Technical Difficulties ✌️

I have so much on my mind – I think I’m stressed? I have to organize my thoughts

My funeral home called me this morning and I have to take a law class next Wednesday. It’s at another funeral home – but that will be kinda cool…

I’ll be able to do more things ❤️

I do really love that job… I think? I love my coworkers and I like the job itself – however, I’ve been working this job only since February… and then the virus hit. So I’ve been able to be locked away?

I have done some services and handled people… but every single time someone finds out I work for a funeral home – they say the same thing… you don’t seem like the type to be at a funeral home…

I don’t look like I belong at a funeral home, and I’m usually always smiling and laughing?

But it’s just a different side? I think I like it. And I’ve been eased into it so I like that ALOT

I’ve been given a moment to kinda melt into it. So I’m kinda of excited for this law class.

I’m kinda building with this, and I love the title I have – so if I stay with it, I will be able to take that and go higher?

So… next Wednesday – law class ❤️

Then next Friday will be dooms day. 😝 Next Friday makes me feel sick- I can’t even think about it.

I am preparing but I have no faith in it. I just hope, but I always hope and it’s always bad. I don’t have help through it… but ya know – I handle how I can. But thinking of next Friday makes me feel sick? I don’t know if I be ok enough even for Friday night? So we will see how I do next week 😮😳🙏

So anyway, my mind is jumbled with many things. Just a moment in time though. I am strong… I hope 🙏 I think? I pray!

Today is hot again. We be about 102 today 🥵

Notice 2020 not on there… cause it’s too fricken hot!!

Yesterday I wore a sundress to try and stay cool… I love this dress 👗 – is sooo nice and airy/cool… but I have never worn it with the new boobs 😳

I have no feeling in my chest… so I can not feel when I have wardrobe malfunctions 😮😳 … luckily no one saw cause I would have been mortified…

But I am sewing straps on that so I don’t have to worry. ✌️

I have this headache? I don’t know if it’s from the heat? Or the stress or what? Everyday it comes… only recently. For maybe like a week? It’s probably the heat? I’m thinking is the heat. Well maybe the heat with the stress?

I’ve been feeling quiet lately anyway.

I have to do more preparing today so that definitely makes my head throb! 😝 it makes my stomach turn too…

I keep thinking I can do this, but I’m scared I just can’t? So we will soon find out.

I will be back later 😘✌️