Floods of Life lol

It will NOT stop raining – it just pours the boring rain… but we have flooding everywhere!! We are water logged already!! Rivers are rising fast!

https://youtu.be/4fwV0bu8_oc

That forecast is from last night – I am in the foothills areas with the massive rain 🌧️ 😮

Omg just constant rain patter!

https://youtu.be/TzFnYcIqj6I

So much water!!

https://youtu.be/SmM0653YvXU

Ok so… ugh so much … I never know where to start?!

So military has been taking me to dinner and meeting people … which is fine…

I am seeing and getting to know who he is as person – I like him… he makes me laugh and he’s very proactive lol … but he is go go go all the time

And sometimes he says things that ?? I don’t know?

Ok first things first… I do enjoy being around him, he is awesome and still very romantic and heartfelt. Sorta

Yes he is romantic and full of life… he is heartfelt cause we will talk and he has emotions.

But I feel that if you love someone – you love them as they are… period.

I mention to him that I have been through alot… and my job is very heavy… I work hard and am proud of self. Is not easy… I pour all my energy into my kids and work.

I tell him I am probably boring and I am quiet and low key… just quiet

And when I said that to him – he said, well I’m hoping to fix that for you

Ok wait. Cause what if I like that? What if I need that. what if I want that?

I’m not too sure about too much life ?? I do not know how much I can handle? Or want to?

I have life – but I also have death … and with everything been through I am tired so … I want to love life peacefully ?

And I accept someone as is… who they are ? I don’t think about what I can fix or change ?

Also… he has not seen my world… I only see his to know who he is… but he has not seen my world.

I am very different.

https://youtu.be/SxGLPVvNjvY

My people are unique as well ❤️❤️ … all the women are very beautiful ❤️ and we all have really hilarious personalities lol ❤️ … some are bulldogs … some are quiet like me… some are spooky lol … they are all amazing … they all very different ❤️

Make me laugh and smile daily ❤️ … where I have fit … they have heart ❤️ … you have to for the job

Anyway – I am going to need to heal and be at my own pace with my own things.

I am not going to be able to handle pressure from personal life … I love to enjoy life moments in general and then once in awhile – usually in spring and summer – I like to do fun things lol

Not so much in winter, but I am doing things to see who he is- I’ve giving my time – I don’t mind hanging watching tv or talking over dinner and all that… I like that… but I am not a go out all the time person at all!! 😮 not in slightest!

I have brought up my peace and quietness several times … my personality is full of life wonder … but my world is peaceful

Also… I am quiet and listen to his stories and how his life is… I don’t speak of mine much – here and there about my family but very vaguely with bad stuff

Ya know… it’s gonna be too much. So why revisit? I have my life nice and peaceful and somewhat balanced.

I can not do if you think you can fix or change me ? I can not do if I think you will crush my spirit or not let me be me?

Yesterday… one of my people had a phone call from someone … who was upset about a car in the parking lot … because this vehicle had a bumper sticker that said “my body, my choice”

Ok well we all have freedom of speech and hello this is America 🇺🇸?? Are we not land of the free?

Well they were offended by the bumper sticker on the car … ok well is not a violation

But they said if they had seen that they would not have chosen us.

Ok but again they have freedom of speech and we are open to all… no matter beliefs or personal opinions

Anyway… in same terms I do not want to be told how I should be or what I can do.

So I am cautiously watching…

We see how he does with my people 😮

Ugh and that’s another thing … I am doing a lot of things … but I do miss the downtime peace for my soul.

My boss wanna come out tonight and might stay over … plus him… plus my kids.. plus 2 other couples – omg so many people and we flooding – I don’t know whats happening … shit show? 😮😮 lord help me lol

I kinda yearn for the peace and quiet in the living room with Doby and kids ❤️

I am not a go out person 🤷‍♀️

But I can for little while just not all the time.

So I don’t know if he thinks I am someone I am not… I don’t mind melting together but I can’t just not be who am and I am not sure what I can actually handle ??

I can’t be go go go… so that will never happen. I am not gonna kill myself … so no.

I do not like having to be “on” all the time. I like being boring and having peace

I will do stuff but just I need time to melt into someone and I can’t just melt into their world… I have a world too.

So if he is truly heartfelt and does like how he says he does … I am either going to be a love or a lesson 😮

https://youtu.be/IGVZOLV9SPo

https://youtu.be/hq2KgzKETBw

So we see

Omg 2023 gonna kill me 🤦‍♀️

https://youtu.be/8j741TUIET0

I do not fit into a mold nor will I be ok conforming into something I am not or being told how I need to be … sorry no ✌️

https://youtu.be/1LMSOfs10mA

Ok well Happy New Years Eve!!! 😮 I probably be back next year lol 😘✌️ – god willing 🙏

https://youtu.be/Aop6YF1Xqqg

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    1. Thank you 😊 ❤️

      Hope and praying 🙏

      Slightly water logged and more coming so little nervous is very bad out there now – nevermind with more coming 😮

      Since the year start rough – maybe it end with peace next year? 😊🙏

      Little bit rough start for my area 😮

      Totally wish owned a car/boat combo lol ✌️

      They have those you know lol

      Hope your new year nice and dry ? Maybe warm?

