To every season

I have a handful of people that I love very much with all my heart ❤️ – I trust them with my life, totally.

One of them, who is very dear to me. got diagnosed with MS today. 💔

So. 💔

He’s one of my confidants and an incredible friend 💔 … yes it’s a man but it’s different, just pure honest friendship – so am little crushed

Ya know, when I let people come close that thought enters my mind…

Because one way or another will hurt… they either hurt purposely or life takes them away from you 💔

So ya know – I think about loss a lot – duh ✌️ I see it every day. 💔

He’s younger than me by like 2 or 3 years. But he is a really smart and funny man. Many are intimidated by him 😄

I work with him at moment.

When I do the hiring … I have them meet ME first 😄😄😄…

I make you feel at ease and comfortable… I am gentle and instantly put people at ease… so technically I soften you up lol

Then I have them meet him 😄❤️ … if you can pass by him – you are golden! Lol

He’s always on his shit – knows everything … nothing gets by him and he’s very inquisitive. He’s really amazing … as a human being, he is phenomenal ❤️ you don’t find people of his caliber often

He’s not and never has been intimidating to me. we clicked right away.

He’s an amazing man. I tell him that all the time, just to be sure he knows 😉✌️

He means a lot to me because I can trust him, he is one of the few I truly trust. 💔

He battled cancer in his childhood ☹️… beat it by 17.

And now Multiple Sclerosis 💔☹️

I wish I could fix everything 💔

He makes me laugh a lot – he has incredible sense of humor that clicks with mine and we think the same.

I worry because he will slip away too… just like my mom. And to watch that is excruciating. 💔 especially when you care about them.

But is life and life happens for reasons … things that are meant to be occur … do for reason… something is meant by it.

A lesson or something? Or preparing you for

what’s to come? Or building you to be strong?

My lesson is probably to learn to control the bleeding heart thing. – no idea how to not feel that. Is life – so until I figure out – gonna keep making me go through it

So there was that today. 💔

He is very dear to me… some of my strength and healing is because of him.

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Anyway – let’s speak of something else because that keeps making me feel sad.

I looked at 2 places today… one was a house… the house was wicked cute… totally loved the house itself – but I did not like where it was and would not be ok location for daughter and work.

So I say no.

Then they took me to see another place … but we didn’t even go inside … it was awful right away and I just called them in their car and said “you don’t even have to show this one to me, it’s a no”

Did not like immediately … area/place etc – hated everything about it.

Anything you could HATE about a house – was that house… was awful. Total waste of time to even drive there. Nope. I didn’t even want to see inside. We didn’t stop.

I want to like and be at peace where I live… I didn’t like it and there was zero peace.

Work was fine

Funny how work is being chill… but life being all crazy. 🤨

Well at least work not being insane because I need balance somewhere.

Adulting kinda sucks sometimes.

I do not like this week.

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This is all part of life – but I just do not like the sadness or loss.

I guess you do need that though…

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I didn’t fall asleep at 6:30 because was a lot going on tonight 😮 I am fully exhausted 🥱 😴

There is a lot going on currently in my life 😮😮

Ok I have to sleep – I’m soooo exhausted!!

Gnite 😘❤️✌️