https://youtu.be/2H5rusicEnc

Because Tuesday will be the day of the Hail Marys 😮 omg please let me survive!!

Also … it’s cold and rainy 🤨

Was really Good Friday 👏

Wednesday was Amin appreciation day… but we were too busy to appreciate anything for us, so new guy said to me “ I will buy you lunch on Friday” 👏 Deal

So today he run around doing things (funeral home errands) – but he was also at location at times meeting with families too.

On one of his errands he buy me lunch from really amazing place I picked lol 😘👏

I stopped working and stepped away from computer for few minutes and actually eat our lunches in our reception room

He also got me a gift certificate to get a manicure and pedicure 😮 awww and he said – if don’t like that place let me know and I will get whichever one you like 😮

I did not expect that appreciation- because he just met me 😊 … but is very appreciated – that was very kind and thoughtful 😊 unexpected – was nice though 😊

I have made him feel comfortable and have good direct communication with him… we work REALLY well together – totally same wave length?

Was instant fit! We gonna own this town 😮

Anyway- that was really nice. He was both professional and with a humbleness – yup he can stay

I am glad for my decision to stay 😊 we both excel at our job 😮

https://youtu.be/OPf0YbXqDm0

We have an event coming up for charity we have to attend …

The charity sent me the food choices and I have to tell them what we want…

Hmm 🤔 I am picky … this is fancy chef food

So right away the fish dish is out – and nope

There is a mushroom ravioli … but eww mushrooms 🍄 bleh – I do not like the feeling of them or taste at all. So no for that.

And last option – boneless ribs … hmm 🤔 it sounds like that one will be ok? But watch them severely chef that up into something weird 😮

I like simple yummy things – if you wanna be all fancy with it – better be good – maybe I should eat before I go? Lol kidding – we see

I’ve been helping someone else too … but this one I do because I remember how is to be young struggling and have loss… so …. I help… but that is my job 🤷‍♀️

And we can all remember what that position is like… so I called in a favor, and saved $400 for them❤️👏

I was excited because I was able to give that young person a sigh of relief? I orchestrated something that will save them $400 – from an important outside entity ❤️

I pulled some strings and asked several people for favors ❤️ and they do for me – but that’s also because I explain reason I am requesting and trying to help

I just helped make things less heavy and traumatic for someone – and others are helping me to help them ❤️

So I was very excited and telling new guy all about it. And he looked at me oddly ? And made a comment “you cared”

Which stunned me – because what?? Of course I care … and this is my work… so…

https://youtu.be/5B1QTEGL3t0

I do believe I will live forever – light up the sky like a flame 😘 I make ripples …like others did for me, in my life – so yes, I care because I know the difference one person can make in the life of another

I also care because I know the heartbreak several times over and coming. I do not want the family to have a horrible experience – I want it comforting and nice memory… think of with love – not so much pain

So… yes… remember my name

Anyway, it was odd he stopped it there and commented on that – like it was super rare or something for people to care for others?

He helped me return my lady friends car, when she was in the hosp… and then he see me checking on her … and then this… and I had a family who was beyond devastated. Yesterday they very emotional

Anyway, I have them nice and relaxed now. I’m getting them taken care of … they will have a small sense of peace. 🙏

He heard me on phone with them today, and they laugh with me now and are doing ok. I have a comforting strong caring ness and confident with knowledge and kindness – am also professional and walk you through

I know where my strengths are ✌️ just as much as I know my weaknesses – I know who I am and what I can do.

Well anyway – he was listening to the call after I had them happy. And afterwards he comes around the corner and says “Nice”

He has met MANY characters in this funeral area – everyone is different … so I think he’s just getting a handle on who he works with

Cause he kinda just jumped in and swam, not really having time to learn who are – was right away… now he getting a minute to breathe and see who are lol 😄✌️

Well hello there 👋

Anyway I wrote that last night and fell asleep cause it’s like that 😐

I am preparing for my girl friend to stay over and we go to Train ❤️

https://youtu.be/4R40p6ZG8Uo

I am washing sheets and towels and cleaning 🧹… every time I turn around though – someone (🐾) makes some kinda mess 🤨 … is like a toddler

