Alright … so first of all, that drive is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G❣️❣️
Omg … is all back country mountain roads – I went up in elevation ❤️ my ears were poppin lol …
But no crazy traffic – just peaceful – the entire way ❤️ oh my goodness!!! Way different than my 4 highways of hell! I love the peace of that drive ❤️… yes please! I want that!!! I barely saw any cars at all!
Is a twisty road, you can’t really speed along, but that makes it relaxing and you take in all the surrounding scenery as you drive ❤️
So I sorta found the place… GPS was like ok you are here 🤨 … ummm didn’t see it lol (directionally challenged lol)
So I pulled into some lumber yard and the guys all jumped to give me directions lol – that was funny… it was down an unassuming driveway looking road into the forest 😮 ❤️
And it’s a little tiny office way out back… only 2 women there – I would be the 3rd. Loved the first impression!! Is peaceful!! Yup, want that!!!
So I went in, and the woman I was interviewing was on the phone in her office… so I chatted with the other woman.
We were just chatting away and talking… she was very comfortable with me right away!!! Had my mask on entire time. Is a peaceful quiet office out in the forest ❤️❤️❤️ god I want that!!! So bad!! Just give it to me 🙏
So anyway… then the lady was done… I met with the CEO. The entire interview went really well… she seemed impressed
And she asked me questions about everything…
The one issue I’m going to have is with my work history. 😔 that could cost me this position – I explained it all …
The golf course and the other office job I was working at dually … for one month – I had the golf course already for about 4 years… but that office job …
I had gotten hired on a Thursday and Friday I got the call from the doctor telling me I had breast cancer. I had to inform them, cause I was about to go into surgery and all that.
They kept me for one month because I was protected by the ADA (American Disabilities Act) … but I was out of work too much and couldn’t with what I was going through – I had tubes and all kinds of stuff – so I resigned due to medical reasons.
I was out of work while I battled cancer and did the reconstruction…
Immediately after surgery I got the school in August of 2019… my police helped me with that. ❤️ the school never knew I just walked out of that surgery. (Later they did, but I didn’t want that being a thing and I needed that job! Knew I could do it!!)
Loved that job, but it was also part time and no benefits and I was trying to survive, so in February took on the funeral home to help that out…
Then corona happened and the school shut down – so I lost that job 😔
And now I am at the funeral home – part time no benefits.
I explained all that and then she understood… she made a comment about how I had been through quite a lot (I didn’t even tell her about half of it, cause it is alot and that would be too much of a red flag 🚩)
I am focused and strong – I want her to see that – not what’s on my plate cause I will finish my plate – and lick that clean! That won’t be an issue! I am handling.
Anyway so that is a thing though with the jobs – I hope she accepted what I said.
I hope my personality impressed 🙏🙏🙏 we will see.
The interview went long – I got there at 9:40am – the interview started at 10am… and I didn’t leave until like 11:20am… so that is a very good sign 🙏
If they don’t like you – it will be quick. They won’t want to waste their time. She took her time with me. 🙏
She said she still has to call on my references – which I know cause they will tell me. So I won’t hear back for a week or 2 – she said they are really busy until about January and then will slow down some.
Also during corona she said this position is fine working from home… so no worries on that either ❤️
It’s really awesome and I want it!!! I hope I get it 🙏
If I don’t that’s ok too, I’m still aiming – I just wanted to try for it… and it’s experience.
I think I would fit right in with them!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏 please please please ❤️❤️❤️❤️ but we see
Ok I will be back little later – squaring away everything for court tmrw morning 😘✌️
My outfit – is awesome… it’s perfect … I’m going to wear pants … they are black… but these are form fitting and flattering and they are professional. You can’t go wrong with black. It’s classic.
And then my shirt … the color is a royal blue 💙💙💙 exactly like those hearts, maybe a touch more royal. The blue in the shirt makes my eyes pop with color… and the sun bleaches the bottoms of my hair… so is a reddish but at the ends looks more blonde and is sooo pretty up against that blue – I’m gonna catch attention 💙
The shirt is slimming and gives curves, not too many and only a hint of. Also looks professional … covers up all cleavage cause nope… I want the whole package not one focus. See me comin 😘
First impressions are important – My plan is to “wow” them first with my appearance… put together, strong and confident.. if I have to deal with politicians and things like that… I’m going to have to present strength.
