Well nothing went as planned this weekend.

It started out normal, with Friday – work was good but I had some issues with the building.

I had to have maintenence come and break a lock on some door that was locked and I could hear dripping – I have never seen behind that door.. and no one knew where key was

Omg well we busted into the room and is the hot water heater which is leaking and now I have this huge issue going on which I don’t want to get into because it’s really long and dumb 🤨

Also… I do not like the way they handle outsourcing work or how they get people 🤨

I was told this was replaced one year ago… ok so someone does shotty work and they have them come back?? The Warranty expired already… why have him come back

So I have to use this guy this time – but that’s it – any other issues of this kind… I will find the appropriate and hard worker who will do the job right the first time. Or at the very least be proud of his/her work.

Failing after one year and that’s only because I heard that drip – no one told me any of this until I discovered that door!!

Anyway like I said is a really long frustrating dumb story. 🤨 but ok… office manager stuff

It’s funny when I meet office managers … umm they all have this quality about them? Lol… I can’t explain it?? There is something familiar about all of them lol

Anyway then it was Friday night and the kids came. All of us were really tired… so we just relaxed together and watched videos ❤️ we be lazy ❤️

This was my favorite video:

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Then the boys left and my daughter went on computer. I came here to write the post… and then a text came…

Before I tell you about all the stuff going on… first let me say, I get little overwhelmed with certain things … I can usually handle and it’s fine – I’m used to it… but it can get out of hand and since I like to be slow and I don’t really know what I’m doing or anything so… if too much starts happening then it does overwhelm me a little bit.

Especially if it is something I am not familiar with much and I find it heavier than most

Alright well anyway… a text came from a friend who has been supportive and really kind, human compassionate

So… I’m chatting with him and we catching up… and he say…

Would you like to socially distance at a park and get take out? Lol 😄😄😮

Ok first of all… that was funny because of the time period 😄 that made me laugh (that is what you want – that was good lol) there is your lead in… catch her off guard with humor

But I was stunned ?? I did not see that coming at all… but I am really naive with catching clues or anything on that. I am blind unless you are direct lol

And then they are direct and then I have to handle that too

Not that it’s bad… it’s not bad…

But that work guy wants to know me… and then there is this one… but there is another one too!!!!!!!!!!

I do nothing to make this happen!!!!!! I try to hide away, and the more I run from it the more it happens

And why do I run from it? Because I have residual fear of a few things … but I think with right person that wouldn’t be an issue because I would be at ease in first place … but I just don’t look for it just yet

And then also… just humor me for one minute ok?

Alright… so if I dated – what if I … I don’t even know how to say this? It’s gonna sound dumb and I contradict myself clearly!

On one hand I want something? And I do want that. But then at the same time – I want it to just become lol

And it feels weird to think of having relationships that close with someone.

… how do I know who is right? I need time… and then I actually have to FIND what is right!! Or at least what I love and fit with … you have to find that – that takes time. Doesn’t it?

I like time – life does not like to give me time 🤨

But here’s the thing … I am not stable yet… I need my emotions for that. And I pour my time into building myself so what time would I even have for a relationship ? And I severely have a full plate at this moment

And then what if I miss amazing ? But the timing also has to be right.

You know when things are right when all the timing and everything lines up ❤️

I have work I am handling, and then my divorce is coming and that is going to take everything out of me… and then my mom, my girlfriend, her mom other things, being a mom, my plate is too full. Anymore and I will spill.

And I feel like to be in a relationship is emotional and for me, it will be so… I am not ready – I am overwhelmed by that, little bit. But I will get through it eventually… just handling a lot at moment that’s all.

So. I just went to bed after that and figured I would finish my post in the morning. I was quiet and just tired.

I woke up in the morning and daughter wanted big breakfast so I did that… 🍳 …

Then I wanted to do something for my girlfriend who is sick- since I can’t be there for her and I can’t help her… I can still comfort and make smile and feel loved ❤️… so …

I put together some stuff online in a care package 📦 … of things I know will help her… like a pillow and blanket (in her favorite colors) and then warm socks 🧦 , I put in some medical things that would help too, thing I know help when you going through chemo. She doesn’t need them yet – she hasn’t started… but just to have in hand. Dry mouth wash and things like that. So I put that together and she doesn’t know… I just did that this morning so she hasn’t received or know yet.

…and then my phone rang … it was my girlfriend!!!! … the same one I was sending that too!!

