Interesting

I had an interesting day 😮

So work work work as normal … I have many area office managers helping me understand it and figure out what is what… I have a mess on my hands. So I am learning AND figuring out/detangling all at same time – but all the other office managers are very supportive!!! They are really helping!!

They have been amazing! ❤️ but I bug who ever I can find that I know has expertise and knowledge lol ✌️ they very willingly help ❤️ they are amazing ❤️ very sweet!!

I won’t fail like that ❤️

So… that is going well… it’s still a big mess – and I am still stressed because I have many things due by the 31st – let’s see how many I can do? Omg 😳 lol … so yeah I get a little tense because is such a mess and I am learning. But whatever I am trying really hard and it’s going really well!

Also… for Christmas the company gave us $50 each for nice meal or something we want or something for office…

My girls wanted a really nice lunch… so ok…

So I am easy going… just no fish stuff 😝😝😝😝

So then they want steak at like the best restaurant lol … so whatever

And they order their entire $50… so I said “hey now wait a minute – does that include tax?”

And they both moaned and said “hey c’mon we worked hard! We deserve it”

And ya know what… yes they did, and yes they do. So screw it… take your whole $50… lol … if the company has issue – I will take that. These girls deserve that! They work really hard always!!

We forwarded our phones to one of the other funeral homes and we had a very nice peaceful awesome expensive lunch lol ❤️❤️❤️ – was nice as a team ❤️

So whatever … I keep learning and working and sorting and counting … I am using all these new end of year programs I am busy…

And my girls are busy!! The boards are FULL we have like 1 open spot on board and then board be full… we can still take more they just won’t fit up on the boards 😮😮

I believe the care center wants to get a refrigeration truck because we have no space for the bodies.

We have several ship ins and ship outs… either being transported to us or being transported somewhere else.

We have one in Southern California we took the first call because they are here where I am… they died here.

But they have preneed down south with another funeral home …

Services to be down there – their restrictions are tighter than ours are 😮

And when you try to call them to report anything – even to report a death… doesn’t matter if you a family or funeral home – doesn’t matter who you are… but when you call you are 32 in que 😮😮😮 or some really high number!! You wait all day to speak to someone 😮😮 it’s nuts!!! It’s insane!! What???

And then we talked to a funeral home in Las Vegas today… their boards are full too they say! 😮 wtf!!

It’s all just crazy insane.

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This is why I am always saying “please no one die today!!!” 🙏

Anyway… so it’s nuts

My girls both left at 5… I was still working… I have all that stuff to do….

Well the maintenance guy texted (something is wrong with one of my doors and he had been fixing … but my door locks are from like the 1850’s 🤨🤨… so there are no parts to be found 🤨🤨) he was trying to create one … and anyway he came after 5… I was still working so whatever – do your thing

So here is something oddly weird about me… maybe? So my personality is flirty… I am just flirty- ish… but literally with everyone!! I just smile a lot and am very friendly and bubbly

At the same time… I do not pick up any hints or suggestive themes lol … nope – I do not pick those up 🤷‍♀️ you have to be absolutely direct lol

So I finished my work. But I still had to lock up and shut down… but he was still fixing door.

So I went and sat on the couch in the foyer which is right there by the door he was fixing.

At first we talking about work… he ask me if I like it – do I think I will stay in business? Hmm I kinda think so? I have moments when I don’t like it… but I love too much more ❤️

And we just talked about my people and then which funeral homes are in bundles of 3 ? Lol

Just funny stuff …

Until he asked me… “so do you date?” 😳😮

Not really no. Why?

And he says “because you are really attractive, why don’t you date?” 😮

I said “I dunno, I just don’t, I am too busy, and before I was going through too much or I was married so… now I am just too busy and it’s just way over my head anyway”

And then he asked me what I wanted or what I am looking for.

Well… I don’t want anything casual… nope… don’t even apply. That will not be happening!

So then he said… so you want to jump right into another relationship ? 😮😮

I did not think of it like that … well it’s not that I would jump, cause I don’t want to jump … I want something that is meant to be and happens – I want to know that person and feel safe with them and secure, taken care of, loved …all that

So whatever …but I told him… I went through a lot so I just kinda keep to self and um recover? Had some rough years

He then asked me what? He already knew about the cancer. I am very open about that. (There’s a chance to save someone’s life with information, so I am extremely open with the cancer) ✌️

And I just told him “I lost a lot of family, had cancer, still battle an abusive ex, and then just survive” said it just like that. Boom and done

Then he asked me… are you afraid? 😮😮

So my initial instinct lol… is to be like “what??? No!! Of course I am not afraid!!” Lol

But am I? I think maybe? I think maybe I am paralyzed with it? I dunno? Whatever

I think maybe I am afraid of it cause that will be hard. So fine then… yes I am afraid of that lol … I keep myself very busy with kids and work

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And let me just add … there is nothing coming!!! No! However you want to take that. I am not done being afraid lol 😘✌️

When it’s right and I am ready it be fine.

Then he asked me if I would let him get to know me, would I mind if he got to know me 😮

I didn’t really see that coming… I am really bad at seeing these things… and I did not expect that response

Well yeah I suppose it’s fine if he wants to get to know me.

He asked politely, that was very kind – I’m cool with that.

I’m not really sure exactly what that means??? Like text hello every so often?

I don’t really think I am his type? I don’t know?

I know that he is attracted to me… and he’s really really sweet and kinda shy with me? He has a shy type demeanor “with me”… like he doesn’t want to screw up lol so he’s on his best behavior?

He always makes sure he never offends me or says anything the wrong way… he is very careful… I appreciate that … but I do hope he just is who he is.

That’s all very sweet and stuff – but I need to see who you are.

I don’t actually know what type is his type?

I don’t think that’s me?

He’s good looking… he is kinda young ….what is with these young guys?’ Don’t answer that!

I just think I am too ?? Hmm what word do I want to use??

I’ve been through too much… and he is sweet and thoughtful…

But I went through a lot so that effects me. So I am cautious… fearful… on guard… there are things I am careful with … myself is one. ✌️

So… ok then – hello texts once in awhile lol … how else you gonna do right now?

So he will be really sweet… and he’s going to want to charm and impress me… he will want to make me laugh etc.

I think what it is… he is just attracted to me.

He just doesn’t know me though.

Oh yeah… he has kids… they are smaller than mine. Way smaller

He was asking me how my kids would feel if I dated anyone?

My kids would be happy if I was happy and that person was good to me ❤️

But… I had not really thought about that either 😮

So much to think about. That is a distraction at this moment

I told him that is like distractions lol… and he said that’s because is good to have distraction to relax you, take you away from work 😮

Smooth 🤨 lol

I just don’t know how I feel about dating ? I do NOT want one night stands or casual dating… so nope.

And I didn’t think about some of these things yet! I haven’t dated – I haven’t needed to think about any of it.

I just don’t have my focus there because it has hurt in the past so now I avoid a little bit, or a lot. ✌️

That’s kinda my method of operation lol… if it hurts – typically I stay away…

Only … I did not stay away from death 😮 I went right to that

Well anyway… that happened 😳

I have to get to bed – gnite 😘❤️