❤️ Happy Friday ❤️ woo hoo!!

Work went well… I really like the new kid! He’s gonna work just fine – he keep asking me what he can do – or whatever I ask… it is done… he brings his little note pad everywhere

This kid is awesome!! He seems to be fast learner too

I had to take him with me today to go get the Hearse from Cadillac

So I let him drive us there in the funeral van. Lol … that was kind of a mistake

He’s a driver… but um… I had white knuckles … it’s not that he’s fast… no he is actually leisurely driver lol…

But his lane changes and things kinda had me on alert lol

When I went in to get hearse – they say which car are you here for? Lol

I said “I am with such and such funeral home”

And he still blank stares at me lol… what would a funeral home obviously pick up and how many hearses does Cadillac service? Lol

The girl behind the counter looks at him and says “it’s the hearse”

I said “we call it the limo” (we don’t call it the limo – only me lol… only I call it the limo, but whatever, not being technical lol ✌️)

They told me they have fun telling people their ride has arrived lol 😄😄

I lost the new guy for a moment in traffic but he did good. I like this kid. He drives a little slow … not that we speed – but he is slow lol

Then I had to drop hearse off – was for haunted mansion – they have the caddy ❤️

There was a 2 person viewing happening so I could not show new guy around The Haunted Mansion. (which I love for its detail and living quarters!!)

My location kind of has living quarters or it used to be maybe on occasion? There is a laundry room area and a kitchen area, bathroom, and a studio type room that is off the garage – it’s cool but not as cool as Haunted Mansion

Someone called around all my funeral homes and said … “I just had a loved one pass away – can you do a cremation by Tuesday? “

OMG no we can not… try adding another 2 – 3 weeks if you lucky …

They said someone told them they could have a cremation done by the 12th 🤨

There is one funeral home that we just hired an arranger from that has a bad reputation because it keeps changing ownership …

The arranger told us they have nothing and are soooo slow!! 😮😮😱😱😱 meanwhile ALL of my corporation owned funeral homes are slammed hard

We are struggling to keep up!! I do not understand how they are slow unless they suck really bad which could be the case… they do not have a good reputation to begin with

But whatever. It’s probably them telling this person they can do by Tuesday …because they have no business

So I taught new guy how to open, I did not teach close but hopefully girls did or will… he works with one tmrw and then Sunday he is alone.

He has my contact info if he has any issues. But he should be fine… I had him taking calls today!

Then boys were already here when I came home.

Right away they talk about what happened this week in Washington… ugh 🤦‍♀️

My oldest is like “did you hear what happened?”

lol of course – who hasn’t

It’s just appalling to see people acting like that. Maybe grow up and be adults?

But whatever. “People”

Also… hello… super spreader events … STOP DOING THEM!!!!! Do people just not care? Is it that??

People are NOT following distance rules!

Ok so… besides criminal charges … I do not want to think about politics – because I have had it and I am disgusted by the republicans. Disgraceful time for the United States – I can not wait for it to end!!

We gonna have some changes – watch what happens in this decade. 😮 but I hope so, because change is needed! 🙏

I talked about work, and was telling them how crazy it is… and how backed up we are – we can’t do fast enough

They said they saw that on news

They hear my work stories sometimes especially when they beat me here!! Cause I am freshly off of handling work lol

And then my daughter sent some fan drawing into some Vtuber who I guess is big… but I don’t know about those things so whatever – I had no idea

But I guess she got a Twitter shout out? She was all thrilled and excited ❤️

And it’s weird to have my baby be on social media things – she has a Twitter lol … and something else – but I forget that one?

She uses Twitter for Art 🖼

Oh yeah and tonight lol… we were talking about future stuff lol… and I said well we could all just get a place and…

But before I could finish what I was saying they ALL said no and laughed 😮😮😮 what??

And they were like because that’s weird… so where do you live? Oh with my mom lol

Well ok fine – when they put it like that lol … I suppose that is weird when you are an adult ?

But I would love to have my mom again. ❤️

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That is my mom ❤️❤️❤️

Well anyway, that choked me.

But they say is weird so whatever lol … I would love being with my mom!!

So I will just have peace then

I put my kids as my beneficiaries for everything. I also wrote down some of the information needed for a death certificate … yes I know is morbid sorry… or it sounds that way?… but to me sounds good to do… always good to have the info

You need things like your parents names, where they were born, your own vitals (date of birth & where) things like that… I just want my people to get it right, it’s kind of important

I like details 😘✌️

I’m just starting to lay it out just a little, so it’s not this big thing.