The little German Lady, I take care of once in awhile (dropping off supplies) is her mother …

She is sick 😳😮… she has Covid.

So ok.

I have to drop off supplies when she needs something. I pull up, run up – put down leave and then call lol … if I call before she will open the door – I do not want her opening the door before I leave.

She’s not doing well, she is elderly – all by herself… she has a raging fever… having a hard time breathing … she went in on Friday to be tested for covid

She started feeling sick on Thursday … I have not seen or been around her at all

But she would have been exposed to covid on Sunday morning… so incubated Monday – Tuesday – Wednesday … and showed up on Thursday… took few days to infect the system 😮 … and there is your spread

I asked my girlfriend… if it doesn’t go well – are you prepared emotionally? (Because she just got news she has cancer!!) she said no … but ya know it’s a possibility. I don’t know how strong the woman is?

Although her personality is a feisty little hard ass German woman lol – she is adorable ❤️❤️❤️ I am delighted by her , but my friend says that is because she is not MY mother lol

She doesn’t listen to her daughter and that frustrates my friend, who is the daughter lol

So… her mum has covid and isn’t doing well. I worry. So I bring supplies and I will do as she needs

And then the day is getting away from me at this point and then girlfriend calls me back.

And then the flood gates opened 😮… and so I spent the rest of my time talking and comforting her, listening… and then since I have had cancer I can share little things … my experiences different because mine was breast cancer. Hers is leukemia and this other one related to Hodgkins – brought on by the leukemia

Well anyway… we cried… and then you know went through the stages where you cry, you suck it up, you realize reality, and then you cherish what you can while you can ♥️

We talked and stuff for hours… and she was sharing stories about her life ♥️

That is hard to be faced with 😢💔

Not only was I given the experience to know the fear … but I survived and get to watch everyone be taken away from me 😢💔

I am not very happy with life in that aspect at this moment. That is an area I have zero control over

And it’s all the ones I love with all my heart 💔 where my heart is all entangled so then when I lose, it bleeds badly 💔 I hate that!!

And it’s taking my inner circle 😢💔

Which is fine – that’s life … and I’m probably meant to start a new life or something – but it just hurts a lot – and I try not to let it but life keeps taking my people 💔

And then I will have no inner circle and no family 😢💔 I will be just by myself 😮

I have my kids ❤️ but they will grow and do their own things eventually – I cherish my time with them because I know it won’t be forever

So I have an era ending ☹️💔 I am losing all my people – very painfully

Alright so the 2020’s are going to be flipping the world upside down, ok got it 👌

Ok decade of change. Ok

I will be taking many deep breaths 😳😮🙏🙏🙏

And then I have to write something for court. It makes my stomach turn because I have to remember all of it… so it makes me feel sick

But that’s fine – I have to do so… suck it up … I am just exhausted from it? So I do have to do that today.

I am almost done and free … almost ❤️

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So anyway… just a lot of things happening when all I want is peace – I don’t have that right now 😮 💔

But that’s alright – it is a moment… you have to weather the storm before you can have the rainbow right?

Mine has been a fricken category 5 hurricane for while now… so I would like my rainbow 🌈 to be really vibrant and incredible please 🙏

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Ok I need to work on the court paper. I probably won’t post again, I feel quiet, but I be back to read – or I do plan to

Depends where I am after this court paper.

I feel beat up 🤕

Oh I am exhausted! Whew.

I am on call tonight 😳 please no one die… just hang on… you can do it!! You don’t want to miss Friday lol ❤️✌️

I had a contract that was not populating correctly today 😠 ugh that was a mess 🤦‍♀️

One of my girls spent the entire day trying to handle the contract? And we had to call help desk and they had to do it because it was just too much!! It would not go the right way!!! It was just doing whatever it wanted 🤨 it was the taxes, they had to adjust the taxes because of add ons and adjustments – it was just messy 🤦‍♀️😝

And then I did not have access to something managers need access to? 🤨 so it says “request access” lol

And it gave a little box for me to write something to request access…

So I just wrote … I am an office manager – can I please have access lol

And it writes back… your wish is granted lol 😄😄 ❤️

I do like when my wishes are granted lol ❤️ that was easy ❤️

I love when there is a cool sense of humor lol … I love delightful little things like that ❤️ granting my wishes and stuff lol – yeah I really liked that answer lol

Then I had to pick up groceries (only drive up – I already ordered) now I am home… but I have to do stuff … I am so tired I do not want to do stuff.

