Thanksgiving Eve

So … wow. Where to begin?

Well… let’s first start with work… good day… was at my first favorite all day.

I got to be with the new kid lol… I am not the new person anymore lol ❤️ woo hoo!

He is cool… he’s young… he asks questions lol – he’s very friendly – good kid

Has a couple slight quirks lol 😄✌️ but eh whatever

The first thing is… if I speak to him – he comes close to me 😳 we masked but I still want distance

It’s not a big deal because he is not doing in a creepy/bad way… I think that is just how he is? I will say something if it becomes too much – but it’s fine for now and I am careful with covid anyway

And then the other thing? lol… ok my close friends all know my schedule – they usually do not text me during daytime – unless making me laugh or telling me info. But that’s not usually during day (they don’t like when I answer my own phone with the funeral home lol)

During the day… everyone who texts or calls my cell phone … they are ALL funeral people 😄

As a matter of fact I have to text my guy friend about something funny lol – I will do that later

Anyway… my phone for work – goes off alot during the daytime.

Every single time my phone went off – he is like “oooohhh who’s calling your phone?” “Who wants to talk to you?” 😳🤨😄

I’m like “what? No one.. just these people” lol

But he asked every time

And he’s like “what no one special?”

Uhhh nope lol

He acted like that was just unheard of ??

I’m like “well what about you?” cause he had just finished telling me some story about how he dates but doesn’t like anyone lol

I just don’t even bother with it yet. I have not actually opened that door. I’m a little nervous to actually open that door. And I don’t really know how, so whatever – I am busy currently? Let me have it settle down before I take anything like that on.

But then I suppose you really do not get to decide when things will happen so whatever ✌️ what will be, will be …if it is meant to be

Anyway… cute kid… very young lol … but boy is he excited about his job!! He is going to do really well!! He is very happy also! Lol

He is younger than my oldest.

I learned how to do something today. ❤️ Did a new thing all on my own with a contract and financials!! 😊❤️

And then… there is something. Not a big deal… just an observation with something.

There is a woman who has recently come into my life and I’ve been getting to know her very slowly. The more I know her – the more I see me 15 years ago! All of it… I just see me.

I don’t know if is exactly like me? Hopefully not. 🙏

But the more I get to know her and learn about her – the more I see my own spirit and myself … but from like 15 years ago… it is weird.

I already had a connection with her right off the top meeting her… was like one of those people you instantly click with?? That’s harder as adults but it was there and we clicked

And then… I learn things slowly and we are not like close close or anything…

She has the exact same EXACT SAME birthday as I do – just her year is different

It’s really weird!!!

Clicked right away

She reminds me of me

We have the same birthday (diff year)

It’s very much like watching myself?? It’s really weird!!

Well whatever – it blows my mind sometimes 😮 it’s just really weird!!

www.youtube.com/watch

Ok and then LASTLY (?) … I am somewhat new to having new boobs so …

I just have like 4 of the exact same bra that I had for after surgery. I just always use that.

I hurt a lot. I just have always since the surgery. I have really bad nerve damage on that right side. Down my arm, under my arm, up the side of my neck and that entire right side chest area

The left is ok… but the right was always the bad side.

So I just keep that original bra cause is what they had me wear and what I know…

I have 4 of them to change out.

I don’t really know these breasts? I just kinda ??? I try not to pay attention to them – like it was before – but they just cause so much attention always everywhere, with everything! 🤨

Whatever

I have gift certificates to Victoria’s Secret … because people gave me that stuff because it was boobs ✌️ I would need new stuff – I never used them because I don’t know what to buy or what to do with these!! I’m so lost where to even begin with these because they are just different.

I would have to just go to Victoria’s Secret and take my shirt off and be like ok – figure it out for me lol

I had breasts before but I was a skinny girl so – I never had issues with breasts or bras before – was just never a problem… not a problem for me… I never paid any mind. They were normal – I grew into them

These new ones are weird. I just don’t really understand how to “handle” them?? I am thankful for them… I like them… I just don’t know them well yet. Haven’t really taken them outta the box so to speak lol

Right after surgery… someone gave me a black lacy really beautiful bra …

Well who I gonna wear that for? Lol … and where I gonna wear that? Lol

Is a bralette type? Really pretty – I have just never put it on

I wore it today 😮

OMG – a bra makes a HUGE difference!!! Maybe kind, size, type… all of it.

I felt so comfortable!! I didn’t hurt as badly ❤️❤️❤️

I didn’t know a bra would make THAT big of a difference cause OMG!!! Usually I ache in pain!! I did not ache in pain like normal today or even right now 😮😮

(Also… my shirt was not sitting that way today… it goes up higher but I was getting ready to change)

Alright 🤨 I just don’t want to have to deal with boobs … and now I have to SHOP for boobs

I will put it off for right now because – I just don’t want to!!!

But I will say – wow!!! Hardly any pain!! Not at all like it normally is!! ❤️

So I have that black one… I might just need to get a few 🤨 because I really liked not being in pain … but let’s see how long I can push that? 😳🙏 I just don’t want to do that right now.

I would rather just not now. I will… and I might break down and just do it. 🤨 but I would rather wait –

I am also not really ready for “that”?? I haven’t gotten that far yet. I have been avoiding 😘✌️

I just had not tried anything else than what I had been using – is what they tell me to wear

I am not in as much pain as I usually am at night ❤️

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Alright I have to respond – the run because I have to line everything up tonight so that tmrw runs seamless …

I work in morning until noon… come home, cook, have dinner clean and chill or whatever she wanna do

I have to lay out all the ingredients and have everything ready to go pop pop pop.

I also can wear anything I want tmrw so… I want to have that all laid out and ready to go

So yeah I have to make sure all things are ready to go.

If not – oh well. But I would like it to 🙏

We aren’t going anywhere and no one coming over lol … I just want it smooth for me lol ✌️(am still giving daughter thanksgiving ❤️) and mini one Friday for boys .

Anyway…

Happy Thanksgiving 😘❤️ I am thankful for “you” ❤️ and I am thankful to be alive ❤️✌️

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