Moral stuff ??

I have a moral question? But I am not sure how to ask it yet. So just be prepared because I will ask ✌️

It’s a sensitive heart ridden subject?

And I am not clear with my thoughts on it yet.

On one hand I have severe loyalty and love – but on the other hand my heart bleeds with it… so I am trying to decide how I want that in my life

Not an easy decision. I am quiet because I am thinking.

I feel really strongly… if you are not in my life strongly, like you wanna be there … then there’s the door 🚪 don’t let it hit you on the way out

I have a really hard time with that one. I feel that way very strongly… you either wanna be there or you don’t.

I ride that hard ✌️

So … my moral question won’t be easy.

When I had cancer – not only did the doctor tell me I had to give up my life, but he also said he wanted all toxic people out and anything causing me stress

Ok well… there really is not a way to not have some of that?

I do keep most toxic people out – but what if one is family ? What do you do?

What if your own love and loyalty is strong.. do you allow the toxicity?

So I have a danger point… it rides those lines – you either wanna be there or you don’t…

At what point is it not ok? At what point do you say?

What if who this person is means something to you? Deeply? What if to turn your back would break your own heart? Would you do it?

If was just any other person – this person would not be in my life …

They are there because I love them with all my heart

Is only who they are to me and how much I love them, that I cling to them and allow it

So… my moral question is gonna be around this.

I guess, I can sorta silently ask?

Do I break my heart to save my soul? Bleh! Lol … is that my constant lesson?

But it does break my heart and it is heavy and I don’t like being silent within my inside private world. I can not have that collapse so…

I don’t know quite how to think of this or how to handle.

You can not just give me quick easy answer / please remember this is someone I love very much and is someone I am loyal to and I wish to not lose this person.

But is toxic to me. So it is hard for me to keep my mouth shut. I do most of time, out of respect, but when they cross a line, I don’t.

So… how do you handle that?

It is not cut and dry easy. This will ripple the lives

I love this person – but I don’t know if I can keep them in my life? Today I told them “if you don’t wanna be in my life, then don’t.” Bye 👋

That is my danger area – if you hit that spot that is dangerous

I am not sure what exactly I want to ask? I don’t want to lose them, but at the same time I don’t know that I am ok with them in my life??? So that makes my heart bleed! 🩸

I have to do a few things but I will be back this afternoon to read ❤️

Little silent or a lot ✌️