Ok … so … there are new people.
Ok … they are extremely friendly!!! Big smiles, very friendly … first meeting … I met their dog first 😳 Oh my god!
Omg … the dog goes airborne into the pool to come to me 😳
Well, my shirt got all wet … I was trying to keep it dry… it was next to the pool with my sunglasses … just incase I had to grab. Ya know.
Well… the airborne dog – knocks my shirt and sunglasses in the water .. Oh my god!
So now my T-shirt is of no use… it fricken wet omg
Ok this can’t be that bad… thank god I had a towel!! Omg … why??
If I step back and look at everything – it is funny – Ok fine. It reminds me of a Chevy chase movie type day lol
Just was a lot of things today. I stay away from things. Completely or as much as possible.
Ok well then.
I am nervous… because I am silent … and I kinda want that silence. I just do. I just feel safer that way. It’s a comfort to me at this moment.
And then there is that peace that I am in love with… so completely!
They do seem very friendly. Their dog overwhelms me. Whew! They are all a little bit “high energy”?
I am quiet, low energy… bubbly but, ya know, just kinda calm? Very very protective and cautious. I’m tired.
I kinda like to ease into things – 2020 is just too fricken much…
It keeps forcing things upon me!! Like it’s shoving my last three years into one year!! 🤨
If this was a fireworks show… I would say 2020 wants to be my grand finale lol ✌️
It does feel like that a little bit. Whew
Alright. This will be fine. Everything is going to be ok… and different… my entire world is flipping!
Ok lots of things.
I am just trying to kinda balance life. I am kinda private anyway… but I have a lot of pressure right now.
Is just for the moment. So that’s fine. I do come out of my shell but I dunno, I don’t go out.
Only to work. But I work at a funeral home – so I like that. There is a peace? I can’t even explain that??
I will interact – but umm … I just kinda wanna be away from stuff?
Yeah whatever – shit happens
Ok well. Just venting I guess.
Yes I am open to friendship – but I’m just a calm demeanor?
I am not totally comfortable – ok fine – I am not comfortable at all!!!
I’m sure it will be totally fine 😳
I have to get to bed 💤 it’s late, almost midnight 🕛