I just got taught that I can animate any text message I want lol
People will be effected by being texted this weekend lol 😄😄 ✌️
I was not aware of this!! I am delighted lol ❤️
See what a great weekend already?? ❤️🇺🇸❤️
Learn something new everyday…
Happy 4th 💥💥❤️🇺🇸❤️💥💥
I love the 4th always!!! ❤️
We are at my work… that was a task, waking someone this morning … was like the living dead 😮😄✌️
Anyway… we rushing this morning cause I had a zombie with me 🧟♀️ lol
And since I love the 4th and my birthday is coming … I decided to love myself ❤️✌️😘
I never spend money – so I ordered us breakfast 🍳 👏👏👏
It’s being delivered in like a few minutes 🥰 woo hoo
It’s McDonald’s 🤨 Lol… but the zombie wanted that lol … so whatever
She wanted fries 🍟… and I had to explain about the fact they don’t make fries before 10am lol
Then I excitedly said … “this is an amazing start to the 4th huh?”
And she says “what do you mean” 🤨
Well just ordering food and having it delivered lol
Um, mom… that’s a thing 🤨
Well yes … NOW
No mom – it’s always been a thing 🤨
Well yes for awhile now, but not always, except for maybe pizza or Chinese lol ✌️
Um mom that’s what DoorDash is 🤨
Well yes but DoorDash has not always been around and is now
It is way too early in the morning to be discussing how old I am!! 🤨😄✌️
She was born 2006… she will be 14 in December.
I was born last century 🤨 woman thinks I am ancient 🤨
Done with that convo lol ✌️
Ok food is here – bye 👋
My Friday Night 💦
Happy Friday ❤️🇺🇸❤️
So… my people came over lol… we eat and chat.
Ummm … hmm. Question – Mr Keto diet … he says he is not as hungry anymore, and he been “fasting”… but his fasting is not actual fasting lol … he thinks it is… so whatever 😘✌️❤️
He will not eat for like a day, ok I fasted 😄😄 … that is his idea of fasting 😄❤️ so ok whatever ✌️
I don’t say anything. I just listen. Hmm??… I think he’s fine… but he’s really into this Keto Diet … and “fasting”
I’m just watching him 🤨 I want him to be healthy … I do not know diets. But you know – am a mom… I am watching his moves lol ✌️ … you are on my radar boy lol
NOW I am aware of carbs and sugars 🤨 …because someone has shared their knowledge with me
I just don’t want anyone having issues – health wise – I don’t want any heart attacks or I don’t know what else!! 😳
If he being healthy then ok… he is doing well on it currently… and he is happy… so I just let him smile. ❤️ … but I am watching
Oh yeah… and he wants a tiny home 😄😄… why yes … he IS a millennial 😄❤️❤️😘
He was talking seriously… like actually “did” research lol … with all of it 😮
Ahh … well he did his homework and if he wants that … I smile very big to listen to him talk about it ❤️
I can totally see him just in his glory with that…
Oh yeah and he names off 2 towns …
One town is just like where I am… beautiful peaceful rural… gold rush historical ❤️ … hello!! How you just not be like – hell yes! Right there!
The other town … is kinda crappy… run down type city – lower class, nothing is there but crime 🤨 what?? No!!
And he says.. mum there a lot of jobs up there …
Umm I don’t think so… option 1 is way better.
But he has has a little plan going ❤️ he has excitement in his eyes when he talks about it lol … love that!
Oh yeah… guess what… I was correct in my mom way of imagining the convo lol
Oldest said… hey mum wants us to bring swimsuit
18 – what? I don’t wanna go in the pool (I totally knew that be his response!!) nailed it!
They kept not responding…
So I sent another text 😘😄😄❤️
I said… “hey… Did you get the message about bringing your suit?” lol … I am not giving them a way out lol
They brought them. ❤️
Oldest puts his on… he’s ready
Girl puts hers on – woman is ready
18… 🤨 does not want to put on suit…
You don’t have to go in, but have it on just Incase you have urge.