My children are used to this talk… because when I had cancer – before every surgery I had to make sure my health care directive was still correct, and my things were in order – just incase

I had to discuss my wishes with my children. So ya know.

And then now… I work at funeral homes so they hear about death things and the job

So they are used to these things ?

We watched videos 19 picked …

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Alright – it is late – I am exhausted – I was on call last night and it was busy so my eyes just sting so badly!!

Good night 😘 💤

One other thing …

Most of the time I am realist / and the realist part really sinks in the most lol ✌️

But I also have a dreamer side

See the conflict? Lol 💋

Ok Gnite for real 😘

I don’t really have a lot to say lately?? I don’t know? I’m not very talkative like normal?

Every day I can tell you about all the deaths but it’s just always and constant covid and non-covid together

I am on call tonight – no one die!! Just do not die tonight!!! 🙏

It’s funny to be in a business where you kind of dread business? It’s odd

You want business but at same time you don’t. It’s weird

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It’s really hard when families are devastated like this… most are understanding but sometimes you have some who have a hard time not only accepting the loss of a loved one, which is hard enough to accept … but then we have to tell them we back logged … some cemeteries are not booking services until March because we are sooo backlogged!! Yeah that’s how bad it is.

And we have massive restrictions!! So the families sometimes just crumble with despair because they can’t say goodbye in the traditional way?

It is really hard when someone is in tears and there is nothing you can do.

So that’s a little heartbreaking also.

We try really hard to make it as ok as we possibly can. But our hands are tied.

So I could tell you all that everyday… it’s just I deal with it so some days are harder than others.

I have a ton to do tmrw!! I have 2 sets of reports and things to do…

A weekly and a monthly set of reports

I have everything ready mostly. Should go smoothly. 🙏 I have everything – I can account for every single tiny thing ❤️

I have to call a few people back… get things ready for the new guy and then I should be good ?? I think ?

Depends on what comes at me tonight and tmrw – but let’s hope nothing 🙏

Otherwise not too much going on…

Remember the guy who wants to know me?… he doesn’t know how to know me lol

So that’s a little funny

I am busy, and I think he is also busy?

Plus he is not sure when is ok to text? Or say hi?

He is never getting anywhere like that!!

Eventually I will completely bore of that. Right now it’s funny … but if you want to know me then step up.

He said he wants to know me and somewhat tries – but it’s not my thing how he is doing it and stepping so softly.

I am not scary at all… but he seems afraid to overstep.

You don’t ever have to worry about that, because I will tell you lol…

I will always say exactly what is on my mind and what I am ok with.

And I don’t know ??

I don’t think he is right for me.

I texted with him for a minute tonight but it’s mostly about work… cause he doesn’t know how to talk to me otherwise ??

He tries to throw flirty things in there and they are funny … but he really has no idea how to get to know me?? He steps very very carefully

And I don’t know much about him either and he isn’t asking or sharing until stumbles on info… so ya know whatever

I don’t have a lot of time anyway… but he’s kinda failing

If you want to know me, then try to know me (he really doesn’t) … and share yourself too… he does none of that… so that almost loses my interest instantly.

So whatever

I feel like there is something else I am forgetting ?? But I guess not.

I am pretty mellow tonight.

So remember – no one die!! 🙏

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I want that ❤️✌️ if you can’t give me that… then don’t try 😘 I say that seriously actually ✌️💋

So whatever – when I find that I be done – that is the only thing I am missing … but I will take my time to find that… I am in no rush… and I don’t want that just because I want it – so I will just take my time …so I get it right this time 🙏

And if I don’t find that – then that would be my fate right?

And yes … I am a romantic lol ✌️ and that’s why no one can hold a candle 🕯 lol … but there is a fine line… you don’t want to be creepy romantic … instead be more like chivalrous, sweet, thoughtful… so whatever just saying lol … informing lol

Alright well – bedtime again… bed and work and bed and work lol … then weekend lol ❤️ I have weekends off ❤️ not that it’s anything because what am I gonna do with that??

Woo hoo … weekend of cleaning house lol ✌️ but whatever it’s the “weekend” ❤️

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So yeah there ya go ✌️💋

Ok bedtime… Gnite 😘✌️

Good morning or whatever hour it be for you 🙌

Now I drive to work in the dark and it’s staying lighter little later each day ❤️ spring will be here soon ❤️✌️ (it’s still pitch black night here at this moment 😮) but is time for me to get ready for work.

I was disgusted by what went on yesterday here in America 🇺🇸

I am tired and over Trump – can he just shut up and go away… can some other country just please take him??

Whatever – yesterday was a disgrace because of him – it’s always because of him… just get out already!!

Sorry but we need to kick out the epic MF!!