      Almost spring. Almost there

      Fricken winter 😑

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      2. Yes totally thank you! 🙏🙏

        Ahh so you have rain too? Yours is not crazy like ours hopefully

        It’s nuts with flooding 😮 I have never seen flooding like this here!!

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      4. Hahaha yeah ours are beyond bursting – we should worry about the levees and the dams 😳😮 if those break we be in trouble

        But is fine – we can make through – gonna be rough – we can’t take much more and more coming

        Lol … life keeps putting extreme things in my way 🫤 lol

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    1. Yes he did … he was nervous lol

      Yeah it’s really bad up here at this moment

      Thank you ❤️ 🙏 I hope so too!! If we are still here and I still have a house by end of week then it be good 👍 🙏🙏

      Happy 2023 ❤️🥂🎊 I hope yours is amazing too 👏👏

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  4. Maybe the Military is excited, but is he listening to you or just hearing the parts he wants to? Why does he want to fix you? Because he thinks you are broken and he is the knight in shining armour on a white steed?

    Mm, he wants to make you just right for his world. I am sorry if that reads harsh, Trisha. It reminds me of a woman l had in my life once. We were together as a couple from 2007 – 2009, and she destroyed my life for many years after we split, after which l stopped trusting people.

    I liked her company, but she wanted to change my life to be like hers, so we would go out and intermingle and x, y and z. I tried it for a while, but she was always all go. We split up. She wanted me to be like her and didn’t want me to be me.

    My partner didn’t like my world and told me she could fix mine to be more … enriching. I already lived busy with my business, but l wasn’t an all-night partier like her. I asked what was wrong with my life that she should think l needed more. “Well, everyone needs more”, was the answer. I liked a quieter life. My younger life had been all go, and as l aged, l found that l wanted life to be a little slower in sociality.

    Even today, if the social gets too much, l back off and change my style.

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    1. No worries – appreciate the harshness!

      That’s ok … that’s something you can’t change with me which is why I keep stating things – making sure he understand what he messing with

      He thinks I have things I need healing from and with – and I do … and they are pretty severe so… he wants to help me but I just want to take as I am able. So he’s just gonna have to deal with that.

      I made sure to say many times how different I am

      Plus ya know … I am very stubborn so I won’t listen if goes that way… he will never be able to get me to conform to something I am not

      Don’t worry, I don’t put up with bullshit – so far has not had any – sometimes misunderstandings

      I think he nervous in those moments with me because I am quiet lol

      But we do talk it out and I do mention several times everything I think is a concern or needs clarity

      Don’t worry – I am on it 😊 cause if can not handle, and do not like, or think can own? Then there is door cause no

      I am same as you sorta … I do have a firey-ness and do not care how people want to judge… do not change your style…

      I back away from world sometimes … but
      I would never change style or knowing who am now … don’t like it, then bye 👋

      He mean more so to be there for me while I handle these issues I do not currently handle …which I can not handle at this time – I don’t tell him cause I can’t but he knows is something

      We see with that. He says stuff wrong sometimes but he will clarify if I ask lol

      He was nervous around me for little while lol – didn’t wanna say wrong thing but then sometimes would lol

      But is ok – I just ask questions and we talk

      I am cautious

      I feel comfortable with him … it wasn’t meant like it came out

      I will be very careful!! Yes! 😳

      I am sad that you change your style

      I never change mine – I just be like … meh fuck it – this is me… enjoy life with me or don’t 🤷‍♀️

      Ok I need bed – good night 😴

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    1. 🙏🙏🙏 thank you ❤️❤️❤️ I hope so … 2023 coming in like a lion at the moment lol

      But yes hopefully better year for all 🙏❤️

      I hope you have amazing things this year with all your hard work and drive to succeed 🙏❤️👏👏👏 I can not wait to see your blooms 😘

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      5. Well l like to say at times the bigger the better, but then l counter that with it’s not the size but what you with them and even other times more than a handful is a waste and all of those terms apply to gardening …. he says winking hahaha 🙂

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      15. Oh yes, these are very fine observations Trisha. a good bit of power and run time – so a healthy dose of stamina is an essential ingredient to be able to give a good blow….around the garden.

        I have always found that when handling a good blower, there is quite a lot of satisfaction to feeling that engine getting hot and that lovely moment when it goes full throttle, ah quite the sensation to have a busy blower throbbing between your hands!

        A good model that does the job well makes everything so much smoother 🙂

        I might even write an article on the benefits of a gardener having a good blower 🙂

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      20. I am a very fond supporter of tending the bushes, although one bush at a time, l am getting a bit older now so taking on too much bush is harder. I don’t like beating around the bush like some do, but taking my time 🙂

        As they say nothing quite like a well trimmed bush 🙂

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      23. Very true, but a clear and unobstructed way can be nice lol not have to deal with trimming

        Plus who has time to deal with bushes ? They just in the way

        Sometimes is easiest just to remove lol

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    1. Thank you 🙏 😊❤️

      To you and your family as well 🙌❤️

      I hope we all have a really good year this year 🙏🙏🙏 (if would just stop raining!)

      All my best to you too 😘 Happy New Year 🎊

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