Ok so… my mom… we transferred her to another hospital and thank god we did!! OMG!
The other hospital didn’t listen to us … we were complaining about her black and blues … they tell us “ totally normal” because of being in ICU
When she got to other hospital they ask about her black and blues … for her face… we show her what was last Friday… was small red bump on forehead … next day when my brother went the whole left side of her head was black and blue …
And then her arm was deep deep black and blue… they tell us because of ICU and her veins … we complain to new hospital about her arm and they did a CT scan and she has a massive blood clot!!
So we ask if time for me to fly out… they said yes
BE VERY CAREFUL with healthcare – make sure they listening and actually CARING for you!!!
So earliest flight I could book was for Sunday – I go on Sunday – I book one way. I’ll deal later with coming back.
My oldest son will watch or stay at my house…
Work is like whatever you need! I asked my Market Director about bereavement time – we are biggest funeral market and they only offer 3 days bereavement … but he says to me – I believe in open ended bereavement (but I am not sure if that is leave?) I don’t really know things right now?
It just a big whirlwind. That took a turn really fast
My work family – they are a family to me… they keep trying to give me money on Zelle and Venmo – I say stop!! ✋ … when I need something “I will say so” …
But they say I losing my mom and want me to not worry about anything 😭💔❤️❤️❤️
I give them instructions how to do without me… and line up coverage for my Oncall … they tell me to not worry, they will cover while I am handling this. Ok then.
I work half day today (my choice because I still have a mortgage to pay and if I don’t – I will just cry) I will also take computer and work remote from Texas as able. They tell me no… but I say I have to pay mortgage so… they say ok.
I work as able… if I can work great, if not oh well. I am lucky… I have the most incredible beautiful souls who surround me ❤️ I am very rich in people who are in my life ❤️ they amazing and also priceless ❤️
I always tell you find the earth angels!!! ❤️ seriously!!
We already have funeral home ready to go. My Market Director will be notifying the Market Director in Texas, because I am an employee – so when my mom does die 😭😭😭😭 (I don’t like to say those words) 😭😭… but when happens because I am employee and she is my mother – we get a 75% discount so they lining that up for me 😭💔❤️❤️❤️❤️
I feel?? I dunno? Some moments I am ok… other moments I cry and am not stable. My whole life with her flashes in my mind… and then a world without my mother 😭💔💔💔
That baby is me… everyone else is gone or dying 😭😭😭😭💔
We don’t even have blood family left for a funeral and she has had Alzheimer’s so there is no one. Just us 😭💔
And then I am the oldest. The matriarch 💔
Like I say… sometimes I am ok… and sometimes I am not. 💔
Life without my mom 💔 I never want to know what that feels like but I am about to 😭😭😭
And then she suffering so … I don’t want that for her 😭💔
Ok well – I have to go.
💔😭 please don’t go 😭😭😭 mom I love you so!!
She can go, I am ok to lose her because she is suffering – but I’m gonna miss her love soooooooo much 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔
I see your messages – but I haven’t had time to respond – I will – and I know not to worry … but it will help me through also ❤️😭💔 just fyi