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Yeah I can not deal with him anymore he needs to get the hell out… I would like to see charges brought up against him for his antics. For a president of the United States – president trump is deplorable!!! I not going to even capitalize that!!

Well anyway – get him the F out!!

Work went well yesterday … busy but went good.

I have to get ready for work now ✌️ what day is it ? Thursday? I am oncall tonight 😝

Ok I am off – have a wonderful day ☀️🙏❤️✌️

I was way too tired to post last night and this morning I am getting ready for work now.

But new guy went good – he’s 2 years older than my oldest … he has perfectionist tendencies so I like that, he will be a good worker – followed me with little note pad taking notes 📝

I was trying not to overwhelm him – he was nervous… he seemed comfortable with us and seems like will be good fit

He will be my weekend worker, he works again Friday – when I will teach him the alarm 🚨

Hope goes well 🙏

Also my phone asks me questions every day – I’ve had it doing that for years – way before covid … and I’m not sure it’s aware there is covid, because it asks me questions that annoy me a little lol

Today’s question was : what was the last restaurant you went to? “Went to” 🤨

I can not remember 😮

It would have been with the kids so maybe “The Original Mel’s?”

Ok I have to go… anymore time and I be late 😮

It just keeps coming… we already have a 50ft refrigeration truck and we have more coming this week… is still not enough.

One location … not one of mine – but our mothership funeral home … many have covid… there are zero arrangers available because everyone is sick … we will have to step in and take some of their cases

We have a currier who comes from that facility – I told them they are not allowed in building anymore … they are to call me when here, and I will come and get.

I’m not taking chances – nope. Stay away ✋

So… it’s bad and it’s coming closer and closer. No one but me and girls allowed in building currently.

Hurry up with the fucking vaccine!! Holy shit who the hell is in charge of that, because they suck at their job!! Get people vaccinated NOW!! Could they be any fuckin slower??!!

Anyway… it’s hard – families are devastated but also understanding with covid and covid is just pouring in now… thanks to the holidays. ☹️

This is only the beginning – it’s gonna get worse … we are bracing for it to get really bad 😳😮☹️

We have to do things to comfort families that think outside the box or what we normally would do for them… because it’s just such an insane time and we are trying to still comfort families and help them…

We bend over backwards to handle all of it and the families

We go insane trying to do all of it… and where are these vaccines?? Work or not is something … anything is better than all this death ☠️ please hurry up with that shit please!!

I feel like it’s just a matter of time… the minute one of my girls gets it – I probably will too… and then I wouldn’t be able to see my kids … and I don’t know that I would make it?

I am tired and I’ve had my own medical issues so ya know – I’m not really in the mood to fight for my life yet again… I am tired.

But whatever – there is nothing I can do. What will be, will be. I can protect as much as I can – but there is always risk!

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How many people do we have to lose?

This is just the beginning – brace yourself – please stay safe!! Please make sure you listen to me.

Wear your mask, make sure you stay distanced… wash your hands and keep hand sanitizer with you. Just try to stay away. ☹️💔

It’s like awful

Anyway … I am home – I had to work late because it’s just too busy!!! I didn’t leave until 6pm

And I have a new guy coming to start tmrw – he has to fill out his paper work and I am supposed to show him few things.

I will have to be even earlier because he is coming at 8 so I will be there at 730 … so I can get in and set up!! That’s gonna be a tough morning and I have to make time for him with all this 😳😮

My girls already said “tell him we are not bitches” lol

It’s because we so busy we gonna end up saying to him “look we can not speak to you right now” lol – they don’t mean to be rude but we slammed currently

Sometimes we have everything coming at us and we don’t even have time to breathe. So it would be in those moments lol which are happening all the time lately!!

They were like who going to train him?

Well I am going to have to!! He needs to know what to do!!

So yeah I will have to find time for him 😳😮

And then here at home I have a little mosquito woman in my ear lol… I don’t do social media… of any kind – just this – that’s it.

She is trying to talk me into downloading “discord” 🤨 (or as I like to call it “dysfunction” lol) – I only say that to tease lol

She says be faster for me to text her on that 🤨 … what?? I have to download an app to get a hold of my daughter faster 🤨

Whatever. I said I would check it out 🤨

She’s just over here … “did you download that yet?”

No lol… I said I would check out first lol

I really do not want a social media app but I suppose I can look at it.

She complains my texts are slow or she doesn’t get them. We are out in country 🤨🙄😄✌️

Alright well I will read for a minute then I have to go to bed because I have to get up early to be at work even earlier tmrw 😐

Make sure you listen and please stay safe…. don’t mess with this if you can avoid it. 😘❤️✌️

Good night 😴💤🌙

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Oh yeah – rained all day too!!

