Texas

It’s 1:30 in the morning here… but for me is only 11:30pm

I mask whole way… but not many people masking at all btw … is like Covid never happened ??

Ugh I can not fly Southwest … except for the people who work there I liked them, they were professional and kind… but the way the airline itself “herds” you on board 🤨 and then plane so small and everyone on top of you and ugh … it was just painful! No more Southwest, thank god one way! I am in pain and hurt now – that was stressful. And 2 legs!!! I had to change planes in San Diego which looked beautiful!!

I thought I get stuck in San Diego because we had delay from Dallas saying bad weather?? What??

So I text my brother & sister-in-law, and I say – hey! What bad weather you have?

And my sister-in-law says “it’s really fricken hot” lol

What??? They delay for heat?

But I look and it was thunderstorms or something – they say they got nothin but lightening … but ok lightening is fine for delay … but still do flight please don’t cancel cause I do not know anyone in San Diego 😮

Plus I already on late flight … I supposed to arrive at 11:06pm Sunday night Texas time… actual time arrived was maybe 12:06am Texas time on Monday morning.

But when we landed, there was a plane at our gate 🤨 so we sat on runway for 15 min 🤨… and then I’m way in the back so omg … yeah no Southwest – I just can’t

My favorite is Jet Blue, but they don’t have enough hubs… I do American usually – sometimes United

I think I could even do Spirit? I do not know anything about Spirit?

Could NOT be like Southwest. I just do not like to be herded ✌️ I also do not like the craziness OF that.

And no assigned seats 😮 … BUT 2 free bags ✌️ – only that I like that part ( and their employees )

This last minute and cheap. But I can not do Southwest… That was way way way too much. I just can’t … sardined cattle… kinda. I don’t like that, I can’t have it all like that when I am emotional

I just want chill and peaceful during this – that was not. I do different maybe to come home 🙏🙏

Is surreal and weird to be back. I have never been to visit during summer – I always wait for fall or holidays… always when cold.

I have never been here in summer … omg they have my heat …PLUS HUMIDITY!!! 😵

Oh is uncomfortable wet hot 😝 yuck! Wet hot!!

Friday gonna be 102… Saturday be 103… and it’s wet heat 😮

Whew ok.

They have my mom stable enough to go through the heart procedure today… Monday. We don’t know time yet. Whew.

So far I am still functioning and breathing. I will see her later.

I don’t know how I react? I cry so much – first with Chico … and then boom this… but then, what is to cry gonna do? It totally just exhausts me.

So… I have stopped crying for moment. I am not sure my reaction to my mom yet?

I’m just sensitive and protective – I just want her ok. So I am not sure how this will hit? It’s my mom so I am scared losing her 💔

But then I also don’t want her to be scared or feel that she has to make it better because I am sad… she is that way ❤️ she is a sweet loving woman… very caring of others …even with Alzheimer’s she is that way!! With complete strangers she is still that way ❤️ my mom ❤️

So I just want her to stay pleasantly happy ❤️ so her heart have peace and love … not know sadness

And my sadness is ok… I am losing my mom 💔😭 I cry there when I say that!! 💔

But I know is life and I have no choice, I have to accept and be happy to be blessed by someone so amazing as my mother ❤️

Still makes me sad … so I have to not think of that? But I will and I will want to soak every single moment 😮

So I am not sure how I am going to react ? Whew. It be fine… I be strong 🙏🙏🙏 I think ?? Maybe? Not sure? 🙏🙏🙏

Ok well been long day. I’m already into tmrw so… or today whatever lol ….’is Monday … and now would be 12:30am California time… is 2:30am Texas time

We gonna be at hosp – I be around when able – I will need to distract and or vent. 😳

Thank you everyone ❤️ thank you for thoughts and support ❤️🙏❤️ 💋