I helped someone with something …I want to help them more or as much as able.

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Anyway… they are very grateful. I took their tears away a little bit. Calmed them.

So they are not using my funeral home – but I have them using one of mine from my team of 3 ❤️

They want to drop something off on Saturday

They ask if that funeral home open on Saturday – it is… but they have a new girl and I don’t know her yet and we are still seeing… she doesn’t know what she is doing yet. I don’t feel comfortable with the family dropping off with a new person I do not know, but gave family option they can drop there OR…

I am in office at MY funeral home on Saturday conducting interviews. I have interviews all day Saturday. 😮

So when I mentioned I would be at my funeral home on Saturday, before I could even finish the sentence, she says – “yes I want to meet you. I will do that, I will come by on Saturday and meet you! I am excited to meet you Trisha”

It’s only because, I calmed her and then just kinda helped walk her through gentle, got explanations and I got info for her and things like that… she couldn’t afford something – so I found a way she could. I put her at ease. So that is why she is so thankful.

I took the time, empathized and helped in someone’s hour of need. That is how I am anyway but that is also my job – which is why I love so much ❤️

It just took me by surprise how excited she got for a chance to meet me… lol … my first contact is “usually” always phone, unless I meet prior to death.

I help families – but I am mainly background office – and support for my directors.

They see me and speak to me, but I am generally behind the scenes – I make sure the building doesn’t collapse, the bills are paid, budget on track, reports run, staffing etc

Contact with me is minimal … I am usually hidden away lol ✌️buried in paper work and things happening 🤨🙄

Just normally people don’t get excited to see me like that. Just took me by surprise for a minute.

So Saturday – I will meet the family I helped ❤️

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Otherwise lots of things happening at work. The big wig is in town and visiting all of us.

I know he will visit my location – I just know it. Because of that accident and the building 🤦‍♀️ awesome lol

So alright.

I need to get sleep for this and I’m so very exhausted.

I will be back at some point some day ☹️

I really miss covid lockdown – I wish we do that again for a moment. The whole world one week 🙏 one more time? Who’s with me? Lol 💋

But I do miss those moments of peace – and then also the highways 🙌❤️ omg I will forever speak of that ❤️

I would love to do that one more time 🙏❤️

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It doesn’t have to be bad thing…

For one moment we all same ❤️😘

All as one? No one was fighting or anything FOR ONE moment … and then ya know … I got to have my dream Highway for one moment also (I’m sorry that was just a really really big bonus for me!) now it’s gridlock all the time 🤨 even worse than BEFORE Covid!! Where did all these extra people come from? Lol

We should all take a moment … one week in remembrance of COVID, AS WELL AS, those we have lost TO Covid

We should all do that!! That would be amazing once a year ❤️

Took fricken Covid to have one moment all together. Wow.

So yeah we should just have one week a year to memorialize. And just have the world be as one – just for those moments ❤️🙌

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Ahhhh dreams ✌️💋 🙏

Speaking of which, good night 🌙❤️😘

Ok so… was quite the eventful day … but ya know… when is it not? Lol 🤨

Ok well a lot went down so let’s say that. Then it was squashed 🙌 …but I do not trust – that’s pretty big. I don’t know if I trust at all. Is a woman 😮😮😮

We gonna have sit down in few days – so this should refresh 🙌 we see.

Every so often – yes I will be cryptic – it just happens – I still get to sorta say but not really. It was fine … was actually a decent day. Full of emotions which is also draining but was good

Things are also going pretty good so far with with the condo 🙏🙏🙏 I say “so far” 🙏🙏🙏 I should be in by Thanksgiving but we see

They gonna make me cry. Because they help me so much. They doing sooo much to help me with that ❤️ so I will cry because of what I went through to get here

On my way home tonight this song came on…

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I went to change and flip the channel… but I CAN NOT change that song – it like paralyses me… it’s sooo soothing until midway through song there is piano I don’t like there ✌️ … I still can not change that song!! It’s like instant peace?? I do not know what is with that one song?? I can not ever change it!

It’s a slow song so I have to be in mood… but every time for that one 🙌❤️ it’s the weirdest thing because I can not bring myself to flip that song!!

