Cancelled

Ok so this weekend I was very silent from literally the world. Except my kids … and I got to have Friday with them ❤️ and Saturday I just did all my chores and bills 💸

Sunday my oldest came and spent day with me ❤️ I cooked for him. He will always come in hot tub with me lol … he’s like the only one lol … but is nice to have his company ❤️ makes the hot tub WAY better!!!

Was nice to have his company ❤️ we talk about alot

And country boy keeps checking on me – and he say Happy Memorial Day … I was being quiet… but usually we say Happy/Merry Whatever Holiday or birthday or celebration 🎊 I was just being quiet

But I said it back. He obviously thinks of me. I just don’t understand him, but whatever – he is supportive and caring so ok. Fine. We see. He’s been kind.

Anyway so I was just kinda quiet. Pretty much all weekend – I just wanted to shut the world off – because it is NUTS!! I needed to just not have the world for one minute – is too much – I needed time to be away. I just needed time.

I have been away from social media for a REALLY long time!!! My company has its own social media – nope – I not doing that … nope nope nope 👎

You gonna pay for my phone ? Then I will install – but otherwise no!! Nope – that was not a condition of my employment and … nope 👎 still no because I do not do social media like that – no!

Then!!!! The neighborhood welcome committee sends me invite to a neighborhood app…

So I am thinking this is app to tell you “FACTS” about the neighborhood?? Like weather, traffic, gas prices, school information, community events … blah blah blah…

But literally all it was is a neighborhood social media … and no!!! I am not doing that either!! That is awful!! Omg the way people talk to each other – no thank you – I’m good. I will stay in 1985 – do not care

I am not doing social media except this thing – ONLY this!! I actually like this lol so … no go on all others. I completely ignore all other social media things – I do have email if that counts lol

I do watch YouTube … but I do not post- I just watch whatever video – usually documentary or some funeral thing? 🤷‍♀️

Anyway… I do not do social media… I do not care – I refuse – only this is ok… so whatever … old school ✌️

https://youtu.be/y6120QOlsfU

Me running from social media lol ✌️😘 because nope, only WordPress.

See how beautiful that sunset is when you get away?? Yeah everyday without – is so nice…

I recently saw how people speak to each other Omg! 😮 ok so yup … wow did it get awful – I didn’t think could be worse but yup… never ever going back on social media – you all can have that. I am good!

It’s very peaceful without – quite zen 🙌

So anyway, I just wanted nothing of nothing – just peace that’s all… I did not have the “energy”?? (I do not know if that’s the right word I want??) But I just didn’t … and ya know things emotional so… I just go quiet.

Also… after they cancelled my Friday MRI which was supposed to be full chest and they could have seen everything … but they cancel by saying “you need CT scan too” 🤨 … well ok – I gonna “think” you know what doing

So they changed it to Breast only MRI and the supposed to be CT scan of whole chest .. but they did not book CT scan on my records and nope I not doing multiple tests

This is fricken America 🇺🇸 … almighty dollar always

So know your shit – I’m not gonna pay for things I do not need … so … figure out who knows what they doing and then let me know what tests.

Maybe should have set me in with cancer doctor to see ? Fuck the tests … I come see you – no fricken web ex!! Be doctor!!

I have a web ex appt with oncologist on Monday

What’s that gonna do… because now … you gonna see me first, before I gonna do anything. Now I don’t trust them at all. So Dr better be a good one… be ready. ✌️ might wanna make sure I have someone who cares and is experienced or no. So whatever, when know what doing, then you can order my tests. Yup. I’m gonna be real tough after last time… nope 👎 not doing that again – nope – know your shit before you touch me!

You do not know what happened last time – so no…

https://youtu.be/mWRsgZuwf_8

So whatever – I will wait.

So be it. Whatever. I cry either way and this way I feel relief… so when they make me feel at ease with what they doing – ok then I listen… but if gonna go off the rails and be all crazy – nope 👎 I am not doing – you will see me first… hello… what the frick is a web ex gonna do??!! You can’t virtually feel anything!!! So what is the purpose ?? Just 🤷‍♀️??

Just see me!! Or no tests. And done ✔️ solves that issue.

So yeah nope!!! 👎

https://youtu.be/lVx1s89Zbbo

When they see me and speak to me… maybe they know what they doing?? Cause they did not know what doing with this.

Nope nope and nope – Cancelled

https://youtu.be/aEb5gNsmGJ8

So.

You can say whatever you want. You do not know what happened last time. So no.

I’ll listen, I just saying you have no idea what happened last time. So.

You either meet me, speak to me, feel me… or no tests. I’m coming at them old school because no for this stupid web ex?? What is that?? For a medical appt?? Cmon!! For something simple – sure … but not this.

I have to pay for portion of these tests also – like I say … almighty dollar always

How much is your life worth? Ya know? Stupid but whatever

So yeah very simply solved by seeing me in person

So. Yup … I am absolutely going to be stubborn on that now after this past weekend nope … see me or nothing. Not doing any tests before seeing in person – nope!!

Fricken web ex 🤨 how you gonna see my boobs on web ex … like a doctor needs to?? Just stop ✋ that’s ridiculous. I do not like that.

Web ex 🤨🙄 I do not like that … only if is simple things – but not this so no. See me or nothing.

Yup I might be little hard ?? Certain areas I am hard ass… this would be one if you are going to make me doubt that you know what doing. If you make me panic completely nope 👎 absolutely not!!

So see me or nothing.

Not commercialized or competitive or mean whatever … remember life when we had one? Before technology?

So yeah … you have to see me first. I’m not gonna play games. Very clear – must see me first! This is a cancer Dr so … you see me first! Then I do the tests

Otherwise I wait. I’m not doing online stuff . Nope 👎 no way you can tell anything on a web ex

Oh god 🙄 web ex medical appt for something serious like this.. and they already mess this whole testing things up – the entire way… so

Now you gonna see me.

I don’t mind seeing my scheduled appts or tests and things – but not actual web ex appts !! Ugh 😑

Ok well whatever. But I am not normal so they don’t know without seeing me… so you either see me or you don’t .

They already show me reason to question what they doing. So. Yup whatever we see

I have web ex 🙄😑 on Monday with somebody? So whatever 😑

Maybe I should just cancel that too and say book me an appt to come in please. You need to see me first!! You can’t just go doing things – you have to see. So stop ✋

And again – how you gonna see anything you need to on web ex… and I do not mind in hospital setting in a private room I am always topless with that – fine whatever … only because I have to.

But I am SOOOOOO not cool with showing boobs on any web ex or whatever else you got going on – nope 👎 … so don’t go thinking that’s gonna happen because no. You need to actually see me.

I am fine at Dr office or hospital because is medical facility and whatever … but no way online like that – nope are you nuts?! Hell no

Ok so

Ugh whatever it will get sorted at some point… when they meet me and know what doing. 😘✌️