Dark and light

😮 so life… funny huh?

So this past weekend, the guy from few weeks ago – the one I started off with firey ??

He asked if we could have lunch on Saturday – sure fine … but then postponed til late Sunday – ok fine whatever but I am not driving far.

So he came out my way, and we sat and talk… dude is married – he said she live somewhere else (another state) and they getting divorced 🤨 … second marriage

Yeah no 🤨

So I told him, look I do not want to enter anything complicated – you are married and should have just told me that when I asked you…

I can’t be anyones savior – you have to do that yourself… so that’s a massive pass

He told me I bring light to his darkness 😳😮

That struck me…

Ok I do not like darkness … darkness is kinda heavy… I can’t have heavy. If you heavy – I can’t handle you. I like to love life.

I am not darkness – I am light … darkness overshadows my light 💡

https://youtu.be/CVeB7ACVgO0

I can not have heavy darkness – I am very careful – nope nope and nope 👎

Only with death is that ok – otherwise instant no.

So whatever – “men” – see… are you understanding how this is??

Well with some not all…

But then there are also things I do not understand… so I got home maybe about 5pm… and then Country boy text me…

Ok why?? Can you not if you are not on same page as me??? So what is purpose- I do not know… see I am telling you… he just does that so I think of him – he be on my mind 🤨

Sigh 😞

I like country boy… but I stand soooooo firm… so what’s the deal? He say one thing – but then acts different … so I kinda need distance if we not on same page there. Stop making me think of you

Plus he makes me laugh – but stop – we not on same page. Just let me distance

And then … not that it is anything – because it is not… totally not… strictly business …

But… the vet who helping me with things around my house 😮 careful

Well he’s the one who I didn’t know if he was gonna kiss my hand or not lol

Well… so… he’s funny and sweet… very sweet!! But check it… so dude sets me up with dining set … helps me with spa.. and gutters – it all makes me smile 🙌

I asked him if he could give me 2 estimates …

One for full on repair … and one to get me by until I have enough money for full on repair? Lol

So today he come to my house when I was still at work…

He price out the fence … he give me estimate for full on repair… and then just did the repair to get me by for free … and he doesn’t want any money

I come home and it’s amazing 🤩 perfect

He pretty incredible

But again – strictly business that’s it – I’m just saying … I know I pay him but he’s really sweet… plus he knows how to do literally everything lol

https://youtu.be/LlY90lG_Fuw

So also thank you for that ❤️ 🇺🇸

https://youtu.be/oDa5X_kQYsE

Lol

https://youtu.be/-ScjucUV8v0

🤫 shhh 🤐

https://youtu.be/1l0xpkk0yaQ

Careful lol

Just be careful ✌️

And then… so… I have not used hot tub because what?? I go sit in by myself?? And do what?

But then my coworkers are like no you have to get in – we dare you lol

Well ok fine … if you gonna say dare lol

So I did ❤️😮 It was very chlorinated lol … I was tense after work… sat in there with heat and bubbles for 10 minutes and I now I am not tense 😮

It is sooo cool!

Yeah ok …THIS guy better be careful… don’t meet me… make me laugh… fix everything perfect and do stuff for free … PLUS a vet ?! Yeah be careful ⚠️

Don’t be too awesome – careful

https://youtu.be/9WbCfHutDSE

I will keep distance

Anyway… tonight I put on my bikini … my back yard is pretty private but back up to an alley – do you see where this is going?

So I get in … notice nothing… think I am alone… so then I get out but I don’t have stairs yet … thankfully I have long legs but that was a stretch lol – whatever so I get the towel around me and I start to head inside and I think I see something behind the fence …

But ya know – I’m scared of noises and things so nope not gonna check so I keep heading in and I have to go up concrete stairs to the slider and I get a full view and I see someone’s head – definitely a man

Creepy – can you please not do that

https://youtu.be/7YvAYIJSSZY

And then see ?? By myself

So whatever if you wanna see scars. But it’s really creepy all by myself

Don’t be creepy! That is very bad! I definitely do not like that.

Ok well whatever – so definitely not on married guy … ya know … funny thing… I thought to myself – watch this gonna be something shady – he from Sac… yup … I want zero entanglement in that.

And country boy … well he better figure out what he wants – cause I’m not playing around. You better state your purpose 

And military man … probably should be careful and keep distance … keep business …

We see who he is. But he just keeps being amazing

I pay him so… but he always gives me really cheap price or free – even with the quote today … he give me quote for repair and was already cheap … but I need time to budget …

So not only did he fix my fence to hold me over until he does repair – he refused to let me pay him… and then when I say ok I will start budgeting for it … and he says well I can maybe see where we can have be little cheaper lol

Well no… because I want to pay him what he worth… is ok for me to budget for it… you do not have to just do things for me… but that is very sweet. I appreciate … you take care of me… I’ll take care of you… so that’s all… his time, labor and help is worth something to me …so yes – let me pay you!!

So anyway careful… he drawing my attention

I think I am going to ask my alarm company to install cameras in backyard too. Yes I want full surveillance for my compound lol

But I seriously hear all kinds of things at night near my window and then that today – so yes – full surveillance please 🙌

Just because ya know? So whatever – safer

Ahhh moments you miss the middle of no where!!!

Ok well whatever … gonna crawl into bed. What day ugh Monday still – tmrw is Monday part 2

Alright – good night 🌙💤