I am waiting for my 2nd shot 😮
Oh please don’t kill me or make me sick!!! I have not been sick all year!! Don’t do it now – I have too much going on this week
Pray for me lol 🙏✌️
I should be back?
Stay safe, be funny, get lost lol ❤️✌️
Ok … Monday – not bad … has slowed weirdly since last week.
So I am not sure to relax with it “just yet” but wow- what a difference… last week we insane… and we do have funerals all week… but the new has slowed significantly!
It’s like taking a breath of air!!! You have no idea!! We have deaths still … but we are not getting buried – pun intended 😘✌️
So that is nice at work!! Whew – I hope we never have another wave 🌊 … omg that was really horrific there for awhile.
That was awful. Please don’t do that again!! Keep slowing 🙏 wear that mask… do those things. Keep being safe. I don’t know whatever people are doing – keep doing that!! It’s starting to work!!! But keep doing it ❤️ don’t stop!!! 🙏
I had a flat tire today 🤨🙄 lol whatever … I got out at 5:30pm raced over to the tire people lol (Big O Tires) lol and they took me right away – bing bang boom done … they close at 6pm – had me out by 6! Lol woo hoo!!
I was wondering what I was going to do – would probably have been completely flat by morning – and I don’t know how to fill my tires??
Yeah… I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know what I need?? And I just don’t like it because I don’t know?
Also I think there was a leak and they fix for me ❤️ whew I made it on time!
Yeah I don’t know how to do any of that??
Bleh.
So whatever – I had it fixed
lol … sooooooo… my daughter is on some kinda computer thing with her friends and she and them been acting out ?? I have no idea but it is hilarious 😄❤️
I just have to sit here and it’s entertaining lol 😄❤️
Funny the way they are adapting to isolation ❤️ it’s very cute ❤️ they are doing entire episodes of who knows what? Totally acting it all out lol
All of them are 100% in lol ❤️
The memories they will have during these moments – look at them – how adorable is that ❤️
They working around the virus for social interaction and memories ❤️ check them ❤️ that’s awesome
They are very funny and entertaining lol
Little bizarre but whatever – welcome to the world today ✌️
So anyway – that was my Monday. Not much else exciting lol
Here is a little bit of my nerdiness lol… take this one:
So that song is a little on the boring side … but omg it catches me!!! I don’t know??? It’s like soothing – but it’s also a flip song … meaning if I am not in the mood I will flip it lol … it is too boring and too soothing for all the time lol
That is special occasion to get lost in ❤️✌️
On that note – good night 😘😴💤
Just info
I’ll be back… but if you are in the United States … and lost a loved one due to covid, and are experiencing a financial hardship …
The time period covered by this is January 20th, 2020 to December 31st 2020
There is nothing for 2021 yet.
FEMA will help you if you qualify. Up to $7000
FEMA is setting up a hotline for you to apply.
You are going to need a death certificate listing COVID as a cause of death, proof of relationship with the deceased, as well as, proof of the amount of money was spent on the funeral and burial expenses. (A statement or Bill from the funeral home)
Covid DOES have to be one of the causes of death on death certificate
I’m still getting info
Ok back later ✌️
At Sunday’s end…
Today went really well!! I got a ton of stuff done!! And reorganized ❤️ it was quiet today ❤️❤️❤️
On my way home, I stopped at a “convenience” store – because I needed “trash bags”
I just wanted a quickie stop, and I just needed that ONE item! I didn’t want to go into a HUGE store for that.
I have stopped at this store before and the clerk is always really sweet and really nice.
So when I walked in he had a customer but he always makes sure to say hello to me no matter what lol – whatever that’s probably a customer thing…
So I ask him – do you carry trash bags?
He say yup and he point me to the isle lol…
But all they had were those little small white kitchen trash can type trash bags – I wanted the big black ones lol … hefty hefty hefty lol ✌️
He came over to help me when his customer gone, and he said they don’t have the black garbage bags..
And then he says to me “how many you want?” Umm I need 1.
So he says oh I will give you a couple – I can give you a few.
So he goes in the back and comes out with a gigantic roll of gigantic trash bags that will probably take me a year to go through lol
I said let me pay you for them… and I gave him some money for the trash bags and his time & thoughtfulness.
