Alright so… thoughts …
I’m tired. I take over another location… I am .04 miles from work ❤️🙌 omg – my commute is nothing … my engine doesn’t even have time to get warm! Lol
I would walk but no not in this heat – no thank you especially after work – no – I will drive the .04 miles
But omg is like a dream 🙌❤️…
But there is a TON wrong – so I am fixing
Ugh … but .04 miles helps tremendously lol ❤️ my smile is soooooo huge from that ❤️🙌✌️ did I tell you .04 miles ❤️❤️❤️❤️ yeah – that helps ALOT
Is still crazy and insane and I doing several at once – but this week – I am .04 miles ❤️ I am in transition 🙌❤️ woo hoo! Yay!!!!!!
And is soooo much more ?? Peaceful than Sac?
I have to handle craziness in Sac…
But here is different – not large homeless problem or crime … so I don’t have to deal with that at this place.
If that incident had been here… the police would have been there.
That’s a little sad.
But whatever – is peaceful crazy lol … is funerals – we still crazy lol ✌️… you just don’t see that because we make seem so effortless lol … but is crazy lol omg
I’m sorry but that song just fits it… unless you are in the funeral industry – you will not understand lol
Welcome to the Wild Wild West lol
Anyway… blah blah blah – work – and done ugh
Ok … so I been thinking. Sorta – it’s not going well…
Alright how I say??
Picnic… so I did click with him and I did have a great time, and he very sweet and texts me hello’s, good nights and good mornings
Just really quick no other convo – I am busy – I can not be having convos lol …from minute I get to work I am in it! Unless you are my children or a funeral person – during day I won’t answer – I too busy
But even when is time – is just quick… and then tonight I ask about a building code question 😩 … and I was saying about all the really amazing antiques and things
And I dunno 🤷♀️ he answer and chat about for minute and that was it – even when I say really cool stuff lol … I was all excited about a couple things, but meh whatever
But one thing I question – I dunno… I am very protective
So alright – he say to me I should “live while able” … if anyone knows that statement it’s a funeral worker, and I am one who had cancer and knew satan. We all know this VERY well!! We are reminded daily. Literally daily.
So if you say that too me – that throws me lol
Cause I know those words – and yes you should live while able. Yes. Absolutely!
So he tempt me with life, because he has money to do so. Saying wanna go places and enjoy with someone… want to just have fun
When I tell my people – they say just do it – have some fun 🤨 they are no help lol
I tell them he older and they like – so ? I said a lot … remember – I am already old… they are all mostly young… I only look young – they are actually young
I do alot for work and my family so they know I don’t just go have fun lol … I haven’t had a chance
So that is their reasoning – they say take weekend and go have fun why not – they say I would have amazing and awesome life experiences all over place – yes yes I know
I dunno… because he is older man and then he just wanna enjoy what life he has left with someone who would enjoy with him… which I would… I did enjoy his company – he is fun person.
But… there is one thing I really want. So. I dunno
I am not sure if is ok. I am not sure if age is what bother me? Or that one thing I want? I dunno 🤷♀️
I am extremely cautious so is it just me?
What would you do? Is fast. That also bothers me
I feel like with fast – makes it so you do not have time to think through what is right and meant to be? And then you have bad somehow – that’s why I don’t like to be pushed
They all think I nuts to question and SAY they would do in heartbeat
But I dunno? 🤷♀️
On one hand I wanna have fun and life lol ✌️🙌❤️
But on the other hand I am cautious because Satan so 🤷♀️ and I dunno I look at something and then also I want something so.
And I’m kinda a moral person so if I can’t sleep with it – then I can not do it. So I don’t know 🤷♀️
Is my first time out the gate so… ya know?
I don’t just wanna be anyone… and there is something I want so 🤷♀️
I do not know if I can just have fun like that so fast.
And then my people will say “what time are you waiting for”? Ughhh …they are no help!!
Ugh ok well we see
Oh yeah and then my people wanna write him too… I’m like no – stop ✋ lol 🙄
If you come into my life – funeral people are gonna wanna write you lol … set you up with prearrangements 🙄 sorry – welcome to my life ✌️🙄
If you approach be prepared lol ✌️😄 not kidding – it’s the first thing they say.
No – no one meets my people until I not question and am at ease – nope
So I dunno 🤷♀️
Anyway… I’m too tired for anymore 🥱 😴