I have my little black portfolio 💼 with all the homework I’ve done – to impress them that I am that interested… so that will tell them I have a desire… I want it.
And then I have my own interview questions which will show them I make smart choices and make sure is also right for me, not just them.
I may want them, but if it doesn’t fit – then I need to know that.
I already have their address mapped out and ready to go
Yeah I’m pretty confident… they will feel my presence – I wanna leave an impression… I want them to think of me ALOT, when I leave… I plan to do that ❤️💙❤️
Know your aim… know what you want and then walk in like you own it lol ✌️😘
Now if I can just keep that same sentiment tmrw for court which I think I can… make Satan see what the fuck he lost, and what he can’t crush. ✌️
It was way UP… and then down… and then up again and then up up up
Alright… so… awhile back my ex bought himself a new car… and I learned last night, he just went and bought himself a new house…
But he put he put in his mother’s name- to hide assets from the court. He’s not dumb.
He works for a company that handles background checks, and he has been dirty during this whole divorce …
Back in August of 2019 – I ran a background check on him off a website… I had saved it in my files… and kept it.
I decided to run another background check to have fresh info… and his normal info is listed as being there but when I clicked to go in it, suddenly it’s missing… instead is merged with some other man living in NY with the same name – but I am listed as relative. And so is my son
I have reason to believe there is possible fraud – since he works for a background company … he has access. Because could he have merged the files with someone else? – he can easily claim incorrect info / but I have the original from 2019 when it was still there.
I was just doing last minute things and he was listed at a new address – he bought this new home back in January and never told me.
The kids are in his mercy too, because he has ALL the money and ALL the assets. The 2 boys need him, and the girl goes along. I have nothing so… there it is… they kept his secret.
I am heartbroken… I understand… but I am heartbroken 💔 I feel like they are protecting him, even though they know he’s being dirty. They are letting their father take down their mother 😢💔 I thought I raised them better 💔 but I understand their position 💔
And remember all the times I said my oldest hugged me really tight and there was something I was picking up … yup since around January!! That’s exactly what it was. It explains everything.
Friday won’t be fun… I will have court and then the kids and I are gonna have a talk.
That is the second time they have done that… they also kept quiet about his car as well. I found that out too.
He won’t turn over financials because he is committing possible fraud and hiding assets from the court – burying me…
I will be asking the court to put him in contempt of court… for not turning in financials, not completing a drug test, and not telling the mother of a move.
I believe I can explode this.
So… I thought ok whatever I’m gonna aim … so I googled lawyers…
I picked 2 … one just went to a fax… so I skipped that one…
The next one the call kept failing even before it dialed? 😮
It was almost like the universe stepped in??
So I stopped again and was reading reviews … I found a lawyer – that I picked myself… he has over 50 reviews from 7 years ago, all the way up to now
All 5 stars ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
Alright then – that’s my guy… so I called… a man answered very kindly…
I explained why I was calling and what has happened and what I needed.
As I explained, he stopped me… and he said… wait a minute, let me stop you for a second. I just want to let you know “we are Christian” lawyers.
Ok well I had no idea what that meant??? So I said … well I am Catholic kinda – does that count? Is that ok?
And he said… no you don’t understand, what I mean is “we aren’t going to bleed you for money, we actually care and want to help our clients” 😮😮😮😮❤️❤️❤️❤️
Right there I knew be a wise choice. Ok good.
So he asked me when next court date is – I said Friday
The lawyer isn’t available Friday – so Friday will be on me. I have to do it! I think I can. I have evidence enough to make him have to prove things 🙏
Alright so then they set me up with the consult which will be $150… this guy is worth it… he has been in family law for 40 years and is respected.
I do that on August 27th.
I asked how much they needed… for trial they need $5000 for retainer – ok I would have to figure that out. My stomach dropped but I know that’s how is… this case is too over my head without legal counsel. And I need a bulldog.
