Had to.

Ok. Well then…

I messaged CB… yeah only text.

I am not a phone person and I never see him.

I am clarifying.

I told him it bothered me… And that I already experienced a man without emotions in my life and I don’t want to do that again- so I directly asked is that what you want?

So we see.

I just can’t – not even as a friend – we have been friends

The past week, there were many times when I would have sent something funny… but I stopped because “why do that?” It has halted me!! 😮

I just can’t

I think that’s a deal breaker for me… I can’t function like that.

So whatever. I want to handle now. Because my birthday is coming and I don’t want anything


Anyway… we see what happens … I feel better ❤️✌️ relief …cause one way or the other – I have peace ❤️ much better 🙌

I have said my peace ❤️

Anyway … it was really hot today!! Oh boy was it hot!! Omg

I went and ran my errands… I like my new little Sunday schedule

When I got home the neighbor is out … the man one lol … he is just sitting on a chair in front of his house just watching me bring in a million things – every so often he would comment on the weather or whatever… and then he says…

“So … I here your moving”

😮😮 only my landlord and you know … I have not told anyone else.

I don’t want to Jinx anything and I don’t want to say until signed and final.

My landlord probably mentioned … my god they don’t miss a beat! 🤨

See I like privacy 🙌 don’t be all up in my business

First of all … I am very boring – you will get no juicy exciting information lol ✌️

Secondly… no need to know my business… why am I being talked about? – I want my things very private.

But whatever … so he asking me about that. Well I don’t want to really say anything … so I just said “hope so, we see”

I was scurrying back and forth with groceries – I can only do little at a time because of that one arm and it was really hot 🥵

But whatever

I was soaked when I got in!! Drenched in sweat!! Ewww!!

I don’t even want to look at the forecast.

Ok – crazy week coming 😳😮 bracing – I never went in – I just couldn’t

So whatever ready? Here comes Monday

It’s gonna be insane. Is month end things that going to be crazy! And then we have the 4th here 😮😮😮❤️❤️❤️ 🇺🇸 🇺🇸 🇺🇸

Yikes crazy week 😮😮😮

I feel silent … I have an odd calm right before Monday’s storm 😮😮 lol ✌️

Yay!!! The 4th is coming ❤️❤️❤️ that is my favorite holiday ❤️


Or used to be … it’s not like was before covid. We not allowed fire works anymore because of fires (but that I agree with – took them long enough)

But it used to be this amazing all day BBQ and fair – with families and friends ❤️🇺🇸❤️

You celebrate all day and then at night you watch amazing fireworks against the national anthem and sometimes cool pop songs lol ✌️🙌❤️😘

Some displays were incredible

The city is going to have 4th celebration and fireworks

I probably won’t go. It will be packed! I do not like 4th of July traffic!! 😝😝😝

Anyway that’s it just preparing for Monday 😳😮 lol 🙏

I am hot and tired 😴

I might read a little – I feel silent ??

Alright good night 😴🌙💤😘

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    1. Well currently just WordPress … but I am in a book club and they just picked a new book I have to get… I have it written down at work… I will tell you when I get to work ✌️

      I am only in this book club because is from one of my funeral girls from another location ✌️ but normally I do not do clubs lol ✌️

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      1. You don’t have book clubs?
        Interesting… we just pick a book … and then once a month get together and discuss the book lol

        But that just started back up once we reopened.

        You are welcome to read along, if you are able to get the book we read.

        Sorry I didn’t get to message when I got to work- from the minute I walked in – today was crazy!!

        The book we are going to start reading soon is:
        Resurrection Blues 😮
        By: Michael Poore

        Make sure you have right author because there is another one

        Here is what is says about the book: (let me warn you lol… it is a book club through the funeral home lol) but here is the summary:

        A wildly imaginative novel about a man who is reincarnated over ten thousand lifetimes to be with his one true love: Death herself.

        “Tales of gods and men akin to Neil Gaiman’s Sandman as penned by a kindred spirit of Douglas Adams.”—Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

        First we live. Then we die. And then . . . we get another try?

        Ten thousand tries, to be exact. Ten thousand lives to “get it right.” Answer all the Big Questions. Achieve Wisdom. And Become One with Everything.

        Milo has had 9,995 chances so far and has just five more lives to earn a place in the cosmic soul. If he doesn’t make the cut, oblivion awaits. But all Milo really wants is to fall forever into the arms of Death. Or Suzie, as he calls her.

        More than just Milo’s lover throughout his countless layovers in the Afterlife, Suzie is literally his reason for living—as he dives into one new existence after another, praying for the day he’ll never have to leave her side again.

        But Reincarnation Blues is more than a great love story: Every journey from cradle to grave offers Milo more pieces of the great cosmic puzzle—if only he can piece them together in time to finally understand what it means to be part of something bigger than infinity. As darkly enchanting as the works of Neil Gaiman and as wisely hilarious as Kurt Vonnegut’s, Michael Poore’s Reincarnation Blues is the story of everything that makes life profound, beautiful, absurd, and heartbreaking.

        Because it’s more than Milo and Suzie’s story. It’s your story, too.

        (I did not pick it – but sounds interesting) 😊✌️ It has my attention lol 🙌

        I love reading too ❤️

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      2. I live in a small town. Here hardly anyone reads book in English language. But from the very childhood I have been interested in reading, so i just search about books, read reviews on goodreads and then pick up a book.
        The story sounds interesting. I would try to check if i can get the pdf of this book and then start right away.

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    1. Yes I have peace with that now 🙌 – it was bothering me since I saw him, so just better to say straight up ✌️

      Eases my mind there

      Thank you – have a great week yourself 😊❤️

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