But I do not want it being all crazy – it’s driving me nuts – I have laundry to put away, finish putting away groceries (I already did the perishables, I just needed to sit!)

I can’t have it like that… tmrw is Friday so I like it all ready to go smooth and awesome ❤️ I like everything perfectly ready ❤️ I do everything now … and then it be done and I can relax tmrw . Yup

I have to cancel my car appointment next week and book it a week later. I have services for way too many families next week there is no way I can take a day off!

Tmrw that guy who wants to know me is coming to the office. He asked me for a picture today 🤦‍♀️

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Oh that is almost a kiss of death lol 💋 🥀

Ugh 🤦‍♀️ I don’t like taking pictures … it’s not that I don’t like my pictures they are fine… it just makes me uncomfortable?

He sees me… so what do you need a picture for? … he can very easily come and see in person – so what is the purpose? Why do you want that? He doesn’t even know me yet

He is not very good at knowing his audience lol

Can I have a photo 😄 the dude sees me “sometimes” lol … I’m sorry… but why?? When you see me??

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I do not trust him – but I also don’t know him. So whatever

It’s just funny… know your audience 😄✌️

I think he doesn’t understand me? At all – not even slightly

So … I am not the type to be all excited just because someone interested … and I don’t really give anyone my time. Lol … except here ❤️

And I’m really not sure where I am with that yet? Because that makes me nervous? …for so many reasons

So he’s gonna get speed bumps because I am going to be careful and slow – he’s not gonna be able to handle that…

I don’t really have time – he knows this

Something just is off? Cause there are some people that I will instantly just click with…

Like for example… country boy – omg … he had a fire … I didn’t want to get burned … but he had a fire about him … do you know that fire?

It’s like that fire that wants to pull you close like a magnet, and you breathe heavy 😮 omg

But… his ship has sailed so whatever … there are other fires

But I don’t feel a fire here? I think it’s me?? I don’t know?

Ok step one … umm you have to put in effort first of all lol… cause otherwise you won’t catch my attention

Step two… maybe know who I am first lol (duh) but that again returns to effort ✌️

Step three… umm I don’t know step 3, cause I am new at this… but slow your roll lol … don’t go too fast

I think you have to make me want you first?

So let’s see that ?? Show me the skills – can you read me or not?

Ugh so alright well – he comes over funeral home tmrw.

I have not sent a picture

If you want stuff like that then you have to actually put some time in… I have to be at ease

If can’t handle that then alright

I don’t think he can or knows how to handle me?

Whatever

So anyway… tons of stuff.

Since I am oncall I have to have my phone ON at ALL times lol … 🤨

I was in parking lot of grocery store waiting for my groceries and the phone rings lol 😮

Oh crap… a death call … but it wasn’t!!! It was one of our new hires not knowing which location to go to lol… his first day is tmrw

Well I was so excited it was not a death call I was all peppy and friendly lol… “oh hello… yes hold on let me check – you are going here and welcome aboard”

And he’s like “oh my gosh thank you so much that was so nice” lol

You are kind of surprised with how amazing and thoughtful people are in this business when you first come – I remember that too. But was just funny cause I was all excited was just that and not death lol

Sounds like he will fit well… we have some really awesome news hires ❤️ excited to have them!

Alright well I do have to get my stuff handled – I am sorry my time is limited but I have the weekend off and completed most things already – so I plan to relax on Saturday ❤️

I am doing absolutely nothing but being here on Saturday – hopefully ❤️🙏🙏

Ok … ugh I have to do my stuff it’s killing me… I will try to be back but no promises – I am exhausted

Just incase – good night 💤🌙😴❤️

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Ok… I am doing good

Just thought I would pronounce that. But I am absorbing everything, so doing ok. And handled a ton of personal stuff today

I didn’t get a few things finished but whatever, I got most handled whew ok – so yeah doing good. Ish ✌️😘

One year ago … I would tease my daughter, while in the car, and play this song while only singing “dance in the living room” over and over and over lol 😄❤️❤️

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Wow… one year… coming up

Ok so… the 2020’s … they seem bumpy but ok.

This is really hard though… because obviously I am not going to do well when anyone I love dies 🤨 … I thought I would be better?? Ya know, cause I’ve had that punch so much and also because at work I can feel the emotions however I am very calm strong and comforting ✌️

But if is someone twisted into my heart then no… I do not know how to do well.