He said since there is an order to pay for my legal counsel … after $5000 is on him. Ok
So I will do court myself on Friday and hope I can get extension with the info I have. I am not calling Satan’s lawyer back to tell him what direction I am going… he does not get that info. I’m not dealing with them / I will deal with the courts ONLY – he can kiss my ass
So I took a minute and had a little pity party and cried for a minute cause you know the emotions and how am I gonna come up with that money.
I was supposed to pay rent today and I texted my landlord and asked “hey you gonna be around so I can give you rent?”
And she said yeah and then just asked if I was ok? Cause she knows I have court Friday
So I told her the new developments and what I am working on.
To which she said… I will copy paste her words…
Hey if you need the rent money for the attorney if that would help,I’m good, I’m OK, use it! Don’t worry about the rent money if you need it to fry his butt with a new attorney, use the rent money.
😮😮😮 well I also don’t want to owe… so I offered to pay back or work it off and she replied with this…
Calm down just think of it as my contribution to your freedom from an ass! It’s not a loan, you’re not paying me back, it’s a gift 🎁 so except it and get the job done! What’s the new job that you’re applying for? … and then she added…
I forgot to say both my sister & I feel very blessed that you were here with us! And we love you like a sister!!
😮❤️❤️❤️❤️ I feel that too… I feel safe with them ❤️ and they have been like family ❤️
So ok… that is some money towards it. My first step.
Then I talked to my brother… I told him everything… he said was a lot of money and he needed to see if they could do. I understood, I didn’t expect.
I reached out to a blogger this morning… Antin ❤️ thank you … you are a supportive and incredible friend – thank you!
etc, running, outdoors, journal — Read on antin.blog
He had sort of legal experience stuff … so he reached back. I wanted any experience he had dealing with the courts and what my possibilities might be?
Antin is always sweet and kind… so he was supportive and helpful… and then he had me laughing and made me feel better. Thank you Antin – you are a good friend and good person – your heart is beautiful – I appreciate that!!! ❤️
I don’t like reaching out – but I’m going for it. I’m not going down like that. I will fight all the way down!!
My ex way underestimated me.
Anyway Antin kinda made my soul not so heavy? For a moment
Plus… I got to hear his voice 😊… it is funny cause you read and I don’t know… I don’t think of the voices – I only see your words or your stories or whatever else. To hear a voice is like being deaf for a long time and then suddenly hearing 😮 it was pretty cool!! And he’s funny! And shared stories about Covid and the United States – he is on East… I am in West
Anyway… after I got off the phone with Antin … I thought ok I need to step away from court stuff and focus on my interview tmrw
I had already sent them “3” professional references – who I checked with first to make sure they aware and are ok with. I sent my old boss from the golf course… my principal from my school… and one of my police officers ❤️
So I started researching the company – learning everything I could and what exactly they do… plus I was writing down questions to interview them with.
Oh my god! 😮😮😮 this job… I think it’s meant to be??? I don’t want to get all excited yet… but it was kind of made for me and there would be a mission in my heart with it – I could learn and run with it.
Ok so this new job I interview with tmrw 😮 they are advocates for the travel industry recovery coalition 😮
I will learn advocating … making me more dangerous!! 😮❤️
Also they have meetings with the Governor of California “Gavin Newsom”
Ok so advocating AND politicians … omg I’m gonna be really dangerous!!! If they give it to me – please give it to me!!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
If I learn to advocate, I am already good with people, and empathetic … I can later, once I am huge… take on the California court system… oh yes I am going to aim!!! Like I said dangerous!!
I will be around politicians and political matters for travel – which I can soak up … once my foot is in that door and I know how to work that know… hell yeah!! I plan to advocate for things!!!!
I will be fierce – you can bet on that!! I will command that attention!!! Put me in with those politicians Oh my god! Yes please 🙏🙏
I will learn every single thing I can… so yes I will be that Phoenix and I will be dangerous! Only if you hurt others though. If you heart is good, you have no worries.
I will be working with the advocacy arm for all travel and tourism 😮😮😮
Their key words are communication and advocacy … yeah I’m on board – let me have it!!! 🙏 make me dangerous!!!! Woo hoo!!!
