So … I’ve been thinking. I want something.
I think? I don’t know?? I’m still thinking.
Maybe I should come back to life?? Maybe it’s time?
I kinda did that whole shut down silence thing. Freaked everyone out 🤨 I just needed peace
The funeral homes… I feel peace with??
It’s kept me safe – and kinda makes me see life more. Helped kinda process through … I enjoy my girls. I like it there. I learn alot
It’s allowed me to um??
Well, I can hide away. Then I have no issues lol ✌️ it lets me stay hidden in the darkness lol 😘✌️
It also lets me just be calm. It’s calm, sad – and emotional sometimes – but you are just calm for those things.
I like it calm. I lost a lot of the energy I had suddenly after that surgery. So I like calm.
I saw something I think I want … and then my home – hmmm there are things I do not like now. Maybe I need new?
I need to find this house…
I actually did find it lol… it is located on a island near Iceland lol … I’m thinking winters are cold. Possibly brutal 😳
I might keep looking lol
But I think maybe… I come back to life …maybe?
While I do love the job I have, and how it has helped me…
I am calm because my spirit was exhausted for a minute …
I needed that silence and peace. I needed to get away. I was done with all of it.
I needed to breathe.
All those blows knocked the wind out of me. So anyway…
Hopefully you can understand cause it’s really hard to explain. That’s how it felt.
Death allowed me to be hidden and collapse even more into silence.
I really scare my people lol… first, I abnormally went completely silent – which freaked them all out 🤨 I just needed peace! But they worry
And then … suddenly I take a job at a funeral home. They all worry – it’s very outside who I was – except with the empathy – I’ve always had that
I just needed peace.
I got that.
What if I went back into life though? 😮
I want that for my spirit… cause I don’t want to lose a brightness I still have. Death is hard to face all the time.
And maybe it’s just time? I think it’s lining up again!! 😮 I don’t know… we see
Ok what could go bad if I came back to life?
It might be time. I don’t know. Thinking
This is the first job I’ve ever had that I wasn’t laughing and smiling all the time. Or cheering people up with laughter
You can’t do that here.
So I don’t know.
It’s just dark… I’m kinda light
I might want to come back to life?
I got to escape and recharge
I am thinking. We see