Lol … now I have a lot of trash bags
That was very sweet and very thoughtful and kind lol ❤️
People are always REALLY good to me – except Satan lol – but everyone else is ❤️
That’s really my only story because I was alone, just doing all my work, it was quiet … and none of that is exciting lol ✌️
It was a really nice peaceful Sunday and no one died on me or had any issues on Valentine’s Day ❤️🥰❤️
And then here comes Monday …
So whatever … I will probably play this song again at the end of March but whatever ✌️😘❤️
I felt like that one instead of a love song lol 😘 that works way better for me 😄✌️❤️
Stay safe 🙏 … my second shot is Tuesday 😮 (I am afraid to be sick!) 🙏 please don’t be sick 🙏 I don’t want that …
This gonna be a hairy week… there is Monday lol… and then Tuesday is my second shot… Thursday is lawyers again. And I also have funerals all week again!! We knocking it out though. ❤️
Just try not to die – it is getting better – not sure if all you people are isolating ? Or if you are all getting vaccinated finally??
But is not as horrific as it was a week ago… so keep doing that – don’t die!! ❤️✌️
Hope you all enjoyed your Valentine’s Day and had a really nice day – paired or not ❤️
Ahhhh 🙌 Sunday 🙌
So far so good – but I just start lol
I came in this morning and there is a sweet thank you card on my desk… is from 2 of my bosses for my 1 year anniversary ❤️ it was February 8th
They wrote really sweet messages!! And inside was a couple massage and face mask things ? Lol girly stuff ❤️ – I wonder what made them think of that lol 😄❤️ I’m just kidding – I’m very girly lol ✌️❤️ that fits perfect!! That was really sweet and now I have a smile ❤️
They say thank you for all your hard work and support, staying with us through this past year ❤️
See they are very thoughtful and sweet – do you see why I stay? How I gonna leave that?
Ok I have to get to work 😘✌️
Ahhh Sunday – maybe I actually get work done 🙏🙏🙏
What a nice Sunday ❤️
❤️ Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️
So bleh 😝 lol
Daughter says to me… mum, put on some love songs for Valentine’s Day lol…
Ok…
She didn’t like that one … so ok here’s another:
Again she did not like 😄😄😘✌️
So I knew I would catch her with this…
Then I threw in this…
And this…
Also this…
And this one…
And then also this:
Then I Rick Rolled her lol ❤️😄:
She did not like that lol
So I went with classics lol
And this:
Yeah… so whatever love songs
We played many.
🙄😄
Yeah but good luck 💋✌️ when it is meant I will know.
What happened Friday
Met with lawyer Friday. Went really well. He is protecting me and he makes me feel safe ❤️ when dealing with the court – I have always been panicked … because I just don’t understand.
He takes his time with me ❤️ he holds my hand through “this” – the same way I hold someone’s hand through death. ❤️
So I feel a calm and a peace with him … I trust him – and because of him I am safe and protected ❤️ you have no idea the peace of that ❤️
I was gonna leave because I thought I only had an hour… and I am careful with time because time is money… but he’s been good and not really charging me? He didn’t charge me for last meeting ? Or he forgot? I am not sure? But he is kind and gentle ❤️ I am very thankful for that ❤️
He also knows his shit ❤️ but he said – hang on there Missy (lol, I haven’t heard that in a long time lol) we still have another hour to go over 😮
We went over TONS of things!!
We talked about my cancer today because a section of trial will pertain… anyway… he was funny because he was being VERY respectful … I was explaining and I had to tell him about my surgeries…
And I was explaining the right side… and that one scar that goes from center of my chest to my under arm.
That one scar … ok well it’s a nice deep purple magenta color It looks fierce and scary to me – (I do find it also beautiful, it’s just severe looking)
It is also very emotional so you will have to be easy there with that and noticing. Pretty much “normally” I am good with people asking me about it – that’s fine. And of course I will share my breast cancer story – maybe I help you?
It hits both men and women you know! Don’t be blind to that – save your life! Be aware
Anyway… I don’t have anything to really show… it’s like Barbie and someone made a big giant purple magenta colored line across the front with a sharpie lol ✌️
I didn’t show the whole thing but I showed the area in the middle of the cleavage, where that bad scar starts. … you just see the start of the purple magenta… it’s high enough to just pretty much show with everything that has any kind of dip or plunge – unless I hide with lace 😘✌️ I love lace for that reason – luckily I am very girly girl so that works really well ❤️
Anyway… he made a comment .. he said … with most respect – they did a really good job 😊
They do look good. I will say that… it doesn’t offend me if politely said like that… that is fine… it is someone’s work lol and we discussing for things and information so it was not an issue.