So I was all excited learning about them. I am a good public speaker already… so give me skills to fight the politicians with matters. Yeah you gonna see me go real big someday 😘✌️
I am honing my skills… that takes time. See dangerous already 😘✌️
Anyway… in the middle of that – my brother called me back … I expected him to say he couldn’t help … but instead he said I’m sending money to your bank account through your phone number make sure it’s there.
😮😳😮 Oh my god!
So I have the money now!!! 😮 IF I can make the courts understand I need help here, and there is possible fraud going on… and give me time to get this lawyer on board…
Then I’m gonna sic that bulldog on him… hope he doesn’t go to jail… but oh well… you play dirty – the dog will eventually bite you in the ass
Karma catches up to you.
But first I have to get the courts to give me more time 🙏 so wish me luck on Friday 🙏
And tmrw … pray for me to be dangerous!!! 🙏🙏🙏 I want that! (Again if your heart is good you have no worries) lol
See woman can be very strategic!! We can take alot- but never ever ever underestimate just because is a woman!!!
The world better watch out lol ✌️ yeah I have a cocky chip on my shoulder once in awhile lol
When my brother and my landlord together did that for me, and the sweet things they said – it reminded me of
People are amazing sometimes – and it all just fell together ❤️
Friday will be rough though. I will have to have the strength for court- which I think I do… I have a fire burning 🔥… I have things lined up and ready to fire away.
Then Friday night – we are having a discussion cause I am highly disappointed in the kids. I thought I raised them to be fair and just.
So they are going to get lectures and know how much they hurt me… feel that pain you placed on your mother and were gonna let me burn… they knew he was playing dirty
Once they know how I feel, I will also say I understand why. They are also at his mercy.
Unfortunately – now the family will explode. Cause I’m gonna burn their father
You reap what you sow… not my problem – welcome to life.
I’m gonna expose him for everything. He didn’t even treat me like a human being… so now… no mercy full on!!
I am going to be dangerous one day!! Don’t mess with me.
He has placed those kids in the middle so that I would have mercy… he has them at his mercy just like me…
So… I now have to make the shit explode… they are gonna get caught in the flames – but I am not going to sit back and let him destroy me… no way…
Now they are stuck in the middle of the explosion. I gave everything to them, and protected them… I know he controls them with money.
I know it’s not their fault. But by being dishonest and not saying anything… allowing me to suffer in front of their eyes through everything!! I could never watch my mom suffer!!
So they are going to have a lesson here. You dance with the devil, you are gonna get burned. They stand in the middle.
I will show that to the court too.
So we will be discussing this on Friday… there will be no games.
I knew something was wrong with those hugs!!!! I felt it!!! He was feeling guilty!!! He knew was wrong!!!!!
So… tmrw I try to become dangerous… cause I don’t want bad things happening to good people. And I am getting quite the lessons how to fight for what I want
Friday – I fight, and then the kids can face me. Let me hear what they have to say. I am disappointed – I raised them with heart! And they chose money!!!
Today my phone rang with probably a solicitor … and then another call came in… wasn’t in my phone, didn’t recognize so I don’t answer.
Glad I didn’t – was Satan’s lawyer trying to be nice to me and wants to talk to me before Friday / nope too late for that now.
FUCK THAT SHIT… bitch I ain’t working with you… I am not gonna call you or work with you … you got a fight on your hands now… I plan to bury them… good thing I’m in the funeral business!!!!
No way am I calling him to discuss shit. He can find out my plan when they see my ass on Friday!
Dirty mother F’er… nope 👎
Fuckin call him… that is not happening … I’ll see you in court – I’m not going to even respond. Bitch can kiss my ass.
I am not going to let them know where I am right now, no way… no one has fought for or protected me – and now I will.
I don’t want them preparing for the fury I will lay down … 2 bitches about to go down!!!
No mercy! I’m gonna bury them both.
They don’t know I have a fire currently… he thinks he remembers who I am… sweet kind loving emotional… yeah bitch you also taught me how to be strong, you didn’t show me any kindness or mercy, and still don’t!!
Satan and his bitch… I’m not dealing with either one.
Why would I work with you if you have shown me no mercy??
They can kiss my ass!
