L👀k what was outside my door 😳😱

First time I see him… was around 11am when I came home to let Doby outside …

But I didn’t have time – I had to just let Doby out, put him back and get back to work – takes me 10 minutes

I came back at 3pm for same thing … and this guy is still there!!! Go away!!

I did not want to come home in dark to this guy… AND I was also afraid he would somehow come in my house and I am NOT having that!!! Hell no!!!

Let me show you who I speak of 😮😮😱:

Yeah… that right there is black widow 😮😮 on a Monday!!! On my house … right next to my door!!

Ok well I couldn’t even deal … I got out my spider spray 🕷… I pumped it once and let spray the thing… and it still alive Omg

Ok fine I do another 2 pumps and still it lives!! Omg ok well I’m not touching it – so F it – I had to get back to work… whatever – please don’t come in my house!!! The world would hear my screams TOTALLY if come inside my house!! Omg I would die!

You are lucky I didn’t scream upon sight… but who the hell gonna come help me with a spider – hi can you come over and help me get a spider? No… I have to be adult – these are moments I do not like being the adult!!! Or the only one!!!

Anyway was NOT Charlotte!!!!

Anyway – I had to get back to work and my spray wasn’t working – I expect it to be instant but it wasn’t 😮

When I came home it was not in the same place – but instead the spray worked and it just took some time. Ok – I feel better now, can not come in my house.

Ugh black widows – please leave me alone – go somewhere else – ugh now I’m all freaked out by him!! Who knows if are others 😳😱

Anyway … 

It was dreary today – rained in morning before work then cold and overcast all day… and started the boring rain again at 5pm 🙄

My commute so little so I can’t really complain but meh… I’m ready for spring ✌️🙏 it’s gonna be a very long hard winter 🥶 😳

I do have something to actually complain about though!!! Darkness!!! Omg

I go to work in darkness and come home in darkness – can I have some light of day??

https://youtu.be/ho9rZjlsyYY

It was dark by 5pm!!! 😮 that is a reason for the worst season! Ughh I miss warmth and daylight

If I was a flower what flower would I be ?

I would be an Impatien 🌸…

Need shade from sun – which I do… brighten up the darkest area 😘

Prefer temps around 85 – totally do!

Need good water, drainage and food. Lol – also fits ✌️

Will bloom all year – eh I’m a little iffy on that one during winter 🥶 keep me warm

What flower would you be?

But yeah omg … at 6:30 I was like ok well is it bedtime yet? Ugh darkness make me go to bed early 🤨

It feels like so late at night or middle of night already cause been dark so long 

I bought Doby a new toy – I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help – wanna see what he enjoys other than chew sticks lol 🙄

Well the toy I bought him should have disclaimer – do not work correctly with a Doberman 🤨

I got him a snuffle mat… it’s a mat that you hide treats in and they have to forage for food like instinct…

At first he didn’t know what to do with … and was bored by it 😑 …

Then he realized if he wanted he could forage… so he did for a minute

Then he realized if he just takes the entire mat and shakes it he will get all the treats really easy 🤨

https://youtu.be/Z2G69LUfrtc

Fricken smart ass Doberman lol 🙄

He is too smart

So maybe I will give that to Emmie? She is a chihuahua who would use the mat as intended

Was this tested on a Doberman ?? I think not!

He does like squeaky things and things that crinkle – he really loves the crinkle ❤️

So not all toys work for all breeds… ok then … lesson learned – maybe 🤷‍♀️

Anyway so … Monday. Meh

Ugghhhh I just looked at my forecast and rain all night and day tmrw and through Wednesday meh!!!!!

We need desperately – but they still gonna say not enough – is never enough / I live in California 🙄

And it’s boring cold rain – no excitement, just boring rain … no monsoon, no hurricane, no nice lightening or thunder booms … just constant really boring rain – maybe some flooding meh I don’t like the flooding or any destruction in the wake of

I like the power of the weather ?? I do not know 🤷‍♀️ I love the smell of the air, the look – the feeling all throughout and the feeling of the power it possesses … is an odd love lol ✌️ find it beautiful and breathtaking 🤷‍♀️whatever we all have our quirks – I don’t like the damage or bad things – just there storms themselves ❤️

Sometimes the sky opens up and just releases everything at once – but mostly it is boring crappy cold rain.

https://youtu.be/BI5IA8assfk

Ok and one last thing… so … there is something that is bothering me, and then also I am learning my gut and life lessons – I am not sure what I think or feel about something – I don’t know how well sits with me – but we see … I don’t know… something feels not ok? But I am not sure – I am thinking through and then because of that – it makes me question if I want this to begin with – is ok for me in general? I don’t know – I love it but I’m not sure ? some things bother me. I am still thinking – I am not sure at all. I can not see very clearly on it. Yeah I can not see very clearly with this. But I dunno??

Ahhh lesson time – we see 😳🙄 fricken life lessons 😝

https://youtu.be/LnnF8fczRzY

Alright so little better.

Tuesday did not kill me, like Monday. So that was good 👍

https://youtu.be/Pn8iinkhR3w

Went fine. But… let’s talk about other things.

