Life

Ok … Tuesday 🙌

Today was a really good day!!

I had a meeting with a hotel – to partner with them 🙌❤️

Very excited to work with them. We went over details with them, they give us tour of hotel – which is beautiful!! It’s a huge chain!! ❤️🙌🙌🙌

Me and other office managers went out to lunch afterwards ❤️ I have such a great team ❤️

Anyway was amazing – I could not stop my smile from just being from ear to ear ALL DAY LONG!! It just wouldn’t stop!! I had no control

So that went amazing – and we got a deal ❤️🙌 ❤️❤️❤️ yay!!!

And that’s my outreach for 6 months lol 🙏🙏🙏🙏 I don’t think they gonna let me off hook like that, but I am asking lol ✌️😘 … you don’t know if you don’t ask – and I just made a huge deal ❤️🙌 yay!!!

Also 🤨 we are opening back up 😳 whatever… ok…

And with this job 😳 I think I have to be social 😳

Like join things 😝

I am not a join things kind of person 😝 I don’t like any kind of clubs 😝

I don’t want to join things like clubs 😝😝

But they say get our name out and ya know that is the business. You make connections – “network” and then they know you – so they think of you and refer to you.

You know people … you know the community

When they said that – for some reason that made me feel sick? Like just instantly nauseous ??

Just made me remember how many people were in my life prior to everything … and I don’t know that I ever want that again? Whew – I ran away from that… I still repel that.

I don’t know 🤷‍♀️

On one hand … networking can get you VERY far!!! Know people – is good to have all kinds of connections.

It’s really awesome – because your world opens up with networking and connections with others – remember that!!

It’s good to do. It can present opportunities 😘✌️

But then if I actually stop and think about it – whew… let me just do my own thing – I do fine – I just closed a deal ❤️✌️

Ugh 🤦‍♀️ I am just quiet – I kinda like being quiet.

I just like peace a lot. I just don’t want any problems.

I don’t know… because I can do it… I can network VERY well.

But do I want to? Am I ok with that? I don’t know 🤷‍♀️

I try to convince my mind that it would be good… but then it also makes me feel sick and the rest of me does not listen lol

I don’t want to have all that in my life – I really love the peace and the quiet. ❤️ I don’t want issues invading

I just like to keep to myself to avoid any issues ✌️💋 …it works quite well ✌️

So I don’t know – I will have to just take some time to absorb anything like that. Whew omg – please don’t make me do that!!

So I am not sure with that. It makes me feel sick.

So whatever – moving on…

Country boy – hmm… I just really do not understand him? We just so different – I would worry he would break my heart every day? I don’t know?

I am uneasy.

I know he means well, and I know he cares about me. I also care about him.

But I just don’t know.

I have this heartbreak feeling with that. 💔

I shouldn’t have that feeling.

But I think he would break my heart just because. ?? I don’t think he would realize it. I don’t think he would do it on purpose – but I think we “could be” THAT different that he would.

I like him a lot or he wouldn’t be in my life at all… I “sort of” trust him somewhat… because I have known him for a long time, and he was always and has always been really amazing to me – he is sweet and he is kind

He knew me before, during and after.

But I don’t know.

I will just have to see. I am not one that would be ok with moodiness. I would not be able to do that. So I do not know how he handles himself day to day. I can not handle large swings of moods.

I like really peaceful

I want to be at ease. I don’t know. I don’t know how at ease I am with him?

I am just not sure.

I shouldn’t have that question. I don’t want to feel that I would ever question wanting to be with someone.

I want to be comfortable and at ease with that. And if that’s not there – then it’s not.

He just has moments that make me nervous and uneasy. I don’t know. I don’t know him that in depth because I never see him lol ✌️

I thought telling him what I wanted would push him away cause ya know – if you don’t want that … ok no problem – bye 👋 I don’t know if he wants to be there or not? So ya know?

But then he still wants to be in my life. So I dunno ? I just don’t understand him and that’s why I say maybe we just too different? I want to be at ease and I need that for my own self

Anything or anyone who comes into my life, will be a bonus to the life I already love

I want to love my life always ❤️ I don’t want to question things like that. I don’t want that kind of thing.

I want to be comfortable, at ease, and happy 😊❤️

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So whatever – we will see.

Remember the grumpy old man who is hoarder and I have known forever?

I talked to him on phone earlier and he says to me … “Trisha, once I cash in my millions, I’m gonna buy an island and you can have a house there and I will have a house there” lol 🤷‍♀️😄🙄 he makes me laugh cause “yeah ok” lol 🙄😄 whatever

But ok let me say this – 🤦‍♀️… sometimes I wonder if he is hinting… and nope!! No!!

I only say that because he will ask me – “sooooo Trisha, who is your latest beau?” 😳

I don’t really date at all. 🤷‍♀️

He knows this so I think he is only teasing – I am going to hope that’s it. 🙏

I can’t not tell? I just go with everything is normal and he is not being creepy. 🙏 he walks a very thin line there 🤨

Sometimes I have issues with guys … I try to avoid so that there will not be issues 🙌 there are ALWAYS ISSUES!!!!

There is one man I just met at work… 😮 … first off – no! Let me just state that up front, right out the gate

I don’t know if I can describe? He is completely disinterested in everything until sees me? And then face lights up, he lights up 😳😮 uh oh … he comes to life 😮

😮😳 the way he looks at me every time he sees me uh-oh

And then – he is really funny – he catches you off guard with his humor 😄😄🤷‍♀️

So I laugh – I can’t help it – he is funny.

But you should see the way he looks at me 😮 uh oh 😮😮

And … he’s always calling my name to get my attention 😳 and when I leave – goes right back to being disinterested lol 🤷‍♀️

But see …”issues” – all over the place already lol … and you want me to go out into the community? Are you serious?!

Alright well, I am having pain tonight. Is ok. Happens – I took some Advil so that should help.

I will get ready for bed and put some cream on too

Ok so next up is Wednesday – alright. 👍

But wait – there’s more..

I have some other things actually on my mind?? … before was just a shocking thing that was made out to be “nothing”, and swept under the rug – ok whatever … I did notice.. but whatever, wasn’t big deal – just noted, but not really thought of?

But then today… the one I thought would anchor another – 😳😮 mentioned something about a shocking thing on the same lines 😮

Because I never thought of that… I just be in the moment and love the moment – until you snap me forward and make me brace 😳😮 make me take notice of something

I remembered what was noted from the other one, instantly… when this one said something similar 😮 whoa

Alright so now my senses are alerted lol 🚨 interesting – sorry I am vague… hopefully you follow 🙏

Hmm… ok life, well whatever …

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Gnite 😘❤️✌️