Don’t infect my phone with your bullshit niceness – I’m not doing that… the only cheeks I’m gonna turn, gonna be my ass… as I walk away after burying them. ✌️
You don’t pull that shit on people – now reap what you sow. No mercy no forgiveness – now he can learn – let me school them.
Punk ass bitches – I am not afraid now. Good luck
And yes… I can also be scary… to a man who beat me, is an alcoholic, had affairs, and then told lies? All of which I will prove are lies and I have solid evidence … just in the court case itself – they handed me gold.
I’m not the one who should be scared. And I’m not going to be workable at this point… get ready for war of the roses cause I’m bringing that down.
I am squeaky clean… Satan and his bitch are dirty mother f’ers
Holy moly!! When my life goes crazy – IT REALLY goes crazy!!
Alright… so let me start you out slow… then I’ll speed you up… the same way it hits me…
So ya know… since February – I’ve been with death… death has kinda wrapped around me?
I didn’t expect that… I had the school – I took on death so I could survive and death allowed that. And I have been able to survive because of death.
Death also has helped me come to terms with things – and has allowed me to process my losses finally – mainly because I was seeing from the emotional heartfelt aspect… but as a job – I see behind the scenes, and it removes that fear and umm intimidation. Death does not intimidate me anymore – so far
I will still lose my mother… I am afraid of that cause I feel her in my heart… but Alzheimer’s has given me mercy in a way?
The other losses were just sudden and swift… Alzheimer’s takes her away slowly… while it hurts still… her mind is leaving me already… soon will only be her body… and I will have no choice but to let go – I think I will be happy that she will be with my father and they will have peace again. No more worries. I don’t care what really happens after death – that’s what I want to imagine.
My heart is selfish so I will miss not having her… but I have been given time to let her go and time to say goodbye. 😢💔
So ya know… death kinda has helped me come to terms.
And death took my hand when I needed it. It was there. It has given me comfort in relating and strength to process.
I have worked really hard. Gave my all. It’s all been really hard.
Alright so… they offer me the office assistant job but is still part time – no benefits and not full time.
I spoke to my manager – I don’t remember which day?? My days are blending, cause I’ve been so busy. There is a lot of death currently. It’s been nuts!
I also love my funeral people VERY VERY much!!! They are hilarious and awesome!! Supportive and empathetic – I fit there ❤️
I told her… I am going to NEED full time and benefits – I love the promotion and appreciate very much – but I will need to work towards full time and benefits. I wanted her to know where everything stands – I communicate a lot so there are no surprises and no stress.
She understood the direction I am aiming and said she see what she can do – it is a corporation. Corporations can be stingy.
So whatever a had that convo.
But I have court coming Friday to set trial date – while I am ready for that… I am also nervous. I am still at his mercy and he’s horrific. I call him Satan – you have heard this.
Anyway… so I just prepare for things… I brace… but I prepare…
Just like I took the whole year preparing to lose power… I am protecting myself. You want to have the mind set that no one is going to do that for you… you do that for yourself. There is no knight in shining armor. You do it… you be the knight!
So I try… and I prepare.
I need to make sure no matter how goes – I land on my feet. Satan thought he could crush me? Yeah I will show him otherwise. Bring it bitch!
He lost a diamond 💎 sorry about his luck. He did that to himself / that’s why he’s vengeful … he wants to make sure I can not do any better without him… and I suffer for leaving his sorry ass.
So I have been preparing for battle against that too…
I revamped my resume, and I’ve been looking through all the jobs and I apply here and there with things I can do.
I have that bad side due to the breast cancer and nerve damage… so that takes certain jobs off the table completely – I can’t lift things well at all. Small things that aren’t too heavy – yes… but if it’s heavy at all… I can’t lift it. It’s frustrating but, in reality, is what it is.
So I go for things I know I can do. But I look for full time and benefits.
Just like with the funeral home… sometimes I go after things I really want if I see them… I am very fierce if I want something – I will go after it in unique ways. If I want it… I will stand out for it. I have no fear to stand out for something I want.
I got the funeral home because I wrote them a letter and told them why I would be an asset. I didn’t really have to try for it… I fit in with it right away – instantly!!! Smooth like butter.
So… maybe 2 weeks ago? I saw a job posting that caught my attention. But it had been there for over 30 days it said. So that told me they have not found anyone yet that they liked.
