It is pea soup outside. I got home about 7:30pm… I left at 5… that’s how thick the fog is!! It is dense
And you know what tonight is right?
Tonight is several things!!
First… is the winter solstice … that is today “December 21st, 2020… this is the shortest day of the year.
Now is the turn around heading to spring!!! Now more daylight comes back ❤️ … slowly – but it’s somethin lol 😘✌️
Tonight is also the night that we “should be” able to see the Christmas ★ star… I really wanted to see that. But the fog outside is so thick!! You can’t see anything.
I had a really hard day at work today. I’m doing ok – was just a really hard day… we have soo many new cases – our boards are full!!
I just feel under pressure… I know I just stepped into this… but I am the office manager and here comes end of year so I have to learn really quick.
And then it’s been nuts crazy!! When I say crazy… you don’t even know!!! Today … I had to step away… to take a breath.
Whew.
I am beat. You ever have one of those days that – nothing went totally wrong… everything went fine … but you had so much pressure all day long … and then when your day is over and you are home… and you want to cry for just no reason? Just pressure release I guess?
Cause is a day like that… I am so tense. And there is a lot.
Not badly – just because today was an emotional day with families… and we had alot!! trying to get all this stuff organized and sorted – and having tons of stuff pulling me in every direction
It just caught me off so I just feel sad. Or overwhelmed for a minute. So that is release for minute ✌️😘
We laugh when we can because we have days like today ☹️✌️ you just balance them.
I am doing good though so far. Just under pressure. It is emotional business
Not a big deal – but I feel soft tonight ☹️💔
And maybe it’s the holidays? I miss all my people, being able to see them or hug them or anyone… I miss my mom and my brother and my sister.
I worry. I’m a worrier. I worry for them. I miss them.
I dunno? It was just a hard day so every single thing is hitting. Is just a moment that’s all. I am tired too.
It’s fine… it will be ok.
Ok I have to remember it is still 2020. It still has what? A week and a half of torture left?
Then suddenly New Years will fix everything right? Lol… I wish… but we will be out of 2020. I just want to be out of that.
I definitely do not trust 2020!
Anyway… I am kinda spent right now… physically emotionally and mentally! Just exhausted. (Or overwhelmed)
I am strong – I am fine.
I am just also sharing my downs just like I do my good stuff. Am just human, so also have moments ✌️
So I just want the day to be over.
And again… it’s fine … that is how life is… you have amazing moments – and then there are moments that are not so amazing. ✌️
I am strong – but I am still human ✌️😘❤️
So I am going to bed. I just have to get away from this day 😝 I need it to melt away. ✌️
And back into the fire again tmrw … ok.
I am just done with this stupid virus!! I’m just going to bed.
Gnite ☹️😘✌️
Any day off soon?
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Yeah actually … I get Christmas off sorta … I work Christmas Eve, and then I am on call Christmas Eve into Christmas 8am… then I am off until Monday ❤️✌️
So yes almost ✌️
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I love Bring Me to Life. I don’t love clouds covering the Christmas star.
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Yes. Good song ❤️
Yeah, I didn’t love that either
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The hype was MUCH brighter than the “star”!!
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I’m sure … they always do that.
You make me remember the early 1980’s when… oh what was that movie?
Gorilla at Large? Lol and you got special glasses at 7/11 and it was 3D
So much hype… and then it was lame lol
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Hahahaaa… I have no idea what you’re remembering but I re all several events where you bought 3D glasses at 7eleven.
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Hahahaha me too lol… and it was always lame
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Exhausted and overwhelmed. I don’t even celebrate holidays and I feel that! I got tired at 4pm Mon and went to take a nap before returning to work. Instead, all sorts of little things kept me busy till 8p and I feel asleep around 9p. Me… asleep for the night at 9pm??? What world us this??
I hope you felt better today.
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Wow! Lol you are getting on a sleep schedule!! It just does that
Well today was better yes. Still hard parts but better … I’ve been having to step away and breathe lately.
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Sleep schedule… me?? Only if its 6am to 3pm!!
With the exception of last night, I’ve been taking meds to get to sleep before 3am.
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Oh 😮 no wonder you exhausted at 9pm
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