It’s sooo weird – even if I want to… it starts and then nope… I lose myself in that song 😮 I get sucked in 😮

My mind is a million miles away tonight??

I dunno? 🤷‍♀️ I’m also really really exhausted and need sleep – so I’m gonna do that.

Gnite 😘❤️✌️

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So… 😐 … Monday 😶

That was nuts this morning – that kid is very very lucky! I don’t know if he knows how lucky he is… he had an angel with him today!! 😮

So… he’s ok. They took him to hosp just to make sure. I don’t know anything after they left.

I do have to get copy of police report in 5-10 days (😐) … for insurance purposes.

So I dunno – but he’s very lucky

And people today were amazing… people pulled over and ran over to help ❤️

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You had the lookie loos 🤨 who were annoying … because get back!!! If you aren’t gonna help – get the F back!! Just stand there watching or video recording 🤨 that’s disgusting.

But then you had the hero’s ❤️ the ones that just jumped in ❤️

They wanted nothing in return but to help ❤️ and helped and left. Unknown ❤️

Thank you for ALL people who jump into help when needed ❤️❤️❤️ you rock ❤️❤️❤️

That was scary!

And then there was more scary and I made it through that alive today too!! 🙌

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On other subjects…

That guy who think I am challenge, he said “ok I’m not gonna try anymore, you let me know if you wanna have some fun”

🤨 so I said back lol … yeah I don’t just go and have fun like that – I need more than that. But thank you.

And then… I thought it was done? because it was ? Or I thought

I was pretty clear there was no fun to be had lol ✌️

But I had to call today 🤨 fricken of course. But we should be past this? I was clear!

And he said “whenever you call me, you give me butterflies”

🙄 oh please – I’m sure – I just laughed, and said “yeah ok” … now I don’t want to call much – I already try not to call… but today I needed him 😶

He knows and does things I can’t … nor do I want to. 😉

That’s still a no on the fun though ✌️😘

He can say whatever words he wants – I do not believe his words.

He’s just a playboy saying whatever to whatever woman to see what catches. That’s all. 🙄😐

And then because I don’t play that game … he keeps trying.

I will always turn him down because no!!

He doesn’t understand at all.

But whatever – still not gonna get anywhere.

I only give him butterflies because I tell him no. 😐 he wants what he can’t have 🤨

So whatever that’s all it is though … he’s only after conquest and that’s it

He will say whatever he can to see what happens …so yeah I know this.

Wrong woman for that. Sorry. ✌️

I have peace – so unless you enhance that – the answer is no.

But that’s how it is …so whatever

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There was no good butterfly song so … close enough 😘✌️

Ok I am never waking up!!

Good night or morning whatever 😘✌️❤️

So I have something scary… it’s October right? Of course 😮

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Here comes Halloween 🎃

I currently feel like I am living in a horror movie or something ? Maybe little bit? Just currently, in real life – just with some stuff

I am nervous. I have really bad gut feeling and vibe on something pretty serious. Always trust your gut right??

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Let’s just do the Halloween light show for tonight because anything else is going to be too scary lol ✌️

See the lights are way better ❤️

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Yeah… let’s just do lights and music 🎶🙌❤️

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Monday will be scary enough – I don’t need to speak it 😮😳

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Does your area of the world do this for Halloween?

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And because I love the haunted mansion always…

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Totally way better than my scary things lol 😘

Ok well it was Friday

It started out with stuff and ended with stuff

Ok well… let me see …

My morning was all messed up – and I drop my daughter off and had some car issues which I handled but I called out today and had my computer on me so just worked from everywhere lol

I have some very touching stories to tell you about …

So I try for condo, I am going for a different one… I give up on other one getting that person out.

The new one we just love!! We already see it and love it – is perfect for us…

I give a letter about my situation to the people helping me. I told a brief synopsis of my story. I gave facts – with just a slight human emotion element

It was 2 pages.

I told how I got where I am and also provided proof of what I say.