🙄

I have grocery app shopped 👍 that comes at 2pm lol

What to wear ?? Probably look hot right ? Cause you know is Train lol ❤️

I’m just gonna enjoy this weekend ❤️

https://youtu.be/6aeziDgbjbI

So let’s see – how do I wish to start this? Lol

Ok well … in the mornings … I can look amazing lol … the clothes will be right – all put together, smelling all nice, hair, make up – ready for the day!!! Gonna be good day …

https://youtu.be/Jwy4eIUBDvE

Ok so remember I say that as my story continues lol

Alright so I am looking top notch this morning… we walk out of the house this morning to bring my daughter to school 😮 and a guy walking by that I have seen at funeral home with deliveries 📦 was walking past and says “hey! Don’t I know you from the funeral home – I know you!”

I just say yes that is me.

Normally – this probably would have made me little nervous if I was by myself – but I was not – my daughter was there …

And I stop for gas to bring her to school and same thing happened lol

So we get back in the car … and I say to her … your mother is known 😮😮 … and she rolled her eyes …

So I said “hey well – be prepared cause your mom gonna be known, what’s it like to have a known mom?” Lol ahhhh eye rolls from your daughter ❤️ she also can’t help laughing ❤️

https://youtu.be/otCpCn0l4Wo

I only tease … I mainly like her eye rolls lol

So I drop her off and get to work… shortly after comes new guy… he is looking all great too and so is the attendant 👏👏

Day starts well – but then …. The day comes 😮😮

And then you walk by a Mirror and think “how long have I looked like that?” Lol

Well today was new guys first real feel for the insane lol

https://youtu.be/tMDFv5m18Pw

Just meaning that it comes at you – and it comes at you from every direction – real fast – no mercy

Up until today, he always looked so great

After today lol … day grabs you and it’s go time

He was red by end of day and hair messy lol … disheveled

Awww he has been broken in lol … he asked me why a toilet keeps flushing

So I take him in the bathroom and I show him the handle and said “when you flush – you must put handle back up” lol

He looked at me

And I said “hey welcome to the country” lol

https://youtu.be/_zXKtfKnfT8

I don’t think he expects my ?? Responses ? Sometimes lol … cause he laughs off guard lol

He will get used to it … I’m serving families at moment and sorta trying to juggle my own job – a jiggly toilet handle is not my priority at this very moment

Also another funny thing… he is from this place – is here in California … but the name of the place sounds made up or from super hero movie lol 😄 every time someone ask me where he from lol … when I say where, the initial reaction is laughter lol … it is funny lol – I laugh too

And we see so many names on people – sometime ones that are rare but you know or love for some reason … so … we have one… that normal funeral people instantly think of this one character in a dark show – shhhh … no guessing …

But “I” instantly think of a beloved cartoon character on Nickelodeon back in the day 🤟 ❤️

So I kinda said that out loud from my desk and down the hall he sings the theme 👏👏 it was very funny – those are the funny balance things

He will do fine 👏👏 I approve lol ✌️

He also works hard 😊 thank you – good guy – funny

Ok well anyway –

Then guess what, my friend recovered ❤️❤️❤️ they released her and she is home.

When I went to pick up daughter from play rehearsal tonight – I stopped by my friends house and brought her her car keys (cause I brought her car home) , and also a heart beat monitor I have already lol

So she is good – they say her recovery went so well, because she is generally really healthy!

She eats vegan only – has not eaten in a restaurant 😮 …exercises a lot

But she was not going to see a Dr … her family urged her to!! Cause I don’t know that she would have lasted without care 😮😮

I have another story with her ❤️ but I am too tired

❤️👏 so yes – good week

My plans change 😮😮 uh oh 😳

Here comes life 😮

Alright so now I be Angel for someone else 😮 cause they are in serious need 😮

😳

https://youtu.be/TaG9SDxwPBg

Ok – I am nervous cause hope can help them be ok – but I am nervous!!

Should I ask if they want to stay in my extra bedroom? So I am right here if needed?

They have pneumonia, are elderly … and I’m nervous – they want to admit her to hosp – they are afraid of her being alone

She has no one else – is me … no children, lost spouse so … yes?

