I wish …

This morning – I was crying – just too much emotion and all those things I have trauma from… so … I cried

But… a family touched me with their want for us ❤️

And then another family – is only comfortable with me 😮

I not kidding you when I tell you I do have gift with people and making someone feel comforted and at ease

I pretty much put everyone who meets me at ease instantly – both in person and over phone … literally it’s instant usually 😮

Here is the actual theme song of my life:

https://youtu.be/p47fEXGabaY

I can make your pain easier ?? Is just the comfort – and then I also have a funniness ? Not on purpose

A good funniness – I have a spirit ? but yet comforting – I make you not worry and be able to smile or laugh through tears … it makes it just a little bit better … not so horrific and you are comforted and understand – cause in grief you are foggy at best… is ok 👍 I help you – I have compassion ❤️

Plus my confidence song is this:

https://youtu.be/OPf0YbXqDm0

I think we are the best – I have the most amazing team ❤️ so my confidence in my team and my knowledge are very comforting … and I handle with care – but I also walk in like I own it lol 😘

But pretty much… anyway … that’s my confidence song for work only

But I love my job for the comfort I can give – those things make HUGE difference!! HUGE!

I am secure with myself at work ❤️ because I love what I do and can do ❤️🫶❤️ I know the impact

https://youtu.be/7zok9co_8E4

Hmm – that’s based off of work…

But let’s check the personal side 😮 the songs do not match 😮

My personal theme song 🤔…

I have 2 … you will have to mix together lol ✌️

https://youtu.be/mPbFxEGzCaM

And…

https://youtu.be/u9Dg-g7t2l4

Normally I am happier than that – but I am not because I am afraid of losing my life again – so …

I’m ultra sensitive currently 😮 I’m terrified to lose my life and everything again

So yeah little ultra sensitive currently – high emotions 💔

I’m so traumatized – but whatever – those are the correct personal theme songs

And my personal personality theme songs ? 🤔

Hmm 🤔

Well I stay away from the world – but I have a life spirit – but I just desire peace and moments – I want my life

Plus everyone is little bit over my head … I am not on same page as society ✌️ but whatever … I like it that way.

People even off work are drawn to me always – I give off a vibe or something 🤷‍♀️ and then add living and working in same area so close and then everyone knows who you are 😮

But I worry with that… because I worry he will take my life again … so if you ask me for a personality song right now??

https://youtu.be/qN4ooNx77u0

But … most of the time I have peace and am happy – I’m just afraid to lose that again

I am at mercy always so

But usually – I levitate lol 🤷‍♀️

https://youtu.be/TUVcZfQe-Kw

I just don’t wanna go though hell again – I can’t

So I am scared and I don’t believe in courts – he’s gonna try to crush me!!!! And probably will – and it’s allowed but I don’t understand at all ☹️💔

No one in that area has made me feel at ease or understand anything. Or fights for me

So… I don’t want to lose my life again – I don’t have that strength for moments like that again. And ya know the loss of my mom will be coming and things with me…

So…

I worry currently … I am sensitive and scared I’m gonna lose my life again 😭 he’s not gonna stop until I am crushed without him. He’s gonna make sure 😮💔

He is sadist 😭 💔

And I don’t trust anyone to protect me

Yes I have my village – but what are they gonna do? Yes I have their support and love always ❤️

But it’s my life I built so hard that I am afraid to lose 💔 he won’t stop – he’s going to always do this always 💔 😭

So I don’t know … slightly unstable with sensitivity and crying 😮

I wasn’t sure to stay at work because I cry so much this morning … but then “people” (how I leave ? ) and things I have to do… I never left 😞

Maybe tmrw

I might need that tmrw

Anyway… work does not distract my worry

I am used to …,I am scared of him 😭

Well whatever … on one hand I say be strong – but then I have heart so I cry. 🤷‍♀️☹️😭 I don’t want to lose my life and rebuild again and I’m so traumatized by everything so … I’m just scared

I trust nothing 💔😭

This is allowed 💔😭

Anyway – I just worry always … never do I not worry what he will do… so but that is ok to terrorize someone 💔 he is satan – when I call him that – he is

But whatever I just complain because there is never anything I can do 💔😭 and I’m tired

He will never stop 💔

Anyway … this went the other way 😮

So let’s just set aside for the evening 😞 I’m tired from crying anyway 💔

Sorry – ya know happens 🤷‍♀️ I am also human ✌️

I wish I could have a Zoltar wish 🎟️