We are going to be doing this in stages. It’s too hot. I can feel my heartbeat through my skin 😮
104 🥵 cooking me!!
We gonna finish in a little while, need break from the heat. That sun is just beaming down!! All week will be this way 😳🔥
My weather apps all tell me we going to be setting record breaking heat this week… BUT on the weekend we fall back down to the 70’s 😳😮??? So that’s um different lol … what the hell California, make up your mind – are we in summer or not?
Later on …after we finish today – we might go to neighbors to go in pool for little while? We see? I didn’t get suits yet so my daughter will have to use one of mine and I will have to take the one she doesn’t pick – both pop me out too much but whatever is just the neighbors house – not a big deal.
My girlfriend called a few minutes ago … yesterday after eating we took a walk… some neighbor of hers saw us walking and called her to ask all kinds of questions about me today 🤨
She said he wants to know if I be interested possibly? 🤨
I don’t know this person at all – I don’t even know what they look like 😮 I know nothing about him… zip zero zilch
She knows how I am… she coulda just told him no…
She does not understand why I don’t want to date or why I am so protective. It’s just the way I am ok with, so she doesn’t have to understand it or like it.
I want to know a person and who they are first. I also feel is important they see who I am too. Attraction is not the only thing! If blinded just by that – there’s nothing there ✌️
I move slow and cautiously. And I still go through a lot of stuff… so that’s gonna be a solid no.
I know I am very hard in this area… I know that. I just need that hardness right now to feel secure and at peace? I really don’t feel secure trying to date anyone at this moment??
I told her to tell him no… thank you but not currently dating.
She called me back to tell me she told him no and then explained to him I am Pollyanna 🤨… a Pollyanna is someone who is all sweet and innocent – she felt it needed that explanation 🤨
Whatever … she can say or think or label whatever she wants … I was married forever, and I don’t feel like dating because that was rough and still is… that was/is hard to go through… I’m not doing that again. It’s gonna be what I want or nothing.
And another thing… she likes to talk about sex 🤨… I am very private in general … and with sex Oh my god! Only the person I choose to do that with, will know anything about that with me.
She however will speak very freely with it 😮 … ok ya know… not having that over here – so let’s not always talk about it lol
I am just busy handling things anyway. I have a lot going on.
I am very opposite of her which is why she calls me a Pollyanna and also because I always avoid men? She just doesn’t get it.
She won’t – cause it’s not her experience… she can hear my story, but to her it is not what she is familiar with, so she is not seeing through my eyes.
She is fearless with many things… where I have fear – she is fearless… where she has fear – I am fearless
But whew boy… the things she says lol … she pushes for me to just give someone a chance – but I’m just doing my thing right now though and I feel like those pieces will come together when they are meant to, if they are meant to.
I’m not in a rush at all!!! Why is this such a thing???
To her is a big deal… to me it is not …other than when she brings it up! But whatever
I believe we gonna do some more work … ugh is like hottest part of day right now!! I can still feel my heartbeat in my skin 😮
Maybe I will get wet in shower really quick before going back out… I think I’m gonna do that cause that sounds really good lol ✌️
This weekend I will be telling you it’s cold 😄😄✌️ fricken weather