If I am explaining or teaching you about breast cancer, or having to say, then I am ok with it.
Don’t just walk up to me and say nice breasts- that would not go well lol
I was talking about all that stuff today. I usually never think about all those moments. Because they sucked lol… there were some humorous-ish things … I did NOT share this story, but I remembered this as I was telling him things 😮…
They would hand me this gown and say ok go put this one open side to front
So off I would go every single time… I would take everything off except my panties and put the gown on… and then they would see that and they would say “no no, panties off too” 🤨
What??? You up here – you are not down there wtf??
It’s a 6 to 8 hour surgery!! I was inundated and all that – a few times. Even afterwards I was incoherent for like 3 days 😮
So what now about not having panties?? Cause umm ?? What??? I don’t understand
They explained it to me saying that “in case of emergency so they don’t waste time having to cut things off”
It’s panties – how hard are panties to take off??? Really??? Whatever
In my surgeries I wasn’t allowed anything… they tell me … stop shaving 😮… no make up 😮… no lotions 😮… no perfumes 😮 … fricken no deodorant 😮🤨😵😵😵 I was not allowed anything. 😮😵 not even panties!!!!!!! They almost killed me with all that alone!!! Every single thing I do – they tell me no 😮
The real reason was probably – In case you fuckin die, we can just wheel you to morgue 🤨 in regards to the panties anyway.
All the lotions, perfumes, make up, deodorant and not shaving – I actually do understand that… I don’t like it … but I understood it. Is to lower Risk of infections and issues
But panties ??? That one bothered me… I just don’t find them very difficult to remove? It’s not like cemented ?? Lol … so if you are working on my breasts… why you need full view ? Cause c’mon!! Really? What is small little panties gonna matter? Whatever – they wouldn’t let me
Sorry anyway – that’s my little rant on that and things I remember not liking lol ✌️ today just made me remember that. I had to talk about those moments in time. 😝
Also… regarding the lawyers office… ? Hmm …
There is a person there… he is very kind and very sweet – always has been, from day one actually. I just assume that’s how he is?
He is always telling me how much my story touches him and how much he admires me and is so sorry what I go through. He is sweet with how he says things…
And one day (not yesterday) – he called me about something and then told me about who he is and what his story is sorta… and then he tell me how he is as a person? He is similar to me – have lost family… Huh that caught me by surprise.
But I was just thinking he being nice ? He is very sweet – I don’t know though??
He is very attentive to me? And then yesterday I am sitting in waiting room by myself, and behind the door I hear “good luck with the girl” and then the door opens, and there he is
He comes to talk to me and wait with me.
And then he is also cautious – they handle my case … he knows what I went through so he is careful. I appreciate that.
He is really really careful and nervous when he talks to me lol
We were having a nice conversation that just got started and then my lawyer came and I had to leave
Hmm… I almost feel like he is trying to read who I am?? Or read my vibe ??
I’m not sure.
He knows my case… my case finishes in March – and then I am fully free …
He is also similar to me with few things 😮 so if he is trying to vibe me… my guard is up a little.
It’s not bad – I’m just careful.
There is one thing about him that scares me little. It is something about his story, and it is his past… I don’t know enough.
He went to give me a water and his sleeve went up as he went to hand it to me… and he has a tattoo in Chinese going up his arm. I wish I knew Chinese!!!
Now I wanna know what it says lol
Well anyway?? He gives me a vibe that he is interested?? But I think he is really not really sure how to approach me and we really haven’t talked other than that one day he call me recently.
Currently he will get to know me a lot until the end of March 😮 … so he has time and I have to go back again this week 😮
(On Thursday)
And at end of March – I’m just free (❤️)
But anyway – I’m watching that – lol … he turned my head because of how he reacts around me lol…
You know when you are young – and you have no idea what you are doing ? So you kinda feel the waters ?… and he has this slight nervousness talking to me lol… so it reminds me of those things from years ago in school – and just also… when he looks at me, he has this kind gentle look?? I don’t know how to explain it?
Hmm – well that is a good choice in approach – and I like that he keeps a space and not come completely at me.
