Ok so… I have risen from the dead lol… whew that 2nd shot kicked my ass!
I am doing much better now, I have slept and started eating food again. I am still little foggy and lightheaded but am ok. I be fine for work tmrw.
This morning I still had to go into lawyers office. From now until the end of March it will be insane. At the end of March – I am done ❤️
Today we put in a new court order… he will be livid – so I am little nervous with that.
He will attack with vengeance so I am very afraid. I am not sure exactly what he will do? But he’s going to be pissed. Really really pissed.
Beyond pissed so – whew they are serving him. Yikes
But my lawyer and his staff is going after him ❤️
I am happy because first time with any protection ❤️ I might be ok… but because of that protection – he will come after me somehow so that just sends a terror.
Work wants his photo at all 3 funeral homes so should he appear they simply call the police – I don’t think he would come to my work but I never know? I just don’t know?
I think they all partly want to see who this man is.. they have heard some of my stories. So they make their judgement on what I say… but I only say what happened.
But I am nervous because I am fighting back he is going to come with FULL vengeance, so I am nervous – I have seen what he can do… that is why I call him Satan … I truly was married to Satan 😮😮😮
I am thankful to be away, I couldn’t imagine going through covid with him!!
So my story unraveled in a way so that I didn’t have to go through covid with him – but I have struggled all this time because he has been brutal when I had no help and no money / he took full advantage to make sure I can’t stand up on my own…
But check it… I do. And I have – he did not crush me completely… and I have fought to get where I am after breast cancer and everything while he was brutal through my deaths and my cancer – I had no way to fight back.
How do you do that to a human being? So he is not even a man… he is an awful person and very abusive
So I am happy and very comforted they are fighting for me… but I am scared of the vengeance he will come at me with – I’m just used to alot
So… here we go 🙏 please let it be ok 🙏🙏🙏 I do fear him still, so that kinda turns my stomach some. It will be fine. I am protected ❤️ finally
I just don’t trust what he could do?? So I just have a nervousness with all this and what he is capable of.
I’m sure it will be fine. Finally. For the first time ever, I have protection and someone fighting for me
Maybe I ask lawyer to issue a temporary restraining order but I don’t know? Because he has not done anything yet – I think I have to wait until he tries something but I will ask ?
Here we go… it’s about to get really big 😮 I am nervous – little scared because he has been brutal so yeah little scared but it will be fine – it will be ok
Ok now I have time and energy to read – I be doing now ✌️❤️
Ps… on a positive note – I get my old name back ❤️ I be me again ❤️ I want everything of him removed from me… I do not want his name – so I take mine back ❤️
It will be a bitch and an issue – but I don’t care – I want him erased off of me. I will do whatever it takes to just remove him from being connected to me.
I definitely do not want to carry his name – no thank you
And then I talked to my sister in law in Texas and she telling me my brothers best friend and his wife got divorced 😮
I remember my brothers best friend lol he is funny- I am shocked they got divorced … and theirs was fast – like a week… but with mine it was paused while I battled cancer. And my ex is Satan so ???
But I am shocked cause he picked a good girl?? They have 2 beautiful kids and were doing well! ?? they both worked in hospitals
So I don’t know what happened? Odd .. I see my brother and his friends as these little boys lol but they are not lol – they are men, but I still see the little boys? Lol just because we all hung out for awhile
My brother is 5 years younger than me. I helped my brother once upon a time through something and his friends were also involved so I got to know a lot of them other than annoying little brothers friends lol
We are very close, my brother and I… growing up he was a dweeb lol … now he is just morphed into my father but I still pull the big sister card lol ✌️ and he lets me ❤️
He has good friends too … they are really good friends – I have also known them forever
I am shocked with his best friend!!! I am just really floored because looked so perfect? And seemed perfect?
Why do people do that? Make it look perfect when it isn’t ?
I don’t really understand that but whatever – maybe at the time their view is construed?
I liked her… I don’t think I would have paired him with her but – she is a good wife and mum… they have beautiful kids (2 – boy and girl) … I don’t know what happened ?? I didn’t ask
Mine has taken years because of the circumstances … mine has been 4 years. And this is first time I can stand up ❤️
My ex won’t want that… he wants to make sure I can not survive without him – but I do ❤️ and after everything with my deaths and cancer – I am still standing ❤️
My boss is calling be right back