I thought I am adjusted? to death now? Guess not

And ya know… everyone??? That’s literally everyone… well I have my brother and sister … but they are very very far

** also … hmm … we always lived far from family and there are reasons lol … those 2 don’t get along,

I am the oldest… I was the coolest lol 💋✌️ the most popular, the most social. Also the most goofy and playful – and most responsible

My brother … he became a stiff since he’s aged lol … I am teasing ❤️ I love him very much – he was the most dorky lol ✌️

He was a good kid.

But he did kinda morph into? Not fun lol … although he lets me be fun with him … he lets me tease him and he actually laughs lol ❤️ … that’s because I have all the dirt lol… I am the oldest ✌️😄 … not that dirt matters now lol – but it is funny

He’s just all grown up lol … he morphed into my dad. 😮

But I morphed into my mom? Although now I am morphing into myself mixed with her lol ✌️😘

My sister is a little more emo 🖤 like? She is a little pessimistic… she is a mix of both my mom and my dad

But she’s really funny – she is the most emotional, and you think I ride on heart?? You have not met her! Her heart is very sensitive

She always idolized me cause I was just very well liked always. I would take her places with me sometimes and we had fun – we did hilarious things even though she was 9 years younger than me.

She actually kinda lived in my shadow, pretty heavily… even with the family… in the family – I was the favorite – I had them all to myself for 5 years before the others came… so that is partly why.

And then also… when I grew up… my parents were young, full of energy, healthy… I had the best childhood!

I was the first. I’m the one who broke them in lol ✌️

So looking back on my childhood – mine is warm and wonderful – I smile to remember things ❤️ it was the best!!

But her childhood was different. Well first she was the baby… she was blonde cute and chubby lol

Only the very beginning of her life was like mine… when she was 9 when my dad got sick with non Hodgkin’s lymphoma …

I had left home early, because I thought I knew everything

And that was before it got really bad with his health, so ya know… then her life was doctors and hospitals and being afraid dad would die.

So ya know we are similar but different

Together you clearly see we sisters lol… she is taller than me… We have the same smile, the same mouth… same nose… our eyes are different … mine are colored… hers are brown. My hair has more red in it … hers is dark blonde no red. She tans … I am Casper

So little differences

We have same mannerisms lol… same laugh… similar voices… I can look at her and know what she is thinking. I can make her laugh with a look ❤️✌️

Me and my sister are thin… my brother used to be thin. ✌️ he has put on weight and lost his hair (life)

But yeah we are still siblings lol … and we will still fight … they do, not me!!! But I don’t like it … and I always have to be the peacemaker

So I will be in California lol … brother is in Texas… and sis in Maine – we visit … or we did. Now is just phone calls

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But we love each other very very much ❤️

Dammit time always goes too fast for me!! I have to go to bed ✌️work tmrw.

I will catch up best on weekends when I do not work – otherwise I am very sporadic

Ok well good night 😘🌙 💤

Uh-oh 😮

If you have followed me for awhile… before covid I used to go over my girlfriends house a lot… she’s the one who is complete opposite of me. She’s my best friend!

When I was coming out of surgery and pushing everyone away… that woman wouldn’t let me push her out ❤️

And boy did I pull back!! I just wanted everyone away from me – I wanted peace and I wanted to heal

But everyone thought that because I lost my dad, my grandfather, my grandmother and then we discovered my mom had Alzheimer’s when my dad died – and then I got diagnosed with cancer – so … that was a lot.

Everyone was scared I was suicidal or something cause I cut myself off from the rest of the world.

I just needed to heal by myself. I wanted to be alone. Have peace – that’s all … I do love life so I would never … but people got nervous when uncharacteristically I went completely silent from everyone right after a major surgery

I was sad but not depressed … and I couldn’t take everything that was happening so I went severely silent.

My brain just coped that way. In a fight or flight choice – my brain chose flight.

Anyway… I tried to push her away too… and I would be quiet… she showed up at several of my surgeries and was supportive when I went through that…

And … she would bring me food, tons and tons of food and then she would also do these tiny things … tiny things that people don’t really notice? Unless you pay attention??

Those little things that just make you smile?

So she would do that for me… and after my son took care of me … she did.

Anyway.

She’s had some medical issues for maybe 2 years now?

So she’s been handling those and isolating with her family.