See what he did there?? He caught my attention – now I’m watching this.
Usually I am very blind if someone is interested unless they are direct. But here I don’t know? He has my attention.. because now I am watching it
(Not like that lol… I just like and remember the song 🎶❤️😄)
But if I actually stop and think for a minute… about umm being with someone again… whoa… so I don’t know.
It sends this terror through me? So ok. Breathe – don’t think
If I think about it – I feel a terror 💔 🤫
I hear this song… and hear/see the words … but nope, still terror
So. Yeah you can’t just come right at me.
And then… lol … I am not really around anyway – I am all locked away and always avoid any situations
So there is not really opportunity for anyone to really come close or know me
A few try – but I always lay out my shit and what I have coming… also I very bluntly say what I want – if you can’t handle that… ok 👋 bye
But this one already knows my shit, and knows what I have coming … and what I want would not scare him off in the slightest 😮
Whoa 😮 so how do I handle this one? That’s all my ammo
What do you do when you have no ammo??? 😮 I have nothing to be scary with lol 🤷♀️
So I am just alert on that. Not really sure what I think there
Then it was Friday night ❤️ ahhh … we watch and play videos
They let me have control lol ❤️❤️❤️❤️ so I excitedly put on that Modern Marvels show from the History channel… the one all about cemeteries and funerals 😄😄 lol … I posted it a few days ago. It’s really cool – interesting
But it is my normal documentary type thing lol … and then on top of that is also death ☠️ lol
And daughter goes – what is it with you and this death thing? lol 😄😄
Well that’s my life… my life IS life and death lol … I’m sure if I worked with puppies, all I would talk about would be puppies lol 🐶
And there is always things you are bothered by or fear … like things I mention in this post… but if you don’t talk about things then that is why it is harder to handle.
I took my daughter with me to some of my dr appointments while all my stuff was going on ❤️ I want her to not fear the way I did/do
And yes I have a thing with death… it surrounds me currently. Lol so whatever
I have morphed into a weirdo funeral girl lol
I also showed them this really cool video on gravestones …
And then one was like – why they gotta play the creepy music? Lol
But I was excited they watch with me … they actually did not watch the documentary – they moaned too much when I started it 😄😄
They saw the History channel logo and the moaning began, and then “all about cemeteries” made them moan even more 😄😄 so alright … I will spare you lol
But they did watch that crazy tombstone one !! ❤️
Oh I did have them watch this thing about “Who Framed Roger Rabbit”
But hold on… because… ????
❤️❤️❤️
But Tom and Jerry is computer animated and not drawn ✍️ by hand? Roger Rabbit was
So ok Tom and Jerry – ❤️ I like that they didn’t take liberty and change them
Oh yeah and then we watched this trailer…
I got very excited because in this movie they play the Beastie Boys 😄❤️ sold – hook line and sinker!! Lol – was totally delighted
And the kids all laughed and said Mum!! They aim these things at middle aged women like you, they totally just pulled you in with Beastie Boys – and the humor will be aimed at you too… women in your age group are the umm retweeters? Influencers? Posters? so they aim at you with that one lol
Oh well – nice choice on music… and they are adorable and funny so yes … direct hit ❤️ ✌️😄 (did make me cringe slightly when they called me a middle aged woman – don’t say it like that lol)
Well anyway… that was my Friday … I have to work tmrw to cover for Thursday. So I have stuff I have to handle
Also I left a back window of my car open last night and it poured – so the back is little wet 🤨 I didn’t even notice it!
Well anyway – I have to go adult – I will be back later ✌️😘
Endings & Beginnings 😮
Ok. So Thursday.
Today… they not only removed that class for me- but gave me a good raise 😮❤️❤️❤️ they said we want to pay you what you worth. 😮❤️❤️❤️ whoa 😮 I almost cried, I could not speak. It took everything I had not to cry lol … I half laughed and half cried???
I did not see that coming 😮 ❤️
And then – we got that family ❤️ they gonna let us help them…
We did have to take an unusual route… blocked our number and they answered!! ❤️
So we explained and we gonna help them ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
So I had a really good emotional day!! It made me wanna cry with relief all over the place.
I don’t even know what else to say about Today!!