Reluctantly 18 puts on suit.
Me … my oldest and my girl… all splash 💦 and swam and had fun ❤️ pool was awesome…
18 stuck his finger in 🤨 whatever … but he hung with us so whatever
We came back and 18 was all mad that we didn’t get to play any games because “we” swam all night lol
… dude!! … you should have come in!
Then he tells me … I will go in the pool with you on your birthday 😄😄😄❤️ ok that’s fine – I accept lol – I will hold him to that lol
Anyway was fun.
I am about to be crazy busy again 😮😳 maybe sorta in spots …
She coming with me to work tmrw (daughter) … then we go to friends house… stay for 4th.
I have my neighbor watering for me ❤️💦
I work Sunday all day long … then I get off work I have to grab her from friends house and come home – we have to be home Sunday night!! I work Monday and things happening Monday …
Then there is Tuesday and that is my birthday ❤️ boys come be with me again … remember 18 gonna come in pool for my birthday lol ✌️😄❤️
And that would be my Friday ❤️
Good night 😴🌙💤
The mind of a mother (lol)
So I text the boys… just a single text…
Hey, bring your suits – we going in the pool … it’s amazing!!! ❤️
😄😄
That was like 20 minutes ago lol… not one response lol
Here is how I imagine the conversation is going…
Hey mum says bring our suits…
What? 😑
She’s says we are gonna go in the pool.
Ugh 😑 I don’t wanna go in the pool
Ok well you can deal with mom then lol
I just added the last one because I will question lol
Lol… I imagine they are groaning lol
We shall see 😘✌️
Is 90 today… it’s kinda nice… hot only because of the beating sun, but we have wind 🤨
My landlord texted me and says … have you checked PG&E website for any power shut offs
😮 no I hadn’t … so I did and nothing was listed… you can check by address.
Ugh 😑 please let me be prepared! 🙏 …or just don’t shut off my power 🤨 ugh … fix it!
Why is everything just shutting down … that was like a warning ⚠️ 😳😮… the first time this happened was the month of October 2019. We lost power for over a month. 🤨😮
Like an omen something larger was coming and the world would flip upside down? 😮 cause that flipped my world upside down … I flopped like a fish lol
Not this year!! This year I have prepared with survival equipment!!! Yes!
I am sure I am missing something – but I will find out and get better each time!
But I got power back when it rained in November ❤️ I love you rain… yes please… rain down on me
It was rough.
I am becoming quite the survivalist, well… I think I am – let me believe lol ✌️or at least hope 🙏
They probably didn’t even see the message 🤨 still nothing lol
Well I hope they bring their suits and don’t try to use the excuse oh we didn’t see the message until just now 🤨
Oh this will be interesting – how will this go?? Lol now I’m excited lol
That was pretty easy.
So that went well… they liked the place … was a really young couple, I believe from Texas.
They were really cute!! So young!!
Anyway so that is done. I am working all weekend and into next week again. I kinda love working anyway.
But they want me working Monday at the other funeral home – the bigger one… the one with the yucky walls 😝
Whatever is fine. Is a paycheck. I like being locked away. I just really need to change those paint colors lol ✌️
Anyway. Gonna work on some stuff while I have the time ✌️
I love 4th of July weekend ❤️🇺🇸❤️ woo hoo Friday ❤️
Be back later tonight ✌️
Early
Ok … I am early… I am always early 😘 … unless I say I will be late – and then I am on time lol … I am one of those lol
It is a beautiful day today!! Oh my god! I LOVE JULY ❤️ my favorite month!!!
The sprinklers, the birds, the warmth (ok fine, heat lol) … ahhh and the BBQ… and of course my birthday is there too lol … and so is my moms lol
So I totally love July!!! Most beautiful month ever ❤️ always cause July was always summer vacation ❤️ loved that ❤️ the smells in the air … is just awesome!!
Yeah I don’t know a more beautiful month – California will spoil you in weather! Totally
So yeah 😏 I’m early.