So let me think what other things there are lol 🤷‍♀️

Oh I bought my little man a new toy … is hard to resist – he needs a toy box… or I need to stop seeing dog toys 🧸

He has all furry little play things … today I bought him this adorable little ghost 👻… behind a tombstone that says RIP 🪦 … is all vinyl type toy? It squeaks and is supposed to be enjoyable for chewers ?? It’s got good squeak to it – I was sure he would love it??

So I excitedly bring home for him and we play with it and he whimpers every time he grabs it …but continues to choose it lol 🙄

Does he not like it? I dunno🤷‍♀️ is weirdest thing?? I don’t know what that means ??

And also a neighbor dog barked at him and he looked umm ?? Well it scared him at first, but he is quiet like me 😮😮 … he doesn’t bark but he stands there like he doesn’t understand why he is being barked at lol -🤷‍♀️

Is kinda cute and sweet that he is quiet like me? Kinda odd came together like that. 😊❤️ funny how life does.

He has always been like that – he will bark, but only when he thinks he is protecting me (usually when wind blows because he hears the wind and things bumping …so he thinks there is intruder and steps between me and window or door lol being all tough and protective lol – he will do one bark and then just growl only, at the window or door lol

So… otherwise … pretty quiet .

I’m just thinking 💭 … just ya know – 2022 not over yet so… we see what happens ✌️😘

Oh god here comes 2023 😮 what will happen?? Lol

I can’t even guess anymore!!! Just like everything? 😮

Yeah – I can’t even guess 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/mNEUkkoUoIA

Good night for now ✌️❤️

Ps Monday kinda used up all this week’s energy 🤷‍♀️

It is FREEZING 🥶 tonight Omg

I am so California soft!! Is windy and low tonight is 53 brrr!! Omg

And high tmrw only 77!!! Also brrrr!!

https://youtu.be/YlUKcNNmywk

Ya know … California supposed to be warm… ugh winter is coming!! Bleh

https://youtu.be/JupVVR7pqIA

My sky’s are not gray they are bright and sunny ☀️ which I like but I would like summer back!

I am freezing!! 🥶… yeah I’ve gone California soft 😮 ugh winter 😝😝😝

https://youtu.be/rog8ou-ZepE

https://youtu.be/TxrwImCJCqk

Ok so time to count down to December 21st … the winter solstice … once I hit that… I know spring come soon 👏👏👏

Yeah I am not a winter person at all… I do not like winter … am too warm blooded ✌️

Bleh – winter 🥶

My little man is growing 😮 … no one listens when I tell them to stay little lol 🐾

Check him out … we got him on September 17th – he was 2 months old – born July 16th, 2022

Oh my gosh!! Such a little thing ❤️ look how tiny he was!! Damn he grows fast!!! Cause one month later and look … you can see the comparison in his little legs 😮 he is exactly 3 months now 😮😮

Look how long those little legs got lol and the ears keep growing too! Lol

Here is something I notice … with chihuahuas they have BIG dog syndrome where they think they so big 🙄

But this guy has little dog syndrome lol … where he still thinks he is little 😄😄 …you do not know how many times he gets stuck somewhere because he used to fit and thinks he still does… like under side tables or beds lol – ok little guy – you are not so little anymore lol … he got his head stuck in a gate while I was loading the car – and I have my hands full and he freaking out cause he stuck – felt like some Chevy Chase movie omg … dude relax – I’m coming – be right there 🙄 stop thinking you are little – you are not so little now

Funny how that works though?? Look at those long legs lol

Look how big his ears continue to get 😄😄❤️ I just love him soooo much ❤️

He is my shadow always – he has completely attached ❤️… and me too ❤️

Once in blue moon he still has a accident in house but not often – he’s really good with it … but when he does … I will say “who did this?“ and he slicks his ears back and goes somewhere I can’t see him 😄😄 like nope not me, don’t look at me 😄🙄❤️

He has such a cute personality

And I’m reading him now… I know what his bites mean… some are for potty, and some are for attention … and I always feed him at 5:30pm so at 5:30 he totally reminds me is dinner time lol – literally on the dot!! Lol little man does not miss a beat!!

He doesn’t bite hard at all just ones to say “hey I need this“ … if goes past 10pm he even tells me when it’s his bedtime lol ❤️ I usually put him to bed at 9:30pm but is Saturday so I was gonna let him chill with me … but by 10pm he like “ok I need bed” lol … first child I have ever had that actually reminds me is his bedtime lol

He is sweetheart he really coming into his little personality ❤️ he is such a good dog ❤️

When I took that photo today –  apple put a (?) over his picture ?? Ummm what?? And when I click it said look up breed info and told me he was a German Pinscher ?? The ears match!!