The job is REALLY GOOD money!!! I won’t be at mercy anymore… I will be out from under Satan … I will get my life back BY MYSELF!!! Me.
It is FULL time, COMPLETE FULL benefits – on everything!! Everything!!!!
Monday through Friday only… I won’t have to kill myself trying to climb up, with Satan trying to push down… he won’t be able to with this.
Anyway… the job is something I am familiar with… is outdoor recreation. Campgrounds – I would be working in an office for a magazine that gives info. on camping and Rv’ing and places etc.
I know the subject very well… and I’ve lived in so many states and traveled all over the United States all my life… As a kid our first summer vacation was a 2 week cross country driving, camping, sightseeing etc… think Chevy Chase – and I know MANY states!!
Our second vacation would be beach vacations right before school started.
I was almost conditioned for this job?
Alright well again – if I want something you will know cause you will see me try to stand out… I will only draw attention when I command it. I am comfortable with attention like that… I just don’t like attention with looks (which is shallow to me) I want attention for depth ✌️
Anyway… so I drew attention – I wanted to turn their head… they asked for a resume and a cover letter explaining why I would be good, and why I wanted … was I hungry enough?
So ya know… I wrote words – I explained about how well I knew states – and how I know the camping and RV’ing world as well as state monuments and national parks etc
I wanted because I think I would be an asset, and I work hard.
Well they set it up to weed people out… as soon as you apply they send you an aptitude test – I took that … did well … then it gave me an automated BY PHONE interview – with specific questions.
Then it said thank you for your time we will be in contact.
That is the general response… so I didn’t think much… every step is little extra experience… so I am learning even if doesn’t work – what is meant to be… will be.
I forgot about it cause I hadn’t heard from them… I check my email and nothing.
Until today 😮… I was at haunted mansion… and my cell phone rang… 😮
Usually is always solicitors … and if I don’t know a number and you are not in my phone – I do not answer …
But this time … I saw the number… it tells me where call is coming from… the job is out here by me … next town over / still country ❤️❤️❤️ no more big city!!
When I saw the location of the call- I hesitated but thought fuck it / I’ll answer … and I did
It was them… they want me to one in for an interview on Thursday – I’m pretty sure I can slam dunk it… they liked what I had to say already – she said that…
It’s a closer drive for me… less wear on my old car.
So I go in to interview on Thursday at 10am.
Shortly after that call… the woman who works at haunted mansion say… you know the funeral home in your city you live in … needs an office manager… she is my friend, do you want me to check?
Sure whatever … that would also be closer and if they are offering full time with benefits … I am open… let me see what fish I can catch? Ya know?
So she checked with her, but the funeral home in my town is waiting to see what current office manager is going to do. So we see on that one. I would be close to home and that would be so easy!!
Then I get home and because I redid my resume… hiring managers are messaging for all kinds of jobs 😮😮😮 Oh my god! Suddenly I feel in high demand, like I can have anything I want!! What just happened?
I do not have college… I was a stay at home mom… I lost my family and I battled cancer all within 3 years…
Plus Satan pulls dirty tricks to try to make sure I can’t do it…
But that doesn’t stop me… I still try. Really hard!! I aim. ✌️ and I’m fierce with that. If I aim at you – watch out!
Ok so… right now – the world is kind of my oyster? What the fuck? All this in one week!
And it will put me in a position to take best offer. I’m worth it, so how bad you want it? 😘✌️
Whoa 😮 I just got power 😮😳 well almost – but I will get it. I aim lol ✌️ and I aim fiercely.
Do not underestimate me just because I am sweet and kind… I am also driven. So I drove it here.
Now I have to figure out what I want… death seems to still want me there – I am getting what seems to be little messages about death all the time… it encompasses my world currently. Even when not working – and I have loved the job and learning and I love my people- enjoy them very much!