And then … I don’t know if my seller read my info or not? I only sent it to my mortgage guy… but the seller suddenly asked if I wanted some of the furniture too 😮 (I don’t have much – where I live, was already furnished at landlords)

So I say yes, please and then my landlord tell me – “I have a couch and things for you.”

It’s just humbling because of how hard they work for me and what they all do for me. They really pour their souls into helping me stand up, so just kinda chokes me up to see the human kindness ❤️

It’s definitely emotional.

I’m not there yet with the condo but they speak like I already am lol … and then my lender guy working so hard for me too

So we see – if goes well – we be in by holidays ❤️ or I start new year 😮

Then I picked daughter from school on time today 🙌❤️ I am usually small bit late …because is hard to escape work normally.

It’s very hard not to work 😮 because I also work by phone too 😮 … I feel like lately I am on phone constantly with work calls, even after hours.

Things are always happening – constantly 😑 can life (or death) just chill for moment?

Also… so there is this girl we all really love!! We just adore her personality and she’s amazing at her job… so my team all talks about how much we love her to pretty much everyone – she’s ours lol ❤️ (but technically we have to share but we want her for our own lol)

Well anyway, the other day she heard a rumor about what “we” speak of her… is all really good. We see how she does and we see how she is with families and her job …

Anyway, you should have heard how happy and excited she was to feel so wanted, appreciated and part of family.

Because these were things other people at other locations were telling her that we say about her 🙌 …

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Just that you fit in, and people like you and want you and think you do amazing.

So she’s just been sucked in lol

It sucks you in lol

And then there was a work incident I hear about, I had to report to boss and another involved for safety reasons.

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And my kids are here and suddenly I have a weird text?? It’s very weird and I am uneasy with it.

All it says is:

If this is still Trisha’s phone, I hope you are safe and doing well.

🤨 it’s not a number I recognize or that is in my phone – no prior contact on that number.

They don’t give a name. Who are you and what do you want? But I also don’t want to know so I do not ask.

It bother me so I tell kids – and they say “Mum just ask “who dis?” Lol

Oh no no… I’m not asking and opening that can of worms 🪱

I’m not that curious. If you want to speak to me – give more info or I will not respond.

It feels like “bait”…

“If this is “still” my phone”? So then I know this person?? And from when? Say who you are, so I know who I am dealing wih

You are not sure if that’sh still my number ? But you wanna bait me by saying, hope you safe and doing well? Nope 👎 not baited ✌️

Fail 🚫

I don’t trust – so nope 👎

You don’t just do that. That is definitely bait and nope! 👎

I also do not play little games. You want my attention – then you say who you are. Done and end of story.

Otherwise no thanks, I’m good. Definitely not the way to come at me.

Grow some balls and say who you are. And I’m not gonna ask – if they can’t already say who they are, then I can’t be bothered. I’m good.

“Hope I’m safe and doing well” ?!!

Well thank you. Still not responding. That is generic and testing waters and my curiosity

They definitely don’t know me, whoever they are. And I’m gonna require more than that, so whatever ✌️

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That’s all 🙌 trouble

Yeah sorry – I like peace. Present me with that instead.. then maybe you get somewhere 😉✌️😘

I’m not doing anything that is not a peace to me. Sorry. So whatever.

And yes I am stubborn… don’t care – I’m not putting up with any any any crap.

So … yeah. Don’t do stuff like that.

It doesn’t make me curious – it makes me nervous. 😮

So anyway – I am purely exhausted – ugh

I have dramatic things going on 🤨

Ok Gnite 😘❤️✌️

I’m still sorta around. I just wrote my story for my home file. That’s done ✔️

And then there some major things at work -so I’m trying to balance …and then also I’m exhausted.

I be back this weekend. ❤️🙌🙏

Almost Friday ❤️ … actually it just turned Friday 🙌❤️

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Do you believe in meant to be? Do you ever have things pop up in your life and there is signs ?