I am on call tonight – so remember – no dying!!! 🙏 just take Thursday’s off the “die” list… you are not allowed to die on Thursdays lol – oh I wish it was that easy to lay that down ❤️🙏 … but that’s what I wish for… I wish for no death – but it is my business
See how weird that is?? That IS the business… but you don’t really want business – but you have to have business 😮
Just don’t do it on Thursdays!! I just have to say that and put that out there… so I guess every Thursday I am going to be saying that. Because I worry all night that someone will die!! Bleh
Well anyway – has been an amazing Thursday ❤️
I don’t know what else to say on it… I got the family… and we gonna help them… (my heart still goes out to them!) … and then work surprised me?? 😮 I was completely taken by surprise today with what they did. So … they make me wanna cry but not badly. Just? I don’t know? In good way.
Am very girly 😘✌️
It is POURING BUCKETS 🪣 right now 😮😮😮 I even made it home before that Down-poured!!! How’s that for a pretty awesome Thursday??!
I walked in the door, and 5 minutes later down pour 😮
So today my angel did their job lol ❤️😘 (I’m kidding – but something took my hand all day?)
It’s just pouring – it sounds like rapids outside omg 😮
Just crazy ☔️ rain!!! Row row row your boat weather!!! It’s just beating down!!
Oh thank you for letting me get home before unleashing that!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Tmrw I meet with lawyer in afternoon – I feel comfort for the lawyer … because for the first time ever I feel protected in any way or helped. So I trust them. I just give up and trust them. So we see.
I still feel panic though – because I do not trust the government and I do not trust the courts – so there ya go 😘✌️
I have reasons. Massive reasons. So we gonna see, I just don’t trust. It makes me feel sheer panic. All of it. It is overwhelming panic. So – I have to keep remembering how to breathe through it. Anyway- almost done – I can’t wait!! ❤️
So… anyway… finally… I be free ❤️ sorta 🤨 but mostlyish- as far as I’m concerned✌️ …and done.
So… let me just step back and review…
I got away from abuse ❤️❤️❤️
I beat cancer ❤️❤️❤️
I fuckin survived ❤️❤️❤️
And now? Well I am almost here:
Yeah I’m almost there ❤️❤️❤️❤️ almost ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏
I just have a little more to get through…
1.) I get through this divorce ❤️🙌❤️ omg ❤️❤️❤️❤️ and I will have my Irish name back ❤️
I was gonna say screw the name because it is going to be a hassle – but I don’t care – I want his name off me!!!!! 😝😝😝 – I never want to think of him again!! So there is that.
I get through that… then…
2.) my mom 💔❤️ ok well … work will help me there too… I get a discount because is family ❤️❤️❤️ we already picked one of my funeral homes and we ready. 😢💔 sorta of… we know what funeral home – but we not ready to lose her. 😩😢
She should be with my dad – she misses him and what’s her life now? I can’t see her… she is by herself locked away and ya know? I can’t even have her while she is here 💔 only phone and photos
So I guess I am ok if she goes be with my dad – like I have any say in that … but I will never have her back… and that time is over – is ending
My entire life ending for a minute- because new is shining
So ok. I can’t let her go – but no matter how much I prepare that loss will rock me… so I am scared of it
If there is one supreme loss that you have ever known… she is mine. So. That will be hard. No matter what.
My hands are tied – I have to just accept it when it goes down. She will have peace and be with him. Bleh – I still want her but only because I love her!!! She … I don’t know how to finish that? If I do, I will cry so moving on…
Ok so finish divorce, lose my mom (oh that sounds so horrible 💔💔💔)
Ok keep going …
Once I get through the tail end of all the bad things …
Then … I am already growing myself… look where I placed myself ❤️
And with such massive change
I am not going to recognize my life soon 😮 and I got to stay strong and I get to rise – I am still rising … because …
So yes see … sometimes cocky lol – but I work at that!!! Very hard!!!! So yes – I am a firework 💋✌️
Anyway… my family era is ending 😮
… so what do I want next? 🤔
I love the Beastie Boys… I miss them …
When my kids ask me for things … I wiggle and sing that song lol ❤️❤️❤️ I love doing that!!! – them not so much lol 😄✌️
Alright well… good night Thursday ❤️ ({{no dying!!!}})
I don’t even know?