Ok so … or my son could stay here with daughter and I could go stay with her? But I still have to work and my home is closer to my work if needs me. I am close either way just my house closer.

Yes I am aware how much I have going on – but she really needs someone – she has a good soul – beautiful heart

She is 80 so “what if” 😳😮 so I am nervous – but I want her to have someone – I can be her Angel if she needs

https://youtu.be/HTzGMEfbnAw

Wouldn’t you want that for your own self ? And she’s terrified 💔 ☹️

Me too 🙏🙏🙏 it will be ok, just nervous …but is not a question IF I help – is just HOW I arrange to do that 😘✌️

And then also little nervous because what if passes away?? 😮😳 so nervous – yes

I have death in my life daily – I just stay away from my own personal deaths emotions, but know they come also – I just don’t handle well 😉 🤫 that’s how I know how to comfort others lol ✌️

But I don’t want someone to live last moments of life without anyone – you have me… so whatever it takes

https://youtu.be/gOsM-DYAEhY

Ripples – in the life of others

Yes I am aware can not save the world – but I can maybe help to save one? If that is what is meant to be 😮

I think life put her in my life so she would not be alone … and for me to prepare for my mom 😮 … plus I am SURE life has lessons planned 😳

https://youtu.be/zxSTzSEiZ2c

I just asked my son if I can help her – if he would help me do this for her?

He said yes ❤️🙏 … I raised that ❤️

Life gets busy sometimes – and we get caught up in things life throws at us. I’ve been busy and tons of changes happening seemingly all the time!!

Well anyway… I got caught up in life 😮

Recently, I made friends with 2 women who lost their husbands – I adore them BOTH!!

One is picture of health and exercises constantly – she will be 80 this year I believe 😮 she does not look or act it!! ❤️👏 she has positive happy outlook and doesn’t let the world infect that. She stayed at home and has more of an innocence to her

The other used to be sooooo sad … but now not so bad … she still misses dearly … but we all walk together and we talk and laugh and enjoy each other. She is more worldly – she owned her own business and had full life… she’s just kinda quiet at first until she is comfortable and at ease lol

One reminds me of my mom, the other has same name as my grandmother and both are similar to me 😮 anyway… we have fun and laugh together when we walk … they do not seem older – also pairing them together has helped each one be ok with everything ❤️ they are the sweetest ladies ❤️👏

The one who reminds me of my mom – is the one who brought me the stuffed animal bunny to say thank you for everything (I helped her when her husband died) she loves bunnies 🐰 ❤️ her husband would always gift her some kind of bunny decorations or pottery or things

Well I talked to her on Monday and we all planned to go for walk on Saturday (which was today) I said yes that I would plan for that!!

But then during week I get busy and then when I get home I am physically and mentally exhausted … I come home and then I just be quiet from all 🙌

They text me sometimes but not a lot – and they know I am very busy. I make time for them.

Well I heard from one who reminds me of my mom, on Wednesday – and she was sick- thinking allergies 🤧… cause those have been bad for people

So I said – that’s ok we can skip this week. And said hope she felt better

Well on Friday she tell me she sooooo sick and had no one to take care of her – first time she sick all by herself … she has pneumonia 😮

The dr prescribed her to take these giant horse pills 💊… but she can’t do it… they too big…

And I felt bad that she so sick and had no one… plus I do not like large pills either and my daughter even struggles to swallow a tiny Advil

I kept asking her if I can get anything for her ?? But she would say thank you and that I so sweet to ask, but would never ask for anything…

So I got a care package of a pill cutter and crusher in one 😮😮 – you can do one or you can do both … it even came with little cup to mix in with a drink and not taste it… I also got her some OJ without pulp… gingerale… Vicks… and a little blanket bunny (I figured if she loves bunnies and is sick- it would also brighten things for her)

Just makes me think ?? and I should probably check on more often… especially since does not have anyone else 🥺

I get wrapped up in life going going going… but then it reminds you how things could change in a moment 😮

I know they are older… but I never stopped to actually think about their age in terms of losing them 😮 but you can also lose anyone anytime – it’s just I didn’t view it there 😮 I was so wrapped up in life’s annoying shenanigans… I forgot how easy it is to really lose someone 😮

So I will check on them more – I do not want them to not have anyone and have something go bad and then no one knows for days … so I don’t want that… I will check on them more!! I never want to invade or overstep – but I can’t bare the thought of them not having someone, and that’s gotta be little terrifying for them.