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Ok… well I have little magic going on 🙌❤️

So… today I went to see a condo comparable to the one that I am waiting on. 😮❤️… we loved it!! And we went to just go see the one I was trying to get…

I liked the one we could actually see … and I can be in by Thanksgiving 😮❤️

And … I have something else to tell you… I’m gonna get to go see my mom 😮❤️ I go first week of November 😮❤️❤️❤️

We are gonna check her out for a vacation. ❤️❤️❤️ we gonna go to Wako and Fossil Rim?? I dunno what that is or what’s there lol 😄😄 they just tell me that ❤️❤️

I’m gonna get to be with my mom ❤️❤️❤️ shhh don’t say anything else about that. Because it’s to heavy for me.

Will be very emotional so just shhhhh 🤫 it already chokes me up. ❤️❤️❤️ I can’t wait to have her!! Little scared and nervous but shhh 🤫 just shhh

I will burst into tears so yes please shhh on that 🤫

And today when we driving to condo – the new condo I will get is off of a road called Cheetah…

I lived on a street named Cheetah Trail growing up ❤️

And kids call me Cheetah – because they think I am fast paced lol 🙄 … and then I have freckles which they lovingly call my spots lol 🙄

Daughter right away says – oh this fits you.

Anyway… we go in and right away is amazing ❤️

Daughter was sold immediately lol 🙄

And then I am talking to my agent, and she knows everything from what went through. She watched me.

And we were talking about price, down payment and things

And then she say to me, “you are inspiration, you should speak for women’s groups, if you weren’t so busy, you should do that”

❤️ that was sweet but I said “well I am not really the one you want to talk to on that – I would be dangerous with what I would have to say- I have very sharp words about the state, the government, the courts etc… you probably do not want to hear my words, because they are very harsh”

And she says “well exactly!! People need to hear these things and bring attention to the problems”

Lol

And she kept saying what inspiration and that I do right way.

I guess. I did build self. That was not easy. I went to hell and back! So yeah … ❤️ I have a little magic now ❤️

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Woo hoo ❤️ look what I did ❤️

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And see now I can “someday” (when not busy lol) go back and read and remember how hard I work for.

It took me time. A long time. And it was hard and I didn’t have my mom or my dad, through any of it. ☹️💔 I went through all of that alone.

I battled a lot – cried a lot – fricken worked a lot lol 🙌❤️

I just suffered through for awhile until I build and here I am 😊❤️

I’m not done yet 😉

Ok so condo, and mom, umm I forget everything else because those things are really huge right now 😮

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Yes… I think sometimes there are little clues as to what meant to be? And then there is a feeling that’s what you supposed to do?

It would be safe, good neighborhood… close to daughters school – within walking distance 😮 far walk but doable

It has a cute little balcony ❤️ brand new carpet and new appliances 🙌 it’s beautiful ❤️

We are excited ❤️

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I’ve been up to a million things lol 🙌❤️ crushin it 🙌❤️

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Yay! Is Friday 🙌 oh thank god!

Everyone has been really high tension this week ☹️😑 it’s been really hard.

And trying to keep everyone working as team, is hard this week. I have a lot of A-type strong personalities.

Everyone just stressed.

Yesterday was my sisters birthday 🥳❤️… and also my cousin’s birthday (my dad and his brother had a child on same day, same year – 2 hrs apart) lol

It was also my grandfather’s birthday 🎂 … (he died a month after my dad) but I had 3 birthdays yesterday (still with my sister and my cousin ❤️)

Today was my dad’s birthday. 💔

But anyway… there is this woman who I have known maybe since January??

There is whole long story … I work with her. And since January I have gotten to know her

She is the bomb ❤️ she is so awesome and hilarious!!

Guess what? She is also from Massachusetts 😮😮😮😮😮

So we have same ?? I don’t know?? There is something… the way we each are, is very similar 😮

So I find her just hilarious!! Omg she is soooo funny! And we have same sense of humor… and recently it’s like we are two 16 yr old girls … omg

I’m really guarded and protective and I just keep quiet about my own self – I just work and do my own thing. I don’t really get close personally. I’m just cautious

Well evidently she is same too…

So whatever we joke around and laugh alot … we are both New England’ers so we have same wave length lol … we are very similar

She is way younger than me – although keeps saying how “old” she is 🤨😄

She is not even 40 yet 😄😄🙄

Anyway… yesterday I am talking to her and somehow the convo was more personal… and then as we shared things – things were sooooo similar in regards to our lives!! Omg

She is almost like my “person” twin 😮😮😮 …there is another one just like me 😮😮😮

And we just clicked 😮

She lost her best friend and her father few years back

She tell me she is just so tired of life taking everyone she loves away. I feel that too ☹️

So we have same experience with death.