I have half hour of sitting here.
Oh yay – my neighbor coming to hang with me … I texted her and said hey… wanna come hang and wait for people? 😄
She is coming now – woo hoo!!
Back later 😘
The day begins
Today is Friday – yay!! ❤️
I have a lot going on… just finished the ranch… did a little extra today… having a quick breakfast and coffee really quick…
I have to jump in the shower, I have not done that yet…
Also… since my landlord is away… I am handling her business also. She helping me in rent this month by taking off money… so I help her.
Later I will have to show a house to people 😳 I am not going in… I will wear mask… and I will open door… ok go look, I’ll be waiting outside lol ✌️😄 … is corona – I don’t know these people I am showing house too… hopefully they in masks as well
So anyway that’s at 11am. In an hour and a half or so.
I’m gonna tell the boys to bring their suits tonight- maybe they all come to pool with me? 🙏
I doubt it… they will tell me – we can go but I’ll only stick my feet in 🤨… (like they are 90 lol)
The girl will complain about bugs … so will the middle one and he will be hot (he is an inside person)… the oldest will be the most open – so “maybe” him?
Let see if I am correct lol
Ok I have to shower 😘✌️
Oh btw – I made appointment with legal self help – I have questions – my appointment is by phone on July 15th (which is actually my mothers birthday 😮)
Ok have to run ✌️
Warning ⚠️ sensitive material
Just warning, cause I added a photo – it’s not bad – but I just felt a warning was in order ✌️… is not even bad … but I still feel better warning.
I actually went in the pool… twice!! 🥰 …but one of those times I had to have a top.
I like it better without. For several reasons…
The right side is a hurty side… everything hurts it… without a top in the water … there is no hurt! Is perfect ❤️
I have a top on in this photo I will share, but this is the new stuff 😳… they are just new still… I keep them covered and protected lol
In this photo… we had just gotten out of the pool, and I came home to change. You can see the scar … on camera – it looks light – it is not light… it is purple 🤨 the camera made it not so dark. It is dark and purple… it goes all the way under my underarm.
They look good, I don’t complain about that. I think is beautiful. They did a good job… They kinda look fake, but they are, so whatever ✌️
I am very lucky for that. Extremely!!
I’m just shy with the attention and that scar.
I am not shy with it when I help other women through it. In those cases, I am extremely open and share all my stories and photos… Women did that for me… women I didn’t even know… immediately and freely – told me their stories and shared their photos… you have no idea how much that helped going through that… so to do that for other women – I like that. So I do that sometimes. It makes a difference both ways
But sometimes if people ask me about it… their sadness reaction to breast cancer can make me tear up. But whatever – I am alive and doing fine. It’s just the emotions.
When my bras or tops sit on that scar – it bothers me.
The one piece made a cross line across the scar and on the other breast… it hurt to wear that
I also don’t like the seat belt… I will wear one… but I use it weird… I buckle it and then tuck the shoulder strap behind my arm… no way is that gonna sit on the scar!! It hurts every time!!
So when I can go by myself and no one is there – the water and being topless helps.
The scar side is my bad side. It’s always going to be my bad side now.
So those are the boobs I always talk about lol and that scar which looks worse in person, but is fine – just personal and emotional only to me.
I am not quite used to the attention they bring… I am thin, I have long legs and a nice form, always have.
These just went a little bigger than I realized 😮 did not think about the attention that would occur. At the time I was focused on cancer and thought “well I would never do this anyway” – so whatever…
I didn’t think beyond that. So anyway… I keep em covered usually.
I am liking the sorta disappearing tan lines. I like that a lot.
When I used to be a cart girl… we had to work outside constantly- the job is outside… I would be outside every single day…
I started to get color… but I was wearing clothes lol… so at night when I would shower… looking in the mirror it looked like I still had clothes on …because it had my shorts line and the lines of my shirt lol anything that didn’t see the sun was white white white lol … it was hilarious looking… I called it my cart girl tan lines lol
Anyway in other news… ok so I saw the people… I like them … they are nice, I think. They seem nice and the dog is a little calmer now so ok then. 👍
He really wants to jump on me though 😮
The man looks really familiar … I think he might be a golfer?? I do not want to ask… I don’t want him to know who I am if that is actually the case.