Anyway – life sucked me into all its craziness for a minute and I let that engulf me 😮 there was a lot 😳

So now I will be better just to make sure they doing ok! 🙏

https://youtu.be/6k8cpUkKK4c

She text me thank you about a million times lol ❤️ she is happy and can take her pills now and I be checking on her 😊👏❤️

On a side note of that – I’m not sure if it is the craziness of life and lack of rest? Or if is the pollen or that I am aging lol – probably a mix of the 3 … but I am soooo exhausted constantly

And my daughter say she also exhausted ? So could be the pollen?? We can not get enough rest lately!! Omg … it’s just very noticeable how sleepy all the time 😮 more than normal

https://youtu.be/IcrbM1l_BoI

Alright so here are some funny things from last week…

I needed tables – but I only had the hearse – I had no choice but to use it to grab the tables lol

So I pull up in the Home Depot loading area with the hearse – grabbing tables and loading them in the back- obviously no one else was with me lol

And before you ask – yes everyone stares lol – whatever … sometimes people make a joke or something but it does catch peoples eyes 👀

Lol

And I’m all dressed up with heels 👠 😮 lol so is an odd thing but it isn’t – just not normal for other people lol – welcome to MY world! 💋

Some lady made a joke and I told her, I tell daughter that if she doesn’t keep her grades up – I will come pick her up in the hearse … she is never sure if I am serious lol 😄

And the kid helping me load the tables interjects a story about wanting to use a hearse instead of a limo for prom but they didn’t let him 😮😳

See how my life is?

When I am in the hearse by myself with the windows rolled up – that sound system is pretty bad ass with the bass 💋

https://youtu.be/7PCkvCPvDXk

https://youtu.be/6fMERyRz498

Yeah – that’s my generation 💋✌️ lol 😉

https://youtu.be/ln-Jq6X6p-g

💋 lol ❤️👏

So ya know…

https://youtu.be/J5qWnG5RQTk

I am trying to handle yard things … I bought myself some marigolds to repel spiders 🕷️ if possible

I also bought 2 grape plants 🍇 ❤️ I only planted one but it’s dead now 😳😵‍💫😩 … Doby killed it … so … ok I don’t want to plant anything else if he gonna tear it up lol – let me have a pretty yard lol 🙏 fricken Doby

So now I have to factor a doberman friendly yard … ugh 😑 ok – so plain 😘✌️ whatever

I will put my marigolds somewhere else ..: and I have one more grape 🍇 plant 🌱 ughhh please let them live 🙏🙏🙏 please let me do this – if you have tips – please share

Once I get fence redone I can put lighting and also hang planters off the fence ❤️ so he can’t reach my things but I can still have things!! 😑

Yeah anyway – I have a lot of things I have to do – so 😩 this is not my weekend – next weekend is ❤️❤️❤️ (but I won’t be getting anything done next weekend 😮)

https://youtu.be/VQwmkY2hwcc

❤️

Whatever ❤️ life can chill with its craziness for one weekend

Ok I found ONE good thing about winter – you can hibernate peacefully but when weather amazing omg there is even more to do 😮😮😮 what is that???

Anyway – remember to check on people because it can be hard in the heavy rush of life … ya know… it always takes a village and people should have people. I would want my own mom to have people if she didn’t have any… so yeah – the magnitude of the thought of how much time left at 80 kinda woke me up 😮

I feel asleep there from life 😮

So … I will check on her more – lesson learned there 😮 and then also – I know death calls for everyone someday – and some are closer than others and life will occur … is worth it – I know pain comes 😮

When I am levitating – I soak in all of that happiness so that when the pain comes – I know is a moment to get through and feel pain, is life and must move forward – 🎶 to everything turn turn turn 🎶 ✌️

https://youtu.be/TUVcZfQe-Kw

https://youtu.be/snZKnES4ng4

I usually stay away from death myself – except for my mom – I hope that I can function through her loss – those days will be darkness for a moment 😮

