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I’m quiet today? Just in thought. Bleh!!

Beautiful day out – it’s gonna be hot. ☀️ … there is a gentle breeze blowing … enough to whip my hair around without being in a ponytail. So gentle but blowing…

As the day heats up, it will be a hot breeze lol … surround me in that heat ❤️

I say that now … cause we aren’t going over 100 just yet 😄😄 … it is perfect just right now ❤️

But kinda quiet for the most part?? Just a lot on my mind.

I want to umm?? escape in something? Mindwise?

Usually I can escape into music if I can find the right song?

I am drawing blanks on what songs lately?? Which is highly unusual? I never draw blanks with music? But my mind is like a million miles away so ??

Whatever… it will pass. Just being a weirdo.

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I love that song ❤️ but it makes me miss and think too much. I don’t want to feel that right now…

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This one helps a tiny little bit… cause I remember it from my childhood. Oh yup … that song did it…

When I was a kid… I the best most incredible mom ever ❤️ my mom was the most loving and gentle person ever – also very hilarious ❤️ lighthearted

She always made sure you were taken care of and felt loved ❤️ … and she made you laugh ❤️ … best mom ever ❤️

When I would be sick… she would always bring me toast or crackers (like saltines) and ginger ale … when I wouldn’t eat, you would know I was feeling better if I ate that.

She would cover me, check on me, put a cold face cloth on my forehead, make sure I took my meds, she would sit with me… I loved those moments ❤️

Sometimes I would be too sick- I could barely open my eyes… she would sit next to me and rub my back or push my hair back and just keep saying it will be ok. It always felt like because she said that it would be. And it was. ❤️

That song reminds me of that ❤️

But then that makes me miss my mom… 🤨 so took my mind away but made me cry cause I miss her – wtf

My mom has Alzheimer’s

She is in a nursing home that has been completely shut down – no visitors in and out – period.

I talk to her … but ya know – I just miss her… I miss my mom 😢😭

So that didn’t work… that made me cry… now I have to find something …

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This definitely did it… ❤️…

That song by the Black Eyed Peas reminds me of video games lol ✌️❤️ … I cant remember what game it was … I wanna say Sims? ♦️ (my Sim was always exhausted 😄😄✌️)

Anyway… I think of video games ❤️ or maybe was that dance dance revolution? Lol 😄✌️ the kids and I had fun doing that for a little while. Boy did I love that ❤️😄

I used to be a huge gamer … now I just like to watch. You guys went all elaborate and over my head lol… some games I love … I have a type I will play… but anyway… I leaning off subject … yay took my mind ❤️

Also… because I was a gamer since fricken pong 🤟 I miss you Radio Shack!!! Lol

And then Atari ❤️ … Nintendo… PlayStation… Xbox … yeah full love of video games … I like to watch my kids play ❤️ occasionally I will moan and groan because I just wanna watch.

You controls are … “I have to push what? What am I doing?” Lol I play though … if they can get me to play a competitive game … I don’t like to lose and one child in particular wins every single time!! So much so… that your dreams of ever winning again are zilch lol 😄✌️

When that child asks to play something – all of us moan lol… cause we never win… ever … we get slaughtered by that one kid lol

That would be my oldest lol… he will be 26 😮 Oh my god! I have a man child 😳😮 that just blows my mind every time I think of that… whoa 😮 … I made that ❤️✌️

Anyway… maybe I should mention – his very first ever memory he says…

Is laying in his crib and hearing the Mortal Combat theme song … when he hears that theme song he thinks of being in his crib all those years ago 😄😄😄

Oh ok that makes me laugh 😄❤️ ok … and that my friends – is a look inside my mind lol … or how works anyway… whatever

I do have a million things on my mind though. 🤔 bleh.

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I’m sorry – but that’s just funny 😄❤️❤️❤️