I don’t want to be recognized.
I just don’t. I do not want the attention currently. I want privacy.
I used to help my police, I got to know the community, met politicians – did all that. I even coordinated the awards for the entire county. So I know many.
Then I was a cart girl … I drew attention because of my looks. I was good to my golfers – or any customer … they still ask for or about me and it’s been 2 years since I left them.
When I would come to work… they said my name like the people on the show “Cheers” used to say “Norm” … just everyone was always excited and happy to see me… I am fun – I will make you laugh
So anyway… I am well known there too.
I don’t want that attention right now… just laying low. So I am not asking if I know him. No way. He just looks familiar… but I am not mentioning that
My mom is doing good – but no one has been allowed to see her for 4 months- they are still completely locked down.
She is doing ok. She is oblivious to anything that is happening.
Please wear your masks… 🙏 … I don’t want my mom to die from corona. So you should just do that. Please 🙏
I know she will die… but I want to be able to see her!! Kiss her – hug her… corona would take her away from me and I would never get a goodbye. I don’t want to lose her like that to this.
So mask it up ✌️
We all want our leaders to fix everything… and handle this – protect us! But how do they do that when we don’t protect ourselves?
I want to see my mom again before I lose her ☹️ … so please wear that mask 🙏
Ok so I guess that’s it. Now I will read for a little while
Tmrw is Friday!! Woo hoo!
Saturday the 4th I work for 4 hours… then I have my Sunday as usual… we are going to spend the fourth with my girlfriend and her daughters.
They live in the city – all our firework displays are cancelled… but in the city, people light off the illegals – so you always get a show. You don’t even have to go anywhere. ❤️🇺🇸❤️
My daughter will come to work with me on Saturday – she has been to my funeral home. She doesn’t say much about it lol
She doesn’t like when we walk in and there is a casket lol … that will freak her out a little … but we just walk past and then she doesn’t go in there until we have to leave .
I don’t think there will be any caskets. Should be fine. It’s the 4th ❤️🇺🇸❤️
Alright well gonna read for little while
Gnite ✌️😘
Dogs 🐕
Ok … I think I am ready for the day. I already opened the gate really early this morning…
I like it open on a schedule if it’s gonna be open… usually we keep closed but landlord expecting deliveries. 🤨 lol
I like to open it at 6am… until 8pm – it starts getting dark around 9pm
Always with the deliveries lol
Anyway. Then I watered – I have not seen the new people or the dog – but I have been hiding lol ✌️
That is one of my many things lol ✌️
I kinda test the waters here and there – and I don’t wanna be this weird person lol
I don’t want to scare them off – I can be neighborly.
So I dunno… I never see the wife or the dog so far – I’ve been watering and watered this morning… nothing…
😮 maybe they are silent!! ❤️
I haven’t extended myself or anything – I don’t think I can. If I bump into I will – but I am uneasy. A lot. I don’t feel comfortable going over there.
Plus the dog is a little much for me.
The energy off that dog is just way above my head!!!
I work at a funeral home, ok? I am calm lol … funny and maybe sometimes excitable… but I am calm. Calm demeanor
Not insane crazy!
Sorry I just can’t – that sucks
It just makes it so I can’t breathe? I feel massive panic with too much crazy chaos …
Why yes – I am boring lol ✌️ I like it calm… peace is another one of my things! Lol
Complete chaos kinda makes me panic. So let’s not do that lol
So I dunno. Maybe I’ll get better… If it could just bring it down like a thousand levels 🤨
Whatever 😑
Sucks cause I love animals especially dogs – dogs are my favorite – I am familiar with… don’t laugh 🤨… chihuahuas … shhh no laughing… I love them… have had them since was a child ❤️
I also know Labradors and Pit Bulls… I do also know the high energy with a Beagle lol… we had ONE of those lol
This is my little man Chico ❤️
I named him that because he just reminded me of the spirit of Chico and the Man – he’s so funny 😄 he has quite the personality – he is half chihuahua … and half pug. 😄 mix those personalities – he’s hilarious! ❤️ thinks he’s the boss 🤨😄 no … he’s just a big baby lol
He acts like he rules the world lol … but yet he is afraid of “tarps” ??? from the landscapers … awww
I was working in the office of the police department one day.
