I have 2 sides lately??
First of all – so many things swirl about!! I am signing all papers and turning over deposit tmrw and then is completely mineš®
So we are thrilled and excited!! Daughter wants her room a dark purple lol ā¦ ok whatever ā¦ but then in same breath she says ā¦ but I donāt wanna mess it up because thatās gonna be my color, so white is nice too šš whatever
Then she starts talking about all the things she wants for her room lolā¦ I said āhey wait, I just spend a lot of money so slow your rollā lol ā¦ she can get a job in June/July with a permitā¦ she will be 15 & 1/2ā¦ little darling if you want stuff, earn it šāļø know that value of a dollar šµ
We sooo excited for that ā¤ļø I move in completely maybe this weekend ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø š®š® omg
I also met other neighbors – is a familyā¦ they seem very nice. Young family. 2 young young kids
Is so peaceful and just awesome – canāt wait ā¤ļø I did it ā¤ļø
So happy and excited with thatā¦
But at work there was this devastating case that kinda tore our hearts out for a familyā¦ they all do but this one was the most emotional and heart wrenching I have ever experienced being there!! š®
It just hit us hard with the loss and circumstancesā¦ so that makes me remember every detail and then I think – could I handle that?? I do not think so?? š® that would be my kryptonite – would take me down for sure
But then I think – when you experience these things in life – you really do not have a choice to be strong or not – because you just have to.
And then also – I believe things happen for reasons ā¦ I want to say what could the reason for this be?? But then you really canāt say that either. You wonāt get answer ā¦ and what is to be, will be
It was just a very heart wrenching thing š broke our hearts š ā¦ so a little solemn there because just in thought processing that.
Normally I can come home and be off workā¦ but I canāt stop thinking of that. ā¹ļøš
ā¦andā¦ check this out – so my people keep telling me to do online dating but ehā¦ I dunno ā¦ itās a little creepy and also they no differentā¦ same shit just onlineā¦ and Iām really not the type to be doing the soooo where ya from? 50 thousand times lol – ugh š
Not to mention – I really donāt have the time and whoās gonna understand that?? Lol ā¦ also I just wanna enjoy my own self for little while ā¤ļø I just wanna soak in the peace just by myself and nice and easyā¦ maybe later
But anywayā¦ they constantly tell me – do onlineā¦ I just make faces š¤Ŗā¦ because I just really donāt like it. Iām just not an online person. I like my 1985 šāļø
One of the guys at work says thatās how he met his wife ā¦ on something called Bumble
Well anyway ā¦ I watched some news this morning and there was this news report:
So thatās gonna be a hard no lolā¦ nopeā¦ no thank you!!!
Not a chance!! They all just got shut down with that online dating crapā¦ yeah I would like to stay aliveā¦
Iām supposed to trust police or courts ā¦ HA!
I love my own police but still they all humanā¦ and I look at cases like Gabby Petito which they handled completely inappropriately!! A blind man could see but whatever
And in this case ?? š®š® was that racial? Why did the police not take better care and control of that situation – wtf is that?? And where is the massive coverage on this case???
Gabby Petito had massive coverage and then that crapped out because everyone was dead š¤Ø and the police allowed the deaths in both instances ā¦ gonna blame the victim and couldnāt recognize domestic violence ā¦ and then to not have surveillance on the last person to see her – real nice!!
So yeah – I am good – I am not trusting anything to courts, police or government. I do not trust the way things are handled because people can not have integrity. So nope
Integrity – thereās a word for youā¦
ā¦the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness. To do the right thing – even when no one is watching.
So yeah – I do not trust people to be that way. So I protect own self – no one gonna do that for you. Donāt put self in situations that could go horribly wrong š®
I would like to NOT be a customer of my jobā¦ not for quite awhile if possible šš
So you have killers, Satans, abusive, crazy, obsessive, sex driven ā¦ so umm does that sounds appealing to people?
And thenā¦ I was thinking about something??
Soā¦ even while married I always took care of self, never let go – no matter how hard was ā¦ I still make sure ate right and exercised and took care of skin etcā¦ I still doā¦ mostly šāļø
And then for work I dress all up professionally ā¦ I do like curves so I accentuate thatā¦ I like that, I donāt care what anyone else likes – is how I am comfortable ā¦ I like when is form fitting. A really nice form fitting suit with skirt ā¦ or even pants suits – but I still like the curves ā¦ when I do not show curves I feel frumpy?? I like definition? Curves so whatever – I have long legs tooā¦ I think I am average height? 5ā7ā ā¦ I donāt think I am shortā¦ and as long as I do not wear heels š I am normal size lol ā¦ there is a point to me mentioning thisā¦
So ā¦ a man jokingly said something to me š® ā¦ ugh whatever ā¦ you a woman this gonna happen šš¤Ø just doesā¦ but he was sorta teasing (I really hope) but he said to me āI bet youāre a freaky one huhā??!
