Balancing

It’s gone well today – tmrw I need a FLEET of flower vans …all day day long flowers delivered to funeral home AND cemetery!! 😮 is flower wonderland 😮😮😮 whoa!!

It’s a heart wrenching case that made my heart bleed today … most of the time I can keep those emotions in check… and with coworkers – we balance each other ❤️

But there are some that just hit you just the right way and you get that lump and eyes tear up … I could feel my heart just bleed right there with her!!

All I could think in my mind – is holding him and that love you feel when you bring them into the world – you just see their faces

The one time – I loved someone before I met them ❤️ well 3 times lol ❤️

But my mind shot to that.

And then their lives – being their mom – how much I love them… how much they mean to me… how life would be without them there

And to give them life and to have it taken away before you 💔💔💔 that life span you made left before you

Not supposed to happen. 💔

So my heart just shattered for her.

And if you ever see my eyes tear up – never speak to me – I will burst into tears – so if you see signs of tears – do not speak to me, wait til they go away. ✌️

That one really hit me hard!!

If I have to make a motion or a sound – it’s all over – do not look or acknowledge the sadness lol … don’t speak to me at that moment and then we good lol ✌️

I could imagine MY sons, and how my heart would just shatter… I don’t know if I could handle that??? To lose a child? I don’t think I would be that strong. I would crumble under that. 💔 you just don’t know how you would handle until it is presented in front of you.

She was like me… she wanted to be by herself with her child. (Who wasn’t actually a child – but my kids are still and always will be “my child” – even when they 50 or 100)

She wanted no one with her – just to take by herself 💔 her with her child.

Yeah my heart just aches for the family 💔

Alright well let’s balance ✌️ … cause life is balance of extreme heartache with loss like that… but then on the flip side – you have life.

And life is going to happen – you do not get a decision in that. If you take care of self, remember to laugh and be kind – you will be better off

So… like I said let’s balance the sadness. That is because there is emotions attached to things – emotions are sorta good – I just don’t like anger ✌️

So let’s switch subjects …

I have a hilarious bunny 🐰 story 😄😄❤️

Ok so my location is in a neighborhood kinda lol … beautiful one ❤️ old old old

Crappy building whatever – we have a home 🏠 right next to us – two guys who remind us EXACTLY of the odd couple – they are not gay 😄😄 but they are hilarious lol they are odd

One is a talker – one is shy lol

About a month ago, a bunny rabbit showed up in their yard so they looked for owners but no one came forward so they said to us – does anyone want a bunny?

One of my girls offered to take it. So they say ok – she researches (no wonder I love my girl’s …so much …because she went all in learning how to be a rabbit owner!! 😮❤️❤️ that is how you should!!! Make sure you can handle.) she is excited

Every day they tell me when I get to work – oh bunny is missing “oh no” lol

And the whole thing really odd

Today I got to work and I see their door wide open – well that is not unusual for them. I gather my purse and bag and shut the car door and I hear “hi trisha” 😳

Hello… and then they like bunny gone blah blah blah

Same as every day lol

But then later they excitedly tell me bunny is back 😄😄 every single day these same convos and events happen – like I am living in Groundhog Day lol… I know how my morning will start 😄😄✌️

And then they tell my girl – well ya know we don’t know ? And they got kinda attached blah blah blah

One doesn’t want the rabbit – and one does lol 😄😄

And my girl is like “ if they want the rabbit then just say that” lol

Are they afraid to hurt her feelings?

But the way they say and do is funny but also odd 😄

They also do not remember conversations sometimes lol but whatever – they good neighbors

It’s just really funny.

I ran an errand yesterday for the funeral home – and while at grocery store – I hear “Trisha? Hey Trisha!“ 😳😳

😄😄 …so I look and it is one of them – they are nice guys lol – they are odd with a funny twist.

Good people.

And then on way to work I heard about this concert of music from my growing up years…

But I mixed it all up when I told them … I said Men Down Under

By accident totally

Way messed it up

They like what are you watching lol

No no lol

It’s Men without hats 😄😄

I LOVE this song ❤️

And guess who the headliner is?! Flock of Seagulls lol

❤️and this is where my music entered way back when lol …

I have never been to a concert – except my children’s concerts (two were in band – oldest and daughter – oldest was in a symphony for little while) ❤️ so if that counts then yes – but that is the only concerts I have ever been to.

I wanted to go to a concert when I was a teenager but my mom warned me because of THIS concert… 🤨…

So ok … I’m good. And then I was a mother very young. My interest was my children not concerts

But eh… I don’t think that is really my speed anyway? I do not like really large crowds – even before covid.

I love music – by my way ❤️

This was the concert I wanted as a teen : lol …

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Oh the things you look back on and laugh about ❤️❤️

And ya know- the public was hard on Milli Vanilli … look what we make famous NOW!! – they did a good show… they took slack for lying, but didn’t get credit for how much we loved & had enjoyed them anyway – whoopie do they didn’t sing it – so what?

Always think of them with their songs – it was part of my childhood – they instantly flash me back to 15 lol 😮😳😄✌️

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Life is memories and moments – smells, songs and things… can bring you to a memory within a lifetime ❤️✌️

When I smell cigars –

I think of my grandfather ❤️❤️

Anyway… see balance – there was heartache and balanced with funniness – and memories … see how that helps?

And memories make you smile to have had those moments ❤️ you have to cherish things always

Balance 🙌 find your balance 😘✌️

Alright – so I’m gonna read for little while – gnite 😘❤️✌️