A connection 😮

Yay! Is Friday 🙌 oh thank god!

Everyone has been really high tension this week ☹️😑 it’s been really hard.

And trying to keep everyone working as team, is hard this week. I have a lot of A-type strong personalities.

Everyone just stressed.

Yesterday was my sisters birthday 🥳❤️… and also my cousin’s birthday (my dad and his brother had a child on same day, same year – 2 hrs apart) lol

It was also my grandfather’s birthday 🎂 … (he died a month after my dad) but I had 3 birthdays yesterday (still with my sister and my cousin ❤️)

Today was my dad’s birthday. 💔

But anyway… there is this woman who I have known maybe since January??

There is whole long story … I work with her. And since January I have gotten to know her

She is the bomb ❤️ she is so awesome and hilarious!!

Guess what? She is also from Massachusetts 😮😮😮😮😮

So we have same ?? I don’t know?? There is something… the way we each are, is very similar 😮

So I find her just hilarious!! Omg she is soooo funny! And we have same sense of humor… and recently it’s like we are two 16 yr old girls … omg

I’m really guarded and protective and I just keep quiet about my own self – I just work and do my own thing. I don’t really get close personally. I’m just cautious

Well evidently she is same too…

So whatever we joke around and laugh alot … we are both New England’ers so we have same wave length lol … we are very similar

She is way younger than me – although keeps saying how “old” she is 🤨😄

She is not even 40 yet 😄😄🙄

Anyway… yesterday I am talking to her and somehow the convo was more personal… and then as we shared things – things were sooooo similar in regards to our lives!! Omg

She is almost like my “person” twin 😮😮😮 …there is another one just like me 😮😮😮

And we just clicked 😮

She lost her best friend and her father few years back

She tell me she is just so tired of life taking everyone she loves away. I feel that too ☹️

So we have same experience with death.

Sometimes I feel like I am death angel – I kill plants 🌱… no matter how hard I try to keep alive … although I do have ONE aloe plant I have kept alive for 2 years!! ❤️ …but normally most plants die with me.

And then I have lost so many – that I am a little hesitant to let people in close, because I am afraid I will get close and then love them and then they will be taken away, and my heart will bleed. 💔😭🤫

So I just keep quiet and just work. Life will bring what I am supposed to have.

I’m just saying, I know death sits on my shoulder.

She is same. She has a lot of loss too 😮

And she also used to work at a school 😮

And she is from New England 😮 (sorta …half her family from New England and the other half from Hawaii 😮) – I am from New England too… and I want togo to Hawaii 😄😄

One big difference is the childhoods – mine was Norman Rockwell – traditional, happy loving, full of laughter

Hers was not – hers was hard and sad ☹️💔

But we have same demeanor, same humor … many many parallels!!

It’s almost eerie 😮😮 ok it actually is eerie…

And then we talk about what we wanted to be when grow up and it was the same 😮

We both wanted to be archeologist 😮😮 neither did that lol – but we both wanted that as a child lol

And then we speak of other things 😮

She has similar people like like my Satan! 😮

She is a younger copy of me 😮😮😮

She is sweet and kind and extremely hardworking and extremely driven ❤️ she also works her ass off – like I do. She made herself ❤️ just like I did… she is also a Phoenix 😮😮😮

She is amazing.

I just have not really shared personal things like that – I severely keep private personally … especially with what I went through

She is not in my office every day – but recently more and more and more

Because she likes it there and my office is awesome 🙌 most love being there 😉😘 we comforting and easy to fit with mostly

Well she’s been in my office all week and on Monday or Tuesday – in middle of day she walk by my desk and says I have to go …

But I see tears in her eyes 😮 so I just say ok goodbye… I know if is tears like that – she want to hide them… so I didn’t want to make her cry by asking.

So I just texted and asked if she ok?

She told me she just lost her dog of 15 years ☹️💔 she was balling

She is also guarded and kinda a loner like me 😮 or just protective keeping to self

As I am speaking with her yesterday – she has same type of abuse as I had from my ex… she went through that too

So that is why we so similar with being guarded and cautious 😮 neither one want to ever experience again

And then we were speaking of dating guys – and I said “eh… I never want to have that abuse again so I am careful and highly guarded!!

Also nowadays, people sleep around alot …so I always remember what they said when I was child… you sleep with everyone that they have ever slept with… and then I wanna sleep with no one!!

And I understand people sleep with people – and that’s fine… but people way too over my head today – I am not that fast and if you don’t have my “mind” … then you don’t get far.

You can try all the fricken attraction moves or eyes – whatever – I ignore … I handle my own self …so I don’t need shit unless someone amazing 😘✌️… I am not going through bullshit and crap again – oh hell no!!!

She has EXACTLY same mind frame with things there 😮😮😮😮

It’s just interesting how similar and how it formed ? The caution and things.

As more and more is same, I see things

She just made me feel 16 yesterday – we laughed like school girls 😮 I haven’t felt like that in long time 😮 I’ve been quiet so long.

We both have high pressure but the laughter helps … I was just surprised we so similar

Off subject and then I have to run… I have a really strong opinion on something – really strong!!

It’s a National story over here.

I don’t want to say just yet – because I am composing my thoughts – and I am not sure I want to speak on it – but then the pull of what it is… I want to speak? I am sensitive with it.

I’m not sure I want to say what I want to say because it’s going to be severe

So we see. I will think

Well anyway I have to go… back to work. ✌️😘

Ps… I feel like I am coming of age ?? But I am old lol – just learning and seeing many lessons recently.