She just had some tests run – it’s bad. ☹️💔😭

She has chronic lymphocytic leukemia and B cell lymphoma 💔😭

So… I am scared for my friend. She is younger than me 💔 she’s been having a really hard time and then I am kept away with covid

I want to be positive and think oh she will be ok. It will be fine 💔😭 … it’s not gonna be fine 😭💔

Ok well – this is what is in front of me so ok.

I am helpless to do anything?? Just be supportive 😭💔

Crying isn’t going to do anything. But I can’t help it 💔

But ok… I just have to roll with it – it’s life right? … so we are each dealt different cards – you play your hand the best you can as long as you can.

Anyway – she means a lot to me. So.

Ok. So that was another punch to the gut. I am used to them by now… they still hurt … I just understand how to ??? I have to accept.

So I will be upset for a little while – so I process.

But I will have no choice but to accept. I hate being forced.

I hate cancer… and I hate covid!

And I know that this is life. So ya know – I know that. But she’s my best friend 😭💔

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Ok well I have to sleep, I have the tow truck coming tmrw morning early and my face will be all puffy 😝

Ok well… I still have her for now 😭💔 I am just very sad 💔

Alright well I try not to let my heart bleed like it does

Ok so is very different when I work, and I am removed from the situation…

Vs… when I love – fuck.

That was a day.

I am scheduled to get vaccine on Monday January 18th after work. So next Monday “I HAVE to leave on TIME”!!!!

I am a little nervous but whatever. It will be fine.

We are getting because we work with deceased.

We already have one funeral home – our largest – down. We are helping

Covid deaths are coming in the most they have ever!! I would say more covid than regular normal deaths.

So anyway. They vaccinating us, we are the 3rd tier and then I think opens up? I am not sure? I don’t know how they do otherwise – we go through the board of health.

You need to search the board of health in your area for vaccine info…

This is Sacramento County’s :

https://dhs.saccounty.net/PUB/Pages/PUB-Home.aspx

I look at Sacramento because that is where I work… but my home is in different County… is through work that I get vaccine, so I have to look at Sacramento

So if you are in United States – look up your local board of health and they should have vaccine information there for you. Hopefully 🙏

(I’m sorry if you are in a different country? I don’t know how you are doing yours) all I could suggest is going to the governments website (hopefully they have one) – I hope you have ways to get information about these things

So anyway – just wanted to share incase people don’t know where to look.

You can also find information about free covid testing

Hopefully 🙏 – but every state (and country) is different… hopefully they updating and putting it out!!

Also I wanted to share something else that some people are not aware of and since there is so much death – some may need to know this… or check on it?

So… in the funeral business … the funeral side – is different … than the cemetery side…

When you say the word funeral – you think of the traditional funeral … but is not that cause even now with little to no services – we still have to coordinate and plan – it is NOT easy!! And still there is a lot to do!!!

Funeral services means – the arranging, however it is you want it … that covers the arranging of what you choose, and all the handling of things like death certificates, permits, paperwork and money.

But for a cemetery… you are paying for the land, digging of the grave and how they prepare the plot… we have packages where we handle all of it for you

Sometimes we get people who swear they have Preneeds and everything is taken care of – but that is not always the case

Something they will just have the cemetery end of it … or they will just have the funeral side?

Some people will actually have both…

Just recently we have a few with only cemetery… so they still have to purchase the funeral side

Nothing in life or death is free ✌️

If you have a preneed – just double check it contains both funeral and cemetery – if that is what desire.

Just telling you – funeral and cemetery are 2 different entities sometimes, make sure you know what you have before someone passes.

Also… let me also add … please note who your next of kin is if you want someone specific or the actual next of kin is unable to handle the responsibility …

BEFORE someone dies make sure you know who is your next of kin and will be making your calls. Make sure is what you want or you need to legally appoint someone else

If you do not appoint someone else – by law we first have to turn to the next of kin… next of kin is your closest blood relative

We have one where someone died … they were over 100… their next of kin is in their 80’s … and can not hold the responsibility ?

The son of the next of kin want to make the calls but by California law we have to follow next of kin.

Next of kin can be tricky

My next of kin would be my children. My oldest is on my healthcare directive to make all the calls for me if something ever went wrong.

I had to lecture him, if I am a vegetable, you pull that plug. It’s ok.

He hated those conversations.

But all 3 are my beneficiaries.

He is just the oldest and the one I want to make those calls on my behalf. (But all 3 for funeral purposes will have say) all 3 would be MY next of kin.

