Sweetheart?

Country boy texted me again 🤨 … I don’t get it.

He says “hey sweetheart, how have you been?” 🤨

He plays baseball, he’s fit, he’s hot, he’s got money etc etc… he has zero issues with finding another woman. Women literally drop for him.

So why bother with me?? What’s the deal? Not a challenge 🤨… am also NOT challenge’ING!!

He acts like he wants to be in my life? But he doesn’t, so what’s the deal? He’s not getting sex – sorry – that’s gonna be a no.

And again ..we do not want same things. What’s the point? Go be happy and do your own thing – live your best life

He has a saving grace though… he was a really good friend to me when I really needed one… he helped teach me how to handle a issue, he took my mind away when I was really overwhelmed – he was a really good friend. I am eternally thankful for that? He always seems to pop up when things happen in my life

I do have compassion towards him… I appreciate the friendship he gave me when I needed that. If he needs just a friend, I can do that.

He lives a little far from me, so I will still have distance – I don’t ever see him… so if he needs just a friend, I suppose that wouldn’t be a problem.

I am not sure what he expects or wants. I have a lot on my plate right now, I don’t want or need added pressure so ?? I will say hello, but I’m not the girl – if need a friend, ok I could maybe do that

I don’t do this yo-yo shit. You either in my life or not… I don’t read minds, I don’t pick up hints very well lol

I don’t understand him (he is a redneck baseball player who likes to hunt and fish) I only know the way he is with me, but I don’t know his type. (I don’t know any types actually)

But I guess I can say hello back.

I just usually keep my life really quiet. I don’t date – I avoid all that … or try to 🤨 … he knows that. I’ve been like that since he met me. That’s not a secret, everyone knows that.

As matter of fact, my girlfriends wanted me to come out for pizza today… umm yeah – not today.

We just reopening and also… my face is puffy cause I may have been crying lol … didn’t really feel like going out for pizza.

They get on me all the time cause I won’t do social media, I won’t come out… even before I wouldn’t … what does it matter ?? I just like my peace.

They think I’m sad or something… no, I dunno ? I don’t think so?? Lol … I feel happy with peace? Is this a bad thing? Lol cause I kinda feel like it’s not ✌️

I think they understand though. They still there and they still ask ❤️

I just need the peace from stuff. It’s been a lot… and I do kinda feel like I am out of my element? And I go through a lot… So I just like the peace?

If he needs a friend I can do that. If anything else, we have already gone over that – I can’t do that again.