So pulling my card went well – I will know by Monday -Just how well 🙏🙏🙏 please dear lord because if my card doesn’t work then I have no incentive to really work at all ✌️ and then I will be done with death. They have screwy thing…
So when I was a part timer – I worked a lot and I also took classes… I would do assigned classes and sign up for my own – this is one class I had signed up for on my own
The first time I went to take it – it used a program we do not normally use so it would not let me log on – well wtf?!
So I asked to have this removed before December and they say we will excuse it … but get it done – and then they ADDED THE SAME COURSE AGAIN!!! So it is double listed!!! I’m supposed to take the same 2 hour course fuckin TWICE!! I have not even done once yet- I don’t have time and is not imperative! Is a stupid thing I signed up for as a part timer MYSELF – it was not appointed – I have done all appointed classes!!! ALL are completed!!!
On well mother fuckin covid hit… what the fuck you want me to do?! And then we helped with cases from the funeral home who GOT covid!! Can you say “buried”??? cause that’s how it was!!! Completely!! Read my prior posts – I am learning!!
And I teach myself… I have no one training me… I call around and sometimes people help me through the phone… but I am on my own mostly!
There is no way I can spend 2 hours on a course I signed up for as a part timer – I do not have that kind of time!! And actually they have me doing same course twice!! It is mother fuckin covid!!! Fucking cop a clue!!!
If I do not complete it by Monday – I get no raises all year
So what is my incentive to work then! Cause fuck you.
Do you want an office manager and hard worker or you wanna fuck yourself ? Cause I will walk – I don’t need this shit – so you either remove it … or I’m out. ✌️
I’m not gonna give my everything for nothing- fuck that!!!!
Been there done that shit – NOT doing it again – within a person or a job …
So if that causes issues – I be on my way out ✌️😘
Choose wisely 💋✌️
So there is that 😘✌️
So let’s see. Should I stay or should I go? I will know by Monday 😘
So yeah – I have one danger area – never ever go into that area lol
If I feel being taken advantage of or see someone else in that position – or if I see someone who needs – then yes – I fight.
Ok so remember yesterday and I said I would find more information out to help someone from the United States …
Ok well I am still digging for info… I am in the funeral business so… covid…
Ok so let me lay it down as best I can…
Answer these questions…
1.) Have you lost someone to covid?
2.) Do you have a death certificate for your loved one that lists covid as a cause of death? Was your loved one Covid positive?
3.) Do you owe money for funeral expenses that are no greater than $7000 ?
4.) Do you believe you need funeral assistance for a covid positive case? Are you unable to pay in this emergency?
Ok so if you answers were yes… let me keep working and making sure I can direct you what to do. You might “MIGHT” be eligible for relief ?? But let me see and make sure 100% – and then I will tell you what you can do.
I’ve been talking to FEMA today about that.
I have a family in need – so I want to help them. I am so broken-hearted for them!!
Oh this family – I just want to make sure they are ok. I am worried. So I am trying to see what options I can give them.
I just feel for them. Yeah whatever – I know – bleeding heart – I am aware ✌️
But I am worried about them. So they break my heart and I just want to make sure they are ok and we can help them. Is ok… we will help you – don’t be afraid of us. I know the loss is hard and money is an issue – we will do anything we can to help a family in need.
I am pushing for things for them – I worry very much for them
When you call – they crying or groggy… your heart breaks – and they are lost – they just suffered a MASSIVE loss – it was massive … all I can tell you is – it was a earth shattering loss!! Your heart would bleed too!!!
So… I just need to help them. Because I want them to have peace and not panic with it… take my hand – let me help you ❤️ I won’t hurt you – I will be easy and we can go slow, you can call the shots… just let me help you walk through it
It’s ok we will work with you. You be upfront – we be upfront. Let us help you – we are NOT out to bleed you dry.. I will do whatever I can to help if I can find ways 😘✌️ some actually do care.
So anyway – they make my heart bleed 🩸 I worry about them- I want them to be ok. I worry very much on this one. There is massive devastation!! I can feel them very deeply!! Whoa! 😮💔🩸
So let me see what I can dig up 😘✌️ 🙏🙏🙏
The only problem is – they are afraid we going to want a lot of money- let me try to see what I can find out ok? Just work with me … it’s ok – we aren’t going to harass you – just talk to me.
If I can get them to give me a chance and trust me and relax… I will see whatever I can do!! Or any options I can give to them.
