Decent day- crazy busy!!

So I have been thinking about CB… I have some thoughts on that…

Ok … so … I don’t think he is right … and sure … if he wants the label “friend” sure.

And he will always be someone special to me… always.

But I am having a really hard time with that statement “no feelings” – that’s not me at all.

And I do feel for and care for my friends… I will feel. So …

He IS amazing… and he treats me really sweet …

I am hung up on his “no feelings” … so.

I can’t have that in my life.

So that is hard for me. He is special to me, and I still like him… but I don’t want him in my life? 😮

Sure I can be friend … but he lives far away… we never see each other… we are both busy … so ??? What?? Just be like “heeeeyyy, s’up?” 🙄

See, that would require “feelings and caring” so?? 🤷‍♀️

What would be the point?

I see no point to life without feelings and caring. 😮 cause then ok … I don’t have to care about it then and I will avoid – it puts him in that category 😮 … so how be friends?

I just can’t get past those words.

So whatever – he liked Trump anyway ✌️😘

He wants to stay in my life – but I don’t know if I can do that??

I feel like I can’t – I feel like I just wanna walk away 😮😮 I really do!

It’s sooooo weird… I really like him… but then at that very same time – I don’t want him in my life now? Just that flipped a switch 😮😮

NEVER EVER tell me that lol

I want away from him with that … so whatever – he can be friend – but for what reason? He is not a part of my life really…

Stop saying wanna see me

I don’t understand

I just don’t want anyone close in my life who can’t feel …

But that’s his choice so ok. I will try not to completely ice out but I do that. I just go silent – because I know I don’t want it in my life. 😮

He doesn’t want me to do that but then how do I not? It just does …especially with that ✌️

He’s been trying to stop me from going silent on him since my surgery. I like him. He sweet and kind and gentle but again no feelings – so that just shut it all right down. 😮 I can’t process… so it can’t be close to me and I do not actually want that in my life at all.

I have too much in my life for something with no feelings … I just don’t have time for that

And I don’t understand it either – so whatever – I like silence anyway 😘✌️

Without feelings – I don’t even want him to be my friend 😮😮

That is like total repel lol

Lol … so yeah don’t come around me with that no feelings crap ✌️ … I’m sorry … I just can’t

And if he can’t get past his “whatever it is” – then ok.

Anyway. My meetings both went well …

With yesterday’s meeting – quick synopsis – I am no longer the phantom that people have not met lol …

I really really enjoyed that!! ❤️ I loved being unknown ❤️ …

,.. but now they all know me lol 🙄 … the fun is over 🤨 … they only knew or heard my name – but not many meet me until yesterday lol

They were like: 😱 she does exist lol 😄

I got a lot of info and perspective

Also… 😳 I am taking on another location. 😮 … one just lost office manager …So I will help until they find new – that better be quick!!

Today’s meeting also went well.

I was nervous but went really good!! My people are still happy and safe … we are going to try something 🙌

So… it was good day. Also very beautiful!!

By weekend we will be back in the 100’s 😩

Ugh 🤦‍♀️

Ok … more heat 🥵

I can’t stay… I have to do some paper work on house before bed

Tmrw is Thursday so almost Friday ❤️ week is almost over 🙌

I will be back soon 🔜

Good night 😘💤🌙😴❤️

Ps… I’m sooo tired!! My sleep is lacking this week!! 😮