Darkness

L👀k what was outside my door 😳😱

First time I see him… was around 11am when I came home to let Doby outside …

But I didn’t have time – I had to just let Doby out, put him back and get back to work – takes me 10 minutes

I came back at 3pm for same thing … and this guy is still there!!! Go away!!

I did not want to come home in dark to this guy… AND I was also afraid he would somehow come in my house and I am NOT having that!!! Hell no!!!

Let me show you who I speak of 😮😮😱:

Yeah… that right there is black widow 😮😮 on a Monday!!! On my house … right next to my door!!

Ok well I couldn’t even deal … I got out my spider spray 🕷… I pumped it once and let spray the thing… and it still alive Omg

Ok fine I do another 2 pumps and still it lives!! Omg ok well I’m not touching it – so F it – I had to get back to work… whatever – please don’t come in my house!!! The world would hear my screams TOTALLY if come inside my house!! Omg I would die!

You are lucky I didn’t scream upon sight… but who the hell gonna come help me with a spider – hi can you come over and help me get a spider? No… I have to be adult – these are moments I do not like being the adult!!! Or the only one!!!

Anyway was NOT Charlotte!!!!

Anyway – I had to get back to work and my spray wasn’t working – I expect it to be instant but it wasn’t 😮

When I came home it was not in the same place – but instead the spray worked and it just took some time. Ok – I feel better now, can not come in my house.

Ugh black widows – please leave me alone – go somewhere else – ugh now I’m all freaked out by him!! Who knows if are others 😳😱

Anyway … 

It was dreary today – rained in morning before work then cold and overcast all day… and started the boring rain again at 5pm 🙄

My commute so little so I can’t really complain but meh… I’m ready for spring ✌️🙏 it’s gonna be a very long hard winter 🥶 😳

I do have something to actually complain about though!!! Darkness!!! Omg

I go to work in darkness and come home in darkness – can I have some light of day??

https://youtu.be/ho9rZjlsyYY

It was dark by 5pm!!! 😮 that is a reason for the worst season! Ughh I miss warmth and daylight

If I was a flower what flower would I be ?

I would be an Impatien 🌸…

Need shade from sun – which I do… brighten up the darkest area 😘

Prefer temps around 85 – totally do!

Need good water, drainage and food. Lol – also fits ✌️

Will bloom all year – eh I’m a little iffy on that one during winter 🥶 keep me warm

What flower would you be?

But yeah omg … at 6:30 I was like ok well is it bedtime yet? Ugh darkness make me go to bed early 🤨

It feels like so late at night or middle of night already cause been dark so long 

I bought Doby a new toy – I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help – wanna see what he enjoys other than chew sticks lol 🙄

Well the toy I bought him should have disclaimer – do not work correctly with a Doberman 🤨

I got him a snuffle mat… it’s a mat that you hide treats in and they have to forage for food like instinct…

At first he didn’t know what to do with … and was bored by it 😑 …

Then he realized if he wanted he could forage… so he did for a minute

Then he realized if he just takes the entire mat and shakes it he will get all the treats really easy 🤨

https://youtu.be/Z2G69LUfrtc

Fricken smart ass Doberman lol 🙄

He is too smart

So maybe I will give that to Emmie? She is a chihuahua who would use the mat as intended

Was this tested on a Doberman ?? I think not!

He does like squeaky things and things that crinkle – he really loves the crinkle ❤️

So not all toys work for all breeds… ok then … lesson learned – maybe 🤷‍♀️

Anyway so … Monday. Meh

Ugghhhh I just looked at my forecast and rain all night and day tmrw and through Wednesday meh!!!!!

We need desperately – but they still gonna say not enough – is never enough / I live in California 🙄

And it’s boring cold rain – no excitement, just boring rain … no monsoon, no hurricane, no nice lightening or thunder booms … just constant really boring rain – maybe some flooding meh I don’t like the flooding or any destruction in the wake of

I like the power of the weather ?? I do not know 🤷‍♀️ I love the smell of the air, the look – the feeling all throughout and the feeling of the power it possesses … is an odd love lol ✌️ find it beautiful and breathtaking 🤷‍♀️whatever we all have our quirks – I don’t like the damage or bad things – just there storms themselves ❤️

Sometimes the sky opens up and just releases everything at once – but mostly it is boring crappy cold rain.

https://youtu.be/BI5IA8assfk

Ok and one last thing… so … there is something that is bothering me, and then also I am learning my gut and life lessons – I am not sure what I think or feel about something – I don’t know how well sits with me – but we see … I don’t know… something feels not ok? But I am not sure – I am thinking through and then because of that – it makes me question if I want this to begin with – is ok for me in general? I don’t know – I love it but I’m not sure ? some things bother me. I am still thinking – I am not sure at all. I can not see very clearly on it. Yeah I can not see very clearly with this. But I dunno??

Ahhh lesson time – we see 😳🙄 fricken life lessons 😝

https://youtu.be/LnnF8fczRzY