They need me… they currently have a hiring freeze… they can’t hire anyone else because of corona … so I will have them up against the wall. Whoa 😮
If the one closer to me is available and they offer what I want … that might be more beneficial- less gas and less mileage…
Or this new one, I didn’t really expect… if that comes through – death might be gone?? 😮 as long as I think I can handle it – right now I do. And that money – oh boy 😮 how do I say no? I don’t think I could? Cause it’s a lot… and I could do everything all by myself!! Boom went the dynamite 🧨
And then I have all these other random jobs messaging me asking what I want 😮😮😳
I am stunned a little! Cause it was all at once. what the f happened suddenly? I aim well, I just didn’t know my aim was THAT good 😮
So I have a lot to think about!!
I only work 4 hours tmrw morning … and 3 hours on Wednesday morning training at the other funeral home. I can’t do anymore hours than that or I go over… so I have to be careful they don’t want that currently
But soon – they may have to make a decision.
Thursday is my interview – so I will prepare … and aim.
Friday I have court … I am prepared as well.
Damn! This week exploded on my but in a good way… I’m about to get power 😮
Watch me work it 😮
It just kinda blows my mind after all I’ve been through – now it’s my turn
Touch me now Satan! I’ll take him down too! Looks like my aim is pretty good … he won’t know what’s coming at him.
Yeah probably not underestimate me ✌️😘
I want to survive – so odds just went in my favor BIG TIME 😮 place your bets
I do have to really think though … death has job security… but if they can’t give me what I want and what I’m worth… they gonna lose me. No matter how much I love it there
It’s business – not friendship… a corporation survives fine – but if they don’t take care of employees the. They have an issue… and with a hiring freeze in effect – I have them cornered 😮
They are going to have to compete soon – so this is gonna be crazy!!
I wanna make sure I also have job security where I go… if corona slams down again… I still need to work… I don’t want to panic
So just so many things to think of… I am about to blow it out of the water 😮😮😮
I need more solid info before I can ask opinions … but that’s on my lap right now 😮
Whoa!!! My life is exploding again but good this time!! ❤️✌️
So I was supposed to go to the brand new funeral home tmrw for some training… the one I haven’t seen yet. Haven’t made my rounds there yet lol …
But instead – there is a big service tmrw at … none other than my favorite one, “for the character” … the Haunted Mansion. ❤️
So I have to be there tmrw, and then after that, I am meeting with office manager for the new position. I will meet her at my homebase funeral home. The one I have always loved.
I will be all decked out tmrw.
I am on call tonight … so far so good. 🤞
Totally almost electrocuted myself tonight lol … I might be the one dying 🤨 …let’s just not even talk about that story. It was dumb and I am frustrated. Lesson learned, won’t do again. Still alive ✌️ I did not die.
Anyway … tmrw gonna be crazy – I probably won’t be back until tmrw night, cause I’m thinking gonna be crazy busy tmrw.
I will definitely be all over the city 🤨 😷
I start at haunted mansion for the service – then to where ever the burial is… which is surely in the blazing sun… then back to haunted mansion to get my car… then to other side of city to my actual funeral home …
All of this in 100+ degree HEAT all decked out and in black with a black jacket – oh boy. That part makes me cringe “heat stroke” … but whatever – not my first time. It’s been over 100 ALL these times!
Another good day… and I’m on call tonight. Again – please no one die tonight 🙏🙏🙏 no one is allowed to die on Sunday night lol – I wish and hope no one does 🙏🙏🙏
I had a delivery that was a little funny. Things catch me off guard sometimes.
When you come to a funeral home – I don’t think people expect “me” … I don’t really have a look that belongs to a funeral home – other than my clothing. I am just not what you typically expect.
Oh boy …
Also my eyes… they still light up my face even with a mask!!! And they look young!!! I am not young!!! In heart maybe?
I only LOOK young!! That’s it … and I have a young spirit, which makes that worse!!
I had a delivery – kid was 28!!!
How do I know this you ask? Cause he wanna be startin somethin!
Let me say this… if you coulda come out of me… dude you ain’t getting in me!!! Oh my god! I could totally be this kids mother… what would your mother say??? Lol
So that was a big thing 🤨… I’m like sorry I’m not dating and I’m old enough to be your mother lol … dude!!!!!
Yeah no… that is totally not happening!! Wrong woman – my name is NOT Mrs. Robinson 🤨
Sorry but if you are old enough to be my child – no offense but that is not happening!!! I am 20 years older!!!!!