A woman came in with that little guy … yes totally believe love at first sight… immediately… but he was sick… he had a skin infection, and fleas. He was a stray.
Oh she put him in my arms and it was all over lol … I love you!!
I asked if I could keep him in the office with me. I didn’t want him in the pen … he was sick
I only had maybe an hour or 2 left so they let me. They brought in a little tiny kennel and he stayed with me.
I asked if I could foster him instead of going to the pound … cause I kinda already love him lol ✌️
So they let me… I gave him antibiotics and baths with flea treatments – no one ever came forward for him… so now he rules “my” house lol 😄✌️❤️
He couldn’t be more loved ❤️
And then this is Emmie ❤️ …
Emmie is a purebred applehead Chihuahua … she used to be a show dog… won ribbons and stuff… she is papered…
But then she got too fat, she is a hearty eater lol …if you let her she won’t stop lol
The person who had her as a show dog… didn’t want her anymore once her usefulness was done ☹️💔 … so I took her … that broke my heart… they had her for 6 years!! They never connected with her – she was an object ☹️💔 awww – of course I will take her!!! Bring her to me!!!
We call her “The Chihuahua Ambassador” because if you meet her… she is the sweetest thing, she is kind and friendly to all… very well mannered
You think … “wow Chihuahuas are really awesome” lol
Then you meet Chico… who thinks he can take you on lol 🙄 whatever – he is hilarious
Emmie doesn’t particularly like Chico 😄… she is calm… he is calm but also energetic and again – thinks he is boss … that annoys Emmie lol
Anyway I have to go 😘✌️
Back later
2 Things…
Two things from today… let see
Let’s start with the annoying thing I wanna gripe about lol …
Fricken California and their fricken Props 🤨
I went to buy something and it pops up with the California Prop 65 🤨
Prop 65 says this product can cause reproductive harm… which does not effect me – cause that is totally not happening … but I don’t want it effecting my daughter.
And then it also says – known by the state of California to cause cancer 🤨 they say that with caffeine too 🤨 ugh
I can’t have anything!!!
And then I go to buy something else and I find it online – only for it to tell me – it’s sold in 49 states … guess which one state it is not allowed to be sold in 🤨 … yes California 🤨
So that was really annoying- but whatever I’ll figure that out – nothing major or urgent.
California kills me with all their stuff 🤨 is the only state that does that shit!!! Kills me!
Anyway… then I had something amazing happen today!!!!
I had to just leave – I needed some things for my car anyway…
So I went to the auto parts store…
I needed oil, windshield wiper and windshield wiper fluid.
So I got all that, and they even came out and replaced it for me ❤️
But during that… I see a little boy I recognize 😮😱😱😱
It was one of my kindergarteners ❤️❤️❤️ Oh my god! And he remembered me ❤️
I love his name … I love saying his name even when we were in school… his name is Charlie … is he sooo cute and tiny … he fits Charlie
I got to see him, his brother and his father … I just lit up!!! He gave me a hug…
This little boy used to come to school and cry… he couldn’t go to public school cause they couldn’t get him to stop crying… he was too attached to his mom.
Well I was that child once… so I remember – I was the one who got him to stop crying – and then he started loving school ❤️
He used to walk by the office and he always peeked in and said hello with an excited wave lol – he’s adorable
So that kinda made my day today ❤️❤️❤️
And those are my 2 things that made impact today lol ✌️
I miss all my kids!!
Learning Life 