Otherwise I lost all my people in 2017… so I did not view my life in this moment …that I will lose more 😮 ok strength building/life – nothing lasts forever 😮

So yeah – I’m going to be better with that 🙏 even just quick text – although they are not the most tech savvy lol … takes them awhile to respond but also me too sometimes – for other reasons

So yeah lots of things being juggled 😳😮

https://youtu.be/5IsSpAOD6K8

https://youtu.be/T3E9Wjbq44E

❤️✌️

Ok – sorry I have to go do stuff 😩 I do not have severe motivation 😮😮 I am dragging feet slow today 😘

Ahhhh – Life 😑 I will be back for just reading soon!! I am determined to not be exhausted!!! ✌️

So… today was the BIG DAY 😮😮

Today the new guy at the location all day long. 👏👏

I REALLY like him – he has a strength, he is knowledgeable, he is very professional – I like that. I see why he makes the big bucks – I got you

So ok – I definitely give my approval 👏😊 this is gonna be amazing!!!

https://youtu.be/NCIUf8eYPqA

So far I think he is planning to come back lol 😄😄✌️

He’s perfect for this location!! Good strength and professionalism and extremely knowledgeable- good direction 👏👏👏 I’m excited

I’m very impressed 😊👏 yay!! Is perfect – just what needs and is probably worth more than what they paying him!

He has personality, seems like good guy, personable. Professional, intelligent, also actually cares – love the ideas and direction very much!! 👏 thank you – definitely what wanted 🙌 that’s all

He is perfect for the position and we gonna OWN it!!! Omg!! I’m so excited 👏👏 finally – not just me 👏👏

He has a strength/confidence and seriousness to him – I like all of that 👏👏👏

I actually want to put hearts everywhere – because I am so happy … but I also do not want to use hearts in this area so I am refraining – but I really want the hearts everywhere just for the love of happiness 👏👏❤️ (one for me lol)

He happens to be good looking and also single – so I want to stay far away from anything associated with that!!

So I I’ll refrain from my usual hearts to keep away from anything like that. He seems professional enough that it should never be issue.

We mesh and work well right off the top 👏 I do not think I have to worry at all … yay!! I’m excited 👏👏

I have a work partner … Omg I so badly want to use a heart but then also do not 😮 is killing me!!

https://youtu.be/3zUUtf7gOe8

https://youtu.be/M1F0lBnsnkE

I have team and it will be built 👏👏 yay!! I’m so excited!!

I am happy and relieved 😊❤️ sorry I had to have that heart because I feel the direction and assistance be so much better!!

Is death… so take very seriously. Please realize is others loss and emotions – we wear many hats so… I need his strength and professionalism and it’s not just me anymore – I have a partner!! Yay! A work one 👏 excited ahhh so much better

https://youtu.be/YewVugPHon4

https://youtu.be/aXJhDltzYVQ

Not too crazy – but we gonna own it

He’s a good compliment to my demeanor 😊👏 and I can learn a lot 👏👏 sweet – I like him

I think this will go well 🤞

There are not very many neutral man woman songs btw ✌️ … small little gripe 😘✌️

There are songs about one person being strong… and there are songs about men and woman in love or pain or something… there are songs about best friends – but I don’t want that either

There is no team man woman songs without love or pain or something and none with strength of both?? 😮😮😮 how are there not those songs ??

I will have to stumble on them then – there HAS to be!! Do you know any?

I give up – there are none … I can’t think of any and I can’t find any 😮 I have looked under everything I can think of and always comes back with something about love or relationships or best friends, close people

Can I have slammin it business? Can you say strong team – yes can I have one of those songs?? What would that be??