It can’t hurt to at least try and ya know- people do care – I also know this… but it is hard to let down your guard…
My arranger is not reaching the family at all… so I am taking over a little … I am checking my resources – and tomorrow I will be the one to try to reach out to the family… I am easier and softer sometimes – because I am also heart ridden especially with this pain… so …
I just want to help them… is ok. You can trust sometimes. Keep guarded – and be observant… but also some people just want to help… and I am in a position that I might be able to… so just let me!!! Give it up and just trust me, if you don’t what are your other options ?? So come leap with me.
So anyway… I hope they let me try to help – we will go slow if they need – however they want
I am not out to bury them in bills or freak them out after such a huge loss… please work with me – let me help you!!
This family has nothing!! And this death to them- is everything!! It just devastated them – absolutely and completely!!
So… yes… I am feeling them HARD!! So let me help you!!
We can take it step by step. I will hold your hand and walk you through it, if we need to.
You don’t have to be afraid of me – unless you are a corporation – lol – then you might wanna shake a little 😄😘✌️
Or if you take advantage of others – same thing ✌️
But I really hope I can reach them because mentally I am worried for them. They are taking it very hard
So yes please just let me hold your hand
I can help them – but they have to let me. 🙏💔
Hello…
Ok. Well that was a Tuesday!!
I have something I might tell you about another day – I have to have more information first. Once I get that, maybe it help you? (If you are in United States) But you will have to qualify and there will be issues so it will not be easy / so yes let me get the details first.
Of course I deal with death – so you know it’s gonna be about death. But is good information – MAYBE – let me find out ✌️
And I have a new family I adore. The arranger gets mad cause they don’t do anything for her … but IF “I” ask… it’s done immediately 😄😄❤️
(Lol ❤️ thats taking you back huh?)
But yeah… when I ask… it’s done right away and when I call them and say who I am, their voice lightens – like I do – so I notice it. And they are super sweet!! It’s funny ❤️
So yes – I adore them ❤️❤️❤️
My arranger does not find it funny, so now she has me asking …cause it just gets done lol ❤️ woo hoo ❤️
And I told the family I will call you tomorrow to check in and make sure we have everything we need. And they sounded happy that I be calling tmrw
I think I just connect well with some people? I really don’t know actually ?? I just guess ✌️
They ignore my arranger and listen to me?? 😮😄 🤷♀️ and then they check in with me too lol
It’s cute ❤️ I like them a lot ❤️
I have a fricken 4 hour meeting tmrw!! Omg. How am I supposed to do my job with so much meetings and classes and trying to learn omg – overload!!
I am pulling a card tmrw – I have a card up my sleeve – I’m gonna use it tmrw lol ✌️ lets hope that goes over well 🙏😘✌️ I’m pretty sure – is like calling the pool shot – eight ball 🎱 in the corner pocket lol 😘✌️
I’m pretty sure – but I can be cocky sometimes, so we will just have to see lol ✌️ I always think I am that good lol … sometimes it works lol ❤️ I think I have a good one this time lol ❤️✌️ 🙏
So yeah. Tmrw 😘✌️
See I am fun with my little antics lol ❤️
Eight ball in the corner pocket 🎱 … will I do it?? Lol – see the delight in the effort lol … can I sink that ball? – ok tmrw we shall see lol – I think I can!
I am not really playing pool – it is a simile … cause I think I have position lol ❤️✌️
So I’m gonna call that and see how that goes? 🙏
If you don’t ask then you don’t know… and I have the best thing to say!!! I won’t tell you yet – because let me rock my shit and see what happens lol
Anyway… ahhh. I am not in pain ❤️ I found stuff that helps ❤️ it is worth it’s weight in gold ❤️ it just makes it not hurt like it normally does ❤️
Ok well anyway – I am happy and cocky tonight because I am not in pain ❤️ … it’s soooo awesome to not hurt for a minute I forget not having those pains and aches 😮 … and then I am reminded so I am very happy not to have pain currently ❤️ it is a big deal to me ❤️ so yay ❤️ I am me ❤️
I am tensed up with the things on my plate, but my body is chill… that right side isn’t bothering me ❤️
You will always know when I really love something because there will be hearts everywhere lol 😄😄❤️❤️❤️❤️
Alright well, I have to go to bed and wake up and do tomorrow 😳😘😄✌️
Ready? Lol 💋
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