Just remembering

I got up this morning to find my daughter on the couch lol …

Awww… I remember as a kid doing that, my dad would pick me up and bring me to bed. My mom couldn’t lift and would have dropped me… so my dad always did that lol

I definitely can’t lift my daughter now… I remember when she was little I could. But not now that she’s big, and I’ve had the surgeries… there is no way I could lift her now – I can’t even pick up her school backpack! 🎒

I went to bed before her last night… usually I always do anyway… I can’t stay up like these kids can!! She was watching some movie last night. I covered her when I woke up. She is still asleep

I’m not working today. Sunday’s only now. So no window to the world today. Tmrw though ❤️

I was watering my strawberry sprouts that yes!!! Are still alive!! I’ve been able to keep them alive … woo hoo!!

But I don’t know for how long or if I am doing it right?

I have 2 sprouts… I had 3 but I accidentally killed one 😮☹️ … I went to water them and the water bent that one down and it died. I learned better watering procedures since that happened.

The two I still have… one is doing amazing and just growing really good! The other one is my runt lol… still doing good but slower and smaller lol

It’s probably because it’s right up on side of pot so as I turn the pot from time to time, maybe it’s the lack of sunlight? I’m not sure … the larger one just takes off … the small one just grows slow and steady

The small one was my first sprout so I want it to keep going!! C’mon little sprout!!

I went to water them this morning and there are tiny little bugs ? Flying ? Really tiny and I only saw 3 … but I don’t know what they are? My house is clean, I don’t have any bugs or spiders or anything else currently? What are these things?? Kinda like umm fruit flies?

What are they? Can I stop them? Don’t hurt my plants!! Lol … I don’t have to put outside do I?? I like having them on my window sill. They like the sun there too.

I just don’t want bugs in them… ahhh my plants! Please don’t hurt them!! Finally I am growing plants… and I’m also really excited to maybe one day have a strawberry 🍓 lol … it’s really slow going lol

If I can keep them alive, it’s still going to be a very long time. 🤨😄 … but I think strawberries are worth it! I love strawberries!

When I was a kid, we lived in Maine for a little while… right before school started we would go blueberry picking … they have farms you can go to and they used to let you go out into the field and pick fresh blueberries ❤️ ohhhh I loved picking berries ❤️ and yum – also love blueberries

My Lithuanian great grandmother would come visit us up in Maine … she was only living a few hours away in Massachusetts… so her and my grandparents would drive up…

In Maine, we lived in the deep dark forest lol … when I go visit now I call it the scary forest cause I swear something is watching you lol … you hear things in the woods 😮

Anyway, my great grandmother and I would take walks in the forest… she would be hunting for mushrooms 🍄 … she always knew what berries or mushrooms were ok to eat, and what wasn’t … I still don’t know… but I remember being amazed how she did. But I guess she was raised to know that coming from Lithuania? Quite the skill to know wild things like that. That always impressed me.

She was really elderly when I was little… she used to walk with a walking stick. Every time they came to visit, I would get to go out with my grandfather and go find her a good sturdy walking stick ❤️

She would use that and then set it there by the door. When they would leave my mom always wanted to put the stick back outside – but I always wanted to save them because she used them lol … you can’t throw that outside Nana used that! Lol

I would take them and hide them in the closet 😄😄❤️ for when nana came back… they were always missing when she returned, but I also loved hunting for the perfect stick for her ❤️

I got a text late last night from someone I used to take care of.

Before I had cancer… I had my golf course job… but then I used to also take care of a few people (not for money, just because)

I used to take care of a woman who had cancer, I would help clean her house, cook meals, bring her to hosp, chemo, and just spend time with her.

Her kids just abandoned her so, ya know… you can’t go through that without someone… so that was me… I enjoyed my visits very much. She died though 😢

I also took care of this catholic man… I knew him and his family for years… is family friends…

He’s not married, no kids, but is elderly … he is very heavy, doesn’t have good mobility because of that… he is a hoarder…

Well they tried to get workers to come in and help him, and he would let them – but then he would get angry and fire everyone… he couldn’t keep someone more than a few months … he’s very unique. Quite the character …

Well the family couldn’t get anyone because he kept firing everybody – so I said let me try?

He let me… he likes me because I don’t judge him like everyone else does. I understand him. I am also quick and organized, plus pretty funny…

He doesn’t get to laugh a lot, but I would make him laugh all the time.

I organized his house for him, although he keeps adding 🤨 so I would leave and come back the following week to amazon boxes 🤨 … umm what’s this? Lol was funny – I used to tease him

He used to be a clock maker… so he has all kinds of clock parts and really cool things!!

He also collects umm?? Antiques? But the most beautiful antiques or most attention grabbing – I love history though so some of his stuff just took my breath away!! He needs a museum lol

I liked to listen to his stories about his family – I know his parents (his father died but the mom is still alive – in her 80’s) and I know all his brothers and sisters (there are 6 of them)

I like to hear those stories because they were also raised Catholic … heavy heavy Catholic – like me (I am not heavy heavy Catholic anymore – I keep my catholic parts to myself – and I don’t take all of it with me either)

But he has some really funny memories with that, and I know Catholic things so I can relate – and there is a small feeling of home with that?

I also like the stories because they are funny – and again I know all his brothers and sisters 😄😄 so just funny to hear.

I sometimes would have to nag him teasingly of course… but I tried to get him eating healthier because he was having medical issues – yet still wants to eat like a king lol 😄✌️

So I tried making him a meal plan with things he loved but would be healthy for him… nope never worked lol

It would only work when I was over there and I cooked lol … but otherwise I would come back over and he’d have made some casserole that was not good for his conditions lol … he is a creature of habit – set in his ways … I think he only ate for me, because he never seemed to want to disappoint me? Lol

He liked me cause I am quirky like him, I get him. I understand him and I don’t judge him. He never fired me… I helped him for a few years…

Then ya know, I got sick. I still tried to keep it up … but my doctor was pressuring me to stop everything – I was just fighting that… until I no longer could. Then I had to stop.

Once the surgeries started I had to give up everything. So that was it.

He lives far… I used to be over that way more. He was always a good supportive friend and listened to my stories too.

He used to be really excited to hear all my new stories lol ❤️

The first hour I would be there, we would have coffee and I would tell him all about my week – we would laugh… he would sit there so intrigued with the stories lol – he never left the house … he was a shut in… still is.

I haven’t talked to him in awhile. I was checking on him from time to time – but I was not able to help for quite some time now and he was going through some stuff with his house and family.

He texted me last night, so I have to call him today. I miss him. He sounded umm?? I dunno? Very lonely? in the text message … texts are hard to read emotions with but he just sounds ?? I dunno? Sad or lonely? He misses me.

They made him take another worker right after I got sick… that worker lasted 3 weeks lol

I never helped him for money, always just enjoyed the company and the connection. He understood me too. Sometimes you just do that for people … his family has always been there for me… so I do for them.

Anyway… will be nice to catch up ❤️✌️

So that’s it I guess. For now. Not a whole lot going on… weird being home on Saturday … that’s how I keep track of my days … with the weekend, kinda messes me up a little – I am slow moving today??

Alright – I’m off to find stuff to do. ✌️