I am busy!

I am on call until noon …

I have been busy since early this morning … 3am? I have a ton of new calls. ☹️

All morning I been working! At noon I am done til Monday 🙌

It is hard for me not to always think about work when we are so busy like this! We are severely overwhelmed with the amount coming in. I have tons of stuff to always be doing!! It does kill me a little bit to not work

Omg is that the sign of a work-a-holic? But mine is different lol

Mine is people

These are weird circumstances – it is very hard and omg I don’t work until Monday – do you understand what Monday will be like when I walk in after not working for 3 days 😮😮😮 omg

Ok well… Monday will kill me.

Oh boy. Alright … first Monday of the New Year – we gonna see what happens 😳 omg

Yikes.

3 days off 😳

What’s gonna happen is… I will relax and chill by the end of 3 days…

I will walk in all relaxed and chill and ready… and then boom – it just comes

And 3 whole days without being there??? Omg – that is soo hard!! Especially right now!!

So ok. Monday. My new doomsday lol ✌️

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Also … people be saying happy new year 🎊

So did Country Boy 🤨 I don’t know his deal?? I do not understand

So my views are no different. Time did not change my mind on that.

And he says my name but he also calls me sweetheart or sunshine. He is country boy so like that.

But I don’t talk to him… I keep telling him no

It’s not that I don’t want him… is just that it won’t work… so ya know.

I am just little straight laced. Protective. ✌️ I am quiet and I just want peace and one other thing.

He has already made clear he can not or does not want that one thing – so ok… and that’s done?

So I don’t understand why the contact. You change your mind?

And even if that was the case… I don’t know how I would even??

He is very different than I am.

Just really really country… down home country… that is hot… but I don’t know

Also politically and with sports (lol) we clash hard … he is Republican 🙄

And I am independent

I just keep my opinions there to myself – because he believes the other way … so I am not sure … not that politics are a thing or anything. But he is very strong in opinions and so am I and I won’t be bullied or owned so that one is weird to me. That could cause issues?

I adore him. He was in my life when my dad was alive … when I was still married (he was just a friend – nothing bad) he has helped me through things

Like the gun thing – and the death of my father and what I have gone through … he’s always been very sweet and kind.

So he’s been there with things – and he is always really sweet …

But I’m sorry… I still stand firm. If he is not meant for me, then I don’t want him. I don’t want to play games or do yo-yo so what want ?

I would rather be alone than not have that one thing I want. So… yeah that’s not going away. I am solid on that.

I think he just check to see if I change my mind? Nope – I have not

Anyway I am busy I have coroners calling me and everyone ever since like 3 am!!

Just wow. I have 20 minutes left – then phones are not to me anymore 🙌❤️ … so many events right off the bat for the new year!

Ok I will be back and not fall asleep!!! Shortly ish ✌️ – am working and handling stuff ✌️