Attention & Itches

I end up handling 2 funeral homes again. I had to do reports and outreach …

So I bought some nice little presents 🎁 to give out.

I have 2 churches I will go to tmrw – one Catholic, one Jewish …

Saying hello 👋… no one knows me yet 😳 I have to go out and introduce self – because I talk to them all the time, and work with them – but they do not know me. Never seen me

…and then I am saying thank you to our flower shop – because they go above and beyond for us always…

When we say jump – they say how high? So yes – thank you ❤️

For the 2 churches – I will be bringing pastries – cause church pastries and coffee all go together lol. So sounded perfect to me.

Hello – guess who I am? Here are gifts – remember us and recommend us please 🙏

For the flower shop – I will bring chocolate gifts and hand sanitizer – thank you for having our backs ❤️ – I bring chocolate and keep you safe 😘

I have to do one more – but someone, has not gotten me the info yet

Today someone called to inquire on information.

I will always take my time with you and I can make you feel instantly at ease with me. I have a very calm gentle caring demeanor

Whatever you need, whatever questions you have, anything. I will make sure you are comfortable and understand.

Anyway so that happened today

I know I am competitive with other funeral homes – I want you to come to ME.

Some may be more grand and beautiful … mine is like the comfort of family … so I have to aim at the care and service that we provide – we are REALLY good.

Anyway… so the person tells me… they were given a list of places to call – and mine was not on that list.

When I asked how they learn of us…

They tell me… because your name is one of the best in the area, your reputation for caring for families. ❤️

They said if you ask locals – we are one of the best ❤️❤️🙌❤️❤️ yay!!

We are higher cost than some – I do not set the prices for the location.

So my aim will be how we care for you ❤️ we will be the best – and our name will be on everyone’s lips – you watch – I will make that happen ✌️ I will aim at that. You watch my numbers

No one can come close to us in compassion, so let’s see how far I can take that. That is where I am going to separate us from the others 😘

I do not mind attention if it is for work… then I want attention lol

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But outside of business hours – I do not wish to have any attention lol

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I had to shop at store today for those gifts and omg – I just don’t want to go out to public places – I am tired

It is always a thing!! And I’m all dressed up too, so that never helps the situation. That makes it a million times worse, because I am all done up!! Yeah like that doesn’t catch attention or anything 🤨 I might as well pull up in the hearse lol

And no I do not… it is bad enough I have to take it to car wash and gas station lol. I do enjoy bringing it to be serviced – that is fun lol

I have news to share about work. But I am just completely exhausted – I will share another time maybe

Oh and check this out – remember fire guy?? He had to come do re-inspection today… inspecting my work on completing the list he gave me.

My work is flawless – you tell me what you want and I will have that and all the details.

He said – I already knew you would have it all done – because you messaged me and asked me questions and I could tell you were a person of your word.

😮❤️

He said some will just not be compliant or not really care about getting done!! 😮

Why would you not follow regulations?

I asked “don’t you shut places down for non-compliance?”

He said they are turned over to code enforcement which then goes after them.

I like him – I got to talk to him for a minute – good guy … excited for his job – loves his job

So next year they be back 🙄 I be ready fully this time lol – you will not find one thing wrong 😘✌️

But yay!! I passed compliance ❤️ fully ❤️

Have all Friday reports completed for 2 locations – have outreach ready and packaged for the locations they are going to ❤️ and I will be dressed to the 9’s … because 1st impression… remember me 😘✌️

You have one chance at a first impression – so better be good.

So I want to draw attention. And then I come bringing gifts lol … and none of them know me – they do… but only over phone lol

So. Ok … I am more comfortable with attention when is work related … if isn’t related to work, I hide from it…

But at work – I think it is ok. We see lol ✌️

I do not mind drawing attention for a work purpose

If it’s for work… there is a reason to draw the attention.

I have a focus and an aim. ❤️

But if is on my own, I do not like attention very much. I guess it is that I feel – that’s my personal space … so only the people close, can really be there – the ones I love and trust ❤️

So yeah I guess like that ?

At work there is a purpose… on my own that is very personal … I think that’s it!! 😮

Also… I have this horrible itch tonight … I can feel the itch INSIDE – it’s like under one of the implants and I have no feeling in my chest!! So no matter how much I itch – I feel no relief – there is nothing … I can not get to the itch and it is driving me insane!!!

I can feel the itch!!! But I can not feel the scratching, rubbing, moving or anything else I do!! ugghhh – it’s like torture

I wish my scars were zippers – I could unzip for a moment and try to fix that

Instead I have an itch I can not scratch lol 🤨

I do not understand how I have no nerves and no feeling … but yet, I can feel itches – this is not the first time

Are they ghost itches? Where you remember the feelings? But it really isn’t there?

Kinda like when you lose a limb – you sort of have a ghost limb?

Or lose a loved one… you keep imagining… they walk right through the door like normal

It’s it that? Cause it fricken itches so I can feel an itch and it does not feel like a ghost itch

But the mind can also trick you? So not really sure – but I itch and there is nothing I can do!! Totally torture

I never had inside itches before all this.

And thank god I am home because it is my breast and I want to itch – but I feel nothing so it’s just not going well

Anyway – I have got to go. I don’t have enough hours or enough sleep!! 😮

Good night – I will be around on weekend ✌️😘

I will read soon ❤️