Sometimes I feel like I am death angel – I kill plants 🌱… no matter how hard I try to keep alive … although I do have ONE aloe plant I have kept alive for 2 years!! ❤️ …but normally most plants die with me.

And then I have lost so many – that I am a little hesitant to let people in close, because I am afraid I will get close and then love them and then they will be taken away, and my heart will bleed. 💔😭🤫

So I just keep quiet and just work. Life will bring what I am supposed to have.

I’m just saying, I know death sits on my shoulder.

She is same. She has a lot of loss too 😮

And she also used to work at a school 😮

And she is from New England 😮 (sorta …half her family from New England and the other half from Hawaii 😮) – I am from New England too… and I want togo to Hawaii 😄😄

One big difference is the childhoods – mine was Norman Rockwell – traditional, happy loving, full of laughter

Hers was not – hers was hard and sad ☹️💔

But we have same demeanor, same humor … many many parallels!!

It’s almost eerie 😮😮 ok it actually is eerie…

And then we talk about what we wanted to be when grow up and it was the same 😮

We both wanted to be archeologist 😮😮 neither did that lol – but we both wanted that as a child lol

And then we speak of other things 😮

She has similar people like like my Satan! 😮

She is a younger copy of me 😮😮😮

She is sweet and kind and extremely hardworking and extremely driven ❤️ she also works her ass off – like I do. She made herself ❤️ just like I did… she is also a Phoenix 😮😮😮

She is amazing.

I just have not really shared personal things like that – I severely keep private personally … especially with what I went through

She is not in my office every day – but recently more and more and more

Because she likes it there and my office is awesome 🙌 most love being there 😉😘 we comforting and easy to fit with mostly

Well she’s been in my office all week and on Monday or Tuesday – in middle of day she walk by my desk and says I have to go …

But I see tears in her eyes 😮 so I just say ok goodbye… I know if is tears like that – she want to hide them… so I didn’t want to make her cry by asking.

So I just texted and asked if she ok?

She told me she just lost her dog of 15 years ☹️💔 she was balling

She is also guarded and kinda a loner like me 😮 or just protective keeping to self

As I am speaking with her yesterday – she has same type of abuse as I had from my ex… she went through that too

So that is why we so similar with being guarded and cautious 😮 neither one want to ever experience again

And then we were speaking of dating guys – and I said “eh… I never want to have that abuse again so I am careful and highly guarded!!

Also nowadays, people sleep around alot …so I always remember what they said when I was child… you sleep with everyone that they have ever slept with… and then I wanna sleep with no one!!

And I understand people sleep with people – and that’s fine… but people way too over my head today – I am not that fast and if you don’t have my “mind” … then you don’t get far.

You can try all the fricken attraction moves or eyes – whatever – I ignore … I handle my own self …so I don’t need shit unless someone amazing 😘✌️… I am not going through bullshit and crap again – oh hell no!!!

She has EXACTLY same mind frame with things there 😮😮😮😮

It’s just interesting how similar and how it formed ? The caution and things.

As more and more is same, I see things

She just made me feel 16 yesterday – we laughed like school girls 😮 I haven’t felt like that in long time 😮 I’ve been quiet so long.

We both have high pressure but the laughter helps … I was just surprised we so similar

Off subject and then I have to run… I have a really strong opinion on something – really strong!!

It’s a National story over here.

I don’t want to say just yet – because I am composing my thoughts – and I am not sure I want to speak on it – but then the pull of what it is… I want to speak? I am sensitive with it.

I’m not sure I want to say what I want to say because it’s going to be severe

So we see. I will think

Well anyway I have to go… back to work. ✌️😘

Ps… I feel like I am coming of age ?? But I am old lol – just learning and seeing many lessons recently.