Every picture of him tells me German Pinscher 😮 the ears and photos when I look up a German Pinscher totally match!! He is also part terrier but I don’t know what kind – I can see it in his face and also his chest is white and he has freckles in the white area ❤️❤️❤️ ok sometimes freckles are adorable – ok fine ❤️

He has the cutest little forehead wrinkles ❤️ and he looks at me when I say stuff and I’m pretty sure he is so smart he understands …

Sit was very easy to teach him… but stay is not… he can’t not totally grasp “stay” yet …we working on commands – he learns so quickly – he has best little personality ❤️❤️

Lol those big ears ❤️

He likes to come up right beside me everywhere – and tonight something scared him cause he bark several times and stood in front of me… then he growl at door for awhile lol

Ok so he knows he has a bark – but I guess only uses when he needs

He’s got a good bark but is still kinda pipsqueak type – but you can tell is because he young… he only barks for protection no other reason 😮… I heard they are barky but he is not 👏

He has melted into the family so completely ❤️

He also does not like to be cold and thinks it’s cold outside lol he runs to potty and comes right back, where before when was warm – he took forever!!!

Also… normally dogs don’t let all their pee out at once but he will and it’s hilarious … he will stand there and squat / yes I said squat 😄😄 forever!! Until is all out lol

He doesn’t lift his leg he just squats 😄😄 whatever – is adorable lol ❤️🐾 you do you baby ❤️🐾

Today he is 3 months old… he has been on earth for 3 months ❤️😮

He also dreams and barks in his dreams … or makes noises lol … is so cute and adorable currently lol ✌️❤️

He used to suckle in his sleep but he doesn’t do that anymore lately – he’s so funny ❤️🐾

Ok I’m kinda quiet this weekend … but I be back tmrw … I’m just taking in the time off and staying away from world ✌️😘 is nice to take a breath ❤️

Ok good night for now 👋💫🌙 💤 😴 ❤️✌️

https://youtu.be/G-tz4eWK2kU

https://youtu.be/gY1WyUIabCc

😄😉✌️

Alright well … I’m exhausted 🥱

I have 50 hours a week for past 2 weeks – whew 😅

I’m done – I’m taking Friday off – whew 😥

https://youtu.be/Yjyj8qnqkYI

I saw my new found family today as I passed off their loved one… I bought them something – I always notice the tears in his eyes sometimes …

I bought him a windchime engraved with her name – so when the wind blows on their beautiful property, he can think of and remember her and think of her whispering to him through the wind 😊❤️ he loved it! I promise I am NOT a hippie lol … but I thought be thoughtful and something both for him and for her 😊

https://youtu.be/GepaTvm_AVU

Both of us tell everyone and no one can believe it!! It’s just a crazy story – we gonna take a dna test

I was told I can do without the medical markers – and I am ok with that – as long as NO MEDICAL MaRKERs – I do not want to be denied insurance because of breast cancer

But we gonna see – where along the line are we related ?? I know we are related – he is the spitting image of my brother!! But he is social – my brother is not lol – he just looks so much like my brother ❤️ I can’t help but study his face!!

Every time I look at him – it’s almost like my brother is here!! I wish my brother lived closer

https://youtu.be/Jl5vi9ir49g

Anyway… in other news … Doby… last night we sitting on couch chillin together and all of the sudden he gets up and goes full attention… barks and growls … he stood in front of me almost like he protecting me from something and he growled for like half hour … I have a guard dog ❤️

I brought him to work after lunch time, they all say he bigger – he longer and taller …and his little butt getting bigger – he still skinny and sleek… like a racers body… but he growing

My extended family met him… and ALL the families just fall in love with him – you should see the demeanor change when they see him!!! They ALL immediately change demeanor!!! Even the hardest fall for him 😮 wow … the power of emotional support 😮

It takes away the pain of grief …

And so many tell me all about Dobermans lol ❤️

https://youtu.be/PaCWHpmvbCc

He is incredibly smart ❤️❤️ when I teach him he learns pretty quick ❤️ I am so in love with him ❤️

He has attached to me completely ❤️ Omg is he energetic constantly and always!!

He doesn’t have cropped ears but he looks like they have been cropped – I will leave them they don’t need to be touched – he is perfect as is ❤️

Someone asked me today if I was gonna crop his tail… umm no?? Is reason to? Again he is perfect as is …

And I find it absolutely delightful when I say “get your tail” and he does lol ❤️ why would I want to stop that – I love his tail ❤️ I don’t care what expectations of breed are … I love him as is ❤️ he looks fierce anyway – even without a little nub lol

The very tip of his tail has white ❤️ I’m pretty sure that means he is special 😉✌️❤️

I teach him how to sit for me, I have him potty trained now… he tells me when he has to go out but I want to get a doggie door, and put on slider for him to do himself

Tonight he snuggle with me without bites ❤️👏

He bites very gentle … but his little teeth are sharp like razor blades … when I play he is rougher

I had to switch arms I play with cause my alright side had tons of puncture wounds lol … I switched to left side and now I look like I have some kinda problem lol

Nah – just playing with a baby Doberman ❤️

Also he does this:

I be back tmrw when I have day off

I am way too tired right now… I have 50 hours this week without even working Friday 😮

I’m out ✌️

Back tmrw my eyes can’t stay open

Gnite ❤️✌️

Ps – I have more to tell you with science …

https://youtu.be/V83JR2IoI8k

Tmrw cause I can’t anymore 💋 good night 💤