Kid had balls though – that takes confidence to try. That’s impressive. So I’ll give him that. It’s still a no though ✌️
I don’t have a problem if the man is older … but I can not at all, in the slightest, if you could be my child!!! That is just way over my head!!! I think of my own kids, and yeah nope 👎
I don’t wanna be the massively elderly one lol – yeah no… fricken not even 30 yet
Anyway I am still working … I got to have lunch but I still have a ton to do
I am exhausted!! But today was good and went really well.
I worked ugly walls… with the young girl … they tell me to be careful of her… but I really like her!!
She is my sons age, and I really enjoyed her today!! She is sweet and funny – and nice!! I don’t know why they tell me to be careful?? She’s awesome!
I pretty much get along with everyone… I am pretty easy going.
We chit chatted first thing while I had coffee and checked emails.
Oh crap… I forgot to log out… oh well… no one can get into my account without my password… so they will have to log me out if anyone sits at that desk.
Anyway… I chit chatted with her and we laughed… she’s awesome… then I said ok – let me get to work and do my thing…
And I know they have issues with taking lunches… so I asked her what time she want her lunch? She took hers 11:30 to 12:30… I took mine from 1pm to 2pm
We chatted again while I was having lunch. Again I think she’s awesome, so far!! Very delightful young woman!
We weren’t talking about work or people and she seems similar to me as far as perfection 😄😄✌️
It’s just – I like organization … so… if it is unorganized – I am jumbled – if I organize everything … its much better lol …
So I kinda just do that. I can’t stand it if it’s not organized at work!! It drives me nuts…
I like it done right the first time… yes I’m gonna show you my ocd lol ✌️
So, I did the computer work first – get that out of the way…
Then I was on a mission lol … and I made a list for how to keep it organized lol 😄✌️ … I am not done… I will finish next week.
I was kinda going over stuff with her and why… and she’s completely on board … I did it to my original place too. ✌️
If it’s organized in first place – work will be easier!! And I like it clean!! Like hospital clean!
Ugly walls is kinda big – not like haunted mansion, but still big… she helped me after she finished her work…
She does good team work… we banged a lot out.
I see no issues with her… so I don’t know why they say be careful? She’s sweet and she’s adorable!! We laughed a lot! I am very comfortable with her, again I see no issues.
So we see… tmrw I am at mine… which is already clean and organized lol – it just helps me work better. ✌️ I like it on point!
Anyway… I like her – so we see. So far so good.
I am very tired though… gonna read for little bit – but I don’t know how long I will last 😮 I am melting into bed already ✌️
Oh yeah… I am kinda getting my bearings with where the location is now… is downtown… and is near the homes they call “the fabulous 40’s”
They call them that because the street numbers are in the 40’s … they were built between 1890 and 1911… some of the most incredible and beautiful retro homes – their architecture is phenomenal!!! – is gorgeous at Christmas and all year long!!!
Ronald Reagan lived in one of these homes when he was governor of California – before he was president … so that was before 1980 😮
At Christmas time – omg – you should see this neighborhood – every house decks it out!!!
Those are my own pictures – but here it is from YouTube…
I thought it looked familiar… I’ve seen it at Christmas in the dark lol … I don’t usually go there during normal times of year. Until now. I drive through it to get to work…
I kept thinking – this looks so familiar – why do I know this beautiful area? It’s like so perfect and manicured and gorgeous – you have massive money for those houses!!
Today I paid attention to the street numbers … they were all in the 40’s… Oh my god! I know where I am lol
So I just kinda realized that today lol – pretty awesome – now I get to see them during the day and at normal times of the year …
Going to work during Christmas – is gonna suck!!!!! You should see the traffic with everyone wanting to see the homes decked out!!
Alright so Christmas work traffic will suck 🤨 awesome 😄✌️ whatever
I don’t listen to any negative and I do my own thing, which I think is beautiful ❤️
I also feel everyone has their own beauty – sometimes they don’t see that. I wish everyone knew and believed in the beauty they have. But I get it, I think I am strong – but then I have my own moments I am not sure.
Someone asked me this earlier so this would be my answer. For now lol 😘✌️
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