Space 🙌

I came to the country for space 🙌… and peace 😌❤️ … to be away 🙌

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I like my life peaceful. I love my job and my coworkers ❤️ … I just sort of finished with Satan… I just like my peace.

I am massively careful with people and ya know just keep to self generally, on own time.

I hadn’t even finished driving home and he texting me… I am on call tonight so I can’t miss things 🤨

He want to know if I work tomorrow 🤨

I tell him yes I do.

And he says he was gonna invite me over but he is not home yet 🤨

Umm ok … I like space 🙌 why he gonna invite me over? For what? What do you want? I do not want to hang out 🤨

Please do not invade me.

I am not one for invasions – and men need to chill out!!!

I feel like he coming on way too strong… ok back up!!! Boundaries.

God … how much longer til his wife comes back???!!!! Hurry up!! I don’t think I have ever missed someone else’s wife more than right now!! Lol

I just like to keep average neighborly – I do not want to be known. I just wanna be left alone?

I like space and peace a lot.

This invades my country and my peace 😝

Ok. Well whatever

So I’m looking – I can not have my home not peaceful – that has to be peaceful. I can not be all tense at home. That will completely throw me off – especially with how busy we currently are at work.

Omg – they keep coming 😮 is good for business but crazy.

One completely has my heart.

Omg … yeah … for the past 3/4 days I have been talking to him about funeral arrangements for someone who had not passed yet. Someone he loved very much and meant the world to him.

He’s been amazing – he’s made me look everything up for him and walk him through… I sorta held his hand… metaphorically

Anyway… he’s funny, sweet… always only asks for me 😊❤️

Then I got a call. It was the death… he choose me. ❤️ I was competing against the most beautiful funeral home and cemetery around… also most expensive … but he chose me 😊❤️

He has only spoken to me on the phone and has not met me yet.

He is very devastated and sad. ☹️💔 my heart breaks for him because of who it was and how much he loved that person ❤️

The other days – his spirit was good and he was charming

But today – his heart was broken 💔 so I felt that ☹️

I feel sad for him. 💔

And then he was apologizing to me because he was sad. No no… is ok, is totally normal. I told him to take today and grieve. Let it out and be with family.

I have the person in my care now. So they are safe.

We will touch base with him tomorrow… and see how he is. Set arrangements.

It’s gonna be rough. I completely feel this particular pain and then I had a few days speaking to him before everything happened – So I feel very heartbroken for him. 💔

I know how much he loves this person ❤️ … oh so yeah my heart bleeds a little with this one.

Some can be little emotional when they hit a cord with something.

Was sad 💔 usually I can leave at work and come to the country and have peace …

… but I am hunted at home 🤨… and then my heartbreaks with this one. 💔 … it comes really close to my own life and I saw and heard the sadness … I got to know him before they lost the person

Did that make it personal? Or was it that it parallels what I will go through? 😮

So I dunno – but I keep thinking about this one.

We will help comfort him and take time with him. Awww… I feel so sorry he feels so sad. 💔 and the loss is a pretty devastating one 😮 but I guess they all are cause I always say that

Maybe it was … speaking to him when he was happy and not sad … and then after ?? The sadness – I felt so bad he so sad and then also the situation

💔

Sometimes work is hard. When you relate and connect like that.

And so see… I like home to be peaceful ❤️

Anyway. Tomorrow I check on him. He had a really devastating day today.

You do not really realize the magnitude of these things until something happens.

Well anyway. I am gonna read for little while hopefully – but I am exhausted 💤

Alright – gnite 😘❤️✌️

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