So I don’t know what to say ???
I don’t know what words I have ???
So I tell you – and you tell me …
Yesterday military ask me if I let him take me out Saturday evening … well ok – we needed to talk about stuff and I’m getting to know him – so ok… it’s winter I’ll give you some time – we see …
I live off a wine 🍷 trail… it’s a road with some incredible wineries that are just beautiful…. I don’t usually drink… so never visit but I know how beautiful they are…
Their wineries are over these incredible hills – it’s very beautiful ❤️ some have restaurants and are incredible foods – those ones I know.
On the ride there … we talking … he say something about golf ⛳️… and I mention who I was
Then he lights up and says “that’s where I know you from!! I remember you” 😮😮
I said …what? I was familiar to you?
He said that he felt like he knew me, but couldn’t place where he knew me from. But he said now that I said that – he absolutely remembered me 😮 and then smiled really big
Ahhh life before death lol ok … so he remembers me. I don’t remember him – I see so many people then. I could think maybe vaguely … but then I am not sure – I just see so many people all the time back then
He knew me in life before death 😮
That makes me remember back then – it’s been so long … I forget that life.
Anyway … so ok … we get to this winery 🍷 and it’s beautiful but sooo different – it’s in a cave 😮 but really beautiful – with twinkle lights and everything… live entertainment – just one person singing and other playing guitar 🎸… it was beautiful. They were softly playing
We did a wine tasting and talked … I tell him what I thought and how I felt … he say let me just help you and we take slow
He also kept saying I so excited to be here with you.
He turning on a lot now
And then after that we went to dinner at this really beautiful Italian restaurant in town – dim lighting really romantic-ish
He was gentlemanly sweet respectful
Ugh and we have a lot in common
He say he knows I have guards and he does too, but let’s just take life as comes slowly
Ok well that does not feel slow at all
I tell him some of my story so he understands ?? He says he does
And then says he wants me to come over and he will cook me a dinner, and he lives in a beautiful place – he wants to have dinner by the fire and Christmas 🎄 tree and show me Christmas because I deserve that 😮
He say that 😮
Boy is good 😮 dang – sweep a woman 😮
He is military so I’m not overly surprised …
He just leaves me in awe
Then he say to me… just promise me one thing
And he say – promise me you will take care of yourself and stay around for me… I could not handle another loss. I want you around
Ahhh … so how I supposed to be hard? And then I gotta do things I am scared of 😮
So I dunno 🤷♀️
I don’t know if reading this you get the full picture?
He kinda blinds me with things he says and does?
I do have caution with his “slow fastness” but I do understand his reasoning why – I tell him how I feel with things … and so does he
He definitely tries to impress me or that is just who he is?? I don’t know? He is so happy when I am with him lol – he smiles all the time
Ok so there is that going on. 😮
He calls to say hello… and tells me he misses my soft voice
And texts good night every night and keeps saying how much he likes me …
I said I was thinking about him one time when he texted … and he replies that he has been thinking of me non stop that I am all encompassing
And in the morning he text me hello and say how much enjoyed and thank you for time 😮
Boy is good – knows his shit … damn military 😮 they train you well lol
Not to say I am not cautious… I am … but damn
And then also… sometime people cross your path for reasons – you either gonna be a lesson or a blessing so we see
Ok military – we see
I kinda live la vida loca sometimes 😮
It is very hard to stay really hard
My life – omg – whoa
I don’t know what to think 🤷♀️