked – and you can’t use roads – only the main roads are somewhat drivable – but even they get shut down 😮… so then we cut off from places 😮

I wonder if the underground of Sacramento is completely flooded ? It must be!! I’m sooo curious!!

Well anyway – I have no idea what is happening anywhere else cause of work and floods 🫤

My fence is mostly still standing – once section fell – it will need to be replaced. Few other sections are iffy – there is nothing I can do at this point – “act of god” so whatever … it’s still destroying my gazebo so also whatever – as long as no trees or power lines fall and hit my house 😮🙏

Ugh almost done 🙏🙏🙏🙏

It’s just powerful sheets and sheets of rain – please don’t break my windows 😮😳

Here is a video from outside my front door 😮 this is our rain … look to the side of the video and you see Doby looking out and then being like “nope” 😄😄❤️❤️❤️ oh he is sooo my baby!! I have now placed pee pads by the door because my back yard is a small lake 😮

But check it…

Hahaha he is sooo funny 😄😄❤️

He does not like not going outside – he has too much energy NOT to go outside omg … there are lakes everywhere now!! Omg … my whole side yard one BIG lake!!! You can Wade in the water 😮😮😝😝 omg gross!

Is slightly flooding my garage 😝 ugh – please no roof issues 🙏 so far am ok there

I also hope funeral home doing ok 😳🙏 ugh

Ok well – I won’t have to water my shit for long time lol 👏👏

https://youtu.be/A2_Dd_ziHFw

I be back in little bit – let me just situate stuff in garage 😑 meh – life making me have to go through things 🫤😑

https://youtu.be/Y-MmoSdyXwE

Meh … I say something to my people at work about how exhausted I am… and they say “Trisha – you can sleep when you dead” 🫤😑 ahhhh funeral people lol 🙄 ✌️