I am having my daughter do some work for me lol

I ask her because she know how to do hopefully lol 🙏

I have a list of umm work for funeral home … and since I have new person starting on Friday… I will need list for him on Friday… because he will be doing the funeral home all by himself this coming weekend 😮 actually just Sunday he will be by himself 😳

Ok so Friday – I will be showing him all around.

I want a list so he knows what to do. I have it all written down already … she is just making it into a form for me lol ✌️❤️

It will be all professional – I said it’s for a funeral home so make it look nice … and she picked a really pretty font ❤️

When I ask her to clean things – she moans lol … but I asked her to do this for me and she’s all excited lol

Well bonus for me then lol ✌️ and she feels all important and helping me ❤️

She is diligently working away and doing amazing with it ❤️

She is fast 😮 over there in her little nasa cocoon of screens and computers 🖥🖥🖥 🤨🙄

But she’s doing amazing ❤️

I peeked over and looks amazing!!

Nervous to see what is going to come at me when I walk in the door tmrw. 😳

But otherwise … should be good … because all that end of year stuff is done… now I can organize and situate and help my girls with everything.

Is much better ❤️ I can breathe

So anyway – I should get to bed. She’s almost done and then she is off to bed also. We are both up late.

I be back tmrw ✌️😘 Gnite

Someone very private like me, and has pain and stuff …

Just asked me if I would call a cemetery on Monday to get information about 2 graves and if there are plots around that area – how much would cost?

This cemetery is outside my network – they are not one we deal with… but that is the cemetery he wants – so I will find out on Monday

I will give him the info and then also see if he doing ok. I’ll just make sure. 😳

I have not yet had anyone I know ask me for help with death 😮 this is my first time 😮

It’s eerie 😳

I am on call until noon …

I have been busy since early this morning … 3am? I have a ton of new calls. ☹️

All morning I been working! At noon I am done til Monday 🙌

It is hard for me not to always think about work when we are so busy like this! We are severely overwhelmed with the amount coming in. I have tons of stuff to always be doing!! It does kill me a little bit to not work

Omg is that the sign of a work-a-holic? But mine is different lol

Mine is people

These are weird circumstances – it is very hard and omg I don’t work until Monday – do you understand what Monday will be like when I walk in after not working for 3 days 😮😮😮 omg

Ok well… Monday will kill me.

Oh boy. Alright … first Monday of the New Year – we gonna see what happens 😳 omg

Yikes.

3 days off 😳

What’s gonna happen is… I will relax and chill by the end of 3 days…

I will walk in all relaxed and chill and ready… and then boom – it just comes

And 3 whole days without being there??? Omg – that is soo hard!! Especially right now!!

So ok. Monday. My new doomsday lol ✌️

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Also … people be saying happy new year 🎊

So did Country Boy 🤨 I don’t know his deal?? I do not understand

So my views are no different. Time did not change my mind on that.

And he says my name but he also calls me sweetheart or sunshine. He is country boy so like that.

But I don’t talk to him… I keep telling him no

It’s not that I don’t want him… is just that it won’t work… so ya know.

I am just little straight laced. Protective. ✌️ I am quiet and I just want peace and one other thing.

He has already made clear he can not or does not want that one thing – so ok… and that’s done?

So I don’t understand why the contact. You change your mind?

And even if that was the case… I don’t know how I would even??

He is very different than I am.

Just really really country… down home country… that is hot… but I don’t know

Also politically and with sports (lol) we clash hard … he is Republican 🙄

And I am independent

I just keep my opinions there to myself – because he believes the other way … so I am not sure … not that politics are a thing or anything. But he is very strong in opinions and so am I and I won’t be bullied or owned so that one is weird to me. That could cause issues?

I adore him. He was in my life when my dad was alive … when I was still married (he was just a friend – nothing bad) he has helped me through things

Like the gun thing – and the death of my father and what I have gone through … he’s always been very sweet and kind.

So he’s been there with things – and he is always really sweet …

But I’m sorry… I still stand firm. If he is not meant for me, then I don’t want him. I don’t want to play games or do yo-yo so what want ?

I would rather be alone than not have that one thing I want. So… yeah that’s not going away. I am solid on that.

I think he just check to see if I change my mind? Nope – I have not

Anyway I am busy I have coroners calling me and everyone ever since like 3 am!!

Just wow. I have 20 minutes left – then phones are not to me anymore 🙌❤️ … so many events right off the bat for the new year!

Ok I will be back and not fall asleep!!! Shortly ish ✌️ – am working and handling stuff ✌️