Sooo hmmā¦ how I gonna answer that? How you want me to answer? Lol ā¦ you want me to tell you āahh yeah freaky afā lol cāmon now, I am not gonna say anything. Where you think you gonna take that? š¤Ø
See ā¦ always sex driven ā¦ always always always!! Which is fine, once you HAVE a relationshipā¦ but hello – slow your roll!!!
Iām not gonna tell you one way or another lol ā¦ if wanna know maybe be a gentleman first šāļø have some manners and respect
And then heās like ā¦ you got Snapchat or I dunno what else you internet people have ?? He mentioned others – but I canāt remember what they were ā¦ he spouted off many?? Lol ā¦ Whatever ā¦ nope, I have none of that – I donāt even know what they are lol
Sorry dude, no nudes lol ššš
Funny how he thinks I gonna give him any answers or informationā¦ and before you even get there ā¦ you gotta catch my attention so whatever.
Shock value doesnāt really work, Iām not really shocked by peoples behavior š whatever – guys are like this ā¦ pretty much all the time – no one is chill with thatā¦
You canāt just come out with that!! š® damn!
I donāt go out anywhere or do anything, maybe once in blue moon. Iām too exhausted from everything else to give my time or give off any freaky vibe lol ā¦ if freaky means exhausted, then yes š I have that vibe all day long lol
What am I doing that gives off these looks???
So what is that?? Both were menā¦ both making judgments based on what?? How you think you know me??? because of what I look like?? š¤
Are you profiling me?? š® state your proof before your judgement lol ā¦ how you just gonna judge? How you come to these conclusions?
Regarding outdoor yard Maintenence ā¦ just because I look ?? How?? How you know I not roll up sleeves and get all dirty ?? You donāt know that!! I totally couldā¦ so why you judge?? Just because I look girly ?? I donāt mind dirty nails š sweat š or hard work – bring it – just donāt kill me lol šāļø or have anything bite or sting me lol ā¦ I just have to add that!! I would prefer no biting or stinging or killing lol
And then speaking of dirtyā¦ bets Iām a little freaky?? Hmm
You should make sure you know the woman you are approaching lol ā¦ see this is why they teach you to do homework in school – know your shit!! šāļø ā¦ I see many failed that lessonā¦ but seriously – if you gonna say that then you better know who I am and if I am ok with that.
Do you think is ok to say that to a woman? Even when joking? So I dunno?
Are you freaky? š¤Ø ā¦see thatās not a very nice question ā¦ what if someone asked you that?right away? lolā¦ what would you say?? Oh yes here let me tell you everything? Lol ā¦no!!!
Lol ā¦ sorry now is little humorous since I think of that song – but still not nice ā¦ so then thatās your agenda? Got it ā¦ see ā¦be careful how early you go for that bone – take your time ā¦ that gonna make ME form an opinion real quick so careful on thatā¦ Iām not your type if you canāt handle that. Just let me know you.
But no ā¦ just donāt ask me those thingsā¦ just be a human being for little bit – with sincerity
Also this lolā¦
So whatever – Iāll wait for that. Iām good.
Yesā¦ I am aware I will be waiting a long time if not forever lol whatever š Iām cool with that for right now.
Alsoā¦ No one better invade anyone else either, btwā¦ I know about this too!!! Donāt do it!! Please š ā¦donāt be an asshole. But we see – cause again āpeopleā
Wtf world?? Drama much?? Omg – see we got Covid because the world canāt even take one moment and not have drama or fighting ā¦ the universe was fed up
And still we donāt learn shit – but whatever
Seeā¦ one week in March ā¦ āWorld Covid Weekā ā¦ no nothingā¦ just like initial Covid days – you go no whereā¦ you do nothing lol ā¦ we all be together sorta ā¦ an no fightingā¦ no religionā¦ no nothing
Just a week of silence and remembranceā¦ one moment in time – the world was one and there was a slight confusion and fear the first time – but now we should cherish the week? Because we all experience same ā¦ and because we actually lost many people because of Covid – not just in the United States but all around the world ā¦
Soā¦ a week because is so many souls ā¦ and a pretty huge moment in our lives ā¦
ANDā¦ couldnāt we all use a one week break from the bullshit of the world?? Omg
So ya know – I just throw out how magical it could be ā¦ to not only remember and commemorate so that NO death would be in vain and the entire world must do nothing for one week ā¦ ok so I see no flaws ??? š¤·āāļø
Kinda sounds like heaven? So I dunno?? Have I convinced you yet?? šš
But whatever ā¦ I super mega happy ā¦ but oddly calm??? š®š® normally I bubble over lol ā¦ but I dunno?? Iām just kinda š¤·āāļø I dunnoā¦ Iām really happy ā¦ but I dunno? Maybe my balance is off? Cause work and home been crazy?!
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