That preneed was bought in 1969!!!! 😮😮😮 so they locked their prices in at 1969 prices!!! 😮 wow!!! Is insane!!

When you plan your funeral you lock the prices to the time you write your preneed. If you get a preneed now in 2021… and don’t die until 2080… your preneed will give you 2021 prices. It becomes cheaper

I know you would be dead and wouldn’t be your problem… but if you have it taken care of … then your family does not have to worry.

Just lets the family be able to relax and actually grieve, instead of worrying how to pay. It’s a hard enough time, you don’t want to worry about money during a loss.

Well anyway… just informing with things you don’t generally think about. Always best to know what you have and I am really big into planning ahead … little by little I do that- ish… I like it a lot 😘✌️ I feel comfort with a plan

I was helping a friend also… he wants a plot… I spoke to cemetery – got him a price and he is digesting lol – he is having little bit of sticker shock

He actually has no children, no spouse and both his parents have died…

So… his next of kin then becomes his brothers or sisters – he has one full sister who would be the next of kin… and then he also has a half sister which would be the “next” next of kin after the full blood sister

He seriously needs to lay out his wishes because he does not want them to have jurisdiction over him… if he doesn’t want that – he needs to get that legally designated as to WHO he wishes to make those calls

I try to easily bring up cause I know he has a hard time and does not like to talk about or deal with death, but to some these things are important.

He just wants to be blind with it I guess? Worry about it later? Not his problem? That’s his prerogative

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But if he dies, that’s how it’s gonna go whether he wanted that or not… unless he legally appoints or designates someone

Alright well that’s enough lessons and information for tonight

Be safe!! ✌️

Good night 💤😴🌙

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Ps… can you imagine what a person would have seen in over 100 years? 105 actually … so can you imagine everything within that lifetime??? That blows my mind!!!

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It’s getting hairy again… crazy busy. We have our own cases and the funeral home that is down – we have some of theirs … and new ones keep coming in.

Today I had a family tell me they think we are their angels because we took a hard situation and we really helped and supported this family through both the death process and also the covid restrictions – we worked with them to help them have peace

We do that for all our families always… and we try extra hard now because families are devastated with not being able to have traditional things- it is excruciating

My funeral home is 5 stars – perfect score – all of our reviews are amazing …

This is our job, we do it everyday – over and over for many families … we know how to comfort and we walk you through everything the best we can…

It’s like a party planner – except is for death. You have to plan the event and with covid and restrictions is just harder

But yeah she called us angels ❤️

She lost her mom, and her aunt to Covid – boom boom … they never thought was going to happen to them and didn’t think anyone in their family would die 😮 (sounds familiar huh?) yeah …

Anyway… I’m glad we gave her some peace with this – she is having a hard time. That was her mom (she also loved her mom like I do)

Anyway… today was just insane – most of the morning I couldn’t even sit down at my desk – just constant things going on!!

I didn’t stop working to eat… I ate while I worked… and then I just needed a break…

So I took a half hour, and went for a walk all by myself.

It was beautiful outside today – oMG – it is January and it is beautiful!! I didn’t even need a jacket ❤️

It was the perfect thing… I got away, had fresh air, sun on my face, peace – it was nice. I had to go back though lol

And then we were talking why are we still dressing up to the hilt? For each other? Cause people generally are not seeing us lol at all … so maybe dress more comfortable ? (Yay) their idea not mine but we can relax it a little – nicely.

No looking like you just rolled out of bed though lol … still look nice – just not dolled up

Right now we just doll up for each other 😄😄

Every day I have staff meeting with my girls at 8:30 to quickly cover everything – before a 9am WebEx with all 3 funeral homes to also coordinate things with them – go over things etc

Tmrw I have this other web meeting 🤨🙄 ugh it’s part of this training thing… so that will suck. I don’t like those

But I also do not like the other training Manuals that are hours long recordings lol omg

They made me watch (I do not know how many) harassment videos … omg … so many!!! They harass me with harassment training videos lol

Every time I think I am finished they like oh wait here is another one 🤨 ok I have to work this job of theirs lol not watch harassment videos

I am a woman – I most definitely know harassment. If you are a woman you are familiar.

I know what it is and know what to do lol … I don’t need to watch hours of training videos on it. But whatever – ok.

