Leave me alurn…

I’m so tired … but I want to tell you something…

Ok well remember military – omg he does not let up…

This morning he asked me if he could stop by my work…

He want to know if he come by cause he said he has something for me …

I told him – “nope, not today… I am exploding and nope not today”

To which he replies, pick a more pleasant day and I’ll slip by … and then says – I pray for you 🤨

Whatever 🙄 – the answer was NO

So then tonight –

Let me just tell you right now… if you know me … you absolutely know Friday nights are for my kids – period … and don’t bother me unless emergency or if I invite you

What does this asshole do ? Always texts or tries to call on a Friday – NOPE 👎 not answering – declined/ not read

Who you think you are? Rude! Fridays are off limits – anyone close to me respects that!! So check yourself Asshole – immediately upon meeting him I say that … everyone knows that – I am very upfront with that. That is for my kids!

Anyway… tonight he text me and say:

I’ll be around most/all of tomorrow. Let me know if you schedule will allow me the 5 minutes to thank you for something. That’s all I am asking for.

And then continues and says he hopes St Patrick is shining on me

What the fuck?!

What could you have and what do you want to thank me for? What?

I feel like he’s attempting to manipulate

Yeah – I am stubborn and firey …

I have told him we exploding – if knew me – would know I need time to self … and also Friday nights are always a no!! I won’t answer at all on Fridays

And ya know Asshole step it back stop forcing yourself… holy shit

I can not handle this right now – please leave me alone

I do not want to be forced upon and I feel like that is what he is doing – he just forces himself

I feel like he is trying to manipulate but he is not sure exactly which tactic … it is because I do have a soft kind heart so he knows that – so he figures he can manipulate that if he can reach my emotions

Pffft … AS IF! See what you don’t count on is a firey stubbornness … and I have massive guards up with him – no way will he reach my emotions!!

Pushing yourself on me IS NOT the way to get to me … holy crap?

Obviously he does not care I am exploding and did hear me say that? Just wants to force himself

I do not like that at all

It does make me nervous too cause ok what kinda situation is this gonna be ? Please do not stalk

Please leave me alone

I want some time off from the world

He makes me feel INSTANT stress ugh cause it’s always something I can not – instantly I am tense

He can’t have any empathy or understanding – only what he feels HE wants

Yeah no buddy

… remember the contractor? That I told you about yesterday – or whatever day it was I mentioned…

Well I was supposed to meet with him to discuss fence and things … but I am exploding at work so I asked if could take rain check

This week was overwhelming and emotional

There were moments I cried 😮 so I just want some time… I told him it was rough at work and apologized but I needed some time, could I rain check?

Anyway … the contractors response to me was :

Ya of course, I totally understand. Whenever you want me, I’ll be there!

😮😮 THAT was really sweet – I didn’t have to explain and he didn’t just try to force anyway – he didn’t make me feel bad AND accepted what I say without any kind of judgement … and allow me to have my peace… so I like that!! I felt that was very respectful. 😊

He does know what I do and can give me that understanding 😊👏 I appreciate that sooo much

But military will not let up. Ugh

I have told him I just can’t see him. I just can’t

He does it ALL wrong!!

I won’t be ok with him because he can’t hear anything I say and understands nothing – no empathy or compassion for others

Yeah no I can’t do that

So how do I handle this? I feel I tell him no and then he just reasks or finds SOMETHING he just HAS to see me about or talk to me about

I feel like he wants to figure out how to get to me – he is not going to do that.

I told him from beginning exactly what my issues were and none he has respected or thought of at all so … buddy is barking up wrong tree

He can’t even respect Friday nights

So I dunno .

I’m too tired 🥱 my brain is too fried – but I want to mention because – what do I do? 🤷‍♀️

Ugh 😩 I do not need this! Please just give me peace ☮️

If you can’t give peace – I don’t want you …

He is not understanding me at all – please leave me alone

Anyway I am frustrated to deal with this

He is total Trump’er how do I stop it?

Ok I need sleep!!! Good night 💤

And ps … I just gonna add my favorite SNL skit cause makes me feel better ❤️

Every time I see it – it makes me laugh – I could watch over and over and still makes me laugh lol ❤️

https://youtu.be/QKlv4pZe-zo