Ohhh ok then this mash up 👇

https://youtu.be/y3waxdqCQf8

Ok I am happy with that lol ✌️❤️😊 👏👏

What day is it? Wednesday? Ok 👍

So tmrw, is Thursday 😮👏 and tmrw I get the new guy 👏👏👏

https://youtu.be/9erLsEHAZRI

Welcome 🤗 lol

I think he’s gonna do just fine – I already like him so we see. Bring A Game cause we gonna own this 👏

Be strong!! Know your shit – I’m pretty sure he does 👏👏👏 yay!!!

https://youtu.be/rGKfrgqWcv0

I’m excited 👏👏

Ahhhhhh strength 👏👏👏 please bring it!! Own this with me 🙏 we could be dream team if the guy is good … I’m getting too excited … 😮😮😮

Let’s just see first 🙏 ya know – I have hoped before so we see ✌️😘

Alright buddy – let’s see whatcha got 👏👏

I should not be excited but I am! I should NOT be excited because “we will see”… but I am excited for the hope – I think it be amazing so we see 🙏

Please kick it with me 🙏

https://youtu.be/D-uV8TGjaGU

https://youtu.be/ffCEr327W44

Don’t be afraid

https://youtu.be/Dy4HA3vUv2c

😄😘✌️

Big day tmrw 😮😮😮 dang 😳 ok the reality just set in lol ✌️ whew ok 🙏 please let him be amazing!! Please let this go well 🙏

I think it will?? I think there is a chemistry and I think a drive so I think it will go well ?? Please – just know what you’re doing!! Please 🙏

https://youtu.be/VUjdiDeJ0xg

Ok so ready boy? 👏👏 ok yay – shhhh no excitement

https://youtu.be/OPf0YbXqDm0

So yes sir – welcome 💋

Ok but let’s just see. I’m losing myself over and over lol ✌️

Alright so tmrw 😮😮😮😮

https://youtu.be/uZD8HKVKneI

Let’s see who he is … oh please god – just have mercy and let him be good 🙏 deep breath pleeeeeeaaaaaassssseeeeee 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Ok so there is hope and I think is good – but we just see … cause you know, this is life and like likes to pull shit … so ok … 🙏🙏🙏

But I am hopeful for having a beat… so will work amazing together – I hope for that … so let’s just see

Tonight I will imagine amazing – and then tmrw – we see

Welcome 🙌

https://youtu.be/Ejdx6_hYTiY

Alright well … it was Monday – I hosted all the big managers for this big meeting

Went well… so I announced I would stay. Everyone was happy. ❤️

And the new guy came – only …all day long I was in meeting with everyone and the whole time I am sitting in the meeting – I am thinking “omg I have a million things to do!!” Lol 😳 – I had to leave twice!

I told big boss this is what you do!! Listen – put it in an email! I’m gonna need ME and HIM … please don’t do meetings meetings meetings or I will complain – do not make me a complainer lol – we have work to do!!

Tmrw he has him – and Wednesday … on Thursday he’s mine!!! Maybe Friday also 🙏🙏

I’m ok through on boarding but hurry up!! I need him jumping in!! ASAP!!

https://youtu.be/SwYN7mTi6HM

Today was unproductive mostly … cause I was in meeting all day!! But ok – first day and Monday – is leadership and changes… fine

https://youtu.be/Gz2GVlQkn4Q

… I just need HIM at the location lol … I am impatient lol

Omg it’s like a carrot 🥕 dangling from a string!!!

https://youtu.be/hwZNL7QVJjE

I just have to be patient

https://youtu.be/4QCVqqmAS3s

I do have help now… they all jumping

https://youtu.be/XhzpxjuwZy0

It’s just that the house of pain in effect y’all ✌️ but I will be patient for onboarding – trying to be!!

Patience – I have that … usually that of a saint 😘✌️… not really in this area lol ✌️ but ya know almost there 🏃‍♀️

I am excited it will be good! I like him – I think we will own it!! 👏

https://youtu.be/YkOU2BXcNfY

Please bring the fire 🔥 🙏🙏🙏

https://youtu.be/IKqV7DB8Iwg

🙏

Please have a fire 🔥 🙏🙏🙏🙏 … I think he has a fire but we see

https://youtu.be/TUVcZfQe-Kw

Ready buddy?

https://youtu.be/Io0fBr1XBUA

And those are my thoughts of the day lol

No pressure lol 💋

Bring your A game! Let’s own this!! 🙏