Oh and then… I have a friend who hates my job… does not want to hear anything about my business – absolutely zero funeral talk lol 😄✌️

So he called me last week and he wants to use a cemetery that his family has always used. He does not want to plan his funeral – he just wants to buy a cemetery plot near his family.

But he is HIGHLY uncomfortable with death – and I’m sure even turning to me was hard for him? But he does know what I do? And he knows me so that helps a little.. I deal with this stuff so I can help him.

Well they are just as insane crazy as we are!! It took me a week to get a hold of them.

So I got the info he wanted – I have his vitals and info… so I said do you want me to give them your email so you can docusign the documents? And he said , I don’t want anything to do with it … but I want that plot, can you do it for me and I will pay for it lol … then he starts in with I will pay cash lol

It is NOT one of my funeral homes – it is not in my corporation … they are completely separate

We don’t take cash usually and I’m gonna assume they do not either – on rare occasions maybe – but highly rare – check, money order or credit card usually – he said whatever it takes so alright

I will call them back tmrw and explain – I explained the situation today and they were fine with it … so I will have to set that up for him

I think they find it weird I am doing this personally from another funeral home lol… but that is the cemetery he wants and it’s not one of mine.

Also the name of my funeral home is long… so we shorten it to the first part – no one can say the other parts anyway lol

So I always just say “this is Trisha at blah blah funeral home“

It sounds Italian lol … I always feel like I should be back East – it could sound like an Italian pizza place back East?

And today someone commented about it sounding Italian

I find it endearing ❤️ btw … it is Italian ✌️ … one of the original founders was Italian.

Just interesting.

And then… remember the grump old man I used to help – he calls me to check and make sure I’m ok and Vice versa …

So tonight we had been talking for like an hour! … and at the end of the call he said ok Gnite Trisha love you 😮😄

Whatever, so I said love you too – I’ve known him forever and I used to help him… he is elderly… I have known him for over 20 years. And his family … his entire family, also all use MY funeral home.

Literally 2 minutes after we hung up he is calling me back and saying “hey ya know I hope that didn’t bother you I said that?”

I just laughed … it doesn’t bother me… I know what he means when he says… he is like family. So ya know it rolls.

So we went to hang up after he had a panic attack about saying I love you lol… so I said “ok bye love you” 😄😄😄✌️ to which he laughed lol

Funny people

All day I was thrown off by working yesterday! I kept thinking was Tuesday!!

I am going to aim to leave ON TIME tmrw!! I say that everyday – but we so busy – I always stay late

And remember the guy who wanna know me lol …

So he text me earlier … and ya know I am busy… during office hours it’s insane!! It just is! You have no idea!

Anyway we talking … and I couldn’t remember what his schedule was – so we were discussing that… he comes and helps with things when needed.

And he made some comment – and I said “well I never see you”

The other day he came to funeral home to pick up his checks … well I was multitasking with many families at that moment

Sometimes the phone is attached to my face! And I just can’t come out or to door … so one of my girls did and gave him the checks … I never got to come out and say hello… but I am always really busy

And then he said that lol… “well you always busy“

Lol dude!!! It is a crazy time in a crazy business and I just stepped into all of it so yes I am busy

He can’t really be seeing me right now anyway… he can text or call but he doesn’t – sometimes he texts, but then he is so scared? Like he is not sure what I am ok with – I don’t think he is used to someone like me?

And I don’t think he’s my type? Don’t be intimidated – women smell fear lol … don’t do that!!

And then my other issue is – yes … I am busy… but if you aren’t workable around that – then ok.

He always very sweet, but I am busy a lot. But I am building so he can either deal with it or not.

But he ask to get to know me, he knows the work I do and what I do… he has not made any other type of effort except to try to see me…. which I am busy and this is covid so what do you want me to do?

But he makes no effort to chat with me so whatever – on text I can do that because I can see when able – but if you don’t attempt it at all then whatever

I think he is more of a playboy and expects me to be a girl who wants him or something? Yeah no… that doesn’t happen like that

Also… I called my car guy today to try to get into have him take care of my car … but he is completely booked 😮

So next week I will have to go see him.

When I called him today … I said “hey it’s me – I need to come in to have you service car – I am at mileage already

And he says … already??? Lol I saw him ummm beginning of November and I have already hit the mileage 😮

I said “dude I told you I drive a lot lol” he laughed and said he was booked this week – but next week he has time…

So I have to do that. I will be way over mileage by then lol ✌️

Last thing … We are able to get vaccine now… I have to sign up with health department and do that – we just got notification to do it. today.

Alright I have to get to bed. Gnite for now. Back tmrw at some point lol

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(Lol… I am not a pro and my business is not that way) but I am always busy 😮

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I was almost late 😮 I am never ever late!!

I leave early so I have time to leisurely open and not get all hot and sweaty with that lol

I like it calm and peaceful so I do it that way ✌️😘 I like to be calm and ready for people and what comes at us.

Well thank god I leave early!! Because the highways were fricken parking lots and for what reason you ask??

Who the hell knows??! There were no accidents 🤨 who is causing the back up?! Move!!

I had to call my on call at 7:30am and tell them hey… I’m stuck on the highway parking lot 🤨 can you keep my phones for a moment? Lol

But I made it at exactly 8am on the nose 👃

And Sac is Foggy… my area not so much. People were idiots on the road today. It’s a Monday 🤨😝😮

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Today went well… I worked because I am taking Wednesday off.

Tmrw I have to call car guy tell him I be in on Wednesday afternoon.

I also have to do a few lawyer things and then call lawyer tmrw

I have 8:30 staff meeting – 9am WebEx 😝 … I have to call a few families and give them appointment times (all the new ones) and then I also have to call one of the other office managers outside my group

Ok so let’s just start with Monday … this week will be day by day 😮

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It was nice today… for the most part was quiet – I did have a few deaths.

I got myself organized and ready for tmrw (I think 🙏) and hope!!

I am tired but I have to work on lawyer stuff. And then I am going to bed. Ahhh bed … it just calls my name!! ❤️❤️ ✌️

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Oh that song makes me instantly want to go to bed lol… ok I have stuff to do first… I be back tmrw

Gnite 😘❤️✌️

(Stay safe!!! No super spreading!)

Ahhhh Sunday!!! All by myself ❤️❤️❤️

Oh it’s so wonderful ❤️❤️❤️ just like old times lol ❤️✌️

It is peaceful ❤️ please stay that way!!!

I should be able to get a ton done 🙏🙏🙏🙏 woo hoo – let’s hope

It is soooo peaceful at this moment ❤️❤️❤️

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Alright so sometimes I drag my feet lol …

But I finally handled something else… little by little I am handling everything – just give me time and I will square it away.

I sold my little Toyota 😮 lol ☹️

Awww I have to say goodbye. That car was amazing – it let me push it hard! Whoa! Awww my little car ❤️ with the little Pokémon in the window ❤️

On my new little blue car I have a pink ribbon 🎀 with butterfly 🦋 and hearts 💕 lol ❤️✌️

One could very easily fill entire back window with really cool window clings lol … I won’t do that… but that idea is thrilling lol – I have no idea why? But I have urge to do that, I am just holding back lol ✌️ I do need vision also 😄😘✌️

It’s only because I looked at them – and there are TONS that I love! That would be so cool

I hate having to pick. Sometimes it comes down to Eenie meenie miney moe lol

I might just want one or 2 more maybe eventually – I won’t let it get out of hand lol ✌️ (would those be famous last words?) no but I will be careful not to do any more than that

It sorta reminds me of Colorforms ? From 70s … omg yes … I fricken love those ❤️❤️

So yes I will control how many 🙏 lol (but it is REALLY hard!)

Anyway… I sold my car 😮 I let go 😮… that takes your breath away doesn’t it?? It does mine – I love it, but time to let go. 😮

Yeah that is a hard human quality … excruciating … when you love

I dunno – it’s a car lol ✌️😘 but it’s means a lot so little attached 😘 that is only a object lol – pile of metal… so ya know it’s time ☹️ wah

Whatever – that little car pushed it for me … my little car was like this:

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So like that, just great little car.

So ok that will be done… 😮 this year is going to be more intense massive change for me 😮

But at least I know that is coming so ok – hopefully 🙏 I do well 😳🙏🙏

Ok so. I guess that’s it then

Cars completely handled. 😮 well sort of…

I have to call my car guy to do my oil and stuff … it’s time… I drive a lot … I looked at mileage yesterday and was like omg ok it’s time. Oops… it’s always going to be time – I drive a lot!!!

So 🤨… but at least he’s good to me and I can trust him with my car and business

I have got to call him and set that up.

I will have to take a day off of work 🤨 but ok whatever – I have to square away all my